Chapter four hundred and eighty-third: nothing exists
The crazy woman is not completely crazy, she is just too anxious after breaking up with her daughter - in this situation, all mothers will become crazy women. When she first met Zhu Tong, she suffered many bumps and wounds on her body
There was blood oozing out. It was a very sweet smell, the smell of mother. When she anxiously held herself in her arms, Zhu Tong felt that the hug was so tight that it was suffocating. She realized that this was something a corpse could never do.
She traveled to many places on behalf of the human girl, saw many scenery, and took care of her mother for her. Her mother, who knew nothing about it, protected her identity very well. Through this, she saw and learned a lot about human beings.
knowledge. Occasionally, this invisible mother will recall the past. From her mouth,
Zhu Tong learned that the girl's father had died. His father loved them very much. He took good care of his blind mother and his well-behaved and sensible daughter. But he was seriously ill and did not receive good care from them.
There is only so much the mother can do, and the daughter is too young, so he can only face the unchangeable ending.
After that, the girl had a father again. Because people need to eat, at least one meal a day. Unlike animals and monsters, they cannot eat one meal a day.
They had enough to eat for several days. But the father was not good to them. He always disliked their mother for not being agile enough and unable to do things that ordinary wives could do. After he came back from work, he often punched and kicked the two of them, and they could only
Endure it without words.
The mother finally made the choice to leave because he wanted to persecute her girl. This was probably her final bottom line. Even if she starved to death, froze to death, and her daughter's body was exposed in the wilderness, she would never tolerate trampling on her bottom line.
They ran away late one night, taking nothing with them - there was nothing at home anyway.
After that, everything will be fine, everything will be fine. This is what my mother said. Although they are hungry and full, and have to endure the pity or disgust of others, they are free. Mother is always so
Talking happily, as if all the misfortunes before have never happened, as if all the suffering now is worth it, as if all the unknowns in the future can be endured.
In this way, many, many years passed, and she has been playing the role of the well-behaved and sensible daughter. She began to understand many feelings that she had never understood in the past. That powerful and warm embrace was incomparable to anything. She knew
the weight of human love, to
Various forms - even those unnecessary things. If she is not cold, her mother will take off her only clothes to keep her warm; if she is not hungry, her mother will repeatedly emphasize that she is full; if she is not sleepy, her mother will
He accused her of not being obedient enough and that she should be recuperating for the next day's trip.
Mother listened to her describe the scenery they passed through. Those majestic mountains, dense woods; blue sky, green water; lively birds, beautiful flowers... Mother would want to know what those things were like. She would regret,
It was a pity that she couldn't witness it with her own eyes. But she didn't mind. She said that her daughter was her eyes, and that was enough.
Zhu Tong often thinks, she has eight eyes, how can I give her one?
Or two. Two? Human beings all have two eyes, and people with only one will be laughed at, despised, and contemptuously called "one-eyed dragon". She couldn't feel the offense in the words, but she knew what it wasn't.
Good words. It would be best to give her two eyes, so that she can become like all humans.
But no. She quickly realized that if she were like all humans...like all mothers, she would abandon herself again.
A long time passed, and my mother became ill. She was very ill, and she was different from before. In the past, she could just rest for a while, and she could still go to collect herbal medicine, or go to a human medical clinic and ask a doctor to see her. This time, she
She lay on the couch for a long time, but she never got better. My mother's health became worse and worse, and her body became thinner and thinner. She no longer had the strength to lift her arms and give herself a hug that was so hard that she almost suffocated. Like this
The embrace is no longer soft, because she is skinny and doesn't look good at all.
She also can't eat well, which is the worst. She has been taken care of by her mother for too long, and she has not taken in food for a long time. Human food is not good, they are always difficult to swallow and can only be resisted.
For a moment, she created a false feeling of fullness. She had no ability to continue to look like a human, let alone find someone to check her. In fact, she should have called the doctor from the beginning, right? She was too careless, thinking it was the same as every time in the past.
The mother lay weakly on the bed, saying that she was not in good health and could no longer accompany her. Her tone was full of blame for herself. She said happily,
As long as her daughter is healthy, she has never been sick, she saves money and worries, unlike her, who is an old woman. Zhu Tong couldn't understand those words again, but she didn't want to hear them either. In the abandoned and dilapidated small house on the barren mountain
She walked in and out of the house every day, searching in vain for herbs that could save her life. She even thought, don't ask anyone for help - just eat them! Just like in the past! Then she will regain her strength and use magic to maintain it.
Mother's life. She could not imagine the days when she would never have a hug again, the kind of warm, soft and fragrant hug that only a mother could give.
In this barren mountain and wilderness, Zhu Tong finally waited for the first person.
That person had long white hair, complicated silver ornaments, and a dagger on her head. She was very beautiful, too beautiful for someone who should appear in a place like this. Her eyes were also very beautiful, and inside
Each has a golden moon.
She said, you can't eat me, and you can't beat me.
Zhu Tong was not angry.
She said, you can't save her.
Zhu Tong felt silently angry.
She said that she was not sick, she was old. The life of a human being is very short. It is just a blink of an eye, a sigh, and it disappears in an instant. She is already very old. A blind woman in the human race has lived to this age.
It can be considered a long life. If you die like this, it will be a happy funeral. A happy funeral is a happy funeral. People will hold a big banquet. If there is a new person visiting the church, the baby will be one month old.
But she will die.
Using black magic to maintain life is not a wise choice. The underworld will send people to catch her - send the Six Paths of Impermanence, that is, people like this woman. Even if no one cares about it, the mother will change and become less like her.
I have to know my daughter.
However, it doesn't seem to matter much.
Because she is not her daughter in the first place.
For the first time, the monster felt extremely sad because of such thoughts.
It starts with consciousness... She will become chaotic and irrational. She will go crazy, truly crazy. She will also be stupid, like a newborn baby, even drooling, and unable to take care of herself. There is a golden moon in her eyes.
The woman continued. Then came the appearance. When her appearance changed, it became
When there is a difference between what a human being should be, everything is hopeless. Because her soul has been polluted and she can no longer die as a human being. At that time, the flow of reincarnation will be liquidated according to new rules.
, even if she is reincarnated again, the suffering she suffered in her life will not be able to exchange for the blessings in the next life.
You cannot let her die forever. This is against the principles of all things and is a serious crime. She cannot obtain eternal peace, and you cannot escape heavy karma. She lived a long and happy life-compared to most
Human beings. And you, the monster girl in my concubine, have even longer years to wait.
I don't want to be alone. It's too cold. It's too lonely.
All living beings are lonely. But maybe, you don't need one.
So Zhu Tong made a bet with the Six Paths Impermanence. She asked her mother a question and got an answer. If she lost, she would have to let the Six Paths Impermanence take care of her. If she won, the Six Paths Impermanence would find a replacement for her.
How to extend her life. But this is a boring question, Zhu Tong thought to herself, there is no need at all. However, before reaching the sickbed, she couldn't help but ask????????????????
Got it.
Will you forgive me? I'm full of lies.
What nonsense are you talking about? My child.
The mother smiled kindly, her gray eyes reflecting her young face with eight dark eyes.
I'm not your child.
I know, she said.
Then she lost her breath, but she still had a kind smile on her face. When her gray eyes were covered by eyelids, Zhu Tong finally realized that it had been too long. Human life span is fleeting, but he never
It has not yet bloomed. At what moment in her life did she notice the clues? Does she know who the murderer was who murdered her daughter?
She wanted to ask more clearly, but her mother would never answer her again.
She is not her daughter, but she is her mother.
And then...and then it was today. She was lying on the soft lawn, looking at the sky without a trace of haze. The sky had always been so blue, even though her eight eyes, shining like stars, could not reflect any color.
She is so alive
A long-standing monster - she has eaten so many people and practiced for so long. She is so powerful, so powerful that there are probably very few people in the Death Shadow Pavilion who can be her opponent. And she has dedicated the rest of her life to what she is doing.
The human being he follows includes part of his power.
Or maybe without this part of her strength, she is no match for these humans...
From the moment she decided to follow Yu Yumingxu, she has never changed from her appearance in the year of Cardamom. She has already become a monster that can stand on her own, and maintaining the image of a human is no problem. But there is no need for that. Here
Life is never a punishment, and she is never lonely. Loyalty and filial piety are human qualities. It is difficult for her to determine why she needs to practice these things, but she just carried it out in her own way until the last moment of her life.
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Although, I have done many bad things, very bad things. At this time, can my mother still forgive me?
She stretched out her delicate hands to block the dazzling skylight. The silhouette of an old woman seemed to appear in her sight, stretching out her rugged arms and whispering four words in her mouth.
