It was the rainy season that day, and the annoying rain still kept falling.
It's wet everywhere.
I still always have two umbrellas in my shoe cabinet, but now I no longer have the motivation to be scheming. Or in this information age, where good things don’t go out and bad things spread thousands of miles, I don’t think I can still pass this kind of thing.
How to establish friendship with whom.
So, I plan to take the umbrella back.
I can’t say whether I hate rainy days or whether I like them. The only thing I can say for sure is that I’m not happy when everything is wet.
In the past, I would have gone straight home in this kind of weather, but I didn't want to today.
There is no one waiting. There is no need to go home as soon as possible, since I won’t see anyone anyway.
The saying that all men are created equal is a complete lie.
It has nothing to do with wealth or status.
I exaggerated and said, "If your house is full of garbage and smells bad, then the people who carry your body out of the house will treat you like garbage. The neighbors will criticize you, and everyone will say
You are a trouble. Once this concept is deeply rooted in people's hearts, it will spread from ring to ring, and eventually your body will become a mess. No one will want to touch the body that smells bad and is still alive in the garbage."
What exactly is it?
Wasn't there a passerby who called the police?
"I'll give you the extra umbrella."
"It's broken, so what's wrong?"
I didn't want to wait for her answer any longer and said to myself, "If you want to die, wouldn't it be uncomfortable to choke to death? The water is so cold."
"Plop——"
Before I could react, I jumped again.
"Don't believe I want to die?"
“···”
But it's okay, I can get through it.
Suddenly, I saw her eyes.
She asked straight to the point.
I would like to modify this slightly for her use.
"Sorry, sorry, it was too late yesterday, I guess I was distracted. Ignore it... I will just delete it now."
I'm still not popular in college, haha, in general, I'm just a gloomy guy.
"Ah, let me tell you another secret. I often see primary school students peeing upstream. I compete under the bridge across the river upstream to see who can pee farther."
She wanted to continue reading, but I stopped her.
Even though she was a girl, sitting on the swing alone and swaying, she got wet all over.
"Feel···"
"Only the last one is interesting."
I obviously saw her expression change, and she looked at me with a very cold gaze.
“···”
"The corpse's face was so swollen and rotten that no one could recognize who it was. If it was accidentally poked with a sharp object, it would explode in an instant, and there would be that putrid smell... Can you imagine it? From a person's mouth.
Crawling out maggots——"
Returning to the apartment where I lived, I showed her the schedule I had changed since I stayed up late last night.
"broken."
Except for this little mistake, I just used things that I thought high school students like her might be interested in.
I made two cups of hot tea and gave her one cup.
"You said you choked when you jumped into the water downstream-"
That may be a brief resonance unique to the same kind. But I don't intend to meddle in it.
"I just gave the front foot an umbrella, and the back foot jumped next to me."
"Don't worry, go to my house first. I made a simple form yesterday."
When I first met her, I didn't have any special feelings.
the next day.
Doing something wrong, choosing the wrong thing, being embarrassed...etc., a series of big and small things all torture my heart.
In addition to most of the broken smartphones, there are also old old-fashioned mobile phones at home that can make calls. Just replace the cards.
Not long after, only the last cigarette was left in the half pack of cigarettes I was carrying.
Fortunately, when I went to help in the store where my mother worked, I was the only student, so I was fortunate enough to be invited to conduct fire drills and cardiopulmonary resuscitation demonstrations for them. I went there to study and study for this purpose, but I didn't expect that it would come in handy here.
.
It took her a long time to look at me and said inexplicably, "Have you ever died?"
I'm still a little uneasy. Although I said it so eloquently yesterday, whether she will come or not is another matter. After all, until the end of yesterday, she didn't make it clear that she would definitely come.
"I didn't ask you to pay for it either. Besides, if you wait until the hair dryer is dried, it might not be damaged."
"It's not good to die in the river because it pollutes the water source. The tap water we drink comes from this river."
"right."
Whenever this time comes, the demand for cigarettes will also increase sharply.
I guess she was confused.
I scratched my cheek in embarrassment and deleted this item instantly.
"Do you think I would advise you to live a good life? I'm too lazy to do that troublesome thing. Everyone has their own ambitions. It's up to you to do whatever you want."
"Stop talking."
She spoke in silence.
I took her back to the apartment where I lived.
“···”
I stayed up late and made a ppt.
"Of course."
"If it were like today, and neither I nor any other passerby found it, then your body would have sunk for several days before it floated up from some possibly smelly ditch."
She nodded silently.
Coming.
And before I could go over and pull her up, she crawled back on her own.
“···”
【1. Check in when traveling to scenic spots.】
I still didn't want to go home, and the rain gradually began to lighten up.
"On the other hand, if the house where you died is clean and you yourself are clean, then the people who come into the house will have a good impression of you. The neighbors may say that it is a pity that the child died.
, everyone’s impressions of you will be passed on in a positive way. In the end, the people who handle your body will not be so casual."
The name is very simple and crude, and the content is my own. It is based on my plan, a schedule that was occasionally changed after my mother left and huddled in a dirty small room all day long.
"You go back today and wait for me in the park tomorrow. I will come find you."
“···”
She continued to look.
"Another way to die?"
When I finished taking a shower and changed into clean clothes, I found her staring at my mobile phone on the coffee table.
Even the expected thing that required me to wait didn't happen. I went to the swing where I saw her soaked in the rain yesterday, and she was already sitting on it, waiting.
She glanced at me, then got up without saying a word, and staggered towards the river again.
I have a very strong premonition.
"Unfortunately, I have not died until today."
"without."
I wasn't going to say anything more, I just took out the extra umbrella from my shoulder bag and put it in her hand.
I nodded solemnly, "There are many things to consider. For example, if you choose to take sleeping pills and die in the house, but your house is full of garbage and smells bad, do you want to clean it first before you die?
?”
"Anyway, you continue to look at the schedule first. See if there is anything that needs to be modified."
“···”
"cell phone···"
A person who may have wanted to die but had not yet had time to act rescued another person who wanted to die but had already acted.
That is something that cannot be controlled and has nothing to do with subjective consciousness. It will emerge automatically.
"Do you remember your parents' phone number?"
"Does death...need a plan?"
Still no answer.
"Are you still planning to commit suicide?"
It was probably not an illusion, I did hear the sound of something falling into the water while lighting the cigarette.
Everyone seems to have their own goals, but I am the only one holding an umbrella and walking aimlessly.
"Dead people don't think about what happens after death. As long as they die comfortably, that's all."
"7. Wear flower pants to swim in the swimming pool?"
"Those who don't know better think I instigated you to dance."
"What do you think will wash up after the water recedes besides garbage and silt?"
【2. Go to the amusement park to experience all the items.】
Um.
"Are you... playing something very novel?"
She was a little surprised, as if she didn't expect me to say that.
Everyone has regrets, the difference is just more or less.
"Looks like you're not smart enough."
To the left?
To the right?
It doesn't seem to matter at all, it's the same everywhere.
In other words, what if I jump from here?
If you are a person who can swim, will you swim back automatically because of your survival instinct?
Or should I say that I am indifferent because of my own will.
"Don't you think it's uncomfortable and the body doesn't have to look disgusting after death?"
I smiled when I saw her nodding again after hesitating.
Because when I saw her falling into the water, my mind went blank, and I didn’t have time to take out my phone. The phone got soaked in water and broke.
I waved my hand and lit another cigarette, "Also, if the person died by diving, it would be better if he was fished out immediately when he was found."
To be honest, I was surprised too.
"Um."
"You'll know it when you see it."
"I guess you have never really seen it. When I took the driver's license test the year before last, a student's house was flooded, and the whole street was submerged."
"Not only this one, but all the previous ones are necessary to prevent regrets."
She was still there, still sitting indifferently. But now she was obviously trembling slightly more than before. Her slender hair was sticking to her cheeks and dripping water kept falling.
I smiled and said, "I simply believe that people cannot objectively see their own hearts and need objective facts to support them."
[Item 1: Bucket List]
So I could neither call the police nor call 120.
But then again, when I got to this point, my clothes were all soaked and my phone was probably scrapped.
And this guy is obviously the ungrateful type.
Why do you need to be so serious about helping strangers you don’t even know?
“···”
I have that kind of idea.
“···”
She was finally willing to speak and stared at me with a vicious look.
“···”
She tightened her body and her teeth were chattering, "...cold."
Just talking about the current situation, some people ran to the bus stop with schoolbags on their heads without umbrellas. Some people hugged each other and shared an umbrella... and some people ran towards the parked cars on the side of the road in anger.
For parents who have been waiting for a long time.
I understand what people who want to die are thinking, and I also know that the methods of the Inspectorate have no effect on people who really want to die. They may even be counterproductive.
"Go to hell...plan?"
Very unfortunate.
"?"
"Why do you want to save me?"
——
“···”
Only temporary cardiopulmonary resuscitation and artificial respiration can be done.
"Do you think I want to save you?"
She didn't answer.
She raised her face and looked at me with complicated eyes.
I ignored her at first. I thought, maybe she just had a quarrel with her family or something, and it was not the turn of a bereaved dog like me to care about her. Maybe I would get a call later or there would be an inspector or someone who would find this girl.
She picked it up.
"No money, compensation."
【33,Choose a place to die.】
"sheet?"
"What's wrong with the phone?"
From time to time, passers-by cast surprised glances at her, but no one really stepped forward to ask.
“···”
I took a sip of hot tea and asked again, "Why did you jump?"
I think the reason is probably because I have experienced it.
She wears rustic round glasses and the uniform she wears is probably from a school nearby. She is definitely younger than me.
"I'm talking about objective facts. You are asking for it if you feel disgusted."
Now that I think about it, I was just like a talkative young man who followed the rules and deceived ignorant girls.
There was a small slope covered with grass near the river. I sat on the shore and stared at the notice board saying 'No Swimming' or 'No Fishing'. Looking farther away, there were still dense raindrops falling on the water.
A negligible splash of water.
“···”
【···】
[Death plan list]
She turned to look at me.
Occasionally I do feel very tired, especially recently after my plan to live an optimistic life went bankrupt. That intense feeling of loneliness will always cut into my already riddled heart in the dead of night or when I am alone.
——
She does look cute when she takes off her glasses, but that's not the reason why I help her.
"That's OK."
“To prevent regret?”
I think... I don't know what I want to get from her. I just did it on a whim. I am sure that I have no intention of saving anyone, and my motives are not pure.
I blew out the mist and smiled casually, "You just got up from the river because you felt uncomfortable diving, right?"
“···”
I was really stunned.
She scrolled the mouse until she reached the last item on her bucket list.
I have been advised once, but that advice made me feel that I was a waste of society, a fool who only caused trouble to others, and wasted public resources.
"It is also called confirming whether you really want to die. If you still want to die after doing everything you can think of and want to do, then you can proceed to item 33. By then I believe everything will become very special.
If it goes smoothly, the process of dying will also reduce a lot of necessary trouble."
"Plop——"
This was the first thing he said after regaining consciousness.
"Crack."
After a long time, he returned to where she was sitting.
"Of course it's interesting. You have to visit places before you die, and it's also necessary to choose a Feng Shui treasure spot that you like."
"What to do?"
Why not give her a simple and rough twist and send her to the Inspectorate?
——
Let her take a hot bath and put on the pajamas left by her mother.
“···”
I nodded and puffed on the cigarette lightly, "Anyway, my suggestion is that you find another way to die."
——
"Crack."
“···”
I lit cigarettes one after another in the rain and walked around the park walk that I had walked many times before.
"Big mistake."
"You have to be careful when others are fishing for them. Do you know about floating corpses?"
“···”
"You need to proceed one by one. It only makes sense to read the second part when you have completed item 33. So, do you have anything to add?"
"It doesn't matter if you can't think of it now. You can add options at any time as you think about it as you go along."
I saw her staring at the computer screen, adding a line of text after a moment's hesitation.
'Choose a way to die that is painless and won't attract the attention of most people.'