We were so excited. We were laughing, making noises, shouting, having water fights, kicking sticks, teasing each other, and getting carried away in the water.
After playing in the water for several hours, we slowly walked ashore and walked back. At this time, I suddenly discovered that Tian Gui was missing!
We hurriedly returned to the water to look for him, and it took us a long time to find him. When we fished him out, he was already out of breath!
Tian Gui and I didn't know how to swim originally, but we learned how to swim when we were in the first grade of high school. Since then, we often went to the river to play. Tian Gui's water skills have always been very good. I can't figure out why he died in the water!
Later, the doctor said that when he was diving to the bottom of the water, his feet suddenly cramped, and he sank before he could surface in time to call for help!
We had so much fun at that time, chasing each other, you chased him, he swam over, and we didn't even notice when he disappeared. There were dozens of people in the water, and everyone swam here and there again.
, one person missing can’t be seen at all.
So, that time when you were swimming, your feet cramped and you sank, I was very nervous, I was so afraid that the same scene would happen again!
It is also for this reason that I don't allow you to go to the swimming pool alone!
After Tian Gui died, I felt very sad. I didn’t want to stay at home, so I went to my classmates’ houses to play every day. All we talked about together were topics related to Tian Gui. We kept chatting about him like this,
It's like he is still with us!
Just when I was feeling sad about Tian Gui, two people called me out from my classmate's house and invited me to dinner. In the restaurant, they said that one of them was my biological father!
I was shocked and couldn't accept this at all, but my father told me with tears that he had worked hard to find me over the years. His tears convinced me that he didn't lie to me and that he was really me.
biological father!
But I still felt uncomfortable in my heart. I thought of my mute mother and my adoptive father. When my biological father said that he would take me to Hong Kong and let me enter the best school, I felt very conflicted and even more painful!
I can't bear to leave my mother and adoptive father. They have worked hard to raise me for eighteen years. If I leave them now, I feel sorry for them! My conscience is uneasy!
But I also long to get ahead. I know that under the conditions of my mother and adoptive father, I really won’t be able to achieve much in my life! Moreover, the burden on my mother and adoptive father will be very heavy!
On the one hand, I cannot let go of my relationship with my adoptive parents, and on the other hand, I have the tears of my biological father and my future!
I was in a dilemma, not knowing what to do, so in the end I ran out without saying a word.
My heart is very confused and irritable. I miss Tian Gui. If he were still alive, at this time, I could talk to him and he could help me make decisions, but he is gone!
It was getting dark and I didn’t want to go home. I knew my biological father would be waiting for me at home. I also didn’t want to go to any of my classmates’ homes. I felt like I couldn’t tell them what was on my mind!
I was so annoyed that I bought a bottle of liquor and took a big sip, trying to get myself drunk!
The white wine was so spicy that my throat and stomach burned together. It was so spicy that I shed tears!
But the spiciness made me feel more stimulated. It not only stimulated my lips, tongue, throat and stomach, but also stimulated my brain, heart and nerves, making me slowly numb and my head getting hot.
Stop thinking about those troublesome things.
I was walking and drinking, and gradually became a little drunk. I was so depressed that I wanted to find someone to fight, beat someone down, or let someone beat me down!
While I was drinking, I bumped into others, bumped into them, and scolded them. If anyone dared to scold me back, I would immediately smash the bottle on his head!
I bumped into a lot of people. I don’t know if it’s because they thought I was drunk and ignored me. I scolded people and no one said anything back.
I wanted to urinate, so I turned into an alley. When I came out of the alley, someone bumped into me. I saw the person had braids on his back. I knew it was a woman!
Maybe it was because I drank too much. I felt hot all over and felt dizzy. Looking at the blurry back of the woman, an evil thought suddenly appeared in my heart. I wanted to find a stimulation I had never experienced before to vent the accumulated energy.
I had unspeakable worries and resentments in my heart. Seeing that the alley was very secluded, I turned around and followed the woman, wanting to attack her!
At that time, I was not clear-headed and didn't care what that woman looked like, whether she was beautiful or ugly, or whether she was young or old. As long as I was sure that she was a woman, I would definitely do it.
Pounce!
She seemed very small, but I didn't think she was still a child, because no child dared to walk outside at that late hour, let alone a child alone in that dark alley!
I think she is just a very short woman, which is exactly what I want. I am sure she can't resist me!
I staggered behind her and saw her opening a door. I didn't care if there was someone else in the door. At that time, my mind was already in chaos, filled with evil thoughts and the desire to knock her down -
Hope, there is no way to think more!
She noticed me and hurriedly closed the door after entering, but her strength was too weak, so I pushed the door open without much effort!
I heard her turning on the light, and also heard the sound of the light cord breaking. The room was very dark, and I became even more unscrupulous. With the help of my drunkenness, I rushed forward!
She didn't scream until finally, when I was about to enter, she made a little sound in fear and said: "No! Please! Don't touch me!"
This voice made me stunned, because from this voice, I could tell that she was still a little girl!
I stopped, but she immediately started struggling. Her struggle angered me. I no longer hesitated and brutally raped her regardless of her pleading!
In that dark room where I couldn't see my fingers, I was like an inhuman beast and made the little girl faint! I made the most stupid mistake in my life!
When I came out of that hut, I was still drunk, so I fell to the ground and walked forward. I walked all night before I reached the entrance of the village and met my biological father. Then I went to Hong Kong with my father.
With their help and support, I became a superstar!
But this incident put a heavy mental shackles on my back!
Although I have never dared to mention this to others, in the dead of night, I always think of that little girl!
I have been confessing for so many years. After entering the entertainment industry, the first song I wrote the lyrics for was "Confess". I have always wanted to use this song to relieve myself from the heavy psychological pressure!
Over the years, a childish voice has always echoed in my ears: "No! Please! Don't touch me!"
It was really dark that night and I couldn't see the girl's face clearly, but her voice always lingered in my ears!
That time you called the word "Ouyang" in front of me, I angrily took off your clothes and wanted to use punishment to possess you, just because you said "please, don't touch me", it reminded me of
I heard the little girl's voice, and a sense of guilt made me let you go!
I didn't dare to mention this to anyone, and I tried my best not to think about it. I wanted to forget it completely!
But how can I forget the evil things I have done? Although I try not to think about it, from time to time, it will creep into my mind!
For so many years, I have been thinking about that girl, how is she?
Will she have nightmares every night? Will she wake up crying from her dreams every night? Will she always hate me until she grows old? Until she dies?
I have always wanted to confess to her in person, but I don’t know who she is, what her last name is, what her name is, how old she is, and what she looks like!
I have always thought that if I could find her, if I had the opportunity to confess to her face to face, I wonder if she could forgive me, could she forgive me for being young! Forgive me for my ignorance! Forgive me for my despicable behavior!
I have sung a lot of songs, and many fans like my songs and imitate my singing, but I always hope that more people can sing "Confession". I hope this song can reach the ears of that girl, and I hope she can hear it.
My confessional voice, I hope this song can soothe her trembling heart when she has nightmares!
*After Qin Shaofeng finished speaking, the two of them did not speak for a long time, and the room was silent.
Lin Ke'er was shocked. She really didn't expect that the drunkard who raped her thirteen years ago was actually a superstar who is now very popular in the entertainment industry. What she didn't expect was that she and him would still fall in love!
She fell in love with the man who raped her!
Can this kind of love continue?
Lin Keer was in a daze and couldn't say a word for a long time!
The scene from thirteen years ago appeared in front of her eyes. She could not combine the drunkard who was holding the wine bottle and pouring wine into his mouth while walking, and the handsome, sunny and domineering man in front of her.
! She couldn't believe that the man who raped her was really the man who was hugging her now and whom she loved deeply!
Qin Shaofeng gently pushed Lin Ke'er away, looked at her, his eyes were red, and said hoarsely: "Ke'er, do you know why I haven't looked at you, ignored you, or talked to you these past few days? Listen to me.
After Aunt Luo told you and Dongzi, I knew that the villain who raped you was me! It was me who caused great harm to you, but I still hurt you because it was not your first time.
Torturing you, I...I feel that I am simply not human! I am worse than a beast! I don’t know how I should face you! I don’t know how I should confess to you! I don’t know if I can ask you for anything.
Forgive! I don’t know if you still want me to love you! I don’t know...I don’t know..."