After eating for a while, Big Lobster slowly said, "I shouldn't have gone to find my brother. If I didn't look for my brother, he wouldn't be in trouble. "" After saying that, Big Lobster took another sip of wine. "Actually, I
Before I joined the army, I started to be very expressive and outgoing. You all know me. I was very talkative when we were together. But since I joined the army, I don’t know whether it’s because of the environment or because of age.
, I became unwilling to speak, and became very autistic, and did not like to communicate with strangers. The hardships I suffered in the army are beyond your imagination. The duty of a soldier is to obey, and we only have to obey.
I didn't get used to it. I was often bullied and punished, especially when training in the field. It was a life worse than death. How many times did I cry while lying in bed at night, regretting it, missing my family and friends, but there was nothing I could do.
, I can’t be a deserter, I can’t be so cowardly, I really have no choice, so I force myself to adapt and work hard. Nothing is difficult in the world, only those who are willing to do it. Later, I gradually adapted to it. Although I adapted to the requirements of the army
Life, but I was very unhappy no longer in the army, and gradually I was no longer bullied. However, I could not find any friends anymore in the army, and I had nothing in common with many people. I was very autistic and had no
What can make me happy? Later I thought about it, maybe it was like this. And when I was in the army, I didn’t like to talk, which made people feel very aloof. In fact, I am not professional, so I had some conflicts with some people.
, I am very unsociable in their eyes. Is it just that there will be conflicts between people when getting along? The conflicts that others have with me are just small conflicts. They can't do anything to me. Even if they fight, they are not my opponents.
It's just that our company commander and I have always had conflicts. The conflict between the two of us has been since I first joined the army. He always targets me, and he targets me for no reason. He just doesn't like me.
I can't afford to offend him. No matter how much he targets me, I can only endure it. Because of him, I become even less talkative and I won't resist him. After all, resisting is useless. He wants to deal with me.
, it’s too easy, so I can only endure it. In fact, my life there is actually very difficult. My daily training volume is basically twice that of others, because I always get punished. Then I will say that I
Just bear with it. I'm going to exercise now, and that's it anyway. I just hope that I can get over it as soon as possible, leave the army, and leave that company commander."
"Later, I finally had to leave the army. I thought I was going to be liberated, but my family asked me to continue serving in the special forces without any consent from me. I almost went crazy at the time, my dad told me
I have arranged everything for me. If I leave the army now and am discharged, it will be useless to come back with a resettlement card. My family will have to spend a lot of money on me, and then I will find a very ordinary job and be mediocre for the rest of my life.
, the suffering of the previous two years was in vain. He asked me to suffer for another two years, saying that everything had been arranged for me and let me choose by myself. I thought about it all night and decided to leave this company commander anyway and go to a new company.
When the environment changes, learn to adapt to it, adjust your mentality, and don't repeat the same experience in the army. Moreover, our family's situation is not good now. If I don't continue to serve in the special forces, I will spend more time after I retire.
It was unrealistic to pay me a large sum of money to find a job, and not everyone can join the special forces. I had to start from the military, so I simply started to serve in the special forces again. Although I was very good when I was a soldier.
I am autistic and don't like to communicate with others, but I train very hard and develop good habits. In fact, there are still many requirements for serving in the special forces. In addition to my dad helping me take care of my relationship, I am also very
The hard work, especially the special forces, must have a strong psychological quality. Remember that I would sleep alone in the morgue at night. Or lie down in the bush where there are many wild beasts and poisonous snakes and not move. I like to play.
With guns, my marksmanship is still very accurate. Although the shooting accuracy is not up to the level of a sharpshooter, it is still no problem if I continue to shoot for about 90 rounds. Not to mention my physical fitness. I have become autistic and don’t like to talk. Exercise is
My only outlet, I like the feeling of sweating profusely. Later, I was selected to serve in the special forces. Only after I joined the special forces did I realize that they often said something when they were soldiers, all special forces are
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From now on, I will be sarcastic. I tolerated it at first, but then I wanted to negotiate a peace with him. I prepared the money and wanted to give it to him. But it didn't matter that he didn't accept it. He also insulted me, and insulted me righteously. What do you think?
It’s great to be a human being and leave a way out for yourself and a way for others to survive. Whoever is a good person is willing to commit crimes and be a wanted criminal. They are the ones who forced him to bully others. He bullies a little too much, and I have tolerated him a lot.
Years have passed, and this time I have to bear the humiliation and come to him again, just to prevent him from embarrassing me again. I want to move up, do a good job, and make my parents proud of me. But he won't do it."
The big lobster laughed, and the laughter was a little cruel, "It's all because of him, it's all because of them. It's not enough to bully people. Well, let's bully. Later, I couldn't stand it anymore, and the two of us started to quarrel. The more we
The quarrel became more intense, and his security guard also came. After he arrived, he started beating me without saying a word. I also knew that security guard. They used to make things difficult for me together. They beat me and insulted me at the same time. Later,
Even my parents brought them with me. I didn't fight back at first, but then I couldn't bear it anymore, so I fought back. Once I started to fight, all the negative emotions that had been accumulated deep in my heart for many years came out. There was no way to control it. I first
He beat his guard, and after knocking him down a few times, he actually took out his gun and really hit me. Fortunately, I reacted quickly and dodged the shot. I was thinking
I was confused, so I just tried my best. I fought with him and snatched the gun away. While we were fighting again, I fired a shot, which hit him right in the stomach. I turned around and the guard wanted to run away and call someone.
, the troops were practicing shooting at that time, and our side was not very visible. I simply shot the guards to death. After shooting them both, I panicked for a while, and then I knew that I had no way out, so I shot
They put it in the room and locked the door from the outside. After calming down, I secretly left the unit. After I left, I did not return to our unit. I started my life as a fugitive."
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