I was sitting in the corner. The doctor told me yesterday that I could be discharged from the hospital.
Yes.
I suffer from schizophrenia, intermittent mania, persecutory delusions...and tend to self-harm or commit suicide for various reasons.
I did have a childhood sweetheart who betrayed me more than ten years ago and who cared about me enough. Unfortunately, he died a few years ago.
After I attended her funeral, I ordered a realistic doll from the Internet, treating that thing as a living person, and making it with that thing, treating it as it was.
I thought I saved her by loading the file. In fact, she has been dead for many years.
I didn't pick up any monsters.
I was just a criminal who abducted what looked like a child, imprisoned her in my own home, and imagined her as a monster. The inspector who came to visit the census was regarded by me as a villain investigating the monster, and I attacked him.
Imagine that a monster killed him.
There are really people who are willing to love or have a relationship with people like me.
She is a schoolgirl.
But she didn't know that I had various symptoms. When she discovered my secret, I killed her. I hid her body in the freezer and communicated with it over and over again. I thought she was right.
My obedient school girl.
Although Jasmine met me when she was very young, she has long forgotten me when she grew up.
I thought she should like me, and she was friends with her junior high school girl, so I deceived her into my home on the pretext that the junior high school girl had a problem, committed a crime, and has been imprisoned ever since.
For committing such a crime, I was sent to the strictest mental hospital.
Today, many years later, I am lucky enough to be able to rebuild my life. I think that people like me should be sent to the execution ground immediately even after being discharged from the hospital. If I can come out, there must be someone who needs me. Maybe a like-minded patient.
“···”
"Who wrote this?"
"Isn't it written by the teacher?"
This is a book that Jasmine found that was serialized on the website, called Diary of a Mad Dog Pervert.
"This is pure slander. How come I have become a criminal who cannot accept the departure of my childhood sweetheart, and then abducted, killed, and lied to imprison him?"
"It turns out it wasn't really written by the teacher, I thought..."
"Think?"
"I thought there might be something wrong with the teacher's mental..."
"No matter what happens, I can still distinguish between reality and fantasy."
"Can you really tell the difference?"
“···”
Not so sure either.
"Why did the teacher suddenly become silent?"
"Oh, I sometimes think that I would never have imagined that I could live such a relaxed life without thinking about anything."
"Can I smoke?"
"If the teacher promises that I will only smoke one today, then I have no problem with it."
"no problem."
Su Yao lit a cigarette, "Speaking of it, I hardly had any relaxing time along the way. No joke."
"Even if it seems like there is nothing to think about for a short period of time, there will always be pressure in my head because I don't know what will happen next."
"And I was with Xia Xianyue at that time. Her character is very good at reading people's emotions. To be honest, nothing happened, but she was worried about it and had to worry about not being able to see her emotions."
"Even now, I always feel like there's nothing unfinished?"
“···”
"Is it because I read this novel to the teacher?"
"That's not true. I probably have an idea of who wrote this."
Su Yao picked up the phone and dialed the number.
"Is that you?"
"Huh? What am I? Don't throw any basin at my head!"
"No one except you and me can write such a detailed account of what happened to the other me and some of my inner activities. Let me think about it, it was you who asked You Ye for pocket money and didn't give it to you. I saw the manuscript written again.
I got the idea after I could make money."
"Hoo! I don't need your dirty money anymore, I can make money myself!"
"No, I don't have a problem with you making money by writing this stuff. But, can you... use a pseudonym anyway? I don't want Su Yao # abnormal to be trending one day."
"Give me 10,000 yuan and I will change it."
"I know where you lived after you ran away from home. I will come and talk to you later."
"! I'll change it, I'll change it right away!"
“···”
The phone call is over. The little ghost the monster turned into is really easy to deal with. If she didn't have embodied consciousness, the only way to kill it would probably be impossible. But now, she just raises her as a daughter. Female
Just a little devil.
After all, taking good care of her is also a big deal, and both she and You Ye will take it to heart.
"Has another teacher...had such an experience?"
Jasmine asked.
"experience?"
Su Yao smiled bitterly, "That's not an experience, it's the ending he wanted to give me at a certain point in time."
"Why do you do that?"
"As a human being, when you have been wronged and bruised all over your body, you will always be jealous when you see someone who is supposed to be the same as you and live such a good life. At a certain moment, you will make the other person's life embarrassing, and your life will be worse than death.
There are thoughts too.”
"Guess why he didn't do this?"
Su Yao asked with a smile.
"Because... you can't bear it?"
"That won't happen. I've seen and experienced so many twisted things that I won't be able to do it."
"That means he doesn't want to hurt the people who once appeared in his life?"
"No, I've told you before, right? His life trajectory is completely different from mine. After he fled abroad, he had no intersection with you at all, nor did he have any feelings for you."
"Well, what's the reason?"
"Too troublesome."
"Too troublesome?"
"To achieve the ending he envisioned, all these people must disappear. To interfere with time to this extent, what needs to be done is not something that can be interfered with once or twice a day or two."
"It's such a random reason... Then it seems like it would be very troublesome for the teacher to end up like he did now, right?"
"Yeah. But people are quite weird. Maybe deep down in my heart, if I see something slowly getting better, I feel better, and I will have the energy and motivation to proceed little by little. If I see something slowly getting worse, I will also feel better.
It will get worse and I will be so irritated that I don’t want to continue.”
"Sometimes I still wonder what kind of person the other teacher is."
"If you go up like this, you will probably be sold."
"Really?"
"real."
"Teacher, are you jealous?"
Jasmine smiled easily, "No, I'm just curious about the teacher."
"That can be put aside. To be honest, I think he is more dedicated than me."
"Zhenyi? Didn't the teacher say that there are many women around him? Most of them are foreigners."
"I can't tell. Although there are many friends around him who do that, if they are used to block bullets, they can probably be pulled out. Only the robot hidden in the house will be blocked by him."
"It is precisely because of this that he cannot abandon the treasure that truly belongs to him and replace me."
"Teacher, I think the experiences that form people are completely different. Even if they are the same person, replacement in the true sense cannot be completed."
"Yeah?"
Su Yao touched his nose and said, "There's no point in saying that. Now that time no longer exists. Only us are left."
"I still have to say..."
"Actually, in the beginning, I also planned to be single-minded."
"You probably haven't heard what Xia Xianyue said. There is a time limit. Even if she dies, I will choose to ignore it. I think taking care of You Ye and the children who are already around is the real thing.
man."
"But then they all died."
"I can't tell which string in my head is wrong. Anyway, now... I can't be a dedicated person at all. I can only be the bastard who takes all the benefits."
"If the little girl I brought back told me that I won't accept you, you will not be observed... or that you will be unlucky after leaving me, etc., I will probably use it as an excuse. But there is no such thing.
It’s what I want subjectively. Do you understand what I mean?”
"I understand. It's because of the teacher's own will that he wants to use 1.2...6 boats to open a harem."
"Where did the sixth ship come from?"
"That silver-haired kid always feels that his final destination is also a boat."
"That's really not..."
"But when the teacher said this, I felt that maybe something bad would really happen to me if I left the teacher. Did the teacher deliberately choose to make me feel relaxed?"
"Thank you."
"?"
"Thank you for thinking of me so highly in your heart."
"In my heart, teachers are very noble."
Perhaps it was inconvenient for Jasmine to wear high heels with stiletto heels, so she chose slippers and walked barefoot on the cobblestone sidewalk.
"In the case of Xiao Qing, generally speaking, a normal person would just give you some advice or call the police and it would be over."
"You have to know that at that time, Xiaoqing didn't pay attention to her own image. She didn't have full bloom, and she wasn't particularly cute. Generally speaking, she would think it was troublesome or unlucky."
"But the teacher took her seriously and got her back on track."
"At that time... I also wanted to die."
"A gentleman does not care about his heart, and no matter what the teacher is thinking, in terms of the result, he saved Xiao Qing in both physical and psychological senses."
"When you say that, I seem like a really good person."
"It's true. Teachers will always do some unexpected good things unconsciously."
"Hmm? Is there anything else I don't know?"
"Yes, does the teacher really think that the girl who was pushed down the slide by the boy will be willing to talk to her in a few days?"
"Uh... Generally speaking, it's quite annoying."
"Yes, there must be a reason why you are willing to talk."
"Something I don't know?"
"Teacher, think about it yourself, remind me, hospital."
"Hospital?"
Su Yao couldn't think of where he had seen her earlier than that. Speaking of which, even the memory of pushing her down would not have come to mind at all if it weren't for a special reason.
"Teacher, please listen carefully. Then add it to the text section about me."
"actually···"
She also specifically spoke to Su Yao's ear, "When the teacher was six years old, he boldly banged me in the elevator... and asked me to marry the teacher when I grow up."
"I am so brave at the age of six?"
"It's true, the senior can lift up girls' skirts at the age of six."
"That's not brave... it's a crime."
"That's it."
"That can't be the case. Not only are you a middle-class guy, you also like to talk about the innocence of dirty people."
"Huhu——"
She smiled and ran forward with her shoes.
She didn't care at all that her pure white stockings were stained on the ground, she just looked at the bottom of the steps and said, "Teacher, let's go over there."
It is a large stone floating on the river surface. When the tide is not high, you can walk to the stone through the shallow water.
When I was passing by, I happened to see a couple coming down from the top and returning to the shore.
"I'll carry you there."
If you try to get past it, water will stick to it no matter what.
"No need, it's already dirty anyway."
"Dirty and wet are two different things. The water is quite cold at night."
"Then take it off and drop it."
“Do you want to be in the headlines tomorrow?”
This guy is not wearing knee-high socks, he is wearing one-piece socks.
“···”
I saw her looking a little hesitant.
"Are you shy?"
"Well, it's a little bit... then the teacher can carry me there."
“···”
Carrying her on my back, she was very light, and she was as light as Yu Ye.
"Don't you usually eat much?"
"No way, I eat very regularly."
"It feels too light."
"The teacher likes girls with a little more flesh, right? Like that girl in the baby canteen."
"I didn't say anything..."
Put her in the front where she can put her feet, and she seems a little afraid of walking on the adjacent rocks.
"Come with me."
In the countryside, there used to be stone pillars forming the road across the river. If Jasmine were asked to walk, she would most likely not dare. It is the same now.
Let her hold his hand and guide him little by little, and she finally reached the biggest rock she could sit on.
"What are you doing?"
Then I saw her carefully going down the pit on the stone and sitting on the stone below.
Then I stretched out my legs and put my feet in the water. My socks were still wet.
"I'm not weak now and want to play in the water."
"Let me tell you a secret, normal people can catch colds too."
"Teacher just came over and his shoes were soaked in water. Why don't you come and play together?"
“···”
Su Yao also went down.
But he didn't take off his shoes and put them in the water like her, he just sat next to her.
I could tell that she had something to say. I peeked at myself in the corner of my eye several times, and my cheeks became redder and redder. It was obvious even under the dim light of the street lights on the riverside.
"Um, teacher..."
"Let's play a game. Close your eyes first."
"Huh? I, I close my eyes?"
Being robbed of his lines, this guy probably became confused all of a sudden.
"Come on, 1.2.3, close your eyes."
Without giving her time to think, I directly used my hands to help her close her eyes.
"——"
Next, it’s about Jasmine.
Not counting the exchange with You Ye's shadow, this was the first real kiss with her.
Her body was straight, and she looked young and unattractive in every aspect.
"!"
As soon as Su Yao touched the baby canteen, his hair stood on end and he was motionless.
After we separated, I felt a little teary and my face was flushed.
"Teacher... did you know that I would say that?"
"Ah, last time you were shopping, I overheard a whisper."
“It’s too much…”
"Then let's talk about it now."
"It's not that that's too much...it's..."
She took out the mirrorless camera from her pocket, "It's over before I'm ready."
"You still want to leave evidence of my crime in imprisoning you?"
"It's not criminal evidence, it's the memories that belong to me and the teacher."
This time she turned on her camera.
There is no need for anyone to close their eyes, it just comes naturally.
"Err?!"
"Crack."
Then when I was suddenly attacked in the baby canteen, I lost my camera and fell into the water.
"...It seems it can still be turned on."
It can be found in shallow water under rocks.
"It turns out it's true. The teacher will definitely touch the baby in the cafeteria while kissing."
"Sorry, my hand has its own consciousness."
"I'm going to do it again! But this time I can't...touch that again."
"Ahem, I understand. Sorry, I will restrain my hands this time."
"No, that's not what I meant... I want to post this on WeChat Moments, so no, it can't be so... awkward."
She turned away and said, "After the photo is taken, it's all fine..."