If it had been in the past, Lin Xiangwan would have definitely comforted them and told them that it was okay, that things were not as bad as they thought, that things would get better, that Ye Nan would get better, and she would get better too.
But now, she didn't say anything.
Because I don’t want to lie to others, let alone myself.
Ye Nan won't get better, and neither will she. Even if it takes a long time for treatment and recuperation, they won't get better.
Even if it does get better, it won't be the same as before.
What happened happened, and no matter how you make up for it afterwards, that crack will always remind you that some things are... different after all.
Rehabilitation treatment is a very painful process. Lin Xiangwan wanted to escape almost from the first day. The soreness from his wrist went straight to the bottom of his heart, and the pain like ant bites made people irritated. Lin Xiangwan felt
Her heart was like a pot of blazing firewood, but because it was lit at the tip of her heart, she couldn't knock it over and could only hide it. However, the anger burned her heart and made her feel very uncomfortable. She always wanted to
Have a fight with someone.
But unfortunately, the rehabilitation teacher has a good temper, and she probably has seen many such patients, so no matter how she finds fault, she always smiles gently and lets her continue with the boring exercises.
There was a huge floor-to-ceiling mirror in the rehabilitation room. When Lin Xiangwan was doing rehabilitation, Ye Nan was sitting in front of the mirror waiting for her. Whenever Lin Xiangwan stopped to rest, she could see him sitting there, holding a
A book that is fascinating to read.
In the past, whenever Lin Xiangwan looked at him, Ye Nan would put down the book and smile at her as if she had sensed something. But now... Even if Lin Xiangwan looked like a stone, Ye Nan would also
Wouldn't look at her twice.
From the initial disbelief to the later helpless acceptance, it didn't take her too long, because even if she cried and was reluctant, this was a fact that she couldn't change. Instead of continuing to waste time on things that were already determined,
It is better to look forward.
There was something she could do, and there was something she had to do. There were some difficult decisions that she thought she could avoid at first, but now it seems that fate doesn't seem to give her much choice.
Chu Di bought many expensive models and copperplate books for Ye Nan, allowing Ye Nan to use them. Most of the time, Ye Nan would only be interested in one of them, while the others were piled randomly in the corner.
dust.
Lin Xiangwan didn't understand how powerful those patterns with complex lines were, which could make Ye Nan only focus on them and give up communicating with others, so she also began to try to read those professional books on architecture, and on lines
I am looking for a bridge to connect with Ye Nan again.
"Lin, Miss Lin, please..." Halfway through the rehabilitation, a young nurse stumbled in, panting heavily. "Mr. Chu got into a fight with a gentleman. Please go and try to persuade him."
…”
"Why should I try to persuade him to fight? You should go to the security guard, right?" Lin Xiangwan replied expressionlessly.
After staying in the hospital for more than a month, she and Chu Di also became strangers for more than a month. At first, Chu Di always found something to talk to her. Slowly, in her intentional or unintentional silence, he understood her.
It was no longer possible to treat him like before. So he no longer continued to say those boring and silly words, but chose to stay with her quietly.
While she was reading, he was working, and when she woke up from sleep, he was still working with his head on the documents. Under the dim light, the man's outline looked extremely skinny, as if he had been chopped with a knife and an ax, and he became thinner and thinner.
Day after day, night after night, if she didn't speak, he wouldn't say a word.
When these two people are together, they are even quieter than alone.
Between them, there is blood all over her body, and there is an insurmountable dead end. How should she respond to him?
"Security... The security can't stop me... Miss Lin, you'd better go and have a look. The other gentleman is here to see you. He said his surname is Shen."
After hearing what the little nurse said, Lin Xiangwan really couldn't stay any longer. She knew few people named Shen, and that was probably the only one who could fight with others for her.
When they ran back to the ward, Shen Shijun and Chu Di had already been opened.
The room was in a mess, and both of their faces were stained. Shen Shijun looked even more embarrassed, his glasses were broken, his lips were broken, and there were blood stains. Lin Xiangwan had never seen Shen Shijun and In her impression, this senior brother has always been known for his elegance and good temper. Occasionally when he meets someone he really doesn't like, he will become a little evil, but he has never escalated to the level of fighting.
On the other hand, Chu Di's appearance is not too ugly, but his clothes are wrinkled and there is a small bruise on his face. It's no wonder that he grew up in the streets and alleys. Fighting is the same as eating, and he eats for three days and one hour. Big, one beating every five days, and now with the professional guidance of Zhong Kun, Shen Shijun was lucky that he didn't break one of his legs this time.
Lin Xiangwan knew that the reason why the two started fighting must have something to do with her, so she stood at the door, feeling embarrassed whether she entered or not.
Just when she was hesitating, Shen Shijun suddenly saw her. He broke free from the hospital security guard who trapped him, walked up to Lin Xiangwan, and stared at him fiercely.
For a moment, Lin Xiangwan even felt that Shen Shijun was going to raise his hand to slap her, because there was such deep sorrow and anger in his eyes, as strong as ink that could not be melted away, making his whole body stained with a layer of sadness. A thin hint of anger.
Although Shen Shijun was just her senior brother, they were much closer emotionally than other members of the same family. If she hadn't been so stubborn over the years and refused to fall in love with him, their children might be all over the place by now. Ran.
But even though she rejected him mercilessly, he never gave up on her in all these years.
So many of her relatives have long forgotten her in their memories for countless years, but he has always been with her.
So now even if he beats her or scolds her, she will never resent him, because she knows that this man is sincere to her, and perhaps no one else in this world would be so kind to her except him.
Lin Xiangwan subconsciously shrank her shoulders and lowered her head, waiting for Shen Shijun's slap to come down.
But after waiting for a long time, she only waited until his palm gently landed on her head, "Come with me, I suffered a big loss this time, don't be stupid again. I quit my job, and after the operation, I Take you back to the United States."
Shen Shijun's voice was full of pity and helplessness for her. He really couldn't figure out what the problem was between the two of them, and why she refused to choose him even though he was obviously better than that man.
Is it because he is too gentle? Is it really true to the old saying that if a man is not bad, a woman will not love him? But if he really wants to be bad to her... He really can't do it...
He knows better than anyone else what his little junior sister has gone through. He knows that the wounds in her heart are far more severe than those on her body, but he can't help her. He can give everything for her, but she
But he refused to ask for it.
Lin Xiangwan bit her lip and did not answer.
But she didn't answer, and someone answered for her, "She won't leave with you. I won't let her leave here before her body recovers."
Chu Di stepped forward and took Lin Xiangwan's arm. Lin Xiangwan frowned lightly when he touched her.
"You deserve it!" Shen Shijun was instantly irritated, "Who gave her the appearance she is now? Do you know that she is not in good health? Are you still torturing her like this? Are you looking forward to her early death day and night?
Are you satisfied that she is neither a human nor a ghost now? Are you happy that Ye Nan has closed herself off again? Chu Di, is your heart really full of flesh? In the days since she returned to China, has she done anything to apologize?
What’s your matter? You fucking have her, but you don’t cherish her. Do you know what a bastard you are for doing this?!"
"No matter how bad I am, it is our business and has nothing to do with you. Mr. Shen, please leave." Faced with Shen Shijun's aggressive attitude, Chu Di clenched his fists and spoke coldly.
Shen Shijun shook his head, "You are really hopeless. You have no idea what you are doing. You will definitely regret it." After he finished speaking, he faced Lin Xiangwan and said, "Awan, come with me, this kind of person
It’s not worth your nostalgia, let’s take Ye Nan with us, I will take good care of you, and he will get better.”
"Senior brother...I'm sorry...I won't leave."
As soon as Lin Xiangwan's words came out, not only Shen Shijun was stunned, but Chu Di who was standing aside was also in a daze for a moment.
Shen Shijun could hardly believe his ears. He took a step forward and asked again, "What did you say? You won't leave? He treated you like this and you still won't leave?!"
"Yes, I don't want to leave... I can't leave... What happened this time was an accident and had nothing to do with Chu Di. He didn't do it, and he didn't want this to happen. So... I don't want to leave him, Ye
I can take care of Nan myself, so you don’t have to worry about it anymore. Thank you for helping me so much in the past... You won’t have to anymore."
Lin Xiangwan's voice was very soft, but in Shen Shijun's ears, it was like a thunder strike. Seeing that Lin Xiangwan really didn't intend to leave, Chu Di was so ecstatic that he stepped forward and said, "Mr. Shen heard it too, Ah Wan
If I don’t want to leave with you, I won’t send you off.”
Shen Shijun was stunned for a long time, and then gave a soft smile. He closed his eyes as if in pain. After a moment, he turned around and strode away without a trace of nostalgia.
"Senior brother..." Lin Xiangwan saw his back walking further and further away. She felt indescribably sad in her heart, and she couldn't help but call out.
Shen Shijun stopped and did not look back. He just said, "Miss Lin, now that we have made a clear distinction, please take care of yourself in the future. I don't have a junior sister like you. My junior sister is proud of herself. Although she has a little temper, she still has a good temper."
In my opinion, she is the best woman in the world. She knows how to love herself and would never do such stupid things... You are not my junior sister... My junior sister is not stupid like you."