Chapter 265 At least let me stay intact in the end
Chapter 265 At least let me stay intact in the end
People always feel lonely or inferior at night because they have nothing.
What about yourself?
Search and search, believing that there will always be your own pure white flower in this world.
That kind of thing was indeed found by oneself.
warmth.
Total infatuation.
However, it is still fundamentally damaged.
No one can tell exactly how many blows he can withstand, and no one can tell when he will go crazy or die.
After all, can an already damaged object really be healed?
In other words, after seeing the new warmth, it was covered up in detail, and it did disappear during that period, but it did not really disappear. It still exists deep in the heart, dormant like a poisonous snake, waiting until the new
The warmth was also completely destroyed, and it tore at human flesh and blood even more violently.
Even if there are all kinds of speculations, how can it be as good as truly remembering?
There were no tears.
“···”
Su Yao just climbed up from the bed in silence.
The light blue curtains fluttered slowly in the breeze, like ocean waves. The light occasionally penetrated with the ups and downs, and half of it melted into the curtains.
I smelled a very light fragrance.
Su Yao couldn't tell whether it was a simple shower gel or conditioner or some kind of perfume, but she could smell it.
There were obvious traces of someone's presence on the edge of the quilt, and there was also a faint heat.
I felt so warm in my dream.
A slender black hair curled up from the pillow, without indicating anything.
After lifting the quilt, Su Yao went to find clothes and changed into them.
The mobile phone rests quietly on the coffee table, and everything is taken care of properly and clean.
The laptop is also there, open.
"Woohoo——"
Press the button lightly, and the computer fan, which has not been cleaned for a while, will rotate and make a sound.
Small text remains in the screen document software.
【sorry···】
And another, a little wish or begging.
Su Yao picked up the phone and saw a lot of missed calls. All of them were unknown numbers.
I can't tell you what I feel.
Press the dial key.
Is this the only time you can do this? Really, in your own name.
“···”
I heard the other side burst into tears.
"Feel sorry."
Su Yao watched indifferently as the light outside the balcony rose and fell, with broken spots falling on the armrests of the sofa.
"I've made you worry for so long, please give me a little time."
"soon···"
"I'll be back."
——
Su Yao looked at the time, it was December 24th.
Christmas Eve.
Feel strange?
Anyway, the whole place is broken down, so there is nothing to do with the time.
"Senior, isn't it cold if you only wear this little clothes?"
She handed over a scarf and took the initiative to put it on Su Yao.
It is purely hand knitted.
“···”
Su Yao stood at the door, staring at her face intently.
The face was different from the ones I had seen before, full of joy. The mole on the right eye was obvious. The figure had grown a lot compared to the previous one, and the baby cafeteria was only one level smaller than Xia Xianyue.
Wearing a professional suit.
It's December, but it's not December 2015. It's December five years later.
Ahhh.
You know, today is the day she officially establishes herself in the workplace and becomes a regular employee.
There are no clothes from my student days in my wardrobe. They are all formal and casual clothes that I later entered society.
"Crack."
Su Yao lit a cigarette and walked ahead in silence.
"Ah, senior is smoking cigarette casually on the street again."
She preached with great style.
The house I lived in was still Su Yao's old apartment, but there was a familiar car parked in the parking space. A second-hand Buick.
After Su Yao got in the car, she immediately sat in the passenger seat and looked ahead happily.
"call···"
The smoke he exhaled filled the car. Su Yao pressed down the window and looked outside, "Does this... make sense?"
"I don't understand what the senior is talking about."
She still laughs.
"I'm asking you..."
"Does this really make sense?!"
As he spoke, he clenched his teeth unconsciously. Maybe he was just short of a critical point before he exploded.
"My senior told me that people should define the meaning of their own lives."
"I can't act well."
"It doesn't matter. We don't have many lines anyway. Come to an end soon and seniors and I can have a good rest."
“···”
In silence, Su Yao started the car.
There were people on the road, and there were also more cars on the originally empty road.
More and more familiar images.
The giant LED screen of the building at the intersection reads '2020 Snow Country Economic Summit Opening Ceremony'. A huge pendulum building stands on the other side of the lively pedestrian street. It is a haunted house and escape room with weird themes that were later renovated in amusement parks.
"It was really scary at first."
"Such a small child, only a little bigger than the palm of your hand, dozens of them came down at the same time."
"I'm really afraid something will happen."
"But... the senior who taught me was very patient and I learned it quickly."
“···”
The place where she was sent was a maternal and infant home, where she took care of the children, including swimming, childcare, and enlightenment.
"So, see you in the afternoon, senior?"
“···”
Su Yao couldn't respond to her smile and could only watch her disappear into the mother and baby center.
I know I have something to do.
But no matter what, I couldn't take a step forward.
Are you kidding me?
Is now the time to do something pointless like this?
What’s the point of repeating it where it’s false?
The meaning of bullshit!
Ask about ‘love games’ and there will be no answer.
Ahhh.
There is nothing difficult to understand. I never answer any of my own questions. I only regard myself as a fool and an idiot. I hide in the dark corner of the auditorium and watch myself struggling. It’s funny.
A voluntary idiot.
Before dying, he voluntarily cooperated with the love game, but as a price, he omitted the most important thing.
What kind of good thing is this?
Completely putting the cart before the horse!
How could it be...
The person who went to find her became the one who was found.
If you find out your mobile phone number, who can you find?
If You Ye was really smart enough to solve the love game, then he wouldn't have been so helpless and desperate that he forgot his memory and allowed himself to choose to be sent away.
Maybe I can make a wish like Qiao Qing?
Stop joking!
That is a dirty thing that eats people without spitting out their bones, and I... am not a being who can abandon everything.
"I can···"
"There is one thing, no matter what happens to me, as long as they..."
"Bang!"
Su Yao punched the steering wheel, and his mouth was bloody and bloody.
How funny.
Precisely because it was a dirty thing, I could immediately see that it was not my true thoughts at all. How could I possibly accept my own words of relief?
Who is such a good person?
If he hadn't gotten to know Xia Xianyue and You Ye, he might have been able to say this firmly, but now - there was nothing he could do.
Su Yao drove home.
He didn't call Qiao Qing as before, didn't drive to prepare a surprise, and didn't pick her up.
Just huddled inside the apartment.
In addition to the apology, the document on the computer also has a second half.
[Can you let people like me make up for my regrets? 】
Feeling terribly sad.
What?
What regrets...
Any attempt to make amends here is all false.
"Buzz."
The phone rang.
"——"
Su Yao took a few seconds to pick it up.
"Senior..."
The voice over there was very soft, but it was very different from what I heard in the morning, "If you don't do what I want, I won't send you back, okay?"
“···”
The phone hangs up.
Su Yao smoked several cigarettes before picking up the car keys and going out.
——
"Wow, your wife is so beautiful."
"It matches this wedding dress so well. Why don't you try it out in formal wear? We have a professional studio where you can take wedding photos first. If you think it looks good, you can also make an appointment with our contracted photographer."
“There is no charge for the photo-taking experience.”
“···”
She held Su Yao's arm and always smiled sweetly.
And Su Yao couldn't force a smile no matter what.
"Trouble... senior, please smile too."
As if nothing happened, he scratched Su Yao's armpit.
"good."
"1.2.3~"
"Eggplant~"
The photos she took were collected as treasures.
Then he went out to play skewers again.
After eating and drinking, we took a walk in a nearby park. Because today was Christmas Eve, it was particularly lively. There were couples holding hands everywhere, and it was rare to see a tiger walking alone.
At what point in time did Su Yao become completely intolerable?
"I said..."
In short, I said it bluntly, "The acting skills of trying to force the villain to be like this are so obvious that even a stupid person like me can understand it."
"Or am I missing the point?"
"Um?"
She didn't care at all. Instead, she let go of her hand and took small steps in front of her. She looked directly at Su Yao with a smile on her face, "Senior, do you think I'm thinking one step more or one step less?"
“···”
Su Yao lit another cigarette and stopped where she was without looking at her face.
Go and gaze at those illusory people and scenery. Colored lights are hung on the trees, and they look beautiful when they flash.
But the light is spreading more and more, as if it will disappear soon.
"Why···"
"You want that to happen to me?"
"What kind of thing?"
"Don't act stupid for me!"
The sudden high-pitched voice attracted the attention of many people, but Su Yao didn't care at all.
"Senior can kill me to relieve his anger."
She seemed to be joking, but her tone was serious.
“···”
"Senior is always like this. Like a child."
"It's not that much."
"How long have you lived in this world, senior? It's actually only about a year, right?"
"But I actually lived for more than 20 years."
"I say it's a pity, but actually I just think it's interesting. If senior is really bored, I can send him back now. Anyway, things are almost done. After senior leaves, I can do whatever I want in this world."
"Na na."
"Senior, you probably don't understand yet, right?"
"I'm a superman here. Have you ever seen People of the Motherland? The first second I get superpowers, I want to protect the earth. The second second, I am a native of the motherland. It's super interesting."
"Senior is still too conservative!"
"No, that's not the case. The seniors don't dare to promise a price for the love game because they have a bond with them. But I don't have that, so I can do whatever I want. The price is just to stay here."
"It doesn't matter at all. Why go back to such an interesting place?"
She shrugged nonchalantly, "Since the seniors are tired of this kind of playing house game, then I'll just send the seniors back."
"Those two people must be crazy about senior, right? It's better for me to be like this, free from worries and worries, just do whatever I want."
“···”
She walked in the opposite direction, but Su Yao still stopped and looked at her.
Stare at the top of her head.
He spoke slowly, "You should know what the entry is, right?"
“···”
When she heard this, she stopped in her tracks.
"You have the entry."
"It's...what?"
Even though the sentence is still trying to stay calm, the tone has changed.
"The nameless seclusion, description, and perhaps the existence of a little bit of value."
"What a pitiful description, but I did it myself when I had nothing to do."
"The love game no longer recognizes you as a player, and will only recognize one player. Me."
"How could that happen?"
She still had her back to Su Yao and her tone was relaxed, "If you don't admit that I am a player, then everything around me -"
Before he finished speaking, all the passers-by just disappeared.
The leaves also stopped swaying and no longer made any sound when blown by the wind.
The whole world stopped, leaving only Su Yao and her breathing.
"ha···"
She turned around and showed a helpless smile, "It turns out that the senior has been cooperating with me in acting. Unfortunately, I thought my acting skills were good. It seems that my acting failed again."
"I want to be serious with you..."
"What are you serious about? Do you want to stay here with me?"
“···”
"If you want, I can help the seniors call them now and tell them that the seniors only love me and are tired of playing with them."
“···”
"Since I can't do it, seniors should accept my acting skills honestly! Does it have to be like this? Does it look good like this?"
"Can't you please make up for the regrets I had before to satisfy myself?"
"What about the vow of love and never forgiving that woman? Now, not only that woman, but also the senior has two."
"How can you be so loyal? I don't like my senior that much, and seniors shouldn't be too self-righteous. Thinking about it now, maybe I like Jasmine more, just because Jasmine is a girl like me."
"The fact that I can find a senior student proves that I can definitely find a new and better one."
"Ah...it's true!"
"I also said that I wanted to leave one last good impression on the seniors and pretend to be a good person. Forget it now."
"Senior, please disappear as soon as possible. What I hate the most in my life are scumbags."
“···”
Su Yao followed her to the passage and followed her instructions and stood on the opposite side.
"This way it's okay, and I can't continue acting."
"Senior, please leave now. I can just find a handsome guy to play with. There are so many troubles. It's just like acting in a Korean drama."
“···”
Su Yao remained silent and just stared at her from the other side.
wait.
“···”
Her expression finally froze at a certain moment.
"Buzz."
The phone rang.
"Why···"
"There is no way to repatriate."
“···”
Su Yao looked at the sky, what was his mood? He couldn't explain clearly.
He just answered the question calmly, "As I said just now, the love game no longer recognizes you as a player, only me."
"Did I really fail in my performance?"
"Almost. I already knew what you wanted to do from the moment you left the message."
"It sounds like senior knows me very well."
"After all, you have been my girlfriend for so long, so you know the temperament of the person you like."
"What nonsense are you talking about! You bastard! Do you still want to break up with me? Get out of here if someone is waiting for you! Why do you have to play with me? If you can go back, get out of here!"
“···”
He didn't care even if he was being scolded, he just held the phone quietly and looked at her.
"I, what should I do to take you back?"
“···”
"I want this, I want that, how can it be such a good thing?"
"Senior, can you act like a man?! It's really disgusting."
“···”
How long has it been silent?
That's what I said.
"Ugh...please, senior."
Because of Su Yao's indifference, she finally said with a gradually breaking down cry,
"sorry···"
"It's not too late to disappear now. I don't want to be seen... I don't want to leave any more sad memories for my seniors."
"At least let me stay in the senior's memory completely in the end."