The sun sets in the west, and tomorrow the sun will rise in the east; the fallen flowers turn into mud, and spring will bloom again in the coming year. Unfortunately, the youth of the past gradually fades away and will never come back. Standing at this moment, have we ever thought about the joy and anger of that time?
funeral music?
The word "life" is the cruelest word in the world. From the day we get life, we have to watch it be lost step by step.
On this cruel journey, we are not only welcoming the arrival of the next second, but also powerlessly losing the existence of the previous second. The variables are so sudden, and the future is unpredictable to us...
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It was the winter of 1995 when fifteen-year-old Lu Xiaobei came out of the juvenile detention center. This winter was extremely cold, especially in Lingbei Town in northern China. Almost everyone put on their pants in advance.
A dark green military coat, while Lu Xiaobei only wore a thin thick-lined sweater and a pair of jeans that were too long. There was no hat on his head, and even his hair was a thin layer.
"Lu Xiaobei, go out and be a good person..." the prison guard at the juvenile detention center said while making a "leave quickly" gesture.
Lu Xiaobei didn't respond, didn't look back, and walked step by step towards the door in the cold wind.
Three years ago, Lu Xiaobei was arrested and sent to the detention center for maliciously injuring others, and the person he injured was his brother Lu Xiaonan.
Thinking back to three years ago, twelve-year-old Lu Xiaobei came to the county town from the village to attend junior high school. His brother Lu Xiaonan was running a billiards hall in the county town at that time. The billiards hall was only a five-minute walk from Lu Xiaobei's school.
Under his instructions, Lu Xiaobei defected to his brother as a matter of course.
He goes to school during the day, and when he is not at school, he can help his brother with some trivial chores in the billiard hall, sweep the floor, and clean the billiard tables.
His brother Lu Xiaonan was nearly ten years older than him. He had been living in the county for several years. He had some money on hand and opened this billiards parlor with his friends as a joint venture. In 1995, billiards was still a very new sport, and Lu Xiaonan
Xiaonan's billiards hall is very close to the school, so business has been very good and he has made a lot of money.
Although Lu Xiaonan did not go to school, he was very smart and good at sociability. In the past few years, he had met many bad friends in the county, including some ruffians.
The business of Lu Xiaonan's billiard hall is getting more and more popular, and it is inevitable to attract some jealous local snakes to threaten and extort. Of course, Lu Xiaonan's friends are not vegetarians. Once there are local gangsters who come to blackmail, Lu Xiaonan will naturally call in another group.
Ruffians and gangsters "do things in peace".
Lu Xiaonan has been fierce in fights since he was a child, never caring about the consequences. Coupled with the group of equally fierce companions he found, he has never suffered a loss in group fights. The local gangsters who come to make trouble are often beaten and run away in embarrassment, and they dare not harass them anymore.
Lu Xiaonan is a bunch of beasts. Of course, there are many people in society who defect to Lu Xiaonan and are willing to follow Lu Xiaonan's lead.
As time went by, Lu Xiaonan not only was not defeated by local gangsters, but instead became the king of the mountain and formed his own faction, with brothers numbering thirty or forty.
After getting mixed up, Lu Xiaonan became more and more domineering, and he no longer ran the billiards hall in a safe and honest manner. He also began to lead people around to collect money, collect protection fees, and collecting people's money to help others eliminate disasters became his main job.
Profession.
Lu Xiaonan transformed from a shrewd and capable businessman into a despicable local tyrant, which made his family very sad. In desperation, his father looked for a daughter-in-law in the village in order to win over his son's heart, hoping to find her.
As a daughter-in-law, her son can restrain himself from doing things. She also vowed that if Lu Xiaonan did not come home to get married, he would die.
After all, Lu Xiaonan was a filial child. Although he was extremely dissatisfied with the rural wife his father found for him, he still bit the bullet and got married.
On the night of the wedding, before entering the bridal chamber, a few friends came to my hometown in the countryside and told Lu Xiaonan that something had happened to brother so-and-so and asked Lu Xiaonan to come forward immediately, otherwise someone would be killed.
Although Lu Xiaonan was filial, he was more loyal. He hid his father's secrets, left the new bride who had not yet taken off her hijab in the wedding room, and rushed back to the county town overnight to help his brother vent his bad temper.
Originally, Lu Xiaonan had a sweetheart in the county town, but because this sweetheart was a prostitute, Lu Xiaonan never disclosed it to anyone. However, he deeply fell in love with this coquettish woman who had been fucked by countless men, and for
This woman is not going to go back to her hometown in the countryside or see her unmarried daughter-in-law.
Finally one day, the daughter-in-law from the countryside came to the county town to see Lu Xiaonan in person. However, at this time, Lu Xiaonan had not been back to the billiard hall for months. The person who greeted the daughter-in-law from the countryside was Lu Xiaonan's younger brother Lu Xiaobei.
Gu Wanyu, who came to the county town for the first time, encountered a lot of obstacles and made many mistakes. Although the county town is not big, it is not easy to find someone. Fortunately, this Lu Xiaonan is in the small county town.
The neighborhood was booming, and most young people knew the address of Lu Xiaonan's billiards hall. With the advice of passers-by, Gu Wanyu finally found the billiards hall called "Fengshang" run by Lu Xiaonan.
It was a Wednesday morning, and students were all in school, so there were almost no customers in the billiard hall. When Gu Wanyu walked into the billiard hall, she only saw a child of twelve or thirteen years old mopping the floor with a mop, looking very serious.
Gu Wanyu was also a person who loved cleanliness. Seeing that the mop marks on the floor were not completely dry, she stood outside the door and asked carefully and politely: "Little brother, I want to ask you about someone."
Lu Xiaobei heard someone talking at the door. When he looked up, the light outside the door just filled his field of vision. But even in the backlight, Lu Xiaobei could still clearly see the woman. No, it should be said to be a girl.
After all, she is still a young lady.
Gu Wanyu also saw Lu Xiaobei clearly and shouted in surprise: "Xiaobei, so you are here."
"Teacher Gu... you... why are you here..." Lu Xiaobei was surprised and happy when he saw Gu Wanyu.
"I...I'm here to see your brother. Isn't he here?"
"Looking for my brother? Why did you come all the way from the countryside to the city to find him?" Lu Xiaobei didn't know about Gu Wanyu's marriage to his brother. Because the marriage was hasty, not many people knew about it, and besides, he
His elder brother never took this marriage seriously, and communications were not developed at that time, so Gu Xiaobei never knew about his elder brother's marriage.
"Your brother and I got married a few days ago, but that night...your brother came back again..." Gu Wanyu said this, her face turned a little red.
"Married?" When Lu Xiaobei heard that Gu Wanyu was actually getting married to his brother, he was surprised with a hint of regret, but he didn't know where this regret came from.
Gu Wanyu is Lu Xiaobei's sixth grade teacher. She is eight years older than Lu Xiaobei.
Gu Wanyu's education level is not high, she only has the education level of a high school graduate, but this level is enough to be qualified as a Chinese teacher in a village, teaching a group of children to learn to write, read texts and so on.
When he was in elementary school, Lu Xiaobei liked his Chinese teacher very much. Not only was he beautiful, but he also spoke softly. Although Lu Xiaobei did not have a deep friendship with his teacher during his time at school, Lu Xiaobei
As soon as Bei saw Gu Wanyu, he felt a sense of intimacy. Even at a young age, he vowed that he would find a wife like Teacher Gu in the future.
There is a kind of fate. Lu Xiaobei did not find a wife like Teacher Gu, but he found a sister-in-law like Teacher Gu. If the eldest brother is the father, then the sister-in-law is also half a mother. She has half a mother to take care of her.
, Lu Xiaobei’s life also began to become regular.
Lu Xiaonan is a busy man and stays away from home all day long. In addition to helping his friends or collecting protection money, he also spends evenings in the hair salon owned by his prostitute girlfriend. The Fengshang Billiards Hall is completely left to Gu Wanyu to take care of.
Lu Xiaobei was also taken care of by her alone.
Two months have passed, and Lu Xiaonan goes back to the billiard hall less and less often. Every time he comes back, he just takes some money from the counter. And at night, he has never stayed at home at all, and he doesn't even care about his brother's
In terms of basic necessities, food, housing, and transportation, he didn't even pay attention to his daughter-in-law, who had not married yet. He treated Gu Wanyu as his own nanny. The only difference was that the nanny needed to be paid, while Gu Wanyu did it for free.
Lu Xiaobei is becoming more and more unfamiliar with his brother, but he is becoming more and more affectionate towards his new sister-in-law...
Winter is approaching, the weather is getting colder and colder, the business of the billiard hall is getting worse and worse, and the accommodation conditions are even worse. There are only two rough rooms upstairs, Gu Wanyu and Lu Xiaobei each live in one, but Lu Xiaobei's
The windows of this house are broken. They were covered with several layers of plastic paper before, but now the window paper is full of holes and cannot protect against the cold at all.
As winter approaches, this room is getting colder and colder, so much so that Lu Xiaobei, who lives in this room, has had a cold for several days in a row, and his high fever has not gone away...