"Oh." Lin Ke'er agreed, but thought bitterly in her heart, will you still look for me? Do you need to look for me?
"Ke'er," Qin Shaofeng continued, "I won't be back for a while. You take care of yourself."
"Yes." Lin Ke'er responded lightly. Her heart sank deeply. She knew he would not come back, but she didn't expect that she had guessed it right.
"Ke'er, what are you doing?" Qin Shaofeng seemed unhappy when he heard her voice.
"Nothing." She replied moodily.
"Ke'er, do you miss me?"
Lin Ke'er didn't speak.
"Hey, wife!" Qin Shaofeng's voice became gentle: "Why don't you answer? Do you think I didn't?"
After a while, Lin Keer said: "Yeah."
"Don't say yes," his domineering tone came out again: "If you say you miss me, I still don't!"
Lin Keer stopped talking again.
"Ke'er? Why don't you say anything?" Qin Shaofeng asked.
After a while, Lin Keer replied calmly: "I thought about it."
"Well, good wife!" Qin Shaofeng imagined Lin Ke'er's appearance over there. He felt that she was angry: "Ke'er, don't be angry. I will come back to accompany you after a while."
"Um."
"Honey, kiss me." Qin Shaofeng wanted to tease his little wife, but he hadn't teased her for a long time.
Lin Ke'er didn't respond.
"Ke'er?" Qin Shaofeng heard her making no movement and called her: "What's wrong?"
"I'm a little tired." Lin Keer lied.
"What did you do?" Qin Shaofeng's voice was a little nervous: "Why do you feel tired?"
"I haven't done anything, I just feel tired." It's not that the person is tired, it's that the heart is tired!
"Are you feeling unwell?"
"No."
"Okay, then you can rest. I'll be back in a few days!"
Qin Shaofeng hung up the phone, thinking about Lin Keer saying on the phone that she was a little tired. She was fine. How could she feel tired?
After thinking about it, he called Dr. Chen: "Doctor Chen, please go and see Lin Ke'er. She said she is a little tired and doesn't know if she feels unwell."
Dr. Chen said: "Lin Ke'er fell ill a few days ago."
"She is sick? What disease?"
"I gave her an injection for a cold and took medicine for two days. She is better now, but her body may still be a little weak, so she will feel tired."
"Oh, Doctor Chen, I'm not at home. Please help me pay attention to Lin Ke'er and don't let her get sick."
Qin Shaofeng hung up the phone and immediately called Lin Ke'er and blamed her: "Ke'er, why didn't you tell me that you were sick?"
Lin Keer almost burst into tears. It was you who asked me not to call you, but now you are blaming me!
Besides, is it useful for me to tell you? Can you come back to take care of me after being so far away? What's the use of saying you care? You're not staying by Yu Qingyao's side now!
Because she wanted to cry in her heart, Lin Ke'er's throat was stiff and she couldn't speak.
When he didn't hear Lin Ke'er's answer, Qin Shaofeng remembered that it was he who asked Lin Ke'er not to call him, so he took a breath and said, "Why don't you take care of yourself? How can I rest assured when you leave me outside like this?"
The tears in Lin Ke'er's eyes had already flowed out. She tried not to cry out, but complained in her heart. You knew that I didn't know how to take care of myself, but you left me alone at home for so long! Since you are worried,
, why don't you come back to accompany me? Is it her or me that you are worried about?
The tears in his eyes slowly flowed down his cheeks, flowed to the corners of his mouth, and entered his mouth, feeling salty.
Lin Ke'er wiped it away gently with her hands, but as soon as she wiped it off, tears slipped down again, so she continued to wipe them off, and she accidentally sobbed.
"Ke'er, what's wrong with you? Are you crying?" Qin Shaofeng heard Lin Ke'er's strange behavior, and his tone became a little impatient. When he heard Lin Ke'er cry, he felt inexplicably upset. He didn't want to hear her cry.
If he is at home and she cries, he can hold her and comfort her. But if he is not at home, if she cries, she will cry for a long time, which will hurt her body.
He said: "I didn't say anything, please don't cry, okay?"
Lin Ke'er tried hard to suppress the feeling of wanting to cry, exhaled gently, and said in a calm voice as much as possible: "I... didn't cry!"
Qin Shaofeng calmed down and said, "Go and sleep for a while, cover yourself with a quilt. It's getting cold. Don't catch a cold again."
"Um."
"Okay, you go to sleep, I'm dead!"
Hearing the call hung up on the other end, Lin Keer also hung up the phone, then covered her mouth, tears falling down in big drops, and finally burst into tears and cried out loud!
Lin Ke'er didn't want to cry, but as soon as she heard Qin Shaofeng's voice that seemed concerned and reproachful, her tears couldn't help but overflow!
She felt that he cared about her, but his concern made her doubly sad, because she didn't want him to be by Qingyao's side while pretending to care about her.
There is no difference in Qingyao!
She doesn't want to have the same man with anyone else, she just wants him to belong to her alone!
Because he is her husband! She is his legitimate wife!
*I haven’t gone online since I got sick. Today, Lin Keer sat in front of the computer again.
After writing the diary, I connected to QQ. After a while, the avatar popped up. It was Wanzhang Hongchen. He said: "Are you there?"
"Yes." Lin Keer replied.
Wan Zhang Hongchen said: "Little beauty, why haven't you been online for so long? I miss you so much!"
Lin Ke'er had a smile on her lips. No matter it was true or false, when someone said they missed her, she always felt happy.
"Thank you!" she said. She didn't know how to respond to Wan Zhang Hongchen's enthusiasm. She could only use these two words to express her mood at the moment.
"Why haven't you been online for so long?"
"I am sick."
"Ah? Are you sick? What kind of disease? Is it serious?"
"It's not a serious illness, just a little cold."
"Oh, it's getting cold now. You need to pay more attention to your health. If you have a cold, you have to take medicine and get injections. It's very troublesome. Besides, the injection hurts your butt, and the medicine makes your mouth taste bitter. Anyway, it's not good when you get sick!"
"Well, that's true, but it's inevitable for people to get sick."
"Then when you were sick, your husband must have been very kind to you, right? Did he take care of you?"
"No, he's not at home!"
"What? You are sick and he is not at home? Why is he like this? As a man, does he have a sense of responsibility?"
Lin Keer didn't like to see him criticizing Qin Shaofeng, so she quickly said: "He doesn't know, I didn't tell him."
"Then he didn't find you sick when he came back?"
"He didn't come back and went abroad."
"Oh, that's right. Then I blamed him wrongly."
Lin Keer thought of Qin Shaofeng's reproachful tone: "Why don't you take care of yourself? How can I rest assured when you are outside like this?" Her eyes became moist again.
"Are you feeling better now?" Wan Zhang Hongchen asked.
"alright."
"Maybe you are still weak. Go to bed early and sit less in front of the computer these days."
Wan Zhang Hongchen's tone was full of concern, and Lin Ke'er was moved: "Yes, I will, thank you for your concern."
"You're welcome. Then you can rest for a while. When you feel better, we can chat slowly. Anyway, we have a long time to come."
Lin Keer agreed, went offline, and turned off the computer. Now, she is in a much better mood.
This is a question that deeply puzzles Lin Keer. She and Wan Zhang Hongchen seem to have never talked about any meaningful topics, just small things. But every time she talks to him, she feels better.
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*Qin Shaofeng later called more often, but he never came back. He said a few days each time, and then a few days later, and then a few days later...
The weather is getting colder, and Lin Keer's heart is colder than the weather!
The weather now is only the beginning of winter, not too cold yet, but Lin Keer's heart has already entered the coldest month of winter, with a thick layer of ice forming in her heart!
She has given up hope on when Qin Shaofeng will come back or not!
She is like a well-behaved and docile kitten every day. After eating, she lies on the sofa, either thinking about something, being in a daze, or curling up on the sofa to sleep.
She wanted to get sick, she wanted to get seriously ill. If she got seriously ill, would Qin Shaofeng come back?
She was thinking wildly all day long, even thinking that if she suddenly got an incurable disease and Qin Shaofeng came back and only had time to see her for the last time, and then she died, would he cry? Would he drop that precious baby for her?
Men cry?
She also thought that if she really was going to die soon, she hoped he could hold her and let her die in his warm arms!
Thinking that after she died, Qin Shaofeng might cry for her, and both Dongzi and her godmother would cry for her. Her heart couldn't help but hurt, as if she had seen this happen, and her eyes couldn't help but get wet!
Alas, she herself found that she was much more sentimental now than before.
Although she often slept on the sofa without covering anything, she never caught a cold again.
It's strange to say that when she didn't want to be sick, she suddenly got sick, and when she really wanted to be sick, she didn't get sick anymore!
She thought, not even the sky will help me!
In fact, people's illness is always related to the seasons. During the change of seasons from spring to autumn, because of the abnormal climate, it is most likely to be invaded by germs, and it is especially easy to catch a cold. In summer and winter, because the climate is basically stable, there is no sudden cold or sudden change.
The body can easily adapt to the heat, making it less likely to get sick.
The last time Lin Keer caught a cold was just when autumn turned to winter, so she caught a cold as soon as she caught a cold. Now that it has been winter for so long, it is naturally not easy to get sick again, so she felt that the sky was not helping her.
That's also true.
She has not been online for many days and has no interest in it. Although surfing the Internet can adjust her mood and chatting with Wan Zhang Hongchen will make her feel better, she does not want to make her mood better now. She just wants this.
So sad!
Since it is so lonely, so lonely, then why be so sad!