Su Yao looked at that petite figure for a long time, speechless.
The tea in the tea cup gradually lost its temperature and became as cold as those words.
"From the source."
“···”
"Is this the only optimal solution?"
After a long time, Su Yao broke the silence.
"You Ye thinks, no."
She shook her head, and her long black hair swayed with the movement.
Now, her hair is longer. Except for the same fake cat ears, her hair has reached her slender waist.
"Future Youye never said why he did this."
"So Youye can only guess."
"If You Ye wants to do anything, even if it means going back to the past and messing everything up, that would be one thing."
"After all, it's because of my elder brother."
"Although Youye doesn't know what happened between big brother and future Youye in another future."
"But as long as you confirm this, understand it from You Ye's own perspective."
"You Ye neither agrees nor objects to anything that You Ye does in the future. Because if you move the current You Ye to the future, there is a high probability that he will do the same thing."
"As for Youye in the past, Youye understands it better. But I don't agree with it, and I don't object to it either."
"What is the optimal solution?"
"You Ye thought that it must be a method that can only be known by an external factor that is interested in the big brother and meets the big brother in some way."
"To say that the frequency is exactly the same, but the confusion and resistance to external factors remain the same regardless of the past, future, or present Youye."
"But to think about it in another way, if everything should develop on the right track."
"Then a lot of things will be thrown away together."
"Youye can trust that Youye in the past could do things very well, and he would do everything down to the smallest detail without leaving any omissions."
"But eldest brother can still meet You Ye and remember it."
"This proves that the story is not over yet and that external factors still have certain expectations for Big Brother."
“···”
Su Yao still felt uncomfortable after taking a sip of tea.
"here."
While thinking, Youye took out a box of cigarettes that Su Yao had never seen before from the wall closet in the living room.
"These are specially made cigarettes for You Ye Lai."
"Thanks...ah, um."
Light a cigarette.
This is completely different from the one Su Yao bought himself. It has a light fragrance. It is similar to Mint Marlboro but better than that. The smoke is not choking.
Youye looked at Su Yao with a very soft look, which made him unable to tell whether he felt good or bad.
"that···"
"So, do you know what external factors are?"
After lightly puffing on the cigarette, I finally spoke.
"have no idea."
Youye shook his head, "Here, after living with my elder brother, because I really couldn't understand it, I just followed what my elder brother said and stopped thinking about things I couldn't understand, wasting time."
"I...have had some contact with it."
"edit."
“Do you remember the editor to whom I submitted my manuscript?”
"There's no need to talk to You Ye now. Now, even talking to You Ye can't help."
Youye raised his hand, "Well, it's already time."
The tips of her fingers became transparent, just like the shadow of Xia Xianyue.
"There is only one thing you can do to help your big brother right now."
“···”
"Don't feel bad about what you're going through right now."
"Because you are the big brother in the past, you don't have to worry about anything that should happen in the future."
"But, it's because he is the big brother from the past."
"So, maybe I can find Yu Ye again. Just like I found Yu Ye in the smelly sewer a long time ago."
She stepped closer again, this time she didn't sit on Su Yao's lap, but her height was just about the same as Su Yao's, looking straight into Su Yao's eyes.
"Whether it is Youye in the past or Youye in the future, the current Youye cannot completely agree with his approach."
"If possible, can you try to find Yu Ye again?"
"I···"
I don't know why, seeing that still slightly childish face, the tip of Su Yao's nose felt sore and her eye sockets began to feel warm.
"Brother, don't feel sad. This is just a small request."
"I don't have a mind like yours, and I don't have the computing power like you...I, really..."
"That's not right. Big brother is very powerful."
You Ye reached out and caressed Su Yao's cheek, "If the eldest brother is really a useless human being, how could You Ye like him?"
"Even if it is caused by external factors, if you are a coward, even if you get something like that, there will still be no good results."
"Big brother said that."
"The brave heart of mankind is the most powerful weapon that mankind is good at."
"It is also the most attractive place for Youye."
"Neither the past Yuye nor the future Yuye said the words buried deep in my heart, so I have to let the current Yuye speak."
"Brother... just try to find You Ye again. Those memories... are very precious things. If there is another way, You Ye doesn't want to disappear like this."
"Even though I have been living with my big brother for decades, I am very satisfied when I can't find anything new and interesting to do and create memories. But when I think about having nothing, or even being forgotten by my big brother, I still feel lonely.
"
"So...if big brother still cares about Youye, try your best one last time."
"If you fail, then don't think about You Ye anymore."
"And stop thinking about external factors."
"Actually, that's a problem that will become even more desperate once you figure it out."
"You know what external factors are?"
“···”
"Well, that's why Youye can meet big brother with such a relieved attitude."
Most of her body has disappeared, leaving an inexplicable smile, "Because, the worst result is that You Ye never exists from now on."
“···”
there is none left.
The room was empty, except for the cigarettes that Youye had taken out just now and those still on the coffee table.
"Crack."
Pull one out and light it.
"Cough cough cough."
I was choking, and my throat was so raw.
Tears also came out.
I don't know if it was because I was choking, or if I just felt really sad all of a sudden.
Take out your phone.
I called that inexplicable editor, but in the dream world, the direct message was that the number was empty.
【What do you expect from me?!】
[Turning my original trajectory into such a mess!]
【What exactly do you want from me?!】
【···】
I sent several messages without any purpose, but nothing happened.
The other person's avatar is gray.
Disheartened, I walked to the passage.
I woke up from the dream.
It's only one o'clock in the morning, and there is a warm body curled up next to it. But now I can't feel any temperature.
Unconsciously, I drove my body to take the cigarette and quietly left, going to the balcony.
Covered with curtains and leaning against the floor-to-ceiling windows.
When I see the railing, I remember that I almost threw Yu Ye away, and I see the traces left by the two tails on it.
I also left some dried fish here and wanted to practice it for her.
Sometimes when the weather is nice, I will put a chair here to read or write in a notebook.
At that time, You Ye would climb up like a lazy cat, sit in his arms and sway his tail comfortably. If someone saw him, he would also deliberately blow up his hair like a cat, and show his teeth to scare the other person. But how do you see it?
It's all like being cute.
“···”
"Huh, ah..."
What's going on?
Sitting on the cold ground, leaning against the floor-to-ceiling windows, I suddenly started shaking uncontrollably.
Warm tears also fell in large numbers.
What light words.
It's just that she never existed.
Just let yourself try hard.
What's the big deal?
I once thought about abandoning her here, but now it's okay.
destiny.
time.
What a mess.
Don't want to think about it.
But many memories automatically appeared in my mind.
Wearing a ring, you will call me husband in front of people and children, but you will still call me eldest brother behind people.
The two children are very cute.
Now that I think about it, I was very happy at that time.
When going out to play, she would often jump up and down, and happily pull herself to look at this and that. Unlike Xia Xianyue, who has a bold personality when she turns off the lights indoors, You Ye likes to pull herself out to play.
Uncontrollable tears.
It's really weird. Even knowing the fact that my mother is actually just a shadow doesn't make me feel that sad. I can't cry.
You Ye suddenly disappeared, and there was no one.
Xia Xianyue's notes were deleted by herself, and she couldn't remember many things or anything.
I didn’t know from the landlord that Qiao Qing died three years ago.
Very strange.
But now, when nothing happened, I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't control my trembling no matter what.
“···”
Until, a warm hand pulled me into my arms.
"Ah Yao, I'm always here."
They are also very warm words.
Please please don't do this.
The last thing you need at this time is comfort, it will be even more ugly.
Xia Xianyue didn't ask anything, she just hugged herself tightly and gently stroked her back.
"I have long felt that Ah Yao has something on his mind."
"It's best to let it out once in a while. If you keep holding it in any longer, you'll really need to see a psychiatrist."
"Can you tell me?"
"Because she is a girl who absolutely loves Ah Yao, so she can tell me no matter what happens."
“···”
"Ah, not now. Just talk to me when Ah Yao is in a better mood and wants to say something. Now be obedient. Just like I rely on Ah Yao, Ah Yao can just rely on me occasionally."
Haven't been like this for a long time.
He curled up into a ball in disbelief, tears streaming down his face.
It's really very embarrassing.
She was squatting there, holding Su Yao like this without moving. Maybe it had been too long, and her legs had long been numb. But there was nothing, just gentle transmission of the warmth she could.
Can you rely on her?
That is impossible.
For her, she can only say that it happened because she remembered her mother.
She can only lie to anyone who finds herself like this. But speaking of it, she is the only person left who can find herself like this.
If she didn't even exist, would he go crazy in an instant?
I really don't know.
But the dream did end briefly.
"Buzz."
The phone will deliver new information at a time that only Su Yao can notice.
【Any creature that follows the logic of time is happiest when it can choose its time.】
【Now, do you understand this fact?】
[You who tell me over and over again that you are weak are actually incomparable to anyone else. You possess the greatest treasure in the world.]
[Of course, when you use time unscrupulously, you will naturally leave behind costs that you are not aware of. 】
[I think what you need now is not repair, that will only make you more depressed.]
[So, it’s still early, and the journey you should witness still needs to continue. 】
There was no time to rest, so she just lay down, Xia Xianyue hugged herself and reluctantly fell asleep.
The strength was even stronger than when he was awake, as if he was afraid of losing himself.
Pass her warmth closely.
Feeling this temperature, the nightmare began again.
This time it was next to the train tracks.
"Ding ding dong——"
The lights warning that a train is about to pass come on.
Su Yao saw a girl wearing a beautiful tutu standing on the edge, raised her feet and walked into the track where pedestrians were not allowed to enter.
That's jasmine.
She could already see the locomotive in the distance, and she just stood there and closed her eyes.
“···”
She couldn't see Su Yao, just waiting there.
"really···"
"Still can't do it."
In the last few seconds, she left again, watching the train pass by with a pale face.
I can't tell whether it's because of fear or something else.
"Buzz."
Her cell phone is vibrating.
"Xiao Qing?"
“···”
"Ah, I just... went to take a shower. Haha, I played badminton in the morning and I was sweating badly, so I took a shower."
"Really? It's good that it's going very smoothly."
“···”
Her tone was always cheerful on the phone, but only Su Yao here knew that her face was getting paler and her body was swaying.
The perspective always follows her.
I saw her moving to a rapeseed field not far from the track, staring blankly at the golden rapeseed flowers.
Made the call again.
“···”
"Sorry, I came out without permission because I suddenly wanted to see the rapeseed flowers."
"My position is..."
Probably someone came to pick her up.
She flipped through her phone again and found the photo album.
Su Yao recognized that photo.
It was taken by me helplessly after being dragged to the Comic Con by her.
"I originally said that I would let the teacher experience what it feels like to be attracted by a cute girl."
"As a result... I was beaten to the spot by a good friend."
"If we just leave like this, Xiao Qing will probably think it's her fault."
"Ah, it would be nice if I could stop being a good person."
"Just kidding."
She smiled and flicked the photo on the phone screen, "You're a bad teacher, you still said you were unhappy, and I've already easily deceived two girls."
Although she was smiling, she was not relaxed. She was breathing rapidly and clutching her chest, as if she might die at any moment.
Her parents found this place so anxious that their faces were blue with worry.
She needs morphine.
The patients next to her have drastically changed their temperaments due to physical reasons and often become very irritable.
That man is very strange.
When he was in pain, he would grit his teeth and refrain from making any sound. Instead, after being injected with morphine for pain relief, he would become violent and abuse animals. He would stare cruelly at the kittens and puppies and make pitiful screams under his ravage.
Not long after, the man died. When he was pushed out of the ward, Jasmine saw him through the crack in the door next door.
Jasmine was nicknamed the strongest little angel by nurses and other familiar medical staff.
Because she was always optimistic and smiling whether she was having an attack or not, no one ever noticed anything unusual about her. Everyone said she would get better.
Even though he was about to undergo surgery with a low success rate, he still smiled.
Only Su Yao could see it now. She waited for everyone to leave and then turned on her phone. The faint light illuminated her face as pale as snow.
【If I fail to wake up, please read what I said.】
The thin fingers couldn't stop trembling.
After typing just a few lines, I couldn't help hugging my knees, curling up and crying.
She is not a strong little angel, she is also afraid. She just simply doesn't want people to know.
Only now do I know that she even thought about leaving a message to herself.
"There's nothing wrong with confessing your love before you might die, right?"
“···”
"Forget it, it will cause trouble for the teacher."
"Ugh... I just experienced the feeling of liking someone, and I'm about to die."
“···”
She wanted to change it to wishing that she and Qiao Qing would be together well, but after thinking for a long time, she still didn't send it. She simply left the words to her parents, relatives and Qiao Qing, and when others came again, she smiled again.
Tell others.
"I'm not worried, why should you be worried?"
Just pretending to be calm, he was pushed into the operating room and put under anesthesia.
Then, he never sat up again and closed his eyes forever.