Nothing special happened after entering the house.
The curtains were closed and the door was closed.
However, because the moon is full tonight, the curtains are not 100% light-blocking, so you can still see blurry things in the room.
Su Yao was lying on the bed and saw Xia Xianyue cautiously touching the edge of the bed as if she were crossing a river by touching stones.
Then at first they were far apart.
He glanced at himself very covertly.
silence.
Start from the edge of the bed and move inward.
Silence and peeping.
indentation.
Peeping and silence.
indentation.
···
Le. I think it’s a little bit cute.
"Stop grinding."
Su Yao directly pulled her over, and the guy turned around in a circle and got into Su Yao's arms like a shrimp. His face was pressed against his chest just like in the living room just now.
So interesting.
As soon as Su Yao stretched out his hand and touched it casually, he clearly felt that Xia Xianyue's body froze and remained motionless, as if she was waiting for something to happen.
She probably has a lot of indescribable thoughts in her head right now, and those thoughts are very serious to her.
What should I say?
"Let me ask you a question."
Su Yao sighed.
"Ah, okay."
A moment of surprise.
"What indescribable things do you have in your bag?"
"ah!"
She was so shaken that she subconsciously made a sound and immediately retracted her head.
silence.
"Yes, I'm sorry, I think...if anything happens, just be prepared in advance."
Xia Xianyue's voice was almost too quiet to be heard.
"Do you think anything will happen?"
“···”
She twisted her body slightly, rubbed Su Yao's chest, raised her face, and held Su Yao's back with her hands.
"Bullying people..."
A slightly awkward, yet charming tone.
hiss.
Facing those moist pupils, Su Yao couldn't suppress it even though he cycled through the intestinal march, chandelier rotation, and belly-breaking symphony in his mind.
"Woo."
A very small voice.
Su Yao found that her eyes were closed and her hands were tightly holding her clothes.
How to say?
Like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered?
"Let me tell you something first."
Su Yao moved a little away, and then said, "Do you know why I asked you if you want to come here to sit?"
“···”
No answer.
"I think you should feel it. I really don't want to alienate you, and maybe I even want to get closer to you."
"Ah Yao..."
Those watery eyes were staring at me, which was really hard to bear.
"but--"
"When I say closeness, I don't mean closeness to the things in the bag."
"For example, now I can say that I don't hate you, but if you ask me to say that I like you, it probably won't work."
"Although it seems a bit suspicious."
"But the feelings I have now are different from the feelings you have."
"I can't come up with an equal response to your huge feelings."
"Speak more profoundly."
"Do you ever feel like you're trapped by me?"
"It's like a canary in a cage."
"I've actually been observing your actions. For example, when eating barbecue, most of the things you choose are the ones I remember liking, right?"
"On the way back after eating, you probably didn't plan to come to my place shamelessly. You probably planned to go back by yourself when you get to my house. It's so understandable to see your troubled expression."
"There's also the knock on the door in the morning."
"I heard it. Is that a knock on the door? If I hadn't just gotten up, I wouldn't have heard it. I was worried that I would be annoyed, so I restrained myself."
"The same goes for cleaning. We only clean a limited area, and we don't move things around even if they are messy."
"When I came back in the afternoon, I squatted at the door and played level 70 of Xiaoxiao Le. I don't say whether I came before level 70, but I squatted at the door for at least an hour."
As I talked, I felt that the topic was starting to get heavy.
Su Yao didn't give any other examples, "I think normal people don't need to be so careful when getting along. This is too humble. Moreover, it makes me feel like I am a cage for you, which is a bit heavy."
“···”
"Not humble."
Xia Xianyue still held onto Su Yao's clothes, her voice became extremely calm.
"I've never thought there's anything mean about thinking a lot of things in advance for the person you like."
"If it is based on love, it will be more powerful than anything else."
"If it's serious, there's nothing I can do about it. After all, I just like her so much. Even if I know it's a shortcoming, I don't know how to change it at all. Should I restrain my feelings and keep a distance, or should I try my best to watch silently like before?"
"It's not my fault this time."
"Originally, I really tried my best to suppress my feelings and wanted to leave a fresh impression again."
"But the distance is suddenly getting closer."
"Ah Yao, who said it secretly before, must have heard it too."
"Um."
"I'm definitely better than the average girl at pushing the envelope. When I sense good intentions, I immediately start to waver."
"I can't help it. It's really Ah Yao's fault for teasing me this time."
“···”
Su Yao was a little embarrassed.
"But it's a cage."
"No way."
"Perhaps many people will say that what happened so long ago in childhood is nothing. Time will heal everything, but I never think that time can cure everything. It may be cured, but on the contrary, it can also make it worse."
"I still remember that I was always outside the group."
"The scariest thing is not that you can't talk to anyone, but that you can't find anyone to talk to. Whether it's an adult or someone of the same age."
"How can you say it's a cage?"
"Ah Yao, if you want to say atonement or guilt, you can have these things. But definitely at the beginning, the first thing that aroused in me was love."
"Look. At that time, I was very happy and said that I would be Ah Yao's wife when I grow up."
"It feels like no one cares about you and everything is buried deep in your heart. Suddenly one day someone suddenly cares about you and asks you how you are doing. It really makes you want to vent all your pain. At that time
I really cried a lot in front of Ah Yao."
"That may be a small thing to Ah Yao, but to me, that kind of thing will never be forgotten in my life. I am a very despicable woman. It's not like I never thought about giving up on myself and forgetting everything.
."
"But it's simply impossible."
"After we separated, I dreamed about it many times. The dream was still as good as before I messed up. The dream was really clear. But I woke up soon. When I saw the reality, I cried again."
"So, the cage didn't exist from the beginning. The canary didn't exist either."
"To me, Ah Yao is like the vast and unreachable starry sky. And I am the little stray cat below, just looking up."
"From the beginning, there was no sense of restraint at all. It is already a miracle that a small and naughty stray cat can be noticed by the vast sea of stars."
“···”
silence.
Su Yao didn't know what to say.
Now that I say I hope you can go out and have a look, it is actually a kind of self-relief.
If the other party doesn't want to go out at all, is it still right to force the other party to go out?
"Na."
"I know what Ah Yao wants to do, I can see it."
"You want to give me freedom."
"Then I'm free now, right?"
"I···"
"Now I can say it again, it has nothing to do with guilt or atonement. I have really always liked Ah Yao."
“···”
"Shut up and go to sleep!"
"whee."
Instead, Xia Xianyue smiled softly and hugged Su Yao tightly, "It's just like when I was a child. When I speak loudly, I feel shy. I'm not afraid."
Bring your body closer.
Stifling heat circulates in the blanket.
As he got closer, Su Yao's thoughts began to trend downward. At this time, no matter how many chandelier execution marches he repeated, it no longer worked.
"Don't go get that."
"Just hold me like this...I don't want to separate."
"Well——"
Then.
Su Yao had a feeling that something was not right.
I smell a slightly familiar smell.
"ah!"
Xia Xianyue seemed to notice something in an instant, and put on a smile that was uglier than crying, "Yes, I'm sorry, I, my one seems to be here..."