"The rules of the orphanage are that once you reach the age of sixteen, you must leave the orphanage. So I left there when I was sixteen. At first, I didn't know where to go because I didn't like reading and my brain wasn't very good.
So I didn’t have any skills, so I could only earn money by doing odd jobs washing dishes and delivering newspapers. Later, I felt it was really boring. After I saved some money, I wanted to go somewhere else. I was young at that time, and my thoughts were straightforward.
I thought if I could find the person who donated money to the orphanage, maybe he would keep me and I would work hard. I'm not afraid of hardship, I just don't like wandering around."
Life as a part-time worker is not easy. Because of his young age, he is often bullied. He is not afraid of hardship, but because he is poor, should he be suspected? Something was lost in the store, and the landlady was the first to cast doubt on it.
For him, even if he is the one who works the hardest in the store and is the one who comes the earliest and leaves the last every day.
"Later I went back to the orphanage and asked the director. The director told me that the donation was anonymous, so no one knew who donated the money. So I could only check the money transfer through the remittance slip from that year.
The place where I came out. It was a very small town near Thailand. You can’t even find it on the map. I spent all my money on a one-way ticket and ran there.”
"You just searched for him like this? Didn't you think you wouldn't be able to find him?" Lin Xiangwan couldn't help but interrupt. Even if she was young, she certainly wouldn't have the courage to leave her hometown alone to find someone.
I don’t know what the target is at all, and after so many years, even if the donor did live in that small town, after so many years...
"So, my brain is not good. I didn't think about this when I got on the plane. I didn't think about it until I was sitting in my seat. What if I really can't find it." Xu Yunqi smiled and rubbed his lips.
Forehead, "If you can't find it, you can't find it. It's not a big deal. Anyway, I can't live anywhere."
The more embarrassment people live, the less afraid they are of wandering, because they have nothing to rely on, so the end of the world is the same for them.
The mountain road is rugged and difficult, and Xu Yunqi is very skilled in driving. Lin Xiangwan used to like men who could drive a manual car with flying colors, and thought the movements between shifting gears and speeding up were very cool. Xu Yunqi was already in his thirties, and Shen Shijun
Chu Di and the others were different. Because they had never lived a wealthy life, there was no domineering feeling between his eyebrows. When he was with him, Lin Xiangwan never felt any sense of distance between them.
So the words that came out of his mouth had an inexplicable feeling of being convincing.
"It turns out that I really thought too little at the time. When I actually arrived at that place, I realized that trying to find that person was like finding a needle in a haystack. It was simply impossible. Although it was a small town, it was impossible.
There are at least tens of thousands of people, and over the years, the staff working in the bank have changed several times, and no one remembers that anyone had ever remitted such a sum of money. I had no choice but to wander around the town, because
I couldn't understand the local dialect and couldn't speak, so I couldn't find a suitable part-time job. I had no money and couldn't make any money. I wasn't even allowed to enter the worst hotel. I ended up living on the street for a few nights, suffering from hunger and cold.
, so sick that he almost died."
"However, I am a long-term person and I am so sick, but there are still people who are willing to take me back and make me herbal soup every day. Later, I am slowly cured. After I recovered, I realized that I didn't know anything.
I had already arrived at a small mountain village on the border of Thailand and Myanmar. The person who picked me up was a pharmacist in the village. He met me when he went to town to sell herbal medicine. He thought I was pitiful and thought that teaching people one life was better than building seven levels.
The pagoda saved me."
Xu Yunqi couldn't help but paused when he said this. Lin Xiangwan looked at him and saw that his expression was calm. However, the cigarette in his fingers was about to burn to the end and was about to burn his fingers, but he still didn't feel it.
"That was my first time in a place like that. There was no electricity or running water in the village. Water had to be fetched from the stream. After seven o'clock in the evening, the whole village was pitch black and every household was asleep.
They are not even willing to light oil lamps. In addition to collecting some herbs from the mountains in exchange for some money and buying some daily necessities, the rest of their income can only be obtained from the fields. They can eat as much food as the fields produce. If there is a disaster, they may
Everyone in the village has to eat tree bark to wrap their bellies. Although they are poor and backward, the people there are the happiest and most simple people I have ever seen. They will not look at you differently because you are a stranger. If you
When you walk in the village during meal time, an old lady will pull you home and serve you a bowl of sweet potato porridge. That is the true meaning of not closing the door at night and not picking up things on the road. Everyone can live their little life with peace of mind. If there is something at home,
Whenever a family hunts prey in the mountains or digs up good herbs, the people in the village will be happy for them and not jealous."
"I don't think I have ever met such nice and kind people anywhere else in my life except there. They kept me here, taught me to identify herbs, taught me to speak the local dialect, and taught me martial arts because it was close to the mountains.
, so the men in the village occasionally go into the mountains to hunt. Their Kung Fu is not a very formal, systematic Kung Fu. It is just for self-defense, but it is very lethal. My Kung Fu is also accumulated from there.
of."
"After I recovered from my illness, I have been living in the village. I went into the mountains to dig medicine with the herbalist who rescued me. I lived there for two years. Later, the villagers let me enter the family tree, and they also built me a house together and asked
I have a wife."
"Are you married?" Lin Xiangwan interrupted, because Xu Yunqi had always been a lonely person and had never heard of his marriage. He himself had not revealed a word about it, so now he suddenly heard it said
, which is really surprising.
"Yes." Xu Yunqi smiled and nodded, "I was only eighteen at that time, but she was also sixteen. Her name is Lan Duo, and she is from the village. Her parents passed away early, and she only lived with a stupid brother. She was also
She makes a living by digging medicine, so the two of us always go to the mountains together, and we get to know each other as soon as we go back and forth. Then the village chief acted as a matchmaker and married her to me."
When Xu Yunqi mentioned Lan Duo, there was indescribable tenderness in his eyes. Lin Xiangwan had seen such a gentle expression before. When Long Jiwei was holding Bai Jing, the man handed her a ring that looked like a sugar cube.
when……
"I really can't see... you can get married at the age of eighteen, Xu Yunqi." Lin Xiangwan said, patting his back. After chatting for so long, she had almost forgotten why she wanted to talk to Xu Yunqi about this in the first place.
topic, and Long Zhuantou asked her to stay away from this man. She intuitively felt that Xu Yunqi was not a bad person, at least not the kind of vicious person with evil intentions. Lin Xiangwan narrowed his eyes and gossiped, "If you get married so early, the child will already be full."
Did she run away? Where's your wife? Why haven't you seen her? She's still in the small village and hasn't come out with you? Do you have any photos? Let me see."
Xu Yunqi was stunned, then hesitated, then put his hand into his chest pocket, took out his wallet and handed it to Lin Xiangwan, "It's a photo from a long time ago, maybe I can't see it clearly."
Lin Xiangwan opened her wallet and found a small group photo in the photo frame of the wallet. The photo was very old and the edges were a little burnt for some reason. She put the photo in front of the window and borrowed it.
The bright sunlight outside becomes stronger and you can clearly see the blurred outlines of the three little people in the photo.
A young man with short hair and piercing eyes was Xu Yunqi in his youth, and the other woman with a delicate face was probably Lan Duo. Between these two people, there was a young man sitting. The young man opened his mouth wide and smiled so hard that his teeth could not be seen.
It's Lando's silly brother.
"Xu Yunqi, this is what's wrong with you. How could you leave your wife in that place alone? You should have brought her out with you. Look, you don't even have a decent photo. You are such an incompetent husband.
." Lin Xiangwan complained and returned the wallet to Xu Yunqi. Xu Yunqi took the wallet and said with a bitter smile, "You are right, I am indeed not a qualified husband."
"That's right, but you are a good child if you know your mistakes and can correct them. Get your wife here as soon as possible. She doesn't speak Mandarin. I'll ask Long Jiwei to see if I can find a suitable job for her..."
Faced with Lin Xiangwan's enthusiastic recommendation, Xu Yunqi just shook his head and whispered, "No need."
Lin Xiangwan thought that he was having an affair with her, so she continued to talk to him, "Hey, there's no need to be polite to me. Although Long Jiwei has a bit of a stinky face, he's still not a bad person. At worst, I'll try to save my face."
he……"
"There's really no need...Landuo won't come...she has been dead for a long time..."
Dead silence returned to the car in an instant, as if someone dropped a silencer, so all the sounds were swallowed up. Although Xu Yunqi's tone was calm, Lin Xiangwan could hear the deep meaning in his words.
sad.
Parting in life and death.
The two most painful things in life are separation or the chance of meeting again. No matter how deeply hurt you are, you only need to dig up the carrion and you can start over.
But to say goodbye is to travel thousands of miles, to go up to the poor Huangquan and down to the blue sky, and never see each other again.
"How did she die?" Lin Xiangwan heard herself ask. She knew she shouldn't ask. It would be cruel and cruel to expose other people's scars. She could feel this pain personally. If
Normally, she would have kept her mouth shut and said she was sorry or a pity, but now she couldn't control herself.
Xu Yunqi paused for a while, and then said calmly, "I killed him. I killed him with my own hands."