Chapter 15 Love for one year hurts for three years
Chu Di didn't know how to answer, yes, what is the reason for being so obsessed with and refusing to let go.
Everyone said that it takes one year to fall in love and three years to be hurt, but the relationship between him and her lasted more than three and five years to explain. The saddest thing is that the entanglement between him and her may not even be love.
From the initial hatred towards each other to finally seeing each other as an indispensable part of life, there are all kinds of calculations and entanglements, but they are connected to life and death. Who can tell him what kind of emotion this is.
It was as if a big hole had been broken in the sky, and raindrops fell between them, forming an impassable chasm.
"Maybe to you, this is nothing. You just want to leave me. But to me, I...I..." His mind was in chaos. From the time he learned her whereabouts until now, he
The whole person was in a state of extreme confusion. He couldn't sleep all night long, trying to numb himself with alcohol, but in the end he still kept his eyes open until dawn, knowing full well that this woman was his disaster. If he had any clarity in his mind,
You should stay away from her.
But he just can't do it.
She was the only one he thought about in his heart.
In the past two years, as long as he had time, he would patrol the places where she might appear. He hired countless private detectives to find out any clues about her. Even the people closest to him behaved like a demon to him.
None of them agreed, but he still refused to let go.
In the end, his hard work paid off and he finally found her.
When he saw her for the first time and knew that she was living well in this world, he felt as if he had returned to the world, as if the one who came back to life was not her but himself.
The raindrops hit the umbrella with full force and made the umbrella ring. Lin Xiangwan felt a little cold. She rubbed her forearms with her hands and said, "Mr. Chu, obsession is like holding a torch and walking against the wind. In the end,
It will only cause fire. What I have done to you and what you have done to me can no longer be measured by right or wrong. If we continue to be entangled, there is no other possibility except making each other unhappy. Except for Ye Nan, I
I have nothing, but you are better off. At least you still have a mother. I don’t want to pursue the past things anymore. I hope you can let go. If it is unnecessary, I won’t say more. You have worked hard in the mall for so many years.
There must be more warmth and warmth in human relationships than what I have seen before. I hope you... will have no worries from now on and never see each other again."
Has she given up? Has she really given up? The woman who once vowed to retaliate can now be more tolerant and let go.
This was her victory, but it was also something he couldn't tolerate.
How could she let it go? What should he do if she let it go?
"You can't just let it go, I don't agree, I..." Chu Di wanted to step forward, but stopped abruptly when he saw Lin Xiangwan's stopping gesture.
"Then what do you want? Force me to death again, or murder me with human hands? I have a few lives that I can waste with you. You know that the reason why I can escape this time is all because of Ah Dao and me.
We have known each other for too long, no matter how frightened he is, he will still tremble when he kills his former friend. It is because of these few millimeters of difference that I can survive. But what about next time? If it is not Ah Dao next time,
If it were anyone else, would I still be so lucky? How many times do you want Ye Nan to attend my funeral? "
Lin Xiangwan said, putting the umbrella aside, and the downpour instantly wet her. She raised her hands, starting from the neck, and then unbuttoned her shirt one by one. Chu Di's heart followed
Tightening in response to her movements.
She pointed to an ugly and huge scar on her chest and said to him, "Look here, what's beating here is no longer my heart. All my past has disappeared with that dead heart. No matter whether it's in the law
Lin Xiangwan is dead, both at the social level and at the social level. I am a brand new person. If you don’t tell me about this, from now on, I will live a good life, live the things I want to do, and have new things that will make me happy.
I rarely begged you for things that I cherished. Even if I did, it was because I had to. But this time... Mr. Chu, I beg you, please let me go. Don't come to me again, don't bother me again.
In life, just treat this as the last time I ask you for help, okay? I died once, and I really don’t want to do it again. It hurts too much, please."
As she spoke, she buttoned the button again and picked up the umbrella again.
Because of the rain, there were very few cars entering the mountain, but this did not mean that there were no cars passing by. The rain was too heavy and the sight outside the car was very bad. Chu Di was standing in the middle of the road, and the car passed by.
He was speeding past, accompanied by the driver's angry curses, but he seemed to feel nothing and remained motionless. It was like a huge nail was nailed to the middle of the road. He couldn't move, couldn't
He couldn't speak, couldn't think, there was only one sentence that was going back and forth in his mind.
"Mr. Chu, I beg you, please let me go."
Let me go please.
He didn't speak, and Lin Xiangwan said no more. She turned around and walked towards the tea house. She didn't have a single wave of emotion in her heart, but she felt a little regretful that she couldn't make plans to find a bus stop.
In fact, she had wanted to say these words to him for a long time, but she never had the chance. Now that she finally said them out, it was like a stone falling to the ground.
She had her new life, a pure and flawless life, and she didn't want to let other things pollute her.
There should have been a clear separation between him and her long ago.
Those things in the past are like a cancer growing in your body. The longer you let it exist, the deeper it will hurt you. The only solution is to dig out the cancer with your own hands and dig it clean.
This way you can survive.
It may hurt and it may bleed, but after the pain is over, you will be healthy.
Sometimes as a human being, you just have to be tough on yourself.
Just like now, she knew that Chu Di was very dangerous, and his behavior like standing in the middle of the road on a rainy day was no different from seeking death, but she still turned around and left without hesitation.
What does his life and death have to do with her? Would you pay any more attention to the life or death of a stranger? Would you feel sad or worried because of a stranger's joy or anger? You wouldn't, because that person
He is not the person in your heart, so all his actions and circumstances have nothing to do with you.
Lin Xiangwan walked very resolutely. From the moment she turned around, she never looked back again. Until there was a sharp and sharp brake sound behind her, her body only trembled slightly, and she continued without stopping.
Go forward.
By noon, the rain stopped. When Long Jiwei took Bai Jing out to bask in the sun, he saw Lin Xiangwan sitting on the steps in a daze.
He kicked Lin Xiangwan with his toes. Lin Xiangwan looked up at him in confusion, and then moved her body to the side.
"Are you possessed? What are you doing sitting here? Aren't you looking for Ye Nan?" After Bai Jing was settled, Long Jiwei took care of Lin Xiangwan for a rare moment. Lin Xiangwan was too lazy to pay attention to him.
, walked to Bai Jing and sat down next to him, looking like he was not awake.
"You obviously know, why do you still ask me?"
Long Jiwei raised his eyebrows. Yes, Chu Di came to see her. He knew about it early on and specifically asked someone to guard the door. If there was any trouble, he could get the news immediately.
In fact, Long Jiwei has always looked down on Lin Xiangwan in his heart, but not because of anything else, but because her act of taking matters into her own hands really touched his bottom line, because Bai Jing never gave up even if she became like this.
Life, compared to hers, was a thousand times better for Lin Xiangwan, but he couldn't survive because of such a little bit of love and hatred. This was really despising to him.
But Lin Xiangwan's performance today was very good, beyond his expectation.
When she saw Chu Di, she didn't scream, growl, cry, or be as fragile as many women. She just spoke calmly, with no flaws in her voice or eyes, as if she was telling the story of a stranger.
Likewise, this kind of woman is what Long Jiwei feels is qualified and can bear the fate of others, so he takes care of her for the first time.
"You performed well today, so I'll take you back to City H in the afternoon. By the way, what do you think about work?"
"Shen Shijun told me that Su Cen is looking for someone, right? When will the interview be held? I hope I can get into work as soon as possible." The sooner you find a job, the sooner you can get paid. Being penniless is really hard.
.
"Oh? Are you tired of living here?"
"Living under someone else's side is never a long-term thing. Besides, I can't be a lightbulb all the time. Ye Nan is about to have his summer vacation. My son is always troublesome for others. I'm really sorry." Lin Xiangwan said calmly, "If it's convenient for you,
, can you lend me a car first? And then lend me some money? I want to rent a house and move out, so that it will be convenient to work in the future."
"Do you have a driver's license?" Long Jiwei said with a smile, "It's good to want to be independent, but you can't be a fat person. I can lend you money, but you have to charge interest on the bank mortgage. Are you sure you can afford it?
?”
This profiteer!! He just doesn’t have any hair on his body, but if he does, he’s smarter than a monkey!! He charges interest on bank mortgages! Why doesn’t he go out and steal money!!
Lin Xiangwan gritted his teeth with hatred, but when he thought that it was really inconvenient for him to borrow money from anyone except Long Jiwei, he had no choice but to endure it and put on a look of gratitude on his face, but in Long Jiwei's case
Out of sight, she raised her fist as big as a sandbag and struck her repeatedly.
While Lin Xiangwan was bargaining with Long Jiwei, Chu Di also returned to H City.
In fact, he couldn't figure out how he got back. The sound of the big truck braking suddenly, the driver jumping out of the car and yelling, and the pain of the fist falling on his body seemed to be distant memories.
He only remembered that he followed the mechanical guidance of the female voice in the navigation system and drove the car back to City H. He then sat in the car until someone dragged him out of the car.