【Hey, Ah Yao, have you ever thought about the name of your child?】
[I think if it’s a daughter, she’ll call her Su Xiaocha, and if it’s a boy, she’ll call her...]
【···】
【So, promise me, you must live.】
——
Woke up in a strange dream again.
Ahhh.
Not right either.
This is reality.
A few days ago, after finishing tutoring work, I went to the channel to refresh the information after a long absence.
The debt has been paid off.
How do you feel when only their messages are left?
Su Yao remembered what she had seen on the Internet, where a classmate who had never spoken to him died. Whether they were familiar or unfamiliar, they would leave messages on the other party's social platform.
Although I don't want to think of people to such a tacky level now, it is the fact. Seek self-comfort.
However, unlike what I saw, my message board is unique.
Sad.
Collapsed.
Longing for.
Happy.
···
It's always going to change.
But there are only cold words. After all, they are for the ‘dead’. How can they be warm?
The signal received from the only remaining channel of compassion for oneself.
"No matter what, I just want to live well...this kind of request."
"There's no reason why I shouldn't satisfy you, right?"
“···”
Living seriously may not have any real meaning.
There is no way to redeem a muddled life, but after all, I don’t want to hold empty beer cans and cigarettes and stare blankly at the sizzling sound of the air conditioner.
If you don't do anything, you may commit suicide after quite some time.
Um.
Don't want to kill myself.
It may be strange to say this, but that's it. Su Yao feels disgusted with that kind of thing and gives up his life casually. Of course, it is probably a bit strange for a person like him?
——
episode.
Today is the last day to go to Jasmine's house.
Her mother told her that starting from today, which is the end of this week, she would have to report to school for more than half a month. Although she was recommended, Fuyuichi University Affiliated High School stipulated that she needed to attend a certain number of days in order to successfully graduate.
"Teacher Su is here~"
"Um."
From the beginning, she was instigated by her mother to come out, but now she is already waiting downstairs every day before Su Yao goes.
"Teacher Su, I spent another week writing a new story!"
"Dang Dang Dang~"
"It's a short story similar to Otoichi's Zoo! Hehe."
Very familiar with it, he took out the manuscript he had written secretly.
She will get closer unconsciously.
It seems that since the day at the Comic Exhibition, she has focused on distance in some aspects, and has become closer in some places.
Dressing up also changes day by day.
At the beginning, she was a rustic girl who occasionally wore round glasses and two thick braids.
But now it's slowly becoming too much.
My glasses were replaced with contact lenses, and I think I also wore colored contact lenses?
She no longer wears braids. She has changed her hair to a cute shawl that exposes her ears. Her clothes are neither casual pajamas nor JK uniforms worn only for school.
Today, she wears a light pink round neck, loose short sleeves, and dark blue jeans with slightly shorter trousers. The snow-white thighs are dazzling.
"Old, teacher?"
Perhaps because she realized that she was being watched, she curled the hair on her cheek with her fingers in embarrassment.
"The writing is good, and it is publishable."
"Really?!"
"real."
"yeah!"
When he got excited, he shook his arms, and when he noticed it, he stuck out his tongue a little shyly.
"By the way, teacher, I have a surprise for you."
"surprise?"
Su Yao was pulled to the room where the piano was placed without any explanation, and she motioned to sit aside.
“···”
"~"
Although her playing skills are average, her playing rhythm is brisk and smooth.
Where the stars are.
No matter what, I feel melancholy and nostalgic.
"Actually... I like this melody very much."
"But I'm a homebody to begin with."
"If people find out that I like this song again, they will definitely think that I am a cynical person or something, so..."
"I didn't think of it until later!"
"This piece of music is signed with the teacher's name. After checking, it turns out that the music was really composed by the teacher. It really shocked me!"
"Well, well, I'm not very good at playing..."
She said slightly uneasily, "Can you listen to me, teacher?"
“···”
Su Yao didn't refuse either.
Whenever I hear it, or play it, or play it like now, Where the Stars Are.
A large number of images will appear in my mind, which are vivid and seem to be close at hand.
I sincerely feel that in addition to basic music skills, people's mood is also an important factor that affects the style of music.
“So awesome...”
Jasmine folded her hands, not hiding her inner admiration at all.
"Practice makes perfect, and besides, this is one of my favorite songs."
“···”
After leaving the piano room, I discussed some opinions about her manuscript with Jasmine, and then helped her submit the manuscript to the editor.
As for the composition, to be honest, Jasmine writes much better than Su Yao. What she lacks is the ability to control the rhythm of writing novels that she wants.
It may be a little late today.
In addition, Jasmine's mother warmly invited Su Yao to stay for dinner, which was disrespectful.
There were no disturbances.
——
"Jasmine, today is Mr. Su's last day, why don't you say goodbye to him?"
"Ah, bye, Teacher Su. Next year I will be the teacher's junior classmate."
She stood at the door and said a little shyly.
"Well, come on, go to college."
Su Yao waved his hand and left.
It's the end of August now.
I still remember it snowed when You Ye left, even though it was caused by her.
But it went by really fast.
"Crack."
Habitually lighting cigarettes after work.
The music teacher who initially helped Su Yao asked him if he wanted to accept her recommendation to study at a specialized music school. Su Yao refused.
After all, the music of this level is all because of the memories of those ten years that were rendered by Youye's ears and eyes.
What should I say?
It's just fragile. Although it sometimes takes the initiative to play it, but in popular terms, it is similar to Midnight Network Yiyun.
Anyway, it’s not something that can make you feel relaxed and happy.
"Buzz-"
As we were about to reach the station, the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Teacher! Wait for me!"
"What's the matter?"
"Please wait for me!"
Jasmine didn't say what happened, she just said something on the phone hurriedly and then hung up.
"call--"
The wind blowing from nowhere carries the faint scent of flowers and trees, and dissipates along with the smoke from cigarettes.
"Teacher Su..."
About ten minutes later, Jasmine's face was flushed, and she was probably running over, and she was bending over and gasping for breath.
"Go and talk over there."
Su Yao went to the park in the opposite direction to the station.
The closer you get to the river, the fewer people there are. After all, the repairs haven't been completed yet, and there are only a few street lights.
Jasmine had no objection to this decision, and unlike in the past when she would always find a topic to talk about, this time she followed him without saying a word.
"How are you here? I feel it's quite quiet. It's a good place to talk."
"···Um."
She lowered her head and couldn't see her expression clearly in this environment where the nearest streetlight was several meters away.
"Are you worried about anything?"
“···”
She said nothing, holding the hem of her short sleeves with both hands, as if to cheer herself up.
After a while, he finally plucked up the courage to raise his face.
"Teacher Su!"
"I like you--"
“···”
Su Yao looked at her speechlessly.
"I have never been interested in love before, but recently I got along with Teacher Su..."
"I don't know when I started to feel shy and my heartbeat was racing..."
"Become very caring."
"Teacher Su..."
"He is the best and gentlest man I have ever seen! I really like him!"
Although the words of confession are childish, the true feelings contained in them really exist.
In fact, no words are needed at all.
What she did overlapped too much with someone Su Yao knew well.
Suddenly put on makeup at a certain stage.
Avoid your own eyes.
Sometimes the atmosphere is intentionally ambiguous.
"I should have said that I have a girlfriend."
Su Yao smoked a cigarette lightly and pretended to smile bitterly, "Aren't you making things difficult for me?"
"It's a lie. Teacher Su doesn't have a girlfriend at all!"
"Since I became my tutor in June, I have never seen Teacher Su take a call from my girlfriend, nor have I sent messages to anyone, and I have never paid attention to the time."
"And there is no trace of a girl visiting Teacher Su's house at all!"
"...Ha, you are observing very carefully."
Su Yao sighed, "But have you ever thought about the time difference problem in long-distance relationships? When I was tutoring you, it was actually at night when she was there. There was no trace of her at home because she had indeed been gone for a long time.
.”
"No! I asked Teacher Zhu, and she said that Teacher Su... may have almost committed suicide because of a broken love."
At this point, she lowered her head again, "I'm sorry for inquiring into your privacy..."
"It's quite nerve-wracking."
Su Yao rubbed his temples, "But I'm sorry, I can't accept your confession. It's just because you haven't lived in a group for too long that you misunderstood that my paid care for you was a good intention and you felt warm.
I have a good impression."
"You will understand what I am saying now when you get to college."
"That's it. Go back early. Your mother will be worried if you run out without permission."
Su Yao didn't intend to continue talking.
Instead of endlessly explaining the matter of ‘do you have a girlfriend?’, it would be better to simply reject the question itself. That would be fine.
"Teacher Su..."
"Why do you think I can't distinguish my own feelings at a young age?"
"Whether you really like it or you're mistaken. I won't accept it."
"Is that because I'm a high school student and I'm afraid of being gossiped about? I'm worried that my family won't agree?"
“···”
"Teacher Su..."
"Do you really not feel my feelings for you at all? I feel happy when I see you every day, and I also start to learn to put on makeup... dress up. Pay attention to your words and deeds..."
She ran towards me and hugged me tightly from behind.
The baby cafeteria, which is more interesting than it looks, is close to her. At this time, she seems to have completely abandoned the sense of distance that she has been paying attention to recently.
"Age doesn't matter."
"So-"
"So, I just don't mean that to you. Moreover, I have said more than once that I have a girlfriend. My girlfriend is younger than you."
"Ugh... isn't that underage?"
"Who knows? Anyway, that's it, I have a girlfriend. So let it go, I can't accept your kindness."
"If there is... then Teacher Su, just show me the photo! Yes, if I see the photo, I will give up!"
“···”
Su Yao started to feel bored.
I had guessed from the time she called that it would become such a troublesome situation. Shouldn't she have been given a chance to speak from the beginning?
But in that case, she might do it again at some point in the future.
Guiding her to a quiet place where she can talk is also to save her face.
Is this unnecessary?
photo?
There is no such thing as warmth. It is the remnant of the love game. It is my greatest luxury to allow cold words to be revealed unilaterally through that small gap.
"Sorry, I have no obligation to show you the photos."
"I have already said that I cannot accept your kindness."
He forcefully opened her hand that was holding him tightly.
"Not at all...woo!"
"Lost... I can be like the heroine in the novel you wrote!"
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...why?"
"Whoa!"
She stopped where she was and cried like a child.
Su Yao said nothing and called her home.
What I got in the end was that, just now at the dinner party, I was treated with cold regards and even looked at him with disgust.
I think that's nothing.
After all, it was someone else's daughter who became such a mess after meeting her once.
Anyone who sees his daughter crying so miserably will not have a good look on the culprit who caused this situation.
But with a clear conscience.
I have never done anything out of the ordinary, nor have I ever thought about it.
Like the heroine in the novel?
That can't be done.
Who can replace whom?
What kind of expression would she show if she knew that someone dared to say that he could replace her so easily?
——
Although Jasmine's mother looked very ugly last night, all the rewards were paid.
ah.
Just didn’t get the promised red envelope.
That doesn't matter. Just take what you have to take.
Next, Su Yao prepared to do the work he wanted to do, publishing house, and doing odd jobs.
Try to raise enough money to travel within a year.
If you ask where this idea comes from, it just reminds you that Xia Xianyue accidentally said that she wanted to travel. Although now she can only travel unilaterally.
But it’s still something meaningful. It’s okay to use this as a goal, so I’ll treat it as the goal at this stage. Of course, being negative can also be called numbing yourself with work.
I thought so, and I did wash up, have breakfast, and put on a formal suit to prepare for the interview.
"jingle--"
But before Su Yao opened the door, someone knocked.
"Who are you looking for?"
Su Yao opened the door and found an unknown girl.
Um?
That's not right, it seems slightly familiar, but I can't remember it for a while.
"Um, hello!"
The girl in front of her was a little reserved, but her eyes were firm, "I want to find Su Yao, Teacher Su. Does Teacher Su live here?"
"Teacher? Not really a teacher, just a tutor."
Su Yao looked at her strangely, "You are from Jasmine's side..."
"Then you are Teacher Su Yao? Hello, Teacher Su, I am Jasmine's good friend, my name is Qiao Qing."
She bowed politely, and then said seriously, "I want to talk to you about Jasmine. Is it convenient for you now? If not, can you leave a phone number and I will contact you later?"
“···”
Seeing the girl wearing a JK high school uniform in front of her, Su Yao seemed to remember.
I probably saved her once.
And he killed her father in front of her.
"Um, are you listening?"
After waiting for Su Yao's answer for a long time, she couldn't help but ask again.
"Sorry, if you don't mind, just come in and talk. I have plenty of time now."
Su Yao felt quite subtle.
But she probably didn't remember it. After all, even if she survived and dealt with the aftermath, it was You Ye who did it, so there would be no mistakes.
Um.
Are you just here to find justice for your friends? When you think about it, the world is really small.