Chu Di was stunned for a long time without answering, wondering if he heard what he said clearly. Lin Xiangwan had no choice but to ask the question just now, "How about it? Feed me. Anyway, there are not more than two people in your family to eat. Me and
Ye Nan, I don't have any other requirements, just take care of food, clothing, housing and transportation."
Her attitude was very light and her tone was light when she spoke, as if she was discussing other people's affairs rather than her future.
"Are you serious, or are you kidding me?" Chu Di asked, a little unsure.
Lin Xiangwan smiled and said, "Are you kidding? How do you know I'm joking? I'm a loser. Apart from Mr. Chu, who has taken me in so mercifully, is there anyone else who would want me?" She said and sat up straight.
He stood up and put his arms on his shoulders, "Do you still want me to beg you before you agree? Well, please, Mr. Chu, be kind and take me and Ye Nan in. I promise.
I won’t cause you any trouble. I only eat a little bit of food every day, okay?”
I wanted to tell her, don’t say it like this, because you know that everything I did to you was not out of pity or kindness. But Chu Di didn’t say anything because her body was very close to him, so close that he could
He could smell the strong smell of soda water unique to the hospital emanating from her clothes, and the scent of shampoo from her hair. He was so close to her, so unprepared, that he was filled with joy.
Although he vaguely felt that something was wrong, he couldn't tell what was wrong.
However, as long as she thinks about it, she is willing to be with him. No matter how difficult it is, as long as the family is together, there will always be hope.
Chu Di felt that he had never learned to love in his whole life. In his early years, it was because he felt that he did not need such a thing. When he later found out that he was wrong, it was already too late.
So it wasn't until a long, long time later that Chu Di figured out the mystery. Lin Xiangwan's attitude towards him at that time was the attitude of a woman in love towards her beloved. If she loved him, it was understandable to express her love like this.
But the strange thing is, after so many things happened, how could she still have any feelings for him.
If she doesn't hate him to the core, even if it's a good thing, how can she still have love for him...
It's just that he understood all this, too late, too late.
*Lin Xiangwan went home directly after being discharged from the hospital. Because she had a lot of things to pack, she and Chu Di made an appointment to send a moving company over the next day to transport her and Ye Nan's things. They would officially start living together.
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Although I haven't been home for a long time, Aunt Zhang's house has been kept very clean. Everything that needs to be taken away has been packed and neatly placed against the wall.
Lin Xiangwan walked around the cardboard box and took Ye Nan's hand into the study.
Because Ye Nan didn't like her to be alone here, Lin Xiangwan didn't come in for a long time. Happy times always passed very fast. Summer flew by in the blink of an eye, and late autumn was coming. After these few months, Ye Nan
Zhong still had that meaningless smile printed in the black photo frame, looking at Lin Xiangwan quietly.
She is so stupid. How could the photo change? Even if we haven't seen her for a long time, there won't be any other changes besides a slight yellowing.
Lin Xiangwan lit a cigarette and poured a glass of red wine.
The wine was for Ye Zhong, and the cigarette was for herself. Ye Nan stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window at the end of the room, using her fingers to outline the outline of the houses outside. A cool wind poured in from the window, leaving Lin Xiangwan no need.
I was worried that the smell of smoke would choke him.
"Dad, I finally understand now that everything I was afraid of before is not true. Ye Nan will not forget me, just like I will not forget you. Even if he locks himself in a place where only he can enter and exit
The world, he will not forget me, right?" Lin Xiangwan took a long breath, dusted the cigarette ashes on the floor casually, her fingers rubbed back and forth against Ye Zhong's cheek, as if it was meaningless to pass this
With such contact, you can touch Ye Zhong's long-dead soul.
"I used to be worried that he would forget me, so I didn't do things quickly or easily. Now I finally understand. Dad, you were so bad to me before, and I haven't even forgotten you, let alone Ye Kuanhe.
Ye Rong... We will never forget our parents, even the most heartless people will not forget, so I am no longer afraid... I know Ye Nan will be fine... I will let him be fine
Yes, I will take on the responsibility of a mother...I will never let the same thing happen to him again...Dad...please protect me."
When Lin Xiangwan said the last word, he suddenly laughed and burst into tears. The teardrops dropped into the red wine glass and disappeared.
She walked behind Ye Nan and stretched out her arms to hug her. The child stared numbly out of the window and did not respond to her possession. Lin Xiangwan pressed her face to his, and she felt in her heart
Say to him over and over again, "Baby, remember mom, no matter what happens, please remember me. Mom loves you more than anyone else in the world. No one loves you more than me."
You, no matter where I am or how far away I am from you, please remember this."
The next day, Lin Xiangwan took Ye Nan to Chu Di's small villa and began a real cohabitation life.
Chu Di felt that Lin Xiangwan had changed a bit from before. She quit her job and spent a lot of time with Ye Nan every day. She no longer resisted spending Chu Di's money. She bought many books for Ye Nan and returned them.
There is a model, and when I have nothing to do, I will hug Ye Nan and sit in the sunny courtyard to read or play with toys. She often laughs, with her long hair spread casually on her shoulders, and her whole body will tremble slightly when she laughs.
Chu Di often stood not far away and looked at her, but for some reason, whenever she smiled, he always felt that her smile contained some kind of sad emotion.
Her body was smiling, her face was smiling, but her eyes were not smiling.
There was a kind of pain similar to sadness in her eyes, which penetrated people's hearts.
Lin Xiangwan began to learn to cook, but she gave up this attempt not long after. Her hands were always shaking and she could not even lift the pot, let alone lift it to perform various stir-frying movements.
One time Chu Di came home early and heard a loud noise from the kitchen. It turned out that she was struggling with the iron pot again, but ultimately failed.
The pot fell to the ground, the half-cooked dishes fell on the clean marble floor, and the sauce splashed. Chu Di thought that Lin Xiangwan would be angry because of such a setback, but her response was completely beyond his expectation.
She smiled and squatted down, like any good-tempered housewife, while muttering, "Why am I so stupid, I can't even do such a simple thing," and then cleaned the floor.
He stood aside and looked at her, wanting to help, but his body seemed to be under a spell and he couldn't move.
He seemed to see a pair of hands tearing off the wings on her shoulder blades bit by bit, forcefully, along with the flesh and bones.
She could no longer fly away. In this life, she had no other choice but to live by him.
It wasn't until Lin Xiangwan finished cleaning the floor that she realized Chu Di's arrival. She still kept her smile and said to him, "It looks like I'm going to have instant noodles for dinner tonight. I'm so useless. It's such a small thing."
I can’t do it well. Otherwise, I’d better order takeout. It’s not a problem to eat instant noodles all the time..."
She said this and left to find the phone. Chu Di hugged her tightly from behind.
"Don't be like this... You don't have to force yourself to do these housework. Aunt Zhang has returned to her hometown. We can also hire a new aunt. If you don't like it, just change her until you like it."
When she was restless, he always hoped that she could stay by his side for a while longer, but now that she stayed by his side forever, he felt that he deeply owed her.
She once said that he took away all the glory and hope that belonged to her, so she could only find something to be proud of again if she kept working hard and climbing up. But now... he has taken away all the glory and hope in her life.
The last bit of light was also destroyed.
Some things can be fixed, and some things never can.
Lin Xiangwan was held by him without any resistance. She was as obedient as a well-behaved house cat, "It's a waste of money to find someone. I have nothing to do with my time at home. Although my hands can no longer be used on the operating table."
, but the stove should still be okay. Don't worry, let me practice again. Hey, it's getting late. I really should go order food, otherwise people won't be happy to deliver it when we get to the peak. You're hungry.
No? Let’s eat some snacks first to make up for it..."
Lin Xiangwan talked to herself, broke away from Chu Di's arms, and walked towards the living room. She didn't stop until she couldn't see him, clenched her palms tightly into fists, and then hit her hard again and again.
against the wall.
She didn't feel any pain, she hadn't felt anything for a long time.
Even if the hot vegetable juice splashed out just now fell on her feet, she didn't feel it at all.
She thought that she could not last for a day in such a cohabitation life, because in the past, she would definitely retaliate against those who had hurt her. Not to mention living under the same roof, just thinking about that person made her feel sick.
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But now, things are different from the past. She is no longer the impulsive and passionate person she used to be. Her blood has long since become cold and frosty.
Not only did she stay, she did a great job.
It turns out that what love can't do, hate can really do.
Lin Xiangwan faced a certain point in the void and smiled quietly. Do you want my gentleness? Then I will give it to you. But do you know that sometimes gentleness is the best murder weapon?
When you realize the danger, it's already too late, because you are trapped in the land of gentleness and can no longer escape.