In Qin Shaofeng's eyes, Lin Ke'er has always been a person who doesn't worry about anything. She never cares about matters in his company. He sometimes goes out to socialize at night, and she never takes care of him.
Regarding Yu Qingyao's matter, he naturally felt that there was no need to tell her specifically, so he went to Yu Qingyao's place at night. Even if Lin Keer was awake, he only said: "I'm going out for a while!" and left in a hurry.
.
Little did he know that because of their lack of communication, Lin Keer was burdened with a heavy ideological burden, so much so that he ended up committing suicide by cutting his wrists, which almost made them separated from each other!
After Qin Shaofeng finished speaking, the two of them didn't speak for a while.
Qin Shaofeng put his hand on Lin Ke'er's face, turned away and asked her to look at him: "Ke'er, do you understand?"
Lin Keer nodded slowly and said thoughtfully: "I understand, I was wrong! I shouldn't doubt you! But..."
She stopped.
"But what? Why don't you finish?"
"I..." Lin Ke'er suddenly became timid. In the past, she had always felt that Qin Shaofeng had betrayed her, so she was quite confident. But now she realized that he was not sorry for her at all. It was all her own random suspicions that caused such a situation.
With so many things happening, she couldn't help but become a little timid, fearing that Qin Shaofeng would blame her if she spoke out.
Qin Shaofeng hugged her tightly: "Say it! Ke'er! If you have something to worry about in the future, don't keep it in your heart. You must say it out. I never want to see you pretending to smile at me even though you are obviously worried!"
Lin Keer plucked up the courage and said, "I... remember that I had a child... but why is it gone?"
Qin Shaofeng's heart sank. Lin Keer remembered that she had a child, but did not remember that she committed suicide. Her memory has not been fully restored and is still in a state of fragmentation.
Qin Shaofeng pondered for a while, knowing that this matter could not be hidden. Lin Ke'er would know it sooner or later. Maybe if she told her now, all her memories would be restored, which would not be a bad thing.
Qin Shaofeng looked at her and said, "Ke'er, let's go home first, and I'll tell you when we get home, okay?"
Lin Keer nodded: "Yes."
When they got home, even though it was very late, they still didn't feel sleepy at all.
Qin Shaofeng turned on the computer, and Gangzi said that Lin Keer had written a diary. He wanted to see what she wrote, and he also wanted Lin Keer to read it himself.
Lin Keer watched Qin Shaofeng turn on the computer. She suddenly felt a little panicked and pulled him back: "Husband, what are you doing?"
Qin Shaofeng patted her: "Don't be nervous, Ke'er, I know everything."
Qin Shaofeng called Lin Keer's QQ and entered the wrong password.
He looked back at Lin Keer: "Have you changed your password?"
Lin Keer glanced at him and blushed: "Yeah."
"Tell me the password." Qin Shaofeng turned his head and pointed his fingers on the keyboard.
Lin Ke'er kept mumbling for a while and didn't say anything. Qin Shaofeng didn't look back at her. He frowned and thought for a while before tapping on the keyboard. Lin Ke'er looked at him in surprise as he entered her changed password.
, qq is hung up.
Lin Ke'er's brain was not at the same level as Qin Shaofeng's. Qin Shaofeng could guess the password she changed just by thinking casually.
Qin Shaofeng first looked at the chat records between her and Gangzi, and asked: "What is that Gangzi's online name?"
Lin Ke'er didn't answer. Qin Shaofeng searched for a while but couldn't find it. Among her friends, there were only three women, namely him and Feng Yixiang.
Qin Shaofeng turned around and asked her: "Did you delete him?"
Lin Keer looked at the computer screen and said "hmm".
Qin Shaofeng looked back at her space diary and found that it was not there, so he opened the private diary.
During that time, Lin Keer wrote that she discovered all the contradictions in the text messages on Qin Shaofeng's mobile phone, all kinds of sadness, and countless sadness. Now they were all displayed in front of Qin Shaofeng's eyes. The more Qin Shaofeng looked at it, the more painful it became, and Lin Keer
But she felt embarrassed, as if he had caught her doing something bad, and she couldn't help but want to run away!
She was behind him, watching him read each article carefully. Her feet quietly moved back, slowly moving away from his body, and moved gently towards the door.
Qin Shaofeng read the last article, and his eyes were fixed on the last sentence: "If there is an afterlife, I must become beautiful so that you can fall in love with me again, so that you can love me forever! Dear Feng
! Farewell! Kiss you! Kiss you deeply for the last time!"
His heart ached extremely!
"Ke'er!" He called softly and turned around, but saw that she was not behind him. His heart tightened again, "Ke'er!" He shouted and ran out, only to see Lin Ke'er hiding outside the study with her back on her back.
Lean against the wall and look at him timidly!
"Ke'er!" He bent down and hugged her: "Don't leave me! I won't let you leave me!"
Lin Keer was dumbfounded, still being held by him, without any reaction.
Qin Shaofeng hugged her for a while, and his mood calmed down a little. He picked her up and walked to the computer, let her sit in his arms, pointed at the line of words on the computer and asked: "Ke'er, do you still remember this line of words?
"
Lin Keer looked at it, and after a while, she said, "I... remember."
"What did you do after you wrote this line?"
Lin Ke'er looked up and thought. After thinking for a while, she couldn't remember, so she had to shake her head: "I... don't remember."
Qin Shaofeng thought Lin Ke'er was really strange. She remembered everything except her suicide. This was incredible!
Qin Shaofeng said: "Then let's go back to the bedroom and talk about it."
He turned off the computer and took Lin Keer back to the room. After the two of them lay on the bed, he hugged her and began to talk slowly, saying that he found out that she was pregnant with the child, but because he suspected that the child was not hers, he was very angry.
He scolded her and then didn't come back for a few days. Later, he received a call from the security guard saying that she had committed suicide!
"Suicide?" Lin Keer's eyes widened: "Me? Did I commit suicide?"
Qin Shaofeng said: "Yes, you committed suicide. When auntie found you, you had already cut your wrists!"
He took Lin Keer's left hand, gently touched the scar on her wrist, and said, "This is it. You cut it here and it bled a lot, and you fainted in the end!"
"Then...where is my child?"
"Because you were unconscious for too long, the child was... gone..." Thinking that it was his flesh and blood, but now it was gone without even knowing whether it was a boy or a girl, he felt heartbroken.
Qin Shaofeng hurriedly hugged her: "No! No! Ke'er! Don't think blindly, it's not you! It was an accident, it was an accident! Maybe he has no chance with us!"
"Really?" Lin Ke'er's eyes widened and she asked quietly.
Qin Shaofeng was very worried: "Ke'er, it doesn't matter, don't think too much! If you want, we can have another one! Just have another one!"
"Oh." Lin Ke'er said nothing more and closed her eyes.
Qin Shaofeng looked at her for a long time, turned off the light, and hugged her to sleep. After a long time, the two of them fell asleep one after another.
Qin Shaofeng was sleeping soundly when he was suddenly awakened by the cry in his arms. He hurriedly turned on the light and saw Lin Keer with her eyes closed, tears pouring down her face, and her whole body shaking from crying.
Qin Shaofeng hurriedly patted her: "Ke'er! Ke'er! Wake up! Are you having a nightmare again?"
After filming for a while, Lin Keer opened her eyes, looked at him with tears in her eyes, and said while crying: "Yes... I killed... our child..."
Qin Shaofeng hurriedly sat up and hugged her into his arms: "Ke'er! Did you have a nightmare? No! You didn't kill him! It was just a dream!"
Lin Keer continued to cry and shook her head: "No! I wasn't dreaming! I remembered it. Because you didn't come back, I thought you didn't want me! I didn't want to live anymore! I wanted to leave with my child, so I had an abortion.
Wrist... Wuwuwu... I killed him... I killed him..."
Qin Shaofeng knew that all her memories had been restored, but when he heard her crying, he felt very sad and tried his best to persuade her: "Ke'er! Ke'er! Ke'er, listen to me! I don't blame you! I don't blame you.
! It’s my fault! It’s because I’m not worthy of being his father, so he left us! Ke’er! Stop crying! Don’t think about it anymore! Okay?”
Lin Keer was still crying bitterly.
After a while, Qin Shaofeng hugged her tightly and said, "Cry! Ke'er! Cry loudly when you feel uncomfortable! Without this child, I also... really want to... cry..." His throat became hard, and he continued
I can’t even speak!
Lin Ke'er felt even more uncomfortable when she heard his choking voice, and simply burst into tears.
Listening to Lin Keer's mournful cries, tears finally fell from Qin Shaofeng's eyes!
Lin Keer cried for a long time. When she was tired from crying, her voice gradually became lower and she fell asleep in Qin Shaofeng's arms.
Qin Shaofeng sat with her in his arms for a long time, then gently put her down and hugged her to sleep.
From then on, Lin Keer often fell into a state of thinking and was very silent. Qin Shaofeng rushed back after work every day to take her out and tried to say things that made her happy. She would laugh along with his jokes, but
In Qin Shaofeng's opinion, she always seemed absent-minded.
Qin Shaofeng wanted Lin Ke'er to have a child. Maybe she would be as happy as before once she was pregnant, but seeing Lin Ke'er like this, he gave up the idea. She was not in good health to begin with.
If she was pregnant with another child, he was worried that her body would not be able to bear it even more.
*The days passed day by day amid Lin Keer's silence and Qin Shaofeng's anxiety.
That night, Qin Shaofeng hugged Lin Ke'er. Amidst his chatting, Lin Ke'er slowly fell asleep. At this time, his mobile phone's short message notification sounded. He let go of Lin Ke'er and took it from his bag.
I took out my phone and saw that it was from Yu Qingyao: "Come and see the child! The old place! I'll wait for you!"
Qin Shaofeng thought for a long time and decided to take Lin Ke'er with him.
Lin Ke'er was sleeping soundly, and Qin Shaofeng patted her. But once Lin Ke'er fell asleep, it was difficult to wake her up, so Qin Shaofeng kissed her. He used kissing to wake her up, which was one of his great tricks.
Lin Keer was finally woken up by his kiss, and he said: "Keer, let's go see Qingyao's child!"