【Sunday rally, anyone can participate. Time: Sunday morning 10.00-13.00】
This is a promotional sign placed at the door of the church that has not been taken away.
Su Yao didn't know what the so-called gathering meant.
I can only guess, maybe there are people who believe in the church and listen to the lectures devoutly? Or something else.
Entered the church with Youye.
The interior is spacious and neatly arranged with chairs spaced apart. There is a platform for the pastor to speak on top.
It's a generally holy place, right?
But Su Yao had strange thoughts inexplicably.
Is it possible that all the people who come here are pure?
no.
After all, it is amazing that there are really such talents in this world. I have never seen such a person who can confidently say that he has never done any bad things or had any bad thoughts since he was born.
No need to say that.
Just like myself now.
I didn't come here by invitation, nor did I get permission to enter. I just asked Yu Ye to take me here under the moonlight at night.
If the way of entry is impure, can I still get blessings from the gods here?
Ahhh.
Of course, I don’t believe in such an illusory existence.
Quite amazing.
I obviously don’t believe in God and have no so-called faith, but I stubbornly sneak in here. I can’t explain it.
"Come in."
In a daze, Su Yao heard a voice. It came from the front.
Follow the source and look.
It was a small room like a phone booth in an old movie.
【Confession Room】
It says so above.
repent?
What an amazing word.
There is nothing in the dark room. Does it mean that if you tell all the sins in your heart here, you will be cleansed? If a fugitive murderer tells the truth about killing someone here, will the pastor call the police afterwards?
?Or, the murderer will choose to kill the priest after finishing speaking.
"Welcome big brother to come here."
A childish voice sounded from the curtain on the opposite side of the room.
"What's this?"
Su Yao was stunned.
"Please sit down first."
"Do you think it's funny to see those people like this?"
Su Yao sighed and sat down.
"Lost lamb, please pour out your sins here."
“···”
Although his voice is very different from that of a serious pastor.
But there’s still a little bit of atmosphere?
sin.
There is no sin to confess.
——
ah.
How could it not be?
There are too many.
I once thought about giving up on Xia Xianyue, even if I knew she had committed suicide, I had no intention of going back.
If it weren't for being killed by that disgusting guy.
Maybe she was really dead a long time ago.
She even planned to leave as soon as You Ye left. If it was her own choice...
responsibility···
That only came about later.
After all, do I love them because of their sunk costs? I don’t understand.
Sometimes I feel that Xia Xianyue is too attached to herself, but I try to persuade her not to be like this.
But in fact, if it weren't for her morbid love, they probably wouldn't be together.
The same goes for You Ye.
In this case, it would be like enjoying this kind of love that is different from ordinary people, and at the same time being bitchi and saying that this is not good.
Like now.
At this time, You Ye was just doing it for fun behind the curtain. He had no idea what kind of mood he was bringing here. He also had no idea what cruel things would happen next.
I deliberately did not allow her to use a computer or mobile phone.
Use your best knowledge to make a program for her to remember what you want to say.
In this case...
Once you go there, as long as you can remember the procedure you said, you can know the parting words you want to say.
There are too many sins.
If it were a real pastor, he might really want to confess something with tears in his eyes.
"It doesn't matter... No matter what it is, Yuye will listen carefully."
It's a bit like a nun's tone. But the voice is obviously a bit clumsy and unaccustomed.
"There's one thing."
"I often lie. For example, I told a lie yesterday."
“···”
It seems that she heard the curtain and she took a small breath, waiting for the follow-up.
"I knew there was squid that was better than imported dried fish, but I didn't tell you."
"Squid... grilled?"
"Yes, you see there are so many imported dried fish at home. If she knew about the existence of squid before she finished eating, so many dried fish would be wasted. That would be too pitiful.
"
"The dried fish will not be wasted. The squid is grilled...and eaten."
"Do nuns also want to eat squid?"
"A shy girl? You Ye is not a shy girl."
She finally came out from behind the curtain.
"Youye is the eldest brother's wife."
"Do humans say wives can't eat squid?"
"...Of course you can."
"Okay~"
“···”
I couldn't resonate with her cheerful mood.
I couldn't touch her hair as a matter of course, it was an action I had to do after realizing it.
He likes the expression on her face when she touches her head and narrows her eyes like a kitten. She can also get some comfort from this.
"Come here."
Su Yao guided her to the stage with him.
There was no light on inside, so we could only see her slightly childish and curious face through the hazy moonlight.
If you can’t remember a long line of dialogue, you might as well arrange it all yourself.
"call···"
Take a deep breath and say.
"Before, I felt that I was not suitable for dating."
"I am only suitable for chatting with someone when I am bored. No matter who develops a long-term relationship with me, they will gradually become alienated because they realize that I am a terrible person."
"But I'm just deceiving myself. From the bottom of my heart, I desperately hope there is someone who can be interdependent with me. From the bottom of my heart, I envy the smiles of others."
"I look forward to a strong person who can be applauded by the crowd. I think that's good. It's really good."
"I also look forward to the smiles of those ordinary people in the background. I think that would be better."
"I used to feel that even without me, there would always be someone else in the world willing to accept you."
"I can't be the only exception. Strictly speaking, I'm not an exception at all. I'm just opportunistic."
"But I gradually discovered that instead of letting others, whether it is a scientific madman, a pervert... it can be anything, it is not wrong to call it narcissism."
"I began to think that someone who was opportunistic like me and had no ulterior motives from the beginning was the best and most suitable person for you."
"Why do you have to be handed over to a scientific madman to cooperate with him in conducting experiments? Why should you be handed over to someone with special quirks to achieve their ulterior motives or be killed?"
"I think it is unrealistic to suddenly burn away all the memories in one night and then usher in a new life."
"I'm weak and don't have any special abilities. I can't do much. Even when facing most setbacks, I don't have much choice other than to be passive."
"The only thing I can give you is absolutely pure love that has nothing to do with hobbies, goals, etc."
"There are also dried small fish and squid grilled?"
"Ah, those are not, they are just add-ons."
“···”
Facing those confused eyes, I always feel sad.
But this will not show up.
Su Yao didn't know if there were any lines in the wedding speech that both parties needed to support each other and remember each other.
If anything, he would now rewrite this sentence.
"I hope you can remember me for a long time and remember the name I gave you."
"The meaning of a person's life is his name from birth, and the same is true for you."
"As long as someone is willing to call you by your name, you have the meaning of existence."
"Then... with this single meaning, look for more possibilities."
"What a strange thing to say."
Youye now probably can't understand what he said at all.
That's okay too.
"Let's take an oath."
"Ask God to bless us."
Although neither he nor Youye believe in God.
But I hope to be blessed.
Kissing devoutly under the gaze of God, there is no priest, only one-sided words.
I feel that this is too painful and miserable.
"You night..."
"You can tell me too."
"What did you say?"
“···”
I feel like this is very willful and childlike.
"Hehe, Youye also loves big brother."
Even if I hear it, it can't fill the hole in my heart. I just feel that the sound that is so close seems to be far away.
"Bah~"
Even if she took the initiative to join in because she thought what just happened was fun, she didn't feel happy.
A kiss without meaning probably means nothing. Even if it can remain in the memory, it will only increase the sadness.
Let's walk out of the church together again.
In the early morning, there was no one outside.
"It would be nice if it snowed. It's quite fitting for the occasion."
"Xue, blood?"
"It's not blood, it's snow. Write like this."
Su Yao took out his mobile phone and showed her the word.
“Winter snow on TV?”
"right."
"Big brother, do you like snow?"
"...just joking."
“···”
Because her access to information was restricted, even if she had met someone and seen it snowing on TV, she would not have known it was ‘snow’ at the first time.
"Want this."
Because I have seen mobile phones, I have wanted to let her play with them many times.
But Su Yao had refused before.
Whether it's a mobile phone or a computer.
Now -
"Well, I'll let you play with it tomorrow."
"It's very late today. I will teach you how to use your mobile phone and computer tomorrow."
"If you are so smart, you will soon know how to use the Internet."
"What is the Internet?"
"It can be regarded as a means of communication for humans."
"The general selection method is...?"
“···”
The big and small hold hands, and the street lamp shines cleanly and elongates different shadows.
before going to bed.
Su Yao washed her body very carefully and slowly, and cleaned her tail with a soft brush meticulously.
"Hehe, it's so itchy~"
"It will be over soon."
"You Ye also wants to give big brother a thumbs up~"
“···”
After the fun, we watched Animal World together for a while.
Wait for the host's voice to disappear.
"After the commercial, the excitement continues——"
"This again, so annoying, Youye doesn't like this."
"It's time to go to sleep."
"Can't you continue watching?"
"It's time to go to sleep."
Urging her as if urging myself.
I can't be attached to it any longer.
It can't go on like this.
But even though You Ye reluctantly followed her on the bed, she quickly started twisting and playing around again. When she was tired from playing, she seemed to be going to sleep, and there was no more movement.
Only then can you open your eyes smoothly.
Can't sleep.
Stare at the ceiling in the dark. The translucent curtain will always be sprinkled with a little silver by the afterglow of the street lights outside.
Thanks to this, you can peek at dots the size of sesame seeds in the dark. Densely packed dots.
I can only look at this scene again and don't care whether it will be overlapped or distorted. It is like that anyway.
"——"
Breathing like a small bellows came from the petite body.
The slender black hair lay on her young and white face, outlining complex lines. She couldn't help but touch the smooth and smooth hair with her hands.
Her tail was no longer buried behind her back like before, but now it lay softly on her belly like a cat hugging her body when sleeping.
At this moment, Su Yao suddenly remembered a long time ago.
Um···
To be exact, it was more than ten years ago.
Xia Xianyue gave herself a story book for the first time. At that time, she was not interested in that kind of story. Later, maybe to cater to her interest, she started to become a little interested in the story.
After she noticed this, she would occasionally tell herself some interesting stories.
There was one among them, whose name I can't remember.
It is said that a person got on a train with no destination and just wanted to get off at whichever station he saw was interesting.
When he found a place and went down, he found that the city was full of cats.
He wanted to escape from here, but he couldn't get away no matter what. The train that finally came back ignored him.
It was at that moment that I realized that he had been lost. Lost by the world.
Is this the case for you too?
Lost by the world.
Although it's not a coincidence like that. It's voluntary.
"Big brother..."
You Ye suddenly got up.
Stare at yourself with those pure and flawless pupils.
"Youye doesn't want to sleep, but wants to play."
“···”
At that moment, I even thought she suddenly remembered something.
But not after all.
It's just that I simply can't sleep.
or--
Because I used to do evil things every night with my greed, and I would fall asleep after doing them. Only today I didn’t do anything.
Try holding her soft tail.
If despicability is the passport of the despicable, and nobility is the epitaph of the noble. Then I would rather be despicable when I can do something, at least in this moment I can get a sense of satisfaction.
the next day.
Su Yao got up early.
But You Ye got up earlier.
It seemed that she had been sitting on the sofa watching TV for a long time. That was probably what fascinated her most at the time.
"Then the question is, Zhang San said that this person is a relative of his third uncle's cousin, so is this relative abusing public power and committing a crime or..."
What we are watching is not the animal world, but a legal lecture hall.
"Why are you looking at this?"
"Animal world, no."
“···”
What a shock.
It's normal to not have such a program early in the morning.
"Grrrrrrrr-bah!"
The legal lecture hall failed to attract her. When she saw Su Yao brushing her teeth and washing her face, she followed suit and did the same thing.
Su Yao eats noodles.
She eats small dried fish.
"This is a gift for you."
Su Yao gave her the cell phone that originally belonged to her. The cell phone that she used to call You Ye later was half-accidentally found in a drawer at home.
"cell phone?"
She opened her eyes slightly.
"right."
Su Yao tried to call her phone.
"Whoa?!"
She seemed frightened by the ringing.
"Try sliding like this."
Su Yao taught her step by step how to answer the phone.
“···”
"crooked?"
When she spoke, Su Yao's cell phone read the voice.
"Hehe, this is so fun!"
"Is it fun?"
Su Yao said softly, "There's something more fun. Let's go, put on your shoes, and I'll take you out to eat squid."
“Squid grill?”
"Yes, it's the squid that I mentioned yesterday that is more delicious than dried fish."
"Yeah!"
"And don't forget the cat tail that goes on the tail."
"Oh, okay."
Now she doesn't like to put things on it.
episode.
These words suddenly popped up when You Ye and Su Yao were walking side by side on the road.
"You Ye feels so weird."
"What's weird?"
"I don't know, it's just weird. I always feel itchy inside my head."
“···”
"Why does eldest brother have so many things at home that Youye can use?"
"That--two skewers of squid will be enough."
I happened to arrive at the food court and tried to end the topic by talking to the boss.
"Big Brother seems to know someone of the same kind as Yu Ye."
"Have eldest brother ever gotten along with You Ye before?"
Although there was something wrong with what she said, Su Yao could understand the meaning.
"No. I've only been with you."
"Really? Hehe."
"Really."
"That's right, big brother has never mated with that kind of person. He has only played like that with Yu Ye."
“···”
The boss was a little confused and suspicious when he heard this conversation.
But who cares.
The squid was quickly prepared and handed to Yuye.
"Well, I like it, squid."
"If you like it, you can have two more?"
"No, I feel full after eating dried fish."
She patted her belly.
"Yeah?"
Su Yao smiled, took her little hand, and walked to the fixed place.
It’s still the same intersection.
The flower shop just opened for ordering here, and I saw the clerk arranging flower pots at the door.
"Wait here for me."
"?"
Regardless of Youye's answer, Su Yao took the lead and walked into the store.
No need to choose.
"Please help me get a bunch of this."
"Ah, okay."
The clerk skillfully cut out a single bouquet of roses and asked, "Do you want to package it?"
"No."
He scanned the QR code and gave the money, then went out. Youye still stood there.
"Gift?"
She made a confused sound.
"Yes, this is also a gift for you."
"Can't eat it?"
"It's not for food. Smell and see."
"Hmm."
She leaned her little nose close and sniffed.
"Ah sneeze——"
I sneezed instantly.
“What a strange smell.”
"Haha, is it weird? Okay, just stand here for now."
"Why?"
"Be obedient, you will know later."
"Um...ok."
“···”
Turn around.
I silently walked towards the opposite side of the zebra crossing. Halfway through, the green light turned to red.
When he reached the safe side, he remembered that he had forgotten to tell her to turn around.
If I turn around now, I will see a bad expression, right?
If all her previous efforts were wasted because of this, it would be a complete waste.
"Crack-"
Try lighting a cigarette, inhaling deeply several times, and exhaling the smoke.
At a certain moment, my cheek was suddenly wet with something cold.
"Buzz-"
Before I could react, my phone rang.
The caller is, Youye.
“···”
"Hehe, this is Youye's gift to big brother."
"How?"
"On TV, humans said that they could use transmitters to interfere with the weather. Big brother said it would be nice if it snowed, so Yuye did it."
"It's so strange. It's obviously something you can't understand, but Yu Ye seems to have done it before and succeeded easily."
"Then...after all, you are very smart."
It's snowing.
It was snowing in the winter market at the end of May. I saw the surprised expressions of passers-by around me. People who were busy in the shops on the roadside also stopped for a moment to look at this strange scene.
"So, is it okay not to throw away Youye?"
I don’t know when, You Ye crossed the zebra crossing and came up behind her, gently pulling at the hem of her clothes.
"You didn't say that, did you?"
"Well, but Youye doesn't like it here. You will have this strange feeling here."
"There's no way that's going to happen. Nothing bad will happen."
"Can't you stay with your big brother?"
"It's not that I can't, I just need you to stay there temporarily."
"How long?"
"Just a few minutes. It doesn't matter, can't you see me over there? I won't go anywhere, don't worry."
Su Yao tried his best to maintain a calm and gentle tone, "Come on, I just want to play a game with you."
"game?"
"Anyway, I'll count them, and then you can go that way."
"All right."
She finally let go of her clothes.
"1."
"2."
“···”
"10."
Quietly peeking into the display window in front of me with my peripheral vision, I could see the petite figure returning to its fixed position.
The phone hasn't been hung up yet.
"call--"
Su Yao continued to smoke the cigarette and put the mobile phone to his ear.
"Very good, just stay there and don't move."
Watching the snow falling from the leaden gray clouds.
White, misty, silent, and beautiful. Just like that petite and pure body.
"Thank you for the gift."
"This is probably the best gift I've ever received."
“···”
There was no sound on the other end of the phone.
"Now I can answer your question."
"But I didn't lie to you just now. It's true that I haven't gotten along with you like that with anyone else. If there is a second one, I might really be a little bit overwhelmed."
"This is all that is needed for precious things."
"I used to hate love games. Ah, I still can't like them even now."
"But in the sense of meeting you, I have to thank it."
"Without it, you and I wouldn't be able to have this kind of relationship."
"ha···"
Tears may be uncontrollably falling from my eyes.
Very embarrassed.
But the tone was still very calm.
"It doesn't matter. From the beginning to now, I have never really died even once."
"This time will be no exception. I will survive. No matter what way it is."
"so--"
"You must live like me. Live freely."
"It would be even better if you could take care of Xia Xianyue for me over there. That's what I hope. I hope you can help me do what I can't do."
"Feel sorry."
“···”
"···don't want."
After a long time, I heard the answer.
"Big brother said that you have to do your own thing."
That's a very sad answer.
"don't want···"
"Youye, don't stand in the same position as my sister."
"Don't disappear."
It looks like the game of house is finally over.
Su Yao turned around silently.
I saw that she had already moved this way from where she was.
In a trance.
He gradually quickened his pace.
She couldn't make any sounds either, she just opened and closed her lips.
Silent movie?
I don't understand.
She is greedy for warmth and attached to everything about her. Just like she is attached to and dependent on herself.
At this moment, it seems that all the persistence does not matter. No matter whether all the previous efforts have been wasted or giving up halfway.
Open your hands.
bring it on.
If only I could hug again and feel the warmth even for a moment.
The soft snow is still falling.
However, the petite figure coming from the opposite side has disappeared.
Many people looked at Su Yao with surprised eyes.
"Um, are you okay?"
Someone even came over with concern and asked.
"It's okay, something will happen somewhere."
Nothing happened.
This time, nothing really happened.
The temperature was obviously not too cold, so Su Yao couldn't help but curl up slightly and greedily lit the next cigarette.
To draw false warmth from that insignificant spark that dims and brightens with the breath.