"Even if it's summer, it's not that hot, right? It's a cold night. If you soak in water like this, you'll catch a cold." Chu Di wiped the water stains on Lin Xiangwan's face with his cuffs. His strength was not light, but he would not let it go.
Feeling pain, Lin Xiangwan looked up at him, but he did not meet her eyes. After carefully wiping her face clean and fresh, he went to pick up her long hair. Lin Xiangwan felt that her face was hot,
The place he touched felt like it had been spicy with chili pepper.
"This little water is nothing. It's not like I took a bath. I'm fine." The heat on his face did not go away when the wind blew it. Something was wrong with this feeling. Lin Xiangwan wanted to break free, but Chu Di was extremely stubborn.
He pulled her tightly and said, "You have been a doctor yourself. If Ye Nan does this, will you blame him?"
"You are making excuses. Ye Nan is Ye Nan, and I am not a child."
"I think you are." Chu Di replied lightly, "You think you are not, but sometimes you are just a child. Your thoughts are simple and childish. You know that things are impossible but you still want to give it a try. No.
Don’t look back even if you hit a wall, and don’t care even if your head is broken and bleeding. Apart from children and fools, who else do you think would be so stubborn?”
Could it be that if she didn't admit that she was naive, she would have to admit that she was a fool? Lin Xiangwan felt that no matter how she answered, she would suffer a loss, so she simply pursed her lips and said nothing, letting Chu Di wipe her.
It wasn't until she finally felt that she was about to burn up because of him that Lin Xiangwan resisted with all her strength, jumped to the side, and said to Chu Di with her hands on her chest in a vigilant manner, "There is something wrong with you, you suddenly said such nonsense.
Did you, did you just hear something?"
Lin Xiangwan felt that there was nothing wrong with what he just said to Baili Tong, but if Chu Di heard it, it would inevitably remind him of the relationship between the two, as if he was complaining about something...
"I heard everything, how about it?" Seeing that she was avoiding her, Chu Di stopped pulling her and folded her hands together to admit it openly.
Lin Xiangwan was slightly stunned and accused, "How could you eavesdrop on other people's speech?"
Chu Di said calmly, "It's not eavesdropping. I'm right outside the door. The church door is wide open, and Baili Tong also saw me."
That guy was really not a good guy. He saw it but didn't say anything. Did he deliberately want to make her look bad? Lin Xiangwan cursed, and his prejudice against Baili Tong deepened. He regretted not poking at him just now, "
Just tell him about Xu Mingfei, don’t think too much about it."
"What do you think I'll think about?"
"How do I know what you are thinking!"
"If you didn't know, why would you tell me not to think too much?"
Lin Xiangwan stared, feeling that if this topic continued, it might turn into an endless cycle of which came first, the chicken or the egg. She glared at Chu Di, hoping that he could retreat as usual, but Chu Di was very confused this time.
Without any discernment, he looked at her calmly, without flinching at all, "I have a clear conscience when you look at me like this. Lin Xiangwan, I hope you can be more honest sometimes and say what you want, unlike all the time.
It is not a shameful thing to suppress one's desires, longing for love, and hoping to be protected."
He heard all the conversations between her and Baili Tong. The initial anger because he saw her and Shen Shijun falling in love had long since disappeared, but he was not unsatisfied in his heart.
He knew what she wanted and clearly understood her desire, but he had never heard her mention it to him personally.
Why? Because he has been hurt, so he doesn’t dare to go too far? Because he no longer believes that he is the man who can bring her hope and love? Or because, in her heart, he has long lost the person who can listen to her truest thoughts.
status?
No matter what the reason is, the result is the same.
She didn't trust him. She would rather tell her inner story to a stranger than reveal a few words to him.
You see, people are so strange. They are often the closest people around us. We share our lives and bodies with them, but our hearts are separated from them by thousands of rivers and mountains.
Lin Xiangwan was silent, and after a moment he spoke again, "Even if I say it, what will happen? Will it come true if I say it? I think people should not complain to others, because 20% of people
You don't care at all, and the other 80% will only feel happy after hearing this. People who really care about you will understand what you are worried about without you saying it, and for those who don't take you seriously in the first place, you
Even if you say it, it’s all in vain, it’s just to add something to talk about after dinner.”
"You know I'm not like that!"
"Are you not 20%, or are you not 80%?" Lin Xiangwan asked calmly.
Chu Di felt that she was extremely hateful, but he didn't know how to answer.
"I won't be happy because you are unhappy, and I won't treat your affairs as gossip. I want to know why you are unhappy, and I will guess, but I am afraid that I will not guess correctly, and I am afraid that I will be too sentimental.
Guessing wrongly and expressing wrong feelings will only make you look down on me even more. I want to consider your affairs as my own. No matter your happy or sad things, I am willing to listen to them. I know
I wasn't a good listener before, and I can't guarantee that I will be in the future... But I'm willing to give it a try, as long as you give me a chance, I want to try."
In the first few years they were together, she was always talking but he didn't listen. She told him about her school life and little things in her life, but in the end she always got cynicism from him, or a flat-out refusal.
Back view.
Later, he wanted to hear it, but she didn't want to say it.
Chu Di knew that he had been very wrong, but it was precisely because of this that he wanted to change. "I don't agree with what you said, there is no point in trying to make things right. If you don't make things right, then it's really meaningless."
"Whatever you want, maybe you are the one who never looks back until he hits the wall." Lin Xiangwan replied lightly. Her heart beat a little faster when she heard Chu Di's words. She secretly took two deep breaths to let herself ignore it.
This kind of strange reflection. "But let me remind you first, for you, I am the 80% of the people. If you have anything unpleasant, don't tell me. I will feel relieved knowing that you are not doing well."
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"If you can be happy, then what if I have a bad life?" I don't know if she is telling the truth, but Chu Di's heart curled up with slight pain, but he still had a gentle look on his face.
With a smile, "If what you said is true, then in half a month, you will probably wake up laughing in your dreams."
In half a month, it will be the day of his boxing match with Xu Yunqi. In other words, if there is no accident, he will most likely die in the boxing ring.
Such a living life may disappear within a few minutes. His death will leave an indelible passion for the spectators and gamblers in the boxing ring, but for her...
"I won't be happy if someone else bleeds. I used to be a doctor, and I know how difficult it is to save a life. Even if it's a stranger, I won't be happy because of his death. Mr. Chu, you think too much of me.
It's dirty." Lin Xiangwan frowned, with a very unhappy expression on his face.
Chu Di was slightly startled, "Really? I thought you would be looking forward to that day, but you haven't even told Baili Tong about it..."
He listened to their conversation outside the door. From beginning to end, she didn't mention a word about the boxing match. Chu Di was not disappointed. He didn't expect Lin Xiangwan to plead with Baili Tong, but she didn't say a word.
Mention, as if he had no knowledge of this matter, this kind of indifference made him feel uncomfortable.
"You have known him longer than me. Do you think someone like him would change his decision because of what I said? I guess he hates me so much that he gnashes his teeth. It's just because of the face of me taking care of Xu Mingfei, so
He just couldn't attack me. If his body allowed it, he would probably leave me in the ring and kill me himself. For such a person, begging him to change his mind is a waste of time.
Instead of wasting your time on useless people, it's better to think of other ways. You got into this trouble because of me, and even if I don't remember your kindness, I will remember your kindness."
"So, if I die, will you be sad for me? Will you cry for me?" Chu Di took a step forward and got closer to Lin Xiangwan.
Through the moonlight, he could see the small lines on her smooth forehead, and he could also see the silhouette of her thick black eyelashes like butterfly wings trembling slightly with her breathing. There was a faint fragrance on her body, which was the combination of Safeguard soap and
The smell of the spring water mingled together, and he heard the sound of flowers blooming in his heart. She said that she would remember his goodness. Once upon a time, he had become so humble. As long as she could remember his goodness, he would do anything.
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The aura belonging to Chu Di surrounded Lin Xiangwan, making her breathless. "Don't talk about death. It's so unlucky. Although Xu Yunqi is very strong, he is still a human being. As long as he is a human, he will have weaknesses.
Even if you can be defeated, it’s not impossible to win if you work harder..."
"If I can win, will you give me a reward?"
"?" Lin Xiangwan was confused, "What do you mean?"
"Since you are telling me that I got into all this trouble because of you, then in order for me to survive, you should also make some efforts. Just agree, and you don't have to cash it in right away. Just treat me as a sign of pity and give me a
Think about it, if I can walk out of the ring alive, give me a reward. Isn't this too much to ask?" Like a shrewd hunter, he laid down his trap step by step, only waiting for the cunning and timid bird.
The fox took the bait.
Chu Di's tone was very sad, and people couldn't bear to refuse. Although Lin Xiangwan felt that this matter was a bit strange, when he thought that he might really die and that what he said today was not serious, he softened his heart and said, "You
what do you want?"
ps: Sorry, the update was a bit late yesterday, so adding one update today is my small apology.