In addition to eating during the day, Lin Keer stayed in the room lazily all day long, either thinking about things or thinking about nothing. She lay on the sofa and looked at the chandelier decoration above her head. She could look at it for most of the day, as if
There seemed to be something special there that had captured her attention for a long time.
She also lay on the sofa at night, not turning on the headlights, but only turning on the wall lamps. The wall lamps illuminated the room softly, but could not give her any feeling of warmth. She only felt that the solitary lamp and her shadow were accompanying her, which made her feel desolate!
Some random sentences popped up in her mind:
"Black night, black mood, cold season, cold you."
Alas, if it wasn't for the coldness of you that turned my mood into black, how could I feel so cold in this season in this black night!
The music of "Love You Life" rang, she took the phone and saw that it was Qin Shaofeng calling.
She had charged her phone since Qin Shaofeng asked her to remember to charge it last time. Although she didn't want to take the initiative to call him, she was also afraid that he would blame her if he couldn't get through.
She was always afraid that he would blame her.
She looked at the word "Feng" dancing on the screen of her mobile phone for a while, then pressed the answer button, put it to her ear, and gave a lazily feed.
"Ke'er, what are you doing?"
"Nothing." Her voice was as calm and emotionless as ever.
"Then why didn't you answer the phone for so long?"
"..."
"I'll be home tomorrow afternoon."
"Yeah." Lin Ke'er didn't show any happiness. Now she didn't care about when he would arrive home.
"Honey, do you miss me?"
"No." I don't want to miss you!
"No? How dare you miss me? Let's see how I deal with you when I come back!" Qin Shaofeng's voice sounded evil: "Get ready tomorrow night, my husband will make you happy!"
Lin Keer's heart skipped a beat and soon calmed down.
If she heard him talking like this in the past, she would blush and feel sweetness in her heart. But today, she didn't feel this way. After her heart skipped a beat, there was no more waves!
"Ke'er?" Qin Shaofeng didn't hear her answer and called her: "Why don't you speak?"
"Yeah." She responded calmly.
"Have you forgotten again? I told you not to say yes."
"What did you say?"
"Say that you will prepare well to welcome your husband back!" He ordered her domineeringly.
"Well, I will prepare to welcome you back." Lin Keer repeated honestly.
Qin Shaofeng felt that Lin Ke'er's tone sounded weird. After thinking about it, he thought that he would be home tomorrow anyway, and he would see Lin Ke'er when he got home. He didn't say more and just asked her to go to bed early.
, covered him with quilt, and then hung up.
Lin Keer looked at her phone, thinking about Qin Shaofeng's words. He said he would be home tomorrow afternoon, and he was really coming back!
She had been looking forward to his return until her heart ached, but now that he was really coming back, she no longer had that urgency.
Did he come back alone or in two persons?
Will he meet Yu Qingyao again after he comes back?
Of course he will, and they will see each other more often, and he will definitely watch over the birth of that child!
Then, they will always be together!
Lin Keer suddenly thought, when Qin Shaofeng comes back tomorrow, is he going to clarify this matter with her? Is he going to tell her about the divorce?
Although his words did not show this meaning and he still talked to her as before, Lin Keer felt that for this talented actor, he would definitely not let her know his thoughts before he got home.
The more normal he behaves, the more it shows that there is something wrong in his heart!
Lin Keer's heart was even colder. You said you would love me for the rest of your life. Why did you change after just a few years? Why can't your vow stand the test of time?
Thinking of the song "Love You All My Life", Lin Keer hummed softly:
"I don't care about my marriage in my previous life, nor my fate in the next life. As long as I have you in this life, I will love you for the rest of my life!"
Maybe the road of love is twists and turns, maybe the future is full of thorns, but as long as you are by my side, I will have no regrets in this life!
I am happy every day I have you, and I am happy every minute I am with you. No matter how much pain and suffering I experience, I will always be with you! My dear, let me love you for the rest of my life!
"
While humming, Lin Keer thought about their past:
He forcibly kissed her on the ride;
He forced her to say: "I am your woman!" "I will miss you, I will miss you every day!"
He punished her and tortured her in various ways, and then he said it was because he loved her too much;
He admitted that he raped her, and in order to beg her forgiveness, he knelt down to her;
He said: "I will never hurt you again! I will love you throughout my life and make up for the harm I caused you!"
…
Everything she has ever experienced is like a chrome seal, deeply engraved in the depths of her mind, which can never be erased or forgotten!
But why would he forget!
Why would he put aside everything they had experienced together so easily!
Thinking and humming, she burst into tears and burst into tears!
I know it’s my fault, I’m not beautiful enough, gentle enough, smart enough, I don’t deserve to be the wife of a superstar, and I don’t deserve such luxurious happiness. So should I choose to leave? Take the initiative to give up this thing that should never belong to me.
everything?
I have nothing to lose by leaving you, but returning to the past, living with my godmother and Dongzi, is like walking in a circle, and I have returned to the starting point from the end!
However, I seem to be unable to go back, because Dongzi is no longer my son!
If he follows me, he will continue to suffer. Since you are his father, you will treat him well, right? Then I can leave alone!
I choose to leave, just because I don’t want to see you with her, and I don’t want to let myself live in endless pain!
Since you can't love me for the rest of your life, I won't wait for you anymore! My dear, we are done!
After sitting for a long time, Lin Keer stood up, walked to the computer, and started writing a diary.
After writing the diary, she connected to QQ. She hadn't been online for a long time. She wanted to chat with Wan Zhang Hongchen.
As soon as she hung up, Wan Zhang Hongchen greeted her. He seemed to be always online.
Lin Keer looked at it and saw that he would send a greeting almost every day: "Are you there?"
"Little beauty, are you there?"
"Little beauty, why aren't you online? I miss you so much!"
"Little beauty, what happened to you?"
…
Lin Keer was very touched. When people around you are about to abandon you, there is still a stranger thinking about you, caring about you, and waiting for you. Is this also an unexpected happiness?
Lin Keer looked at the sentence he sent today: "Little beauty, are you here? Just say something if you are. I'm so worried about you!"
She replied: "Here now."
He immediately sent a hugging expression: "Little beauty, I haven't seen you for a long time! Are you okay?"
"No."
"Are you sick again?"
"No, I'm fine."
"Then why haven't you been online for so long?"
Lin Ke'er didn't answer.
"Are you in a bad mood? Your husband hasn't come back yet?"
"Um."
"Hey, don't think so much, don't pursue it too hard, it will make you very tired."
"Well, I don't pursue it deliberately," she said, "I want to give up."
"Give up?" Wan Zhang Hongchen seemed a little surprised: "You mean, divorce?"
"I won't get divorced for the time being. I want to go out for a walk and relax."
"That's okay. If you leave him for a while, maybe he will miss you."
"Maybe," Lin Ke'er felt bitter in her heart. He might miss her, or he might forget her from now on. Who knows?
"I should say yes, because distance creates beauty!"
"Perhaps distance has occurred and beauty has disappeared." Lin Keer thought of Zhao Benshan's sketch and couldn't help but joke.
"Haha!" He laughed: "I didn't expect you to be quite humorous!"
Lin Ke'er couldn't help but think of the past days. Before she met Qin Shaofeng, although her life was relatively hard and poor, and she worked for money all day long, her heart was happy most of the time, especially when she was with Fang Xiaoyi.
, Fang Xiaoyi is impatient, gets anxious and angry at every turn, and she can't help but tease her. How happy the two of them were at that time!
She still remembered that Fang Xiaoyi would stutter when she was anxious, saying "you, you, you" and "me, me, me". She also loved to yell in her face, and the more she yelled, the closer he got, spitting all over her face.
Every time she saw Fang Xiaoyi anxious, she would say: "Don't get so close to my face. If you spit on my face, I will get ringworm." Fang Xiaoyi was so angry that she ignored her, and then she pulled her
He pulled and shook Fang Xiaoyi's arm and said a bunch of nice things to make Fang Xiaoyi laugh.
She also remembered that when Dongzi fell ill at that time, she hurried home. There was no signal on the mobile phone in her hometown, and Fang Xiaoyi couldn't find her. When the call finally got through, Fang Xiaoyi's high-octave voice almost shook her
My eardrum was pierced.
However, ever since she met Qin Shaofeng, especially after she came to beg him for the first time and was left by him to accompany him, her happy days were gone forever!
Although the days of poverty are gone forever, she misses those days very much, poor and happy at the same time!
Seeing that she had not moved for a long time, Wan Zhang Hongchen shook the dialog box: "Little beauty, what are you doing?"
"Did not do anything?"
"Where do you want to go to play?"
"I don't know. I haven't thought about it. I just want to go out for a walk."
"Find a place with a better environment and less noisy, preferably further away from the city, such as in the countryside."
"The countryside?" Lin Ke'er thought, since she hasn't been back to her godmother's hometown for so many years, she is afraid that the house will collapse. Where else can she find the countryside that can give her a sense of familiarity?
"Yes!" Wan Zhang Hongchen continued: "The scenery in the countryside is beautiful, the air is also good, there are mountains, water, bamboo, flowers, grass and woods. It is a real paradise on earth..."