Lin Xiangwan has never met Chu Di's father, but he has heard that Chu's father was one of the most handsome men in H City when he was young. Chu Di's appearance combines the characteristics of his parents. Although Chu's mother's appearance is beautiful, she is a bit violent.
, so although Chu Di is also outstanding in appearance, he is not as elegant as Chu's father back then.
Although the photo is an old photo that has been stored for decades, the characters in the photo are still graceful and graceful.
Even if you look at him decades later, he is still an outstanding man.
If a woman is too beautiful, she will be a disaster; if a man is too good-looking, he will be full of monsters.
"My father came back from the UK and went to H City to meet my grandfather and spend the summer vacation. At that time, the Chu family and the Lin family lived next to each other, and the two families often moved around, and they gradually became familiar with each other."
Lin Luo was sixteen years old that year, which was the most beautiful age for a woman. She was as beautiful as a flower. She met a man who had returned from a foreign land and they had a similar conversation. It is not difficult to guess what happened next. Unfortunately, God did not fulfill his wishes.
When two girls are entangled with a young man, it is inevitable that they will be sad.
"The two families saw that they were getting along well, so they wanted to settle the matter, but unexpectedly...when the Chinese New Year came around...the news came out that my mother was pregnant...I heard that it was because a few people went out to play together.
My father was drunk, that's why... It's just that when this happened, the adults of the three families were all panicked, and the marriage to your mother was aborted." A few decades ago, H City was not what it is today.
In such an open and open society, most marriages are ordered by parents. If something like this happens, no matter how good the marriage is, it will end.
"That kid is you?" Lin Xiangwan looked through the photo album, and looking further back, there were three people in the photos, but the eyes of those three people had long lost the sincerity and enthusiasm they had on the previous pages.
Even if they are smiling, you can still see the accumulated emotions in their hearts.
"How is it possible? Even considering their ages, the child disappeared later. I don't know if it was taken away or aborted." Chu Di smiled bitterly and shook his head. "After this happened, your mother once divorced.
She was homeless for half a month and just missed the college entrance examination, so she had no choice but to enroll in nursing school. Then many years later, she got married and gave birth to you, but she accidentally met my father..."
She was obviously the one she liked, but such a scandal was spread with others. How could she be embarrassed? What else could she do besides leaving her? Who would have thought that if she made one mistake and went to college that year, what would happen to her?
Will different people have different lives?
The more Lin Xiangwan thought about it, the more he felt sorry for his mother, and the deeper his resentment toward Chu's mother became.
People who are scheming never develop scheming in a day or two. They must be born like this. In order to gain their own happiness, they will not care about the life and death of others. She even doubted whether the child's statement was true...
She got pregnant just once. Mrs. Chu's luck was really good.
Lin Xiangwan couldn't help but sneer, but in the end he could only close the album and put it aside.
Because the truth of the matter cannot be found out anyway. So many years have passed and so many people have died. Even if we know the truth, what can we do?
"Then what happened to my mother?" No matter how much dissatisfaction there was about the past, she could only let it go, otherwise she would be in trouble with herself. Lin Xiangwan had suffered enough from being stubborn and didn't want to
If she continues to torture herself like this, she is more concerned about her mother's condition.
"The reason she left my father was because my father was suffering from cancer at that time. His body was at the end of its rope and he couldn't live more than a few months. He wanted to spend the last part of his life with her, so he begged her to let her stay with him.
Let's go together. Your mother was soft-hearted and agreed. After my father died, she wanted to go back to find you, but the old lady of the Ye family did not allow her to come in again. Not long after, your father married a new wife...
It's Aunt Xiang... She didn't leave City H at that time until you went to school. She saw that Aunt Xiang was treating you quite well, so she left."
"Then she is now..." Lin Xiangwan heard this and her heart was pounding. Her mother, her kind mother, had been thinking about others all her life, but had she ever thought about herself or her?
No matter how good a stepmother is, there is no way she can compare to her biological mother. Why would she rather go away by herself than take her with her? Is she willing to endure the hardships alone instead of dragging her along with her? Why is she so stupid?
Seeing that Lin Xiangwan was sad, Chu Di also felt uncomfortable. He took out a wooden box and a hard-cover book from behind the rubble of the villa and sent them to Lin Xiangwan. "Later, she went to other cities and worked in the Zen temple there.
I am a layman who died of illness twelve years ago. I heard from the director of the temple that she passed away peacefully. These are her ashes and some things she wrote during her lifetime. I brought them all back. She used to have a diary.
It was buried in this garden. It was found by workers when they were renovating the garden and was handed over to me. However, the diary had been severely corroded. I found professional restorers, but they could not fully repair it, so she went there that year.
I can't tell you where she went or what happened between the three of them. All I can give you are the records of the days after she left."
Lin Xiangwan grabbed the small wooden box and held it tightly to her chest. Tears instantly wet her cheeks. For a long time, she had always felt that there was a hole in her heart that could never be filled. But now,
Holding the last thing left by her biological mother, she finally knew what the missing part in her heart was, and the long-lasting hole was finally filled.
Chu Di felt sorry for Lin Xiangwan when he saw her crying. He knelt down and hugged her, "I asked the director of the temple and she said that she had not experienced any pain, just because of the illness. She seemed to know that she was
There was not much time left, so I didn’t go for treatment. She didn’t suffer much..." I wanted to comfort her, but the words I spoke seemed so pale.
"Get out!!! What do you know!! Your mother is alive and well, of course you don't know how uncomfortable she is!! It was you who harmed her! You teamed up to force her away!! Don't tell me that she didn't go through it
What pain! Isn’t all these decades of suffering pain? My pain is not pain? Do you know what it feels like to be called a motherless child since you were a child? Do you know how it feels to watch your brothers and sisters rejoice at the knees of their parents?
And what does it feel like to be treated coldly by others? I have been wanting to see her for so many years, but what did I wait for? A handful of her ashes!! You don’t understand anything at all! Go away! I don’t want to see it.
You!!" She roared like a wounded little animal, rejecting all his good intentions. She didn't need this man's care or his pity. If it weren't for him and his damn parents, what would have happened?
It will become like this.
She slid down to the ground, crying silently at the beginning, and wailing loudly at the end. The sound of crying tore Chu Di's heart. Chu Di was worried that her body could not bear such strong stimulation, and wanted to pull her off the ground.
He got up, but she resisted him desperately. Her palms fell randomly on his face and shoulders, making a crisp sound of "pop, pop." Chu Di endured it silently until her throat started to crack.
He became hoarse and even his body began to tremble, so Chu Di became cruel and picked up Lin Xiangwan, who was almost exhausted, from the ground.
Looking directly at Chu's mother, he whispered every word in her ear.
"Good and evil are limited in the end. Do you think it won't be uncomfortable for her to live? Look at her appearance! She is neither a human nor a ghost. Her only son ignores her. She can't eat well or sleep well every day.
, is in panic all day long, just because she knows she has done something wrong and she is afraid of being punished, but is her fear useful? She did steal happiness from your mother that year, but how long has she been proud?
Her husband would rather die outside than take another look at her! She has been sitting in that wheelchair for decades. Your mother can at least move around and go where she wants to go, but what about her? There is no room for her to live.
, there is only this inch of world, outside this Rose Manor, the whole world is difficult for her! Now she has had a stroke, she can’t even speak clearly, she doesn’t even recognize me, but all she remembers is you
Mother, she couldn't sleep at night and had to take a large dose of diazepam. But even so, she often woke up from her dreams. When she woke up, she would hold my hand and say to me, I'm sorry.
She, I did something wrong back then, I know it was wrong... Lin Xiangwan, she knows it was wrong, she is already so old, she has only had a few truly happy days in her life, if she is still sane now, she will definitely
I will apologize to you personally. But she is dead now, so I apologize to you on her behalf. For what she did back then, and for what I did, can't you give me another chance?"
Chu Di's eyes were full of hurt and bitterness. But he was a man, no matter how much pain he had, he had to endure it. He couldn't cry, he could only bleed, but not shed tears, even if he
No matter how uncomfortable he felt, he couldn't complain a word. All he did was ask her for forgiveness, as long as she nodded.
It turns out that there is really no winner in this war, everyone loses, and they are both mentally and physically wounded.
"No! I don't!!" Lin Xiangwan held her ears tightly with her hands. She didn't want to hear him speak, not a single word, but his voice penetrated her ears.
Why tell her this, why can't he let her live a peaceful life? She has obviously told herself to let go of everything in the past, but why does he have to dig them up?
She really, really doesn't want to have anything to do with him anymore.