Xu Xianxian, who was physically and mentally fragile, finally woke up under the rescue of doctors. When she opened her eyes and the first person she saw was Wen Yijie, she felt as if she was still alive. However, that fact made her
It was more painful for her to wake up than to die because she would never forget his cruelty and ruthlessness towards her.
Seeing her open her eyes, Wen Yijie immediately held her hand tightly, so tightly that she had no chance to break away. "Xianxian... It's great that you're awake. Thank God! God has eyes.
, made you wake up. It really scared me to death, how afraid I was that you would just leave like that! What will happen to your family? What to do with your most beloved brother? "
Xu Xianxian turned her head and ignored him. Maybe he was just asking for help out of guilt rather than because he really cared about her. All his heart was given to Jiang Jinluo, even a trace of tenderness was given to her.
She was not important at all in his world. It would be better if she died, but why did she wake up again? She was obviously cruel and cut her own artery with a knife. Maybe the cut was not too deep.
His eyes suddenly dimmed, with a very sorry and helpless expression, "Xianxian... I'm really sorry! All of this was caused by me leaving an indelible mark on you. I'm sorry for you! I know the sweetness and joy of loving someone.
Pain. I also understand your feeling of being ignored and indifferent by me. You and I feel the same way. Just like I like and love her. But, I can never get her love! But, even so
, I feel very happy doing this.”
She closed her eyes silently. At this moment, why did he still say these hurtful words to her? How she wanted to die without hearing anything, and then escape from the sea of suffering forever.
"I decided... I decided to let go of everything, Xianxian. I will make it up to you. As long as your body recovers quickly, I will be with you every day." Wen Yijie held her hand tightly, sincerity shining in his eyes.
This also seems to mean that he has changed.
She blinked her eyes and stared at him in disbelief, "You're coaxing me again...are you? What about Sister Jingluo? Make up for it?! I really don't ask you to make up for me! I know how hard I try no matter what.
, I won’t get the chance for you to look at me, even for a second. Your heart has been given to her wholeheartedly, and I... am just a foil. You... really don’t have to feel wronged because you are sorry for me.
Stay with me. Go find your Jingluo! I don't need you!" When she said the last words, she also hurt herself deeply. She knew clearly that every word he said was
Give her a chance to ignite hope. However, she is afraid to accept it all, afraid that she has fallen into another trap and cannot extricate herself.
He slapped his head and kept hammering. Xu Xianxian looked at him in panic. The crackling sound kept sounding and he punched himself.
"It's all me, damn it. Why would I ignore such a girl who loves me? I really deserve to be damned. I should cherish such a good girl and not hurt her like this. I was wrong, so wrong.
.”
Seeing him constantly abusing herself, Xu Xianxian couldn't bear it. She stretched out her hand to stop him, holding his arms tightly with both hands: "Don't... why do you hit yourself like this? This... is not your fault,
The fault lies with me... I shouldn't have pestered you like this. You didn't love me, so I should have known better and stepped away! It was me who deserved the beating, and I was the one who made a fool of myself. I shouldn't have caught you and held on to you. I think
Come on...I really thought about it...I shouldn't be so irresponsible to myself and make my parents sad. Love...is really hurtful. However, it made me know that love is not the only thing, there are others at home.
My father, mother, and my most beloved brother all love me. I am not alone, and I am not lonely at all! I love you, but I love my family more! Losing you is nothing!
I almost... almost destroyed myself and my happy home."
After she suddenly became enlightened, she felt that her heart was no longer so dull. However, her heart still felt a slight pain. The feeling of resignation was like an ant crawling on her body, itching unbearably and twisting constantly.
Hearing these words, Wen Yijie felt that he was even more sorry for Xu Xianxian. He made her hurt and abused him again and again. His conscience really couldn't bear the condemnation, and it was really unfair to her.
"Xianxian, I'm really sorry! If you believe me, please give me a chance to love you. I won't hurt you again. I don't hate you at all, but... I was too persistent before. , I think that I can win her heart as long as I work harder. However, no matter how hard I try to express myself in front of her, it is all in vain. I am tired, my heart... is really tired. I love her very much... but , the actions I put in did not get any reward. I am really tired... I want to find a safe haven that I can rely on! And you... are my safe haven! Xianxian... are you willing to give me a chance? Really? Trust me! I won't let you get hurt in the slightest." He sincerely held her slender and soft hand, and the sincere emotions revealed were his serious eyes.
There was some promise in the tenderness. This was the first time she heard him say this. She understood that he was a persistent person. Once he decided on something, it was difficult to persuade him to go back.
She smiled tenderly and pulled away the tightly held hand, "Ha...Yijie...you really don't have to wrong yourself so much. It really doesn't matter to me. I can live a good life alone!" Although she was sincere! It was very painful, like blood flowing out uncontrollably. The astringent pain of blood slowly flowing out of the blood vessels was unbearable.
He grabbed her hand again, and she was so frightened that she looked into his eyes. He said to her solemnly, and asked her to look closely at him: "Listen to me! Everything I just said is true." I'm serious! Don't you believe me at all? I admit that I have failed you. However, you have to give me a chance to change my ways. Are you willing to start over with me? I am willing to take care of you like this for the rest of my life." His eyes showed true feelings. This was the first time Xu Xianxian saw a different look. She knew that this time, what he said was serious. However, she really didn't want to accept it because of his sympathy. She. If someone doesn't really love her in her heart, then what's the point of being together? She doesn't want a soulless body lying on the same bed with her while her heart is with someone else.
"Maybe what you said is true. But, it's really hard for me to convince myself anymore. I'm really sorry... Maybe I'm cowardly! I don't want to be hurt again. If it were before, I would never I will agree to your request without hesitation. But... this time, I really don't have any confidence at all. I'm really afraid... I'm afraid that I will lose the man I love again. I will fall for love and hurt myself again. That feeling is worse than just dying." She shook her head, feeling that she was really fanciful and thinking about some impossible things.
Wen Yijie suddenly hugged her, "No... it's not like this! I'm sorry... I really hurt you too deeply... too deeply... I know you rejected me like this to protect yourself. I swear I won't do it again." It makes you sad! After I am discharged from the hospital, I will tell my family immediately... to marry you!"
These two words would never come out of Wen Yijie's mouth. However, today, he said many words that were special to her. She had never heard of them. Just like that...her behavior changed him
Regarding his opinion, he decided to treat her well. Within half an hour after waking up, she felt that these things were still a little hard to believe.
She hesitated, looked up at him and said, "What about your Jingluo? Will you still be with her? Can you really let her go?"
He hesitated. He frowned tightly. He knew that it was really difficult to let go of Jiang Jinluo for a while! He had been in love with her for almost three years, and had a crush on her for four years. He knew that Jiang Jinluo was
The only girl in the world who made his heart flutter at the sight of her. However, he could never get her.
What he can't get is always the best in his heart. Now, he just wants to put Jiang Jinluo in a corner of his heart forever, recalling it and hiding it deeply.
He knew it was impossible, but as long as he thought of the happy time with her, he felt very satisfied.
"I will let go of my mood and slowly accept all realities. How can I give up on you who loves me so much! I know that her heart will never be able to tolerate me. So, I have to give up on her.
.And...I like you, I really like you. Although I haven't reached the point of love yet. However, I always think that feelings are cultivated slowly, and as time goes by, I will definitely fall in love with you."
Hearing his heartfelt words, Xu Xianxian finally resurrected from the ashes and ignited another glimmer of hope. This was the most powerful thing she had ever heard when she woke up. Is this God's compensation for her?!
He... finally figured everything out. He finally wanted to accept himself and give up on Jiang Jinluo. This was good news to her.
She really loves him, really loves him! He must really not have the heart to reject him. If she loves him, she can really tolerate everything he has done in the past. As long as, now, he treats her well! That's fine.
With tears in her eyes, she nodded with a smile and threw herself into his arms. Wen Yijie hugged her body tightly. At this moment, he felt that everything in body and mind was relieved. He no longer felt pressure. It turned out that,
Let go of everything and relax your body and mind. This feeling is really good...very good!