At that moment, Chu Di wanted to say to Lin Xiangwan, go away, go far away, and never come back. Everything that happened was just a dream. When you wake up from the dream, you and I have nothing to do with each other.
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Not for anything else, just because she stayed by his bed sleeplessly these days and nights, just for the tears she shed when he was assassinated.
Just for those days that he wanted to forget and couldn't forget, those days that were engraved on his body and imprinted on his soul, and spent together day and night.
She sat in his arms, and the two of them soaked in the hot spring together. When he lowered his head, he could see her profile. She closed her eyes, and the corners of her mouth turned up involuntarily. I'm afraid even she didn't know that she was smiling.
She was beautiful when she smiled. When he first met her, he often thought, how could this girl smile so beautifully? It made him feel more excited than the smile of any woman he had ever seen. How could she smile so well?
So brilliant, so brilliant that I want to destroy it.
So, what was she thinking when she smiled involuntarily in his arms? Was she planning how to bankrupt him and make him lose everything? Let him feel the same pain as she did?
He didn't believe it.
He didn't believe that there were such dirty thoughts hidden behind such a pure and sweet smile. He didn't believe that Lin Xiangwan had such deep intentions. She hated him and wanted to take revenge on him, but she was by no means a scheming person.
Cleverness didn't apply to this. Even after he fell down so many times and suffered so many losses because of her, he still thought so.
He didn't let her go because he couldn't bear it.
If she leaves, who will prove those days of persistence and his unfulfilled promises, and whose hands should they be handed over? He is reluctant to let her escape. He would rather leave her broken than let her escape from him.
completely disappeared from the world.
Chu Di's hand had already fallen on the car door switch, but in the end he did not press the button.
When a thought arises, thousands of rivers and mountains change; when a thought disappears, the sea changes.
One of our decisions often determines the direction of countless things in the future, whether they are happy or sad, gathering or breaking up, but when we make this decision, we cannot see that far ahead.
Even if you see it, more often than not, things are counterproductive, you can't help yourself, and you can't help yourself.
The car drove slowly through the downtown area, and then started speeding after getting onto the highway.
"It's not a pity, we can do it later. It's just a pot of soup." After a long silence, Chu Di replied.
However, Lin Xiangwan didn't say anything else. She leaned her head against the car window and gestured with her fingers in the thin mist on the glass. Chu Di looked over and found that she was writing.
Shen Shijun, Ye Nan, Ye Kuan, Xu Mingfei... She wrote down the names of all the people she knew, then wiped them off one by one, breathed, and wrote them again.
She stubbornly repeated these actions, as if this action had great meaning and influence on her, as if those people's names would become immortal just because she painted them on the car windows.
The two words she wrote the most were Ye Nan.
She carefully neatly wrote these two words, stroke by stroke, and then erased them carefully. Her movements were gentle and slow, and she pursed her lips tightly as if completing an important ritual.
Chu Di saw tears flashing in her eyes, but it was just a momentary illusion. If he looked carefully, she still had no expression on her face, as if she didn't care about what was about to happen.
When they arrived at the place, the car stopped. Lin Xiangwan got out of the car and couldn't help but sigh, "It's such a convenient place."
Chu Di: "What?"
Lin Xiangwan raised his eyebrows and pointed to the high and low mountain road in the distance, "Wait a while and bury me there, clean and hidden. Bury me deeper and don't let wild dogs dig me out in the middle of the night. It'll be scary."
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She was joking with her own life nonchalantly, giving people a sense of powerlessness that wanted to be angry but didn't know where to start. Chu Di stared at her for a long time, and finally rolled his sleeves and said, "Don't talk nonsense, no one said anything."
It will kill you."
In front of the trail into the mountain, there is a ruined temple, and Ah Dao is already waiting at the door of the temple.
Chu Di saw him from a distance and nodded towards him. Ah Dao ran over and saw Lin Xiangwan and smiled at her in embarrassment, "Sister Wan, you have got into big trouble this time."
Lin Xiangwan also nodded and said, "Yes, I'm going to do you a favor. Please, be more quick with your hands later, I'm afraid of pain."
"Sister Wan, you..." Ah Dao was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say. Lin Xiangwan ignored him and turned to Chu Di, "You two should discuss how to deal with me. I'll go into the temple and have a look."
After saying that, Lin Xiangwan went straight into the temple.
The state has national laws and the family has family rules. If Chu Di does not pursue the things she has done, no matter who will dare to do it on his head in the future. In that case, not only Chu's mother, but also Chu Di himself may be in danger.
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Only by killing the chicken and showing it to the monkey can he see things straight.
As for how he wanted to deal with her, Lin Xiangwan lowered her head and smiled. She didn't even care at all.
Some people say that no sorrow is greater than a dead heart, but she always feels that no sorrow is greater than a dead heart.
Because her heart never gave up, she always had some illusions in her heart, which made her feel that everything was hopeful. But after experiencing all this, she had extinguished the last spark in her heart with her own hands.
My heart is dead, what's the use of leaving this dilapidated body behind.
I don’t know when the old temple was built. After hundreds of years of wind and rain, it has become dilapidated. The paint on the Buddha statues enshrined in the temple has peeled off, revealing the mud body and wooden bones inside, which looks miserable.
, Lin Xiangwan stood in front of the altar table, put her hands together very respectfully, and worshiped.
She doesn't believe in gods and Buddhas, but she hopes Ye Nan can believe it, because if people don't have fear, they will live in poverty.
Just like her.
The scary thing is not what you want, the scary thing is that you don’t want anything.
Because people have weaknesses, they have fear and know how to advance and retreat. But if you are facing someone who doesn't want anything, what should you do with her?
There were heavy footsteps behind him, but Lin Xiangwan did not turn around, "Have we discussed it? Where are you going to take action? Let's go outside. It's always bad to see blood in the land of Buddhism."
"A Dao's men are measured... You don't have to be afraid... I will ask the best doctor to take care of you..." Chu Di stood behind her. For some reason, facing this slender figure, he always felt something invisible.
pressure.
"Chu Di, it's really unpleasant for you to say this. Your people want to operate on me, but you still tell me not to be afraid, because I found a doctor afterwards, so I won't feel pain or bleed?" Lin Xiangwan shook his head and sighed.
He said, "After so many years, you have actually not changed. You never stand in other people's shoes and think about others. You think you can understand everything and control everything, but in the end, you will find out that you
Don't understand anything.quot;
"Then what do you know? Didn't you think that you would be discovered by me when you did these things? Or do you think that even if I found out, I wouldn't do anything to you?" Chu Di said coldly, if she was really like that
Thinking about it, it was actually not wrong, because he had hinted to her that he could go to the lowest limit for her, but he did not expect that she would be so bold and actually dare to lift his reverse scale.
Lin Xiangwan put down her hands, took two steps toward the door, and said helplessly, "Look, I am the reason why we can't be together. Because none of us can take a step back for the other. We are actually the same person. We have decided
He refuses to let go of things that happen to him, even if he is bruised and bruised by the other party, he refuses to take another step back. The two of us are like two hedgehogs, together, apart from hurting each other, we can't do anything else at all.
So...Mr. Chu, goodbye."
After she finished speaking, she sighed with great regret and left the ruined temple without giving Chu Di a chance to answer.
As soon as he went out, he saw Ah Dao. He was standing in front of the temple gate cautiously, his brows furrowed. Ah Dao looked a bit childish. Although he was a grown man in his thirties, when he frowned, he still looked like a child.
A child faced with a difficult problem who didn't know how to solve it. It was because of this childishness in him that Lin Xiangwan took special care of him among Chu Di's brothers.
She advised Ah Dao to go to an internship class and learn a trade, so that when he escapes from the underworld, or when Chu Di no longer needs him, he can live a good life.
Unexpectedly, Ah Dao not only obtained a college degree, but also took tutoring courses until he found a wife. Now the two of them are running the manor in a down-to-earth manner, just waiting for the birth of their child after the Chinese New Year, and they are a happy and healthy family of three.
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Everyone seems to be able to arrange their lives very well, except her and him.
Lin Xiangwan has always wondered whether her life would be different if she left Chu Di, but if she forgets those things, will she find the so-called happiness.
But she tried for so long but failed.
They are probably the enemies described in the horoscopes. Unless one of them dies, there will be no peace for eternity.
"Ah Dao, I'll leave it to you. I'll wait at the car." Chu Di ordered and walked quickly in the direction of the car without even looking back.
He didn't dare to look back because he was afraid that he would see the blood spurting out when the knife penetrated Lin Xiangwan's shoulder or arm. He felt that he couldn't bear it. He once cut people with his hands like melons and vegetables, and killed a person in a dark alley.
He would not frown even if the blood came out, but now he couldn't bear to see her bleeding even a drop.
What went wrong? Who changed whom?
The reason why Ah Dao is called Ah Dao is because he is good with the knife. He cuts the knife very accurately and quickly. He will only make Lin Xiangwan bleed a little bit, but will not hurt her too deeply or kill her.
He will not cut her important veins. As long as Lin Xiangwan undergoes this punishment, the past events will be wiped out. Then he will take her far away and hide her well.
Let her not wade into this troubled water again. As time goes by, she will slowly forget these things, and then they may be able to start over.
Chu Di told himself this while walking quickly, until he heard the crisp gunshot behind him...