Wearing a white shirt, her curves were reflected like a dream,
A waterfall of black silk stockings reflected her charming cheeks that seemed to glow with white jade.
A bowl of sake, held in the palm of the hand, poured into her mouth, soaking her soft scarlet lips,
The woman lying on her side on the bed like this, like a yellowed book page in late autumn, actually makes people feel a bit of pity and sadness.
Yes, Lin Ze thought that his feelings at this moment were not groundless. Xue Bailing, who was so strong that even a man had to bend down, made people feel a little pitiful and sad.
She drank wine, drinking alone, with her head half raised, one bowl after another. If the wine is not intoxicating, everyone will get drunk. Lin Ze didn't know if she was drunk, or if she hoped she could be drunk.
Lin Ze didn't understand her heart. The only thing he could do was stand at the door in astonishment, staring quietly at the woman on the bed who was wearing tulle and showing her outstanding grace, but it was difficult for her to be greedy at all.
"Well,."
Maybe it was the continuous drinking that made her weak throat unable to withstand the burning stimulation. After drinking a bowl of wine, she couldn't help but frown slightly and her face changed slightly.
Her beautiful eyes that were so hazy that they were almost water-colored fell lightly on Lin Ze. He sat up slightly and said in an extremely soft voice: "Xue Gui asked you to come."
"Yeah." Lin Ze looked away and nodded slightly,
"Make your own decision." Xue Bailing said coldly,
",."
Lin Ze understood,
This is not Xue Bailing's request, it is simply Xue Gui who framed her.
After realizing that he had been tricked and that there was still a big misunderstanding, Lin Ze retracted one foot and said helplessly: "Why don't I go back first."
"never mind."
Xue Bailing got out of bed, lifted the bronze wine bottle on the cabinet and said, "Since you're here, come and have a drink with me."
Lin Ze didn't know what she was thinking or what she was thinking, but since she proposed drinking, Lin Ze naturally couldn't refuse, so he smiled and said, "One glass is not enough."
"Drink until you have enough." Xue Bailing threw the jug to Lin Ze, who caught it deftly, lifted the jug, and let the pungent and choking liquor pour into his esophagus until he drank the whole jug. Looking up to the sky, he took a long breath and said, "It's great."
"Bring the wine." Xue Bailing increased her voice. Soon, the coffee table in the small living room was filled with wine. Without exception, it was all home-brewed liquor. There was no beer, no red wine, and no foreign wine. Like her As she said, she doesn't like other wines except white wine and rarely drinks them.
Seeing this battle, there was no reason for Lin Ze to back down. He laughed loudly and picked up a bottle of wine again, and said to Xue Bailing who also picked up the bottle: "Do you believe that I can drink you down?"
"You won't know until you drink it." Xue Bailing said, raising her head and pouring a bottle of wine into her stomach.
"A good drinker." Lin Ze smiled proudly, raised the flask and drank it all in one gulp.
The two of them drank two to three kilograms of spirits in succession and sat shoulder to shoulder on the sofa. Even though they were still slightly apart, Lin Ze could still smell the alluring body fragrance emanating from Xue Bailing's body. It was pure. It is a body fragrance that does not contain any chemical perfume. Lin Ze, who has rich experience in women, still has this skill and can easily distinguish the nature of the smell on women.
Obviously, Xue Bailing is a rather unusual type of woman. She can exude a strong body fragrance.
My brain was a little mushy from the rapid drinking, but I still rationally rejected certain things that I shouldn't fantasize about. I picked up a bottle of wine again and grinned: "Continue."
"Continue." Xue Bailing also grabbed a bottle of wine and drank it again.
"Ha ha."
Lin Ze laughed wildly like a maniac, and then drank a pot of strong wine.
snap,
Lin Ze lit a cigarette, and as the green smoke curled up on his face, he didn't react at all. He took a deep breath and murmured: "It's been a long time since I drank so happily with a woman."
"There was before."
I don’t know whether it was because she drank too much that her brain was not working properly or for other reasons. She seemed unwilling to use her brain, which was so smart that it impressed countless men. She asked in a womanly manner,
"There is one." Lin Ze puffed out a puff of smoke and said calmly, "You can drink, you can drink very well, and you can drink beyond my imagination. Just like her back then, she drank even harder than men. "
"There is anyone in this world who can drink better than me." Xue Bailing asked back,
She has the confidence to say these words, not because of her identity, but because of her ability to drink. How can a woman who can drink liquor as water not have this confidence?
"Maybe she can compete with you." Lin Ze grinned nervously, "At least I can't drink her."
"Who is she?" Xue Bailing asked vaguely.
"I..." Lin Ze paused, seeming to be thinking about how to introduce this woman who would always be hidden in his heart. After one cigarette was burned out, he lit another one. After smoking three cigarettes, he said in a hoarse voice: "I I like a woman, I don’t know if she likes me, maybe she likes me, maybe she doesn’t like me, but in my life, I may die for many people, but I am only willing to live a good life for her, because she once treated me She said that only when you are alive can I have the motivation to live, so I am willing to live a good life for her, but..."
Lin Ze's eyes suddenly turned red, and his eyes were full of tears, almost dripping down: "But, I am alive, and you, where are you, are you dead? Didn't you say that only when I am alive do you have the motivation to live? You Where are you? Are you really still alive?"
Tears flowed down the rough skin, and the emotions that Lin Ze had suppressed for several years suddenly burst out at this moment, as if he wanted to remove all the grievances, miserable experiences, and bitterness of this life from those not-so-large pairs of eyes. , but enough to spray out from the eyes of spirit,
He is so tired, really tired,
Who can not be tired after going through so many things?
Whoever goes to bed every night may be awakened by bloody nightmares without feeling tired.
Who can carefully hide the woman who made him a pair of leather shoes in his heart for several years? It would be even more tiring to not see the person alive or to see the corpse.
He is powerful, many people think so,
He is also fragile because she,
Countless times, he has lost the reason to live, so he keeps looking for various reasons to keep himself alive, whether they are good, bad, beneficial to himself, or the most negative ones, he ignores them all. Reason is what he wants,
He was even different from ordinary people in building a defense system for himself time and time again to prevent the negative emotions suppressed deep in his heart from breaking out, thus prompting him to act irrationally or even self-harm.
He wants to live because she said, if you don't live, can I still live?
At that time, she was still confused and only thought that the meaning behind her words was that he was her comrade and partner. If he died, her chance of survival would plummet.
But, I am still alive, and you,
Could it be that, could you really let me keep this promise for the rest of my life, but you never show up again?
Salty tears rolled into the corner of his mouth. Lin Ze stuck out his tongue and tasted it. He lost control and said, "Salty, as you said, there is no sweetness in this life. Are you really so tired and bitter? Why are you Never tell me, you keep everything in your heart. Do you know that I peeked at you sleeping on Changbai Mountain? Do you know that when I saw you huddled in the corner of the tent, like a helpless bird? When you were a kitten, I really wanted to hug you and say don't be afraid of me. I didn't dare and didn't do it because I didn't know whether I should do it or whether it would make you more worried. Curl up, even more into the corner, why, why do you stand in front of me whenever there is danger, why do you let me eat every time there is something delicious, even the last piece of beef jerky is left, You are reluctant to eat, I hope I can continue to maintain my strength."
"I once thought that as long as you are here, even if I have to carry out a lifetime of dangerous missions, even if I have no food and clothing, no warmth every day, and live a life of fear, I will actually be happy, because you are always cold and cold. Stand in front of me, and then tell me when I am unhappy, just die if you are unhappy. If you die, it will be over. I will always ask you, can you still live after I die? Whenever this time, You will tell me that I said that if you die, I will die."
"I will die if you die, you always tell me this, but are you dead? If you are dead, why am I still alive? Is it true that you are the only one who cares about me? I don't care about you. Why, why do you want me to Live well, why aren't you by my side and don't let me be with you."
Tears seemed to come in endless bursts, coming surging and flowing unbridled. Lin Ze has lived for more than 20 years today, and he has never really cried. Even if he knew about her death and knew that she was burned clean by a fire, he never really cried. cry out,
But at this moment, when he suddenly couldn't control it, he cried all of a sudden, crying so helplessly and sadly,
"Where are you? In the sky, on the ground, or... looking at me from some corner I don't know." Lin Ze curled up on the sofa, eyes dull, and said blankly, "Do you really have the heart to abandon me? I."
Xue Bailing was stunned,
I’m mostly sober from the wine,
She was in a very bad mood tonight and was very unstable. She didn't know if her emotions were pulling her away, but she couldn't believe that this man who was considered indomitable and domineering in her heart could cry so embarrassed and tearfully. Heartbroken, how much pain must it be to torture this stubborn and unyielding man to this point, how heavy the past must be, to make him curl up in the corner of the sofa, more dazed than an injured wild wolf, even more weak,
She is a woman, a woman with a cold heart but no lack of sensitivity. As a woman, she will always exude strong motherly love when a man is confused, hurt and desperate. She gently moved to Lin Ze's side, stretched out her arms, She took him into her arms and without his consent, said softly: "I am twenty-nine this year and will celebrate my thirtieth birthday in two months. I have been learning continuously since I was sensible. ,Besides studying, I don’t know what else I can do, because I have a goal to let my family, all my family members, live a comfortable life, even though many of my family members are things I don’t like when I was a child. , whenever my grandfather gets angry and accuses my parents, I will secretly swear that I must work hard to support the whole family so that they can live a meaningful and comfortable life. I have been doing this, so I I am very tired. To this day, I have never really laughed. In fact, I envy others because everyone will be sad sometimes and also laugh heartily. I will not be sad or laugh, even if I I know it's unhealthy for me to do this, but I just can't laugh. Why, I don't know. Maybe I force myself not to laugh, or maybe I really can't laugh. Who cares? What my family cares about is that I can protect them. They, the people outside, care about the benefits I can win for them. Who cares whether I will be sad and cry, or whether I will laugh."
"I never thought about giving up, never thought that I could let go of everything in my hands. This was a thought deep in my mind. Even when I was so tired that I almost collapsed, I never had the thought of giving up. And the fact is On, my body told me more than once, Xue Bailing, you can let go. If you continue like this, you will really be exhausted, but I can't. It's not that I don't want to, but my brain tells me, Xue Bailing Ling, how can you give up, how can you give up, so I started to carry it all again, working day and night, and couldn't tell whether I was alive or dead. Xue Gui once pointed at me when he drank too much He scolded me with his nose, you are just a robot, the kind with zero IQ. I think this description is very appropriate, and it suits me very well. Look, I am a robot that will die if I stab it with a knife, and I am still alive. I, a robot who has no idea whether I am alive or dead, am still alive. Why can't you live? At least, you still have many reasons to support your life, right?"
Lin Ze's psychology was on the verge of extreme fragility and collapse at this moment. When he heard Queen Xue speaking these words in an extremely soft and gentle tone, his mood was not only not frightened, but he tightened his body and leaned against her. tighter,
"Be good." Queen Xue subconsciously patted his back gently, her face full of tenderness.
Lin Ze felt the body temperature and warmth coming from Xue Bailing's body, and raised his head slightly, staring at the woman close at hand without any desire in his eyes. After a long time, he asked: "Can I kiss you."
Xue Bailing didn't even think about it, nodded and said: "Okay."
Lin Ze kissed her moist lips, their lips simply touched. Xue Bailing closed her eyes gently, but Lin Ze opened his eyes wide and stared at her long eyelashes.
After a moment, he let go of his soft lips like rose petals and said, "I'm tired."
"Then rest."
Lin Ze was lying on the soft big bed, motionless, but Xue Bailing was holding his head with one hand, lying on her side in front of him, like a big sister, and like a little woman who loves this man deeply, indistinguishable. She didn't know which one was real and which one was illusory, but she enjoyed this feeling very much. She enjoyed this tenderness cleanly and purely, without any distracting thoughts, not even the slightest feeling between men and women, they just met each other without any distracting thoughts. hug together,
Who says only partners can kiss?
Who said there is no pure and ceremonial kiss?
When a man kisses a woman, and when a woman kisses a man, there must be a reason or an excuse?
No need, at least this kiss, no need,
Before Xue Bailing fell asleep, a sentence suddenly echoed in her mind that she couldn't remember where she saw but was inexplicably happy: That's it, never go far,
