Chapter 230 Relatively speaking, they are both selfish and gentle
Chapter 230 Relatively speaking, both are selfish but also gentle.
"These are all for you."
“···”
Watch her eat.
Canned, dried fish.
She also opened a can of beer, but after just a sniff, she immediately frowned and didn't drink it.
"call--"
Su Yao, this is the second cigarette.
The smoke exhaled gradually merged with the pure white and soft light of the street lamp. Staring at her smacking cheeks, even her thinking seemed to have become dull in the process.
How should we understand the current situation?
If you want to hold people accountable, you can even say that Youye, who escapes the status quo in some way, is cowardly and hateful.
But Su Yao can try to analyze Youye's thinking.
Operations I have seen before.
Yu Ye said that he seemed to remember something, so he took out the hippocampus and other related parts that store memories from his brain with his bare hands and threw them away.
In the current situation, she probably used the same method... no, it was a more effective method.
Because the way she thinks about herself is too simplistic.
Therefore, Su Yao can easily think of a lot of them.
For You Ye, this is the maximum choice she can make after knowing that there is nothing she can do about the current situation.
Maybe···
Afraid of losing your sanity?
It's more likely that, no matter what, he couldn't make the choice he expected, so he simply left her to him who didn't know anything, and didn't even know who he was.
It's obviously an escape.
It is behavior that is looked down upon.
“···”
But staring at that face that finally lost some of its vigilance, Su Yao just felt sad.
To use an inappropriate metaphor, it is like a wild cat falling to the ground unprepared and exposing its belly to itself.
"excellent···"
He wanted to call her name, but Su Yao took it back halfway, "Do you want to visit my house?"
“···”
Youye didn't answer, his eyes darting back and forth between the empty plastic bag and Su Yao's face vigilantly.
"If you want to eat this, I have plenty at home."
The situation is no different from the beginning.
Like a kidnapper.
But they are fundamentally different.
"Don't be afraid."
"Besides, your words... can you tell whether I have any malicious intentions?"
Su Yao tried his best to show a calm expression.
"···howl."
"It's not howling, it's good."
"···howl?"
"Good man, good."
"Howler? Howl?"
“···”
Su Yao subconsciously held her hand and didn't come back to her senses until she had done this.
"?"
But Youye just looked at the hand he was holding in confusion, and after a moment he no longer cared.
"Howl? Okay?"
“···”
Seeing those innocent pupils, Su Yao's eye sockets felt hot for a moment.
Why?
To be forgotten.
Even if he knew that Youye would never really forget him, he would definitely remember him at some point.
but···
Do you really know this?
If you fail to say goodbye properly, you will regret it very much one day in the future, and you will definitely experience heart-breaking pain. It is from the inside out, and it cannot be cured for a long time.
——
Why does Youye like to emphasize the sentence structure of adding her name to her words like "Youye thinks" and "Youye thinks"?
She said the reason very straightforwardly.
Because I liked the name given by my elder brother, I wanted to add it to the words.
Not deliberately trying to be cute, just because I like this name.
"Wonderful night?"
She repeated these two words in confusion.
"Well, your name is Youye."
"!"
The moment the warm water touched her, she immediately stepped back. She looked at the shower head with hostility, and then at the bathtub where the water was being filled.
"This is water for cleansing the body. There is no harm."
Su Yao took the initiative to demonstrate first.
Slowly she lowered her guard again and came over to test the depth of the water.
"hot?"
"Well, this is hot water."
“···”
All are things that have been done before.
So far, it has only been done with the same diameter as what was done before.
【1. It is a habit to put used things back in their original places.】
[Two, don’t interrupt others, this is respect. Three, don’t use swear words, this is quality. Four, greet elders first when meeting them, this is etiquette. Five, apologize for your mistakes, this is responsibility. Six,
Having at least one sports hobby is healthy. 7. Don’t take other people’s things indiscriminately. This is education.】
【···】
This is the code that I used to raise You Ye as a child and specially organize the language for her to edit.
"Original position?"
I saw her drink the water in the water glass in small sips and put the glass back on the table.
"Well, this is just putting it back in place."
“···”
Then she found the program she liked and was even obsessed with at the beginning, Animal World.
"The winning lion will have priority in choosing a mate, and the rest will have to wait until it has selected a mate before it can choose. Having such power also means that he will face challenges of the same kind all the time..."
“···”
I saw You Ye staring blankly at the TV screen and sitting obediently on the sofa, like a primary school student listening peacefully.
Thaw the imported dried fish, put it on a plate, and bring it to her.
Maybe it's an unconscious action.
I want her to sit on my lap.
“···”
But was rejected.
The moment she touched her tail, she jumped away and looked at herself with very wary eyes.
Even the tail was swaying and stretched out in front of him.
The snake that wants to attack people just doesn't tell the truth.
"Sorry, I didn't mean any harm."
Ahhh.
The current relationship cannot be called cordial.
Even to her, she was just a strange human being who gave her food.
Neither was the big brother who brought her back from the sewer.
Nor was it a human trying to eat the same raw meat as her.
He never gave birth to two children with her.
"Can···"
"Touch your hair?"
“···”
She didn't answer, but her petite body sat back on the sofa. Although the distance was not very close.
Su Yao tried to put his hand on her head.
She narrowed her eyes slightly like a kitten.
He was a little confused and said in a childish voice, "No, it's annoying."
The clothes she wore fit her perfectly. They were all specially bought for her. Some of them were even bought together.
Her petite body also has a faint clean fragrance after bathing.
I got her slippers, but she seemed not used to them, so she kicked them off while sitting on the sofa, swaying her white little feet.
I always feel dazed.
I don't even care about the overlapping and distorted light in my sight anymore.
Just stare at this slightly childish face.
Selfish?
Can't tell.
As Yu Ye confesses, her world is very small.
But why not myself?
Who wants to have nothing?
He sent away all the people he cherished and left nothing here. He didn't understand the ending at first, and he only came to such a last resort conclusion after going through the cycle several times in vain.
It was precisely because he knew that no one would accept the truth if he told it without reservation, so he lied to Xia Xianyue.
She did something like this when she was passionately looking forward to a better future.
He also begged the smart You Ye to understand him, help him say goodbye to Xia Xianyue, and even protect her.
This is of course a more selfish idea.
That note——
It’s not that I can’t understand it now.
Big Brother can do whatever he wants. Anyway, You Ye doesn’t know anything.
Whether it is selfishness or opinion, it all depends on oneself.
“···”
Su Yao didn't know when he fell asleep.
But when I woke up, it was still night. It was not yet dawn.
"White bears must find ways to find food on the frozen water for the winter..."
The TV is still on.
The dried fish on the coffee table has been eaten.
The pink slippers were left empty at the foot of the sofa.
You Ye has disappeared.
"Whoosh-"
The curtains on the balcony swayed, and the cold night breeze came in through the gaps.
The wind wasn't too cold.
But Su Yao felt a bone-chilling chill all over his body. He felt an indescribable feeling of loneliness.
Than saw Ozawa and Oguri dead.
Yuye is dead.
Xia Xianyue also died.
Even more lonely than that time.
Because there is no solution.
I can't even find someone to take a gun to kill anyone. I have no goal, no way, no way of release. I can only huddle here in vain.
Saw it on TV before.
An actor with good acting skills, a very real crying scene. When faced with the death of an important person and a completely sad thing, he couldn't cry. He smiled at everyone.
Finally, in the dead of night, alone, I finally couldn't help but light a cigarette and burst into tears.
"Ahh..."
That's really completely uncontrollable.
He howled out of breath and made an unpleasant sound.
More sad than a lost dog.
My whole body was shaking. Even the sound playing in the animal world couldn't cover it up.
He started to get unreasonably irritable again.
Because the vision is not clear.
There are overlapping scenes everywhere. Is it because of tears? Or is it because the end is approaching?
Don't understand.
Anyway, it creates a sense of destruction for no reason.
When I hear the sound of the TV, I want to smash it. When I hear the sound of the curtain shaking, I want to tear it off, tear it up and burn it.
“···”
But the tail that suddenly appeared from behind stopped Su Yao from further damage.
"Touch, yes, give it to you."
A childish voice also sounded from behind.
Turning around, you can easily see the petite body looking at you with an incomprehensible expression.
I really don’t know why she didn’t agree just now and is willing now.
But stroking that pink tail has no evil thoughts.
Just by simply feeling the soft touch, my mood gradually calmed down.
think.
At that moment, I suppressed a lot of emotions and then decided what to do.
Ahhh.
Everything is fine.
Leave it to yourself... there will be no mistakes.
——
Youye didn't stay here overnight.
Same as before.
She came here for several nights in a row before she was willing to sleep here.
"Gulu gulu... Bah?"
As before, she imitated Su Yao in brushing her teeth and washing her face.
Su Yao also carefully decorated her tail with cat tails and bows as before.
"I like this."
Perhaps he discovered that Su Yao had no ill intentions at all, and even had special kindness toward her.
By now he has no resistance to asking her to sit on his lap.
Or she might take the initiative to sit on it herself.
From that night on, Su Yao gradually began to touch her tail and other things.
Even that kind of thing.
"What a strange feeling."
“···”
She won't resist.
But what's different from before is that now she is just out of curiosity. She doesn't deliberately pretend to have any style to confuse Su Yao.
He would not deliberately pretend to say anything about weakness or arouse Su Yao's desire to win. To put it bluntly, it was just playing.
"This... I always feel like I've eaten it before."
The episode was about something I overheard when I took her to a sashimi shop to eat.
Many things are.
"I think I've seen this before?"
"Delivery guy?"
"That...baby canteen?"
"Why do you need Youye to call you Shushu? Youye thinks you would rather be called big brother like that human cub."
“···”
Starting from these tiny details, Youye seems to be getting closer and closer to herself.
Maybe even if you ask her, she doesn't know why.
Start pestering yourself indiscriminately.
At night, I will ask for it. It is no longer out of curiosity, but simply because I want to get close to myself.
I don’t resist going out.
But now I will take the initiative to hand the small, white hand into my own.
These···
Su Yao knew that it was because of his own initiative, but also because of something inaccurately called memory inertia in You Ye.
But isn’t this great?
Every day I face cheerful smiles and innocent eyes.
I wouldn't say tie myself to the bed, or steal rockets, or anything like that.
episode.
Saw number 16.
"What is this, leader?"
She clearly noticed the changes in You Ye.
"It has nothing to do with you, just leave it alone."
"What, so cold? I obviously gave you someone else's black——"
Seeing Su Yao's cold eyes, she swallowed her words again.
"I came here to say that if there is anything I can do to help, I'm free to do so."
"Thank you, but there are no problems at the moment."
“···”
There was no direct conversation with You Ye on the 16th. They only looked at each other from a distance.
"Brother, she seems to be the same kind as You Ye?"
"That's right."
“···”
"Don't think about strange things. I treat her differently from you. She won't take up the time you spend with me."
"Oh, Youye didn't want to get rid of her?"
“···”
It has become more and more similar.
Tone.
look.
Occasionally cute side.
It’s almost time, right?
It was a gift that had been customized a long time ago and belonged to You Ye.
But I couldn't take it out before.
That was the promised token.
Everyone must find it strange, right?
Because no matter how you look at it, Yuye looks like a child who doesn't understand anything.
Walking with her is more like an older brother going shopping with his sister.
That's not what can be done at all.
"This is packaged for you, I thought you forgot it."
The salesman showed a professional smile and glanced at You Ye inconspicuously.
Su Yao didn't care what they thought, he just turned around and faced You Ye.
"This is a gift for you."
"···Gift?"
Youye stared at the box in Su Yao's hand in confusion, "It's food, isn't it?"
"no."
Su Yao smiled softly, "Come on, stretch out your hand."
"oh?"
She obediently extended her right hand.
"I want my left hand."
"Left?"
She simply stretched out both hands.
“···”
Under her gaze, Su Yao bent her ring finger and put the ring on her ring finger carefully and smoothly.
"In this way, you are my wife. Do you understand?"
"Wife...son? What is that?"
"It means that because I like you very much, I hope to make you my own. This is the proof."
"...something amazing?"
"Of course it's amazing. Don't you like staying with me?"
"like."
"With this, you can always stay with me."
"Is there something more important than dried fish?"
"On a spiritual level yes."
"Oh, then Youye wants to be the eldest brother's wife."
“···”
In the eyes of those salesmen who saw this scene with incomprehensible expressions, I am afraid that this is comparable to a kidnapping scene.
I even forgot the lines and actions I used to applaud or congratulate someone when I saw him proposing, and just stared blankly at Su Yao holding her little hand and going out.
Outside the jewelry store, there are clouds like cotton candy, shining in the sunlight.
“···”
I saw Youye staring blankly at a mother with her child passing by.
"wife?"
"Well, that's it."
"Can Yuye give birth to human cubs like that?"
"sure."
"Oh, it feels like it will be fun."
"How fun would it be... It's actually quite warm."
Su Yao took her hand and walked towards the next destination.
"Big brother, where? I want to go."
she asked curiously.
"The place where the ritual is completed."
Su Yao looked at her with a kind and gentle look, and there was always a faint smile in her black eyes and at the corners of her mouth.
It's not a sad thing, it's not a sad thing.
If your opinion is what it is now, then I have no reason to refute it.
In all senses, this is undoubtedly the most peaceful farewell for myself and Youye.
Sorry, the update is a bit late... After cupping and returning home, I felt very sleepy and overslept.