It must be extremely cruel to let a lonely person have something warm and then let him return to the embrace of loneliness.
I once said this to You Ye.
Because of this, I couldn't let go that she really disappeared, so I went to pick her up without mercy.
If you don’t care, you haven’t met or owned anything worth cherishing.
So--
Whether it's the real world or the imaginary world.
For Su Yao, what is the final difference between the two?
Winter market is still winter market.
Winter City University exists.
I have served in Dongshi Junior High School.
The elementary school where Ozawa and Oguri go to is also there.
···
But looking back, there is no trace of anyone named 'Su Ze', 'Su Xiaoli', or 'Xia Xiaobai' attending the elementary school here.
There is no one named "Su Yao" who has ever served in the junior high school.
Ahhh.
I did pass the college entrance examination.
Su Ma's tomb also exists.
But only Xia Xianyue does not exist.
Everything related to her does not exist.
Yuye doesn't exist either.
On the contrary, the researcher father who created her does exist. However, he is dead just like in the false world. It can be easily found online.
This world——
As long as Su Yao spent a little more effort, it would be easy to figure out that this was the world he first lived in. Or to be more specific, it was the world before there were no love games.
[We all admire your unparalleled courage]
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[Also, please know that the price collected cannot be refunded due to BUG reasons]
[After confirming that the current location is the location you want to reach, the remaining locations will reduce their dimensions within a fixed period of time until they no longer exist. 】
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The words provided by Love Game are indeed not deceptive.
It did disappear.
From now on, there are no monsters or stupid women in my sight.
That’s not right, to be more precise——
Do they themselves not exist in this world?
Of course not, it's just a small trick in the love game.
What is the consideration that has been received?
Ahhh.
That is to say, now I have to be alone again. It is quite simple and easy to think of.
Look around this city filled with loneliness.
Can't find any sense of belonging.
To be honest, making the decision takes no effort at all.
think.
It doesn't matter which one is true and which one is false.
Even though the place I stayed in for such a period of time was illusory, I truly found the meaning of my existence there.
Anyone who searches for truth in illusion has a brain disease. If this is the case, then treat it as a disease and be cured.
Love game...
What a good thing.
For example, some capitalists can clearly steal money directly, but they still have to find an excuse to gently cheat you out of your pocket.
Things in the past always feel like a long time ago.
But now that I think about it, things are slowly becoming clearer to me.
I don’t have very clear memories of my college days here, but I still remember my work experience after graduation very clearly.
Su Yao considers himself a coward.
Maybe it’s because of family reasons or personal experience? Although I have some abilities, my personality and interpersonal relationships are a mess.
"So, who is willing to bring new people?"
None of the newcomers who entered the club together were as boring as myself. In other words, I was the only one who came in by chance, and the others all had seniors or relatives they knew within the company.
They can easily go to the person they want to go to without knowing how to speak.
Those people showed complete indifference.
It sounds similar to the scene where the teacher thought that someone would give him face and take the initiative to stand up as a coolie for this and that, but in the end no one stepped forward.
If you can't find a way, then the next thing you will face is someone being randomly named. Who would be willing to bring a second newcomer?
Unable to take the initiative, we can only passively wait for the situation to develop.
"Bring it to me."
“···”
When I first met my senior, I knew he was an unpleasant person.
Because no one took a stand, when her boss frowned, she stood up.
——
After getting to know her for a while, I realized that she was only four years older than me.
This club sucks.
I often work overtime without pay until 11 o'clock or even early in the morning.
But the seniors who thought she was strict at first can now realize that she is more serious than anyone else.
Although he is strict, he does take care of himself seriously.
Tell a joke.
Perhaps because we often stay together, we are more and more attracted to her charm. She is capable, beautiful, and vigorous in doing things.
It's not about possession like love, it's about admiration. I think this person is really good.
——
She is dead.
Died in the ninth month of my tenure.
Died by suicide.
At that time I was one week shy of 25 years old.
It’s not that I don’t understand.
Because she usually talks about it occasionally when she is drunk. There are too many nepotistic people in the company. They are jealous that she can get a higher position with actual results, but they don’t understand how many things she has done, and she is somewhat discriminatory. It is a woman who can control them.
On the head...wait.
The cause of death was not just being framed.
She checked the order three times to confirm that it was correct before giving it to her. With her rigorous attitude of zero tolerance for errors, how could she make a simple mistake in the order quantity?
"The company is really sad to lose such talent."
"But people will always make mistakes and experience setbacks in life. We must not act out of anger like her."
"This approach will not only bring unfounded negative consequences to the company, but will also make relatives and enemies happy."
"She left and left us with such a big mess. It's really..."
"I have long said that women cannot be supervisors, but you still don't believe me."
"Who told her to be so conceited? She has to take care of everything. She uses chicken feathers as arrows. Now she's afraid if something goes wrong."
“···”
It's strange, it's obviously a memorial service.
But from the speeches of the company leaders to the private discussions, why are they all criticizing the deceased?
Obviously everyone knows that it was not caused by this mistake at all.
It's a long-standing malice towards her.
"It's obviously you——"
Maybe I am really naive and have no brains.
He just roared and rushed forward naturally.
"I saw with my own eyes that after we left the company, it was you who entered the senior's office!"
"It's because you're jealous that she made another deal!"
"There is absolutely no way the order will go wrong. I have a backup, so there is absolutely no way it will go wrong!"
Grab him by the collar.
"You, what are you talking about?!"
"Let go! If you don't let go, I'm going to call the inspector?!"
“···”
It's a really funny company.
Although they beat him up, the company simply did not pursue the case for fear of negative repercussions. As a result, their wages were deducted to pay for his medical expenses, and he was fired.
Unable to find new destination.
I was confused for a long time.
think.
What have you been doing since you were born?
I was misunderstood like that when I was a child, and I had a conflict with my mother. I finally reconciled, and my mother died.
I can barely remember what happened in college.
And now, we are faced with such a thing again.
"——"
"Danger!"
Therefore, at that time, when I saw the child, I subconsciously saved her. But after thinking about it later, I realized that it was not a chance of death that came to my door. It was a chance for me who was too cowardly to end my life.
——
About Xia Xianyue.
Su Yao didn't know why he had never seen her before in this world.
I never saw her before she died at the age of 25.
But having said that, it is also a false proposition whether this person is mapped here because he exists in a false world, or whether he actually exists in the first place.
Is it okay to think like this?
Because the subconscious mind is haunted by what happened ten years ago, he created Xia Xianyue in the 'dream world' who would treat him like that. In fact, it was not the case at all.
And because of this reason, everything I experienced there was false.
No way.
It doesn't work at all.
Whether it's her or You Ye.
"Senior, I really never thought that I would have the chance to come back to see you."
"But I only plan to stay for a short while."
"This world is so lonely. It's unbearable."
"Besides..."
"If this is a dream, then you should be alive over there, right?"
I visited my mother's grave again.
To be honest, if it was a dream, she should be alive, right?
There is no such sad dream.
This is something that you don’t even have to think about.
Because here, there are no cherished people or things, nor any meaning of existence.
"Bang--"
So I chose to die again at the intersection where I died.
【Your unparalleled courage is admirable】
[Detecting your new wishes]
[Loading love game——]
[The channel is open]
【Current location:363.46.23.58】
——
Lost and found Su Yao thinks it is a word that makes people happier than all other words.
It's not that sad when you understand that you can no longer leave this world.
As much as you gain, you will lose as much.
At least they can still go out.
The choice disappears for a few days. Practice smiling.
In no mood···
I want to leave painful memories in the remaining time, and I want to leave good memories with everyone. Even if it is just a short period.
But if you think about it afterwards, it might just be self-satisfaction.
Since you can't see it, why add extra memories?
For lovers who cannot see each other, the memories, happiness and pain that are recalled afterwards are directly proportional to each other.
I never thought I would fall into an endless loop.
Of course it's a cruel thing.
But I don’t feel any regret either.
Just like Xia Xianyue said, when asked if you think you are cute, you will subconsciously say cute, and you will come up with the same answer after thinking about it.
This is the same.
I will choose this way subconsciously, but I will still choose this way after careful consideration. I have no regrets.
——
What strikes the eye is pure white with mottled marks.
I could smell the faint smell of disinfectant in my nose again.
“···”
Very strange.
Why didn't you die?
Even if he is not dead, he should return to March when the fixed time is reached on June 24th. Then the cycle will continue.
"Are you awake?"
I heard a strange female voice coming from the door.
Turning his eyes, he saw a slightly familiar looking nurse.
Ahhh.
It's a nurse I didn't know I met once or twice when I didn't die that time before.
"Do you feel uncomfortable anywhere?"
She came over to check the condition of the infusion bag and asked.
“···”
Su Yao was silent for a moment, feeling a sharp sting on his lips.
"Want some water?"
"...What's the date now?"
"What's the date?"
The nurse was stunned for a moment and said, "Today is June 26th. You slept all day and all night."
"···Thanks."
Su Yao stared out the window blankly.
There is no more distortion and overlapping in the field of vision like before, and you can clearly see that trees are trees and clouds are clouds.
【Congratulations】
[The achievement ‘Deceptive Suspended Death’ has been achieved, and you will be rewarded with 1 love point]
What?
Does it mean that within the cycle time, you choose to die actively, but you don't really die, so you avoid continuing the cycle?
What is this?
My breathing started to become rapid.
So what is everything that was lost before?
"Then I'll call the doctor first—"
"When can I be discharged from the hospital?"
Su Yao interrupted her directly.
"Eh?"
"I want to be discharged from the hospital now."
“···”
After completing the discharge procedures, I took my belongings and clothes and changed into them. The clothes were quite dirty and there were scratches and cuts on them.
But it doesn't matter.
It doesn’t matter what others think.
I just wanted to take a look at the passage.
Uncontrollable impulse, go back if possible——
[The channel is open]
[Note: Due to an irreparable BUG, your current location reset loop BUG has been resolved]
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【Please confirm your choice】
"ah···"
Understood.
Su Yao completely understood.
In the final analysis, no matter what, you can only choose one of the two. Either you or them.
It's really tolerant. Give yourself this choice.
[Your intention has been confirmed]
[I understand that due to your intention, you can no longer continue to be a romantic player]
[The love game will be automatically uninstalled and looking for the next player]
[Please confirm your intention one last time]
Uninstall···Select again?
It doesn't matter.
It really doesn't matter.
I have already said it, and after thinking about it, I will come to the same decision.
disappear--
It doesn't matter, isn't that much better than an endless loop?
[The love game has been successfully uninstalled]
[We all wish you a pleasant stay during the rest of your time]
think.
Is it really over now?
No more twists and turns.
There is no need to try to find any bugs. The love game has given me the last chance.
fine.
"Buzz-"
The phone vibrates for no reason.
Ahhh.
Maybe the credit company called.
“···”
no.
The caller ID is, Xia Xianyue.
Why?
He stood motionless, waiting for the phone to hang up automatically.
Su Yao found a lot of text messages again.
[The number I dialed before was unavailable, but I don’t know why it was no longer available at the intersection.]
【···】
The reason was this, she talked a lot about it in text messages.
[Hey, Youye said that he couldn’t find this number at all and told me not to try again.]
【But I am a girl, and sometimes I just want to trust my intuition.】
[Although I didn’t get through once, I sometimes wonder if Ah Yao didn’t answer the call on purpose?]
【Can you see the text message?】
【···】
[Now, Ah Yao must still be alive, right? Even if he sent us all away with his own hands, it must be hard to survive without a lovely girl like me by his side, right? 】
【···】
[Why don’t you answer the call? I really don’t want to cry, I just can’t control it. Just tell me, even if you just reply with something.]
【···】
【I miss you.】
【···】
【Youye misses big brother.】
[If you can see it, believe in Youye. Youye will find a way to crack the love game and bring the big brother back. 】
Very strange.
I have clearly read these text messages, but it cannot be displayed as read. It seems that the person who read these messages is dead and no longer exists.
It just makes things more difficult.
“···”
If I answer the phone, does it mean I can't make any sound?
Will replying to a text message only show that the delivery failed?
Better say goodbye.
He is already dead.
Don't do this again, please slowly forget it over time. Although I miss you very much, even if my heart is wrenching at this moment.