In the hazy room, steady sunlight shines in from the small window.
“···”
You Ye got off Su Yao in silence and sat blankly aside, like a porcelain doll that had lost its color.
"ha···"
Su Yao looked at her with hateful eyes, "You don't know. You will never understand this feeling."
"No one cares, everything is buried deep in their hearts."
"Even if I tell someone, it will end badly in an instant. In the end, I will have to bear it myself."
"How many times do you think I have to go through this before I make this decision?"
"Do you know how I felt when I sent Xia Xianyue away?"
"Yes, it is true that you are independent and smart. You are many times more advanced than a stupid human like me, right? As a living being."
"That's why it's like this. You are selfish and have no care to tie me here. Let me ask you, what is the meaning of this?"
“···”
You Ye remained silent and did not answer.
"You can't tell, right?"
"Okay, let me tell you for you."
"Because you are arrogant. You think you can solve it as easily as usual this time. You think there is nothing you can't do in this world."
"You are completely unable to understand what I have gone through, and you are completely unable to understand the decisions I have made. You look down on me."
"That's normal, because you are stronger than me. You can easily do things that I can't do. It's even thanks to you that she and I can live safely until now."
"But think about it on the other hand, what would happen without you?"
"Not having you means that I won't encounter troubles that ordinary people won't encounter, and I won't have to wander around Crescent Island at all."
"Xia Xianyue will be killed, and I can avoid it myself."
"How awesome it is to be able to turn back time. How satisfying it would be to be able to load files and play life as a game?"
"But I already knew it the first time I almost couldn't change something bad."
"Weakness and ignorance are never obstacles to survival, arrogance is."
"So after that I was cautious. I never felt like I was special."
"But even so, bad things still happen."
"It's okay to say that everything has changed and everything is back on track."
"But can you really feel how I felt when I shot and killed the mother and son in court?"
"Do you know what choices I made later?"
"Of course you wouldn't know. How could I go out of my way to say such a thing."
"call--"
Su Yao took a deep breath and said, "At that time, I thought I had the opportunity to refuse the love game and give up the opportunity to start a new life."
"I was probably crazy by then."
"But I couldn't die. I was forced to go back."
"I'm slowly getting back on track again. I see things are getting better, but you have problems again."
"If there is a problem, it doesn't matter. After all, I still have the motivation to solve it."
"Since I was willing to meet Xia Xianyue, I never thought of giving up on you. But what did you do?"
"Even though I didn't know if you knew me at that time, I still came here without fear of death."
"Seeing that things seem to be turning around, you have your own opinions. I wasted critical time without any preparation. When I go back, it will be too late for many things."
"But even so, I still haven't given up."
"I think the worst case scenario is that I'll persuade you to live in a strange place with me. I'll always find a way."
"You know? I don't want to die, and I don't want to leave my life to that kind of inexplicable and strange game."
"And how did you do it?"
"It's so simple."
"Who doesn't want to be a good person? If you die in front of me, people will mistakenly think that I surrender to you, and let you explode and bloom some kind of healing flower."
"There was no room for me to speak."
"What a disgusting decision. What if I really want to stay there and be a hero as you said? Should I say that a person like me is so heartless and unjust that I am not even willing to die for you?"
"But you are obviously sure that people like me will definitely come back. Taking advantage of this, you cover up everything you have done before and pretend that nothing happened."
"Yes, I can indeed come back."
"I also paid a price for it. How funny is it? I paid a heavy price to come back and ended up being tied up here."
"You can do whatever you want. Just keep tying me up like this. It'll be fast anyway. Anyway, Xia Xianyue won't come back no matter how I recycle it."
"The only thing that can wait now is for me to be driven crazy by you after so many cycles."
“···”
Youye's little hands rested on her thighs, her head lowered.
At this moment, it seemed that even the originally shiny and soft hair had dimmed a bit.
Gradually.
Su Yao noticed that her slender shoulders were slightly hunched, and crystal clear tears fell on the back of her small, white hands, and then slid down her thighs, spreading to the sheets and leaving a light water color.
"Aren't you going to say something?"
Su Yao looked away and looked out the window. However, the curtains were closed tightly and all he could see was the curtains swaying.
“···”
"Woo."
A very small whimper.
Seeing her, she finally raised her hand and kept wiping her eyes.
"...You Ye has never thought like that."
"Woo..."
"sorry···"
"Youye just... doesn't want to be separated from my eldest brother."
"Don't disappear."
"Woooo..."
Seeing that she was finally willing to raise her face to face him.
It's just that the expression that was indifferent just now is now completely wet with tears. He wipes the tears with his hands helplessly, completely like a child.
I've seen her like this occasionally.
Ahhh.
Su Yao has not yet suffered from Alzheimer's disease and can recall a previous separation. You Ye had the same expression when she left to go around the world alone to solve her problems.
Neither.
What I have now is...a more sad look.
It's powerless.
Because I know there is nothing I can do, I show this ugly look in front of myself.
It would be somewhat unbearable to see it.
"Crying can't change the facts."
"The price for my coming back is this. Looping in an illusory world where no one is here."
"Anyway, you are very smart. If you lie, you will know it right away."
"Then there's no need for me to lie to you."
"The only possibility I can think of is that the love game still needs to use me to have fun. It won't just watch me die in such an inexplicable place."
"If I send you all away, maybe I will have a chance to go back."
"But if you keep doing this, I will just cycle in endless time. After a certain number of times, it is not a lie to say that I hate you."
"Let me ask...who can endure the repetition of the world millions of times and being deprived of the days to come..."
"I am not at all like the person in the myth of Sisyphus who moves rocks day after day and loves life even though he knows it is so boring."
"I am a person who likes the new and hates the old. Being treated like this... do you think I will be happy? Or maybe I am starting to hate it."
"Don't listen."
"Don't listen..."
"I don't want to hear it..."
"fraud···"
"Big brother is a liar."
"Woo..."
"Obviously, I made an agreement with Youye to raise Ozawa and Xiaoli together again."
"Yes, I did."
Su Yao said very calmly, "But even if you agree on something you can't do, it doesn't mean anything."
"Don't listen!"
She suddenly slipped down and took the pure white socks she had taken off earlier from the cabinet on the side.
Use that to stop Su Yao from speaking.
I could only look at her speechlessly.
"Youye loves big brother."
"It's not because of what big brother said that moved You Ye and the humans as much as they did."
"It's because you can always find yourself loved unexpectedly. You feel warm in your chest."
The eyes suddenly became very gentle, as if they were peeking at some rare treasure.
Put your little hand gently on her chest.
"sorry."
"You Ye did make that kind of selfish decision."
"But I can be sure that big brother won't hate You Ye because of that kind of thing."
"You Ye feels that you are a trouble."
"But the eldest brother doesn't think You Ye is troublesome. You Ye can feel it."
"If you are really disgusted."
"Then big brother won't show that gentle and lonely expression when Yu Ye is curled up next to him and falling asleep."
"In the past... no matter how much Yu Ye acted, my eldest brother always treated Yu Ye gently."
"If it's really what big brother said, then Youye would have been treated as trouble a long time ago."
"It was the big brother who found Yuye who had become a monster and had no intention of coming back alive."
"Youye's world is very small, just circle around your big brother."
"Youye wants to be a girl, and the reason for living is to be a big brother."
"If even this is gone..."
"Then you don't want a world like this."
"Disappear...it doesn't matter."
"If you disappear with your big brother, You Ye is willing to accept it."
“···”
Seeing her wipe away her tears, her eyes returned to their previous indifference.
"You Ye can definitely do it."
What exactly are you planning to do?
Su Yao couldn't make a sound and couldn't tell where she went after leaving the room.
perhaps···
It won't be a good thing.
"Gulu..."
Su Yao chewed slowly, pushed the stuff in her mouth with her tongue, and spit it out bit by bit.
Probably because he was concerned about Su Yao's feelings, the thing was not stuffed tightly.
"Pooh--"
In addition, it will soften and shrink when wet with saliva, so it only took about ten minutes to spit it out.
then.
"Ha...ah!"
Start pulling on the noose.
The pain felt is simply not worth mentioning.
"Wow——"
Finally, after a violent tug, my hand came out of the noose.
A large piece of bloody skin was scraped off on the side of my thumb and little finger.
That doesn't matter.
"Rustling, rustling..."
Enduring the pain, Su Yao spent a lot of effort with this hand to untie the rope of the other hand.
Then he bent down and tried to find a way to reach the noose holding his ankle.
But even if the hand bends to the limit, it can only be touched a little by the fingertips, so there is no talk of untying it.
Su Yao turned sideways and tried his best to open the drawer of the bedside table.
But there was nothing inside.
His eyes suddenly caught sight of the cigarettes and lighter placed on the bedside table on the other side.
"Ahh..."
The feeling of being burned by fire is really unpleasant.
But the rope around the ankle is probably difficult to pull out with brute force.
——
Free.
But Su Yao didn't feel the so-called pleasure of freedom at all.
He limped to the window and opened the curtains.
The weather outside is beautiful, and white clouds occasionally flutter in the blue sky. There are white traces left by airplanes.
"Crack."
Su Yao lit a cigarette and went to the living room.
My cell phone was placed on the coffee table.
I haven't been out for a month, and the sanitary environment outside has dropped by two levels. The walls that Xia Xianyue helped take care of before have become very dirty again, and there is also a thin layer of dust on the ground.
Or should I say...
She disappeared, and the hygiene she helped to do also disappeared?
Turn on the TV.
Boring show.
Turn on your phone.
Perhaps based on Su Yao's personal habits, he pushed information related to the winter market.
[The green forest near a community in Winter City was completely cut off overnight, and the relevant departments still can’t find a suitable explanation]
That picture looks familiar to Su Yao, it seems to be the artificial forest nearby.
The news said that the surveillance system also failed at that time, and within a few minutes of the failure, hundreds of trees were neatly cut down.
Some people speculated that some master swordsman came out to test whether the sword was fast or not.
Some people say it is just a coincidence of nature.
Some people also say that it is similar to the fact that a large disk appeared in the wheat field overnight for no reason. It was caused by aliens. The Trisolarans are going to attack the earth.
···
But Su Yao probably guessed it.
The only one who can do this kind of thing, is nearby, and has so many coincidences that things happen. You Ye is the only one.
The purpose...probably to vent your emotions?
We also saw outstanding researchers in many fields being taken away. Countries joined forces to kill several terrorist organizations but failed to recover them. But strangely, everyone returned unscathed a month later.
And no one can tell where they went or what they did.
time--
A little calculation will make it right, it happened yesterday when You Ye came back with that helpless expression.
Su Yao didn't know when Youye planned to come back.
I don't know where she went when she left.
For him, what he can do now is very limited.
"Wow——"
Su Yao opened the drawer and found the gift given to him on the 16th. It was a gift for good people.
In fact, Xia Xianyue was busy making trouble at that time and didn't even check whether there was anything inside.
There was also a small note with a message inside.
【If you want to cheat on sex, you can come to me~(Love)】
Contact details are attached.
I didn’t have any strange thoughts, I just didn’t find a chance to throw it away. Now I’m glad I didn’t throw it away.
Su Yao tried to call No. 16.
After making the call, I discovered that there seemed to be a record of her calls on the phone, but the person who answered the call was definitely not her.
"Is it you?"
"Ah, it's me. I want to ask..."
"Please think of a solution quickly. The leader has completely lost his mind because of what you did."
"What do you mean by losing your mind?"
"The leader plans to go to the Moon Kingdom alone to steal the password for the moon landing rocket! It's impossible to do that kind of thing. How can humans let her get such a high-precision and high-cost thing so easily!"
"The only possibility is a wormhole. If you insist on going there, you won't listen to me at all! You just told me not to try to contact her again in the future, and to ask the sisters to change their identities so as not to be implicated."
“···”
Very strange.
Su Yao was not surprised at all.
If it were Youye's, it wouldn't be impossible to do such a fantasy.
No, it’s better to say...
If it was Yu Ye, it would be abnormal not to try his best to explore the only possibility.
But she didn't know.
That's not the problem at all. Fundamentally, this world may be just a dream. Well, just a slightly more realistic dream.
How can a person, or monster, try his best to cross over from the dream world to the real world without the consent of the being who created this place?
That kind of thing will only be in vain. Because I have probably experienced all the failures I can try and experience.
I won’t update it today...Qilin’s arm is a little sore, so I’ll put a plaster on it to sleep.