The long-cherished wishes and concerns that she could not usually tell outsiders, and the expectations that she felt could not be expressed openly in the sun, could be expressed to Ye Zhong's photo in the dead of night.
His photos are like the tree holes in fairy tales, which can hide all her dark wishes. There is no need to worry about others knowing, and there is no need to worry about the negative impact it will have on her if told.
During his lifetime, he was not a good father, but after his death, he became the only person she could talk to.
How ridiculous, time flies, day after day, none of us can predict what will happen in the future.
Those who have loved, hated, missed, and forgotten, what will become of them.
"Dad, I have been thinking all these years, if we could go back to the past, would we still end up like this? If I knew my life experience, knew that you... didn't like me... knew Chu Di's thoughts...
Do you think I will still get to where I am today?" Lin Xiangwan said, smiling self-deprecatingly, lighting a cigarette and watching the red fire light up in the darkness, she continued, "Look
, I'm talking stupid things again. There will never be ifs or regrets in this world."
Therefore, we must be braver and go on bravely. Don’t look back, and don’t imitate Lot’s wife, who was tempted by the former splendor and fertility of the city of Sodom and couldn’t help but look back, eventually turning into a stone pillar.
"I was actually worried at first whether he would continue to be interested in me, but now it seems that I was worrying too much. I will give him this opportunity. In fact, even if he doesn't ask for it, I will give it to him.
Now it's good, he took the initiative, so I don't have to go around in circles anymore." Putting the burning cigarette and the photo side by side, Ye Zhong had a hobby of smoking during his lifetime, but was forced to quit because of illness.
The flickering light of the fire illuminated the people in the photo, making them uncertain. Lin Xiangwan arranged the two things neatly and continued, "But I won't agree to him so easily. It's too easy.
No one will cherish what they get. Those things he did to me in the past, this time, I will return them all to him, no less, just a lot more."
"Dad, if you are still alive, will you support me? Or tell me not to go on?" Lin Xiangwan cast her eyes out the window. The scenery here is different from that in Chicago. Looking out of the floor-to-ceiling window of her study in Chicago, she glanced at
After passing the rooftops of various colors and architectural styles, your eyes reach a little further away, where you can see the endless Lake Michigan.
And here, all she could see were people in the small windows who were still keeping the lights on at midnight and refused to fall asleep.
Behind every light, there is a story.
Everyone has his own troubles and worries, secrets that cannot be told to the public.
"Look, I'm talking about what if again. You're already gone." Lin Xiangwan let out a long sigh, "No one can take care of me anymore, Dad, no one can take care of me anymore. I'm the only one who can take care of me."
I'm on my own."
As she spoke, she paused and turned her head towards the door of the study. She knew that behind the two wooden doors, she would be waiting for her all her life.
"Don't worry, I won't let Ye Nan go the same way I did. I won't let anyone bully him. I want him to grow up in peace, do what he wants to do, and become the kind of person he wants to be.
I want him to stay away from all the people who may bully him. If those harms must happen to us, then I will bear them all and I will never let them hurt Ye Nan again."
"Dad... do you miss me? I miss you very much. Although you don't like me, I... really miss you..." Her eyes became sour and unbearable, and her voice sounded strange under the cover of the night.
Fragile, unlike the usually shrewd and capable Dr. Lin, Lin Xiangwan was like a lost and lonely bird at this time, covering her weak body with her thin wings. Without any protection, she could only use her backbone.
Come and fight against the wind and rain outside.
"It's okay... We will meet soon... Soon, all this will be over..."
*Ji Moli went through the discharge procedures the day after she complained about the incident and planned to leave Renai.
Out of professional ethics, Lin Xiangwan wanted to persuade her and told her that it would be better to wait for a while before leaving the hospital. After all, caesarean section is a moderate operation. If the wound does not heal, it will be very troublesome in the future.
However, as can be expected, she did not see Ji Moli in person, but was simply stopped outside the ward by the security guards sent by Chu's mother, and was rejected.
Well, maybe the body structure of rich people is different from that of ordinary people, and the general rules that apply to ordinary people will fail when it comes to them. But Lin Xiangwan does not feel annoyed, because she has done her duty, and what will happen next
It's out of her control.
A few more days passed steadily, and it was Friday. After forgetting all the bad things about the Chu family, Lin Xiangwan began to make arrangements to take Ye Nan out for fun on Saturday.
I originally planned to borrow Shen Shijun's car to drive, but I didn't expect that the hospital where Shen Shijun was working would go to the suburbs to hold seminars on Friday and Saturday. Shen Shijun's mysophobia was much more serious than Lin Xiangwan's. He would probably be awkward if he took the bus with his colleagues.
die.
Unable to bear to watch Aunt Shen take a shower until her skin faded, Lin Xiangwan kindly returned his car to him. She rented a small red polo from a car rental company, and then drove to the Summit Cafe in the city center.
Entering the coffee shop, Lin Xiangwan saw Ye Kuan sitting in a booth from a distance, looking down at a magazine. She walked over quickly and patted him on the shoulder.
"Ah, eldest sister, you're here." Ye Kuan's appearance is the same as four years ago, except that he is taller, like a bodybuilder, with an inverted triangle shape, plus the body shape inherited from Aunt Xiang and Ye Zhong.
He has good looks and attracts the attention of girls wherever he goes. However, his temper is the same as before, a bit childish, but very kind-hearted.
As soon as he saw Lin Xiangwan, Ye Kuan immediately said hello with a smile and waved to the waiter, "Bring a pot of fruit tea. I want it hot."
"Fruit tea? When have you ever seen me drink this?" Lin Xiangwan was noncommittal about Ye Kuan's choice. Ye Kuan smiled honestly, "Girls like to drink this."
"Akuan, I'm not a girl anymore. Is it your fiancée who likes to drink this? You did it quickly enough. I think it will take another two years for you to fall in love. Tell me, how did you deceive her?
"Lin Xiangwan deliberately teased Ye Kuan, and successfully saw Ye Kuan suppressing his blush.
"Sister...I'm not lying...we were classmates when we were in college. We had a good relationship when we were in school, and then we graduated...Mom said that the relationship between the two of us was already established anyway, so there was no need to wait for such a long time.
, it’s better to get things done first. If she has a child, she can take advantage of her good health to help us take care of him..." Ye Kuan spoke softer and quieter, and in the end he couldn't continue talking at all.
Ye Kuan didn't know what he did. He could pretend to be mature in front of others, but when he saw Lin Xiangwan, he felt as if he had become the youngest son in the family again.
Look at the eldest sister's face and act accordingly.
"It's not a bad thing, you look like that." Lin Xiangwan patted him on the shoulder and told him not to be too nervous, "You are a young man now, don't wait for me to stand up for you like before.
From now on, it’s time for you to be the pillar of the family, and it’s time to learn to protect others.”
"You don't need to tell me, eldest sister, I know it all." Ye Kuan agreed honestly, and then looked up at Lin Xiangwan tentatively, "eldest sister... Mom said she wanted you to come home for a meal on the weekend... I don't know.
Do you agree or not?"
In a few years, Ye Kuan has become an adult, and now he understands a lot about the ways of the world that he didn't understand before. Although Qi Xiangyun is his biological mother, he also knows that she, Xiao Rong, and even his father treated Ye Xiang in those years.
He was not very good at night, and the great changes that had taken place in the family in the past few years after his eldest sister left made him, who had never experienced hardship since childhood, finally understand how hard Lin Xiangwan had to go to maintain the family.
He didn't ask that Lin Xiangwan could treat her family the way she did before. He just hoped that she wouldn't have any grudges in her heart.
After listening to Ye Kuan's words, Lin Xiangwan didn't answer for a while. To be honest, she really didn't want to see Aunt Xiang, but Ye Kuan had already come to invite her in a humble way. It would be too sad if he still didn't agree.
After weighing the left and right, Lin Xiangwan smiled and nodded, "We are a family, why are you saying so politely? I just returned to China and entered Ren'ai recently, and I am really busy at work. After I have been busy for this period of time, I will
Go back and see Auntie Xiang, she has not had it easy these past years. What has happened in the past is in the past. Besides, I still want to eat your wedding wine."
As soon as he heard Lin Xiangwan relaxed, Ye Kuan's mental arithmetic stopped, and he replied with a smile, "I knew the eldest sister was the best. We plan to wait until spring for the wedding, and then we must leave the best for the eldest sister."
s position!"
"It's not like watching a play. Which position is different?" Lin Xiangwan was also infected by Ye Kuan's emotions and couldn't help but laugh.
"Oh, by the way, eldest sister...why did Mrs. Chu call you Miss Lin that day?" Ye Kuan asked cautiously. He had heard several versions of the answer to this question, but he didn't believe it. He only believed
Lin Xiangwan said it.
Lin Xiangwan didn't intend to hide it from Ye Kuan, so he replied simply, "I took my mother's surname just because I had some things to deal with. It's not because I have any opinions about the Ye family. Don't think too much about it.
"
"I know, the eldest sister has always been considerate when doing things." Ye Kuan nodded firmly, looking at Lin Xiangwan with eyes full of trust in her.
Lin Xiangwan felt hot, but soon she thought of another thing. "Now that Mrs. Chu has been mentioned, I have something to ask you. How did you and Xiaorong know Ji Moli?"
When asked by her, Ye Kuan was speechless for a moment. After thinking for a long time, he said as if he had made up his mind, "Sister, I won't hide this from you. In fact, we are not familiar with Miss Ji. We just looked at Mrs. Chu."
The face has just passed. In the past few years when you were away, something big happened in the family..."
ps: My cat was lost. I found her at 4 a.m. yesterday but couldn't find her. The weather was so cold. I really don't know what will happen to her. Her eyes were swollen from crying, and it hurt like hell to look at the computer. I'm very sad. Very sad.