Seeing that Chu Di didn't speak, Lin Xiangwan continued, "It doesn't matter if I tell you. In fact, you must have been to that place. In the past two days, I took Ye Nan to my own cemetery and my father's."
Chu Di suddenly raised her head and stared at Lin Xiangwan almost viciously, but his eyes did not stop her words. She stood up from the swing and walked to Chu Di, "I have never been to my own cemetery.
, this is really ridiculous to say. When Ah Dao injured me, Shen Shijun took me out of the hospital. When he performed the operation on me, I woke up for a while and told him that if I could not survive,
When I die, don't bury me next to my father, because I'm afraid he will be angry."
"I really failed. As a mother, I couldn't protect my children. As the eldest daughter in the family, not only could I not support my parents, but I also made them suffer because of me. I couldn't protect my siblings. My only sister...
Forget it, let’s not talk about these anymore. These are all my own choices. It’s just humiliating myself to say them out. Let’s talk about something happy. My dad and I also said that I got married once, not because of myself.
It's really not good to like someone but try to harm them in other ways, so when I marry someone, I will definitely choose someone I like. Apart from what I like, it doesn't matter how good the other conditions are."
"Now that I've found the person I like, and I'm getting married, I won't send you the invitation. I'll treat you to wedding candy."
On the bright red candy paper, there are two festive little people painted on it. The little people are smiling at Chu Di. This is the best-selling candy in the supermarket, but it is not the most expensive. He remembers that at their wedding, they were so happy
Even the candy wrapper was golden, and it was obvious at first glance that it was expensive, but he had never tasted it himself.
Now she says she has found someone she likes and wants to treat him to wedding candy.
The gentle sunshine that day suddenly became extremely dazzling. Chu Di looked at Lin Xiangwan, as if he wanted to see some flaws in her face, but she smiled so calmly that she didn't give him any chance at all.
"You want to get married?! Who are you... with? Shen Shijun?" He took a step forward, his chest almost hitting Lin Xiangwan, his voice trembling fiercely, "You are the one he wants to get engaged to?!"
"Of course not. My senior brother and I are just friends. Friendship, you know? I only regard him as a relative and have never thought about such a thing. As for who I want to marry, don't ask, because it won't be you.
"Lin Xiangwan was still smiling, but her smile became a little stiff. She pushed Chu Di's chest as if impatient, trying to stay away from him, "Those things you did for me... don't care.
For whatever purpose, I regard it as a good intention, but I won’t use it anymore. You are not a small person to begin with. It is really wronged to be buried in this convenience store. Although the company is gone, it does not mean that you have no possibility of making a comeback. You
I should know my own strength best, and I don’t need to say more. Chu Di, we are no longer children. In two years, I will be thirty years old. How many thirty years can a person have in his life? To you
For me, time may not be so precious because you are healthy and have capital expenses. But for me,"
Lin Xiangwan said, shaking his head slightly, "I don't have time to waste. This heart may only have a shelf life of twenty years. When the time comes, it will be scrapped. It is not original and cannot be used."
Stay with me as time goes by, I don’t want to die, I want to live, if I live one more day, I can see Ye Nan one more day, I really can’t afford it anymore.”
If in the past she had deliberately planned to destroy him, then now she only wants to escape.
But she also knew that he did all this for her.
She also knew that being buried in that small convenience store was really aggrieved for him.
She knows everything, but she wants nothing.
Chu Di felt as if her heart had suddenly been hollowed out. This empty and terrifying feeling also appeared when she saw her coffin at her funeral. But at that time, no matter how desperate she was,
He could also leave himself the last trace of dignity and hope, deceive himself, stay in front of her burial place, numb himself with alcohol, and pretend that everything was not true.
But now, she spoke every word so clearly that he couldn't even pretend to be stupid.
We are not afraid of farewell, but we are afraid of separation.
Farewell was due to fate and there was no way she could do anything about it, but separation was her choice.
"Tell me the name of that person and I will stop harassing you." Chu Di's voice became extremely difficult. He seemed to be extremely reluctant to say these words, but he was forcing himself to ask.
.
Lin Xiangwan shook his head, "He is a small person and cannot withstand your turning your hands into clouds and rain. I thank you on his behalf for helping us."
Although the Chu family has fallen, as long as Chu Di does not die, one day he will still stand at the top of power and wealth again. She does not want to cause trouble to Xu Yunqi. Xu Yunqi is different from him. He has the ability, but he has no ambition. The reason why he
I agreed to marry her, probably just like her, because I just wanted to live a stable and stable life for a few days.
Seeing Lin Xiangwan's resolute attitude, Chu Di felt as if he had swallowed a yellow lotus, and the bitter taste came out from the bottom of his heart.
The girl who stood in front of his car when she was eighteen years old and said to him, Mr. Chu, you can buy me, finally grew up. She learned to consider others, and learned to be polite before fighting. But the person she wanted to protect was...
not him.
Yes, how could she want to protect him? From the beginning to the end, he was stronger than her. He oppressed her and humiliated her. He thought he could control her life, but in the end he lost completely.
The candy in his hand was warmed by the temperature of his palm and became soft. Lin Xiangwan saw Chu Di standing there with a gloomy face and said nothing. He gently closed his palms, put the wedding candy back into his pocket, and turned around.
Yun looks for Ye Nan.
"No matter how humble I am, I can't make you change your decision?"
Just when she was about to walk out of the small garden, Chu Di's low and hoarse voice came from behind. Lin Xiangwan was startled, and then said resolutely, "Yes. So I advise you to give up."
"What if I don't give up?"
The man's voice suddenly became calm and threatening, and Lin Xiangwan felt nervous. What did he want to do? But she didn't want Chu Di to see her worries, so she quickly returned to normal and said, "That's also your business.
,not my business."
When we are deeply in love, when we talk about each other, we will be used. When the love turns weak, you are you and I am me, and there is no relationship between you and me.
"Lin Xiangwan, don't regret what you said."
*Chu Di's last words that day were like a dark cloud that had been hanging over Lin Xiangwan's mind, making her distracted no matter what she did.
Fortunately, the world has been peaceful recently, and apart from the long-standing unsolved case, there are no other new cases at hand. Lin Xiangwan takes a break from the busy work, and the occasional daze will not affect the work too much.
Although he felt uneasy, after a few days of observation, Lin Xiangwan found that Chu Di had not done anything substantial. He still stayed in the convenience store, busy in and out every day, but became more taciturn and even smiled.
Also owed.
As time passed, Lin Xiangwan put this matter aside and paid no attention to it.
The marriage to Xu Yunqi is scheduled to take place in mid-August. There is no plan to organize it or announce it to the world. They just want to get a certificate and then take Ye Nan out to have a good meal, which is considered a celebration.
It wouldn't be a big deal, firstly because neither of them was married for the first time, Lin Xiangwan's status was particularly sensitive, and Xu Yunqi was not a local, so he had no relatives or acquaintances here, so even if he wanted to make it big, he wouldn't have the resources. Secondly, because the two of them
She didn't have much money at all. Most of the money Lin Xiangwan saved in the past few years was hidden with Shen Shijun. If Shen Shijun didn't give it to her, she would be too embarrassed to ask him for it. Xu Yunqi's company had just entered the formal stage. If he was really rich,
, and he doesn’t have to rely on boxing to support the company.
So the two of them decided to just get the certificate and move in together. As for the future, they would have plenty of time to make plans.
Lin Xiangwan packed up the guest room and used it as Xu Yunqi's bedroom. While she was doing these things, Ye Nan stood behind her.
When she stopped what she was doing and straightened up to rest, Ye Nan ran over and beat her back. Lin Xiangwan turned around and thanked him with a smile, but saw the child pursed her lips tightly, as if she was unhappy.
"Did Mom marry Uncle Xu because of that person?" After all, he was a child and couldn't help but asked. After beating his back for a while, he couldn't help but ask.
Lin Xiangwan turned back and held his little hand in hers, "Yes and no, my mother is old and wants someone to take care of her. Uncle Xu is a very nice person and he doesn't dislike me for being married, so my mother is willing to marry me."
He's with us, why don't you like him?"
Ye Nan frowned, and after a long while, she shook her head cautiously, "Uncle Xu taught me Kung Fu and even made breakfast for me. I like him very much. But mom, do you like him?"
Lin Xiangwan was stunned, then asked with a smile, "Why are you asking me this? If you don't like him, why would your mother marry him?"
"But if you like him, why don't you live with him? Didn't you and...you all live together before?" Ye Nan pointed to the single bed in the guest room that had been covered with brand new sheets, and looked up.
Face asked Lin Xiangwan. "Mom is with Uncle Xu because of me, right? In fact, you don't like him? I know you don't like him. When you looked at him, your eyes didn't smile."
Lin Xiangwan's breath was stagnant. She thought that Ye Nan was too young to notice this matter, but she forgot that her son was different from other children. He was sensitive by nature and had insight beyond his peers.
force.
It's just that the word "like" is too luxurious for her. Like, love, or other similar words have not appeared in her dictionary for a long time, so long that she has almost forgotten them.
How to write these two words?
Like is just a tool used to deal with others, and it is not really moved from the heart.
Liking someone means you have to give, it means you may lose, and it means maybe one day, your liking will turn into dislike.