Chapter 286 I Can't Be the Only One Who Knows Interesting Things
Chapter 286 I can’t be the only one who knows interesting things
It seems it's not over yet.
Before he could exit the dream world, in a world where no one could observe him, Su Yao could only choose the passage.
Then step through the passage and enter the next place, which is a very historical place.
During that time in 2015, it was already rare to see shops renting and selling DVD discs and selling Superboy game consoles on the streets.
At that time, the store could still sell more than a dozen guns that could shoot bullets and shoot birds.
Su Yao couldn't remember when this memory occurred.
You can only let the scene move around until the focus falls on your own home.
Memories from long ago.
My parents haven't divorced yet, it's just a cold war.
Su's mother was not actually a strong woman at the beginning. She had a very low status in the marriage and always accommodated her father in every possible way.
Even if the other person is very drunk, he still serves the other person patiently.
It's really blurry.
I don’t understand why I would let myself come to such a place to explore meaningless memories.
There is still some impression.
That was the day my parents quarreled the most. It wasn't the intense words and actions, but the atmosphere. It was so depressing that even I, who was very young at the time, felt scared.
"You have women's hair and the smell of perfume."
"So what?"
"fine."
“···”
It was also the first time that Su's mother completely ignored her father who came back drunk early in the morning and sat in the hallway snoring.
It is still easy to understand if I witness it from myself now.
Su's mother is fundamentally a submissive character, but she is different from someone who completely surrenders. She can tolerate her husband's bad habits, and she thinks they can change them little by little. But she cannot tolerate cheating.
Once a third party intervenes, she won't even be interested in quarreling.
"divorce?"
"Just leave if you say so!"
"Didn't you always plan to do this? It's just what you wish for."
"Are you kidding me? You just go out for a drink and you have to leave?"
“···”
"You already know?"
"There's nothing to say. I've already hired a lawyer to calculate the property. I won't take any extra points from you, and I won't treat myself any less."
"Hey, hey, let me tell you, is it really good for you to say this in front of your children?"
"Xiao Yao, be obedient and go out to play with your friends first. Just stay in the community and don't run too far."
"Mom doesn't want dad anymore?"
“···”
Remembered.
I was quite an asshole back then.
Because my father always bought me toys and took me to eat a lot of things that my mother wouldn't allow me to eat, I liked my father more at that time and didn't like my mother who was always very strict with me.
At that time, I also thought that my mother had done something wrong, and this time I should just ignore the quarrel as I did before.
When I was young, I didn't know that adults would put on hypocritical masks in front of children, and their true colors would be revealed after the children left.
But what’s the point of still looking at these things and thinking about them now?
Maybe the father is still alive, but he has no desire to see or reconcile, and the mother... has passed away long ago.
"I hate you!"
Unable to stand the atmosphere among adults, I ran out.
Huh?
Did you have friends at that time?
It seems that no one feels comfortable going out alone, even if they are less than 7 years old.
It's really too long ago.
I can still remember some things from elementary school, but things before elementary school are too vague.
Su Yao saw a child sitting on the slide and looking down.
But when he was young, he went out in a bad mood and saw her, "You are a coward, you dare not come down even if you are so short."
"Look at me."
“···”
How to say it.
Maybe it's because the atmosphere at home makes me feel bad, so when I see such a coward, I want to show that I'm stronger than her and laugh at him. It's a typical brat mentality.
But the other party simply ignored him as he slid down the edge again and again and made faces. He just hugged his knees and continued to stare at the bottom of the slide.
"——"
Pushed.
He must have pushed her down from behind.
"If you don't want to play, don't stand still!"
Su Yao didn't want to admit that he had done such a thing, but he really seemed to have vague memories slowly coming back to him.
If I remember correctly——
Sure enough, the little girl didn't cry after being pushed down by him. She just patted her skirt and moved to another place in a daze as she looked at herself.
Parents' quarrels don't end in a day or two.
From the moment Su's mother said she wanted a divorce, everything really started to happen. Under the witness of my young self, people I didn't know came to talk to my parents all night long.
Someone who should probably be called grandpa came to the house and said unpleasant things to my mother. To put it bluntly, it meant that they looked down on people like my mother.
It was also at that time that even my young self gradually understood that although my mother said she didn't want to go on living, in fact...it was presumed that there was someone else responsible for the development of this matter.
"Dad, did you find another mother?"
"Why did you say it? After all, your mother said it to that extent..."
"You don't want me anymore?"
"I gave up custody rights and at least let you stay with your mother."
Not really.
He just doesn't want himself and doesn't need a superfluous role like himself to interfere with his new life.
What he said was always high-sounding.
He always hides it in front of himself and denies the fact of cheating.
"Mama, why didn't dad come back today?"
“···”
"Did you really find another mother?"
"have no idea."
"Then what do we do?"
"Can't I support you without him?"
"But everyone else has a dad."
"Others have everything, do you have it?"
“···”
At that time, I didn't know how my mother was feeling. She just felt uncomfortable and wanted to seek a reasonable explanation and be comforted. But in the end, she only received a cold response.
I would only be hugged by my mother when I cried, but at that time I couldn't accept this reluctant hug.
During the day, I met the dazed little girl again.
This time, I was no longer in the mood to tease her, and just sat on the slide in a daze like her.
"Go away, didn't you see me here?"
If a kid wanted to play with him, my younger self would tell him to get out with a straight face.
It's okay to be the king of children when there are no adults, and it's okay to be unpopular.
I bumped into her in the same place about the third day.
"Why do you always sit here in a daze?"
Only then did my younger self speak to her.
“···”
But she didn't pay any attention to it.
Of course, these days I generally understand that she may not like to talk.
At that time, I simply wanted to find someone to talk to.
So regardless of whether she responded or not, I just kept talking about all the bad things that happened recently.
"I really don't understand why it has to be like this. It would have been fine in one day at most."
I sighed.
“···”
She finally looked at me and then looked back, "I envy you so much."
"Huh? Envy?"
"The reason why your parents can live together until now is because they cherish you."
"That's weird. If you cherished me, you wouldn't be as annoyed as you are now. You don't care about me at all."
"My parents were in a mess because of me. I was like a disaster."
"What’s wrong with you?"
"My... parents don't have problems, I have them since I was born."
"What's the problem?"
"I don't know. I just know that neither my father nor my mother's family like me. They say it's best to send someone like me to an orphanage."
"The same goes for me. My father's family calls me a country bumpkin."
"Do I look like it?"
I lifted up my sleeves that were still stained with mud, and my body was dirty because I was playing with a train in the sandpit.
"puff."
This is the first time I've seen her smile. She's very pretty.
I still don't know what's wrong with her that makes her unpopular. I just think she has a weird personality but is a nice person.
Later, I no longer cared about what my parents wanted to do, but I looked forward to meeting her the next day.
I financed the small train, as well as the tracks, four-wheel drive vehicles, spinning tops and other toys. She was invited to bring small dolls and the like.
"With so many dolls, you can't be a princess, right?"
"The princesses all live in the castle."
"Isn't the slide a castle? I now unilaterally appoint you as the princess, and this is your castle."
"Woooooooo, the train is starting to move!"
“···”
I was pushing the little train in the mud and had long since stopped caring about the track. I was having fun spinning the top again.
"Ha, hey, take a hit from me!"
There were spark stones in the ring inside the top, and sparks would flash out after collision, which was very attractive to me at that time.
"ah···"
"Sorry, I accidentally broke it for you."
She accidentally made her doll very dirty, and even got a small cut when the top flew out.
"It doesn't matter."
She stepped on my top and said, "We are equal now."
"You guy!"
"I'm a girl, do I have to do it?"
“···”
"You are awesome!"
I had nothing to say and could only sulk.
The next day, what surprised me was that she didn't bring any more girls' toys, but also brought a top.
"If you beat me, it's yours."
"If you lose, you will have no reason to listen to my request."
“···”
I was completely attracted by the cool spinning top with the white tiger icon. The strap was half longer than mine, so it wasn’t too cool at all.
He agreed directly and lost in vain.
"I'll give this to you, I don't like playing with it."
"No, I lost. There shouldn't be any reward for losing."
"Then it's my request at that time. Accept this. Do you want to disobey the master's order?"
"You tell me, I'm like a dog... gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"
I gritted my teeth and accepted it.
Her request was completely different from what I expected.
I almost remember it now.
There once was such a weird girl who lived in the same community as me for a short period of time.
She asked me to take the top to play with other children, but she watched from afar.
I can't just drive others away and play with other children.
When I got home, I told her what my mother said to me and how I reacted. Then she asked me how I should treat my mother next time, how I should respond, and what I should do.
That's what she told me.
"Your mother is a very good person."
"Your father... is a complete asshole."
She was still alone, but I followed her request and quickly integrated into the group of children. We played until late every day.
"You seem to be good at making friends."
"But why don't you play with others?"
"I'm just staying here temporarily."
"Ah? You want to leave?"
"What? You can't let me go just like you can't let go of your bastard father?"
"Fuck you, I didn't!"
“···”
Although the conversation was joking, I did feel a little reluctant to give up. I felt that she was very powerful and it was interesting to be friends with her.
"Na."
One day before I was about to leave, he pulled me and sat on the slide again.
"What kind of girl do you think I should be?"
"I'm not a girl, how would I know."
"Just tell me, what kind of girl do you like best?"
"What? Are you talking about this...could it be..."
"What's wrong? If you can't tell me, I'll find someone else to ask."
"Well."
When I was young, I always felt that something was strange, but I couldn't put it into words, so I had to think carefully for a moment, "Is she the kind of girl who speaks nicely, is cute, and is liked by everyone?"
"What is that? A heartthrob?"
"Ah, almost. He must be a heartthrob!"
“···”
She smiled and said, "Well, let's try being that kind of person."
Very strange question.
It's also a very strange answer.
"Then what kind of person do you think I should be?"
"you?"
"Yes, I said it all. You should say it too, right?"
"You...you should also be a heartthrob."
"If I can't do it, I don't want to go on stage and be watched by others!"
"No one says that you have to be on stage to be a heartthrob. As long as you have a lot of friends and a lot of people think you are good, that's enough."
"So easy? Just like playing with them?"
"It's still far from enough. There are only a few people."
"Tch, do you look down on people? When I go back to school, I can easily make a hundred friends."
"Pfft, that's amazing."
"You don't believe it? Wait until I make a hundred friends and send you a letter."
"Okay, by then I will definitely be a millionaire and will reply to you."
“···”
Her departure did make me sad for a short time, but I soon forgot about it because something more sad happened.
letter.
It was a letter that had been intercepted after what happened between Xia Xianyue and herself.
Her mother would intercept all Xia Xianyue's letters to herself, not wanting herself to recall things about her. But she would also screen and check each one. As for Xia Xianyue, Su's mother actually soon understood what happened to her.
The reason why she became like that has nothing to do with her mother. She can't blame the children entirely. The fault of the adults accounts for at least 50%. Including herself. It is precisely because she herself feels guilty that it is easy to understand.
Xia Xianyue is still a child.
but···
Some of those letters do not belong to Xia Xianyue.
【To Su Yao】
【Seven years have passed, do you still live there?】
[I think it’s because I haven’t waited for your letter for a long time, and I have already completed the goal first.]
[So, I want to ask you, have you become the heartthrob we promised you to be? 】
The signature is: Jasmine.
This letter didn't reach me, and even if it did, I would probably ignore it based on my mood at the time.
There is a follow-up.
Jasmine went to college in the winter market, and I didn’t know about it. Of course, even if she saw Chu Luocheng, who really looked like a princess, she wouldn’t recognize her as the little girl who played with tops with me when she was very young. At that time, she
She has no hair and always wears a felt hat. In college, she had long hair shawl and was very beautiful.
"I asked you to become a heartthrob, and the result..."
"Don't talk about a hundred friends, isn't there none?"
“···”
It was she who recognized herself first.
There are no coincidences in the world, and there is no one who just needs some writing skills to guide you in your composition, and there is no one who just wants to help you when you are decadent and is willing to take care of you in every detail.
If so, there must be a reason.
Just like she did when she was young many years ago, she didn't reveal my identity after recognizing me, but she just wanted to get me out of the shadows as before.
I can't tell whether I like it or something else, maybe I just feel that fate is playing tricks on people. So I want to make friends with myself again, as a student and a teacher.
"If you ask me this time, it's because I like you."
"Maybe we can just accept it."
"I can't help it. After meeting so many people, you are the only one who always likes me."
"But... forget it. Just be friends. It doesn't matter if ordinary friends leave at any time, right?"
There are pure good people in the world.
Even though she didn't even know what direction she should take in the beginning, at that time she knew that she was in the same situation as she was going through, so she was willing to help. She just wanted to make herself better.
If what happened to Xia Xianyue had not happened, even if she would have been at odds with her parents for a while, after receiving the reply... her fighting spirit would definitely be rekindled.
"Buzz."
The phone is vibrating again.
[Only I know the interesting past events, so lonely]
[I hope you read it and can add it to the text again when you think about it]