The suite is fully equipped, otherwise it wouldn't be considered a presidential suite. The bedroom has Xia Shuzhu's essential products before going to bed, which are very ordinary, but she can't sleep without such a thing - a radio.
Tune into the urban night talk radio station, the time is very accurate, and it is a program that becomes more and more beautiful as the night goes by. The host of the program talks about the impetuousness, loneliness and loneliness of the fast-paced life in the city. With the gentle and charming music, Xia Shuzhu gradually
I fell into the night chat atmosphere created by the host.
I don’t know if the host has a soft spot for Eason Chan’s songs, but he actually played his songs for two consecutive nights. Tonight, after describing the helplessness and bitterness of a pair of lovers, the host played an Eason Chan classic
Love song "The King of Karaoke".
The content expressed in the song has two meanings. One is that even if I am the king of karaoke, I can perform any love song perfectly, but I may not be able to sing love perfectly. It is full of a touch of sadness. The other meaning is that girls
He could sing all the songs he liked, but he couldn't put his most sincere emotions into every song. She didn't appreciate it, and ended up feeling sad and in vain.
In short, this is a love song that makes people cry, and it once moved many people.
As Xia Shuzhu listened, he felt some ridiculous enlightenment.
After two days of intense contact with Lin Ze, she gradually got to know him better. Although she didn't have a thorough understanding, it also allowed her to uncover some of the veils of this mysterious and rebellious man. After her impression suddenly changed,
Going straight up again. Over and over again, Xia Shuzhu gradually developed an inexplicable feeling for him. It was difficult to explain and describe it in words. But she explained something with her actions.
She had been worried about him all day. Although she hesitated, she still opened a suite without hesitation and asked Lin Ze to cook for her. If it was just an ordinary teacher-student relationship, or even an ordinary relationship between a man and a woman, Xia Shuzhu would never do it.
Something like this happened.
However - as a modern urban woman with relatively traditional and conservative ideas, Xia Shuzhu could not accept a further state. Even - deep down in her heart, she did not rule out such a situation happening, but her reason told her that Lin Ze was hers
Student, she is Lin Ze's teacher. Nothing should happen between them that transcends this relationship.
This was a kind of helplessness, and even more so, a kind of powerlessness. She regretted following Lin Ze to the small garden during the day. If she had not seen those things, she would not have followed Lin Ze to the police station. She thought that she should have the determination to
The throbbing in my heart last night was strangled in the cradle.
But there are no ifs or regrets in this world. At this moment, as she listened to "The King of Karaoke", extremely complex emotions welled up in her heart.
It was late at night. There was a cold wind outside the window, but Xia Shuzhu was lying on the bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. As long as he closed his eyes, what came to his mind was Lin Ze's face that was sometimes frivolous and sometimes deep. Gradually, Xia Shuzhu couldn't help but
He got up and got off the soft big bed.
She knew that there were various drinks in the refrigerator in the living room. She had never had the habit of drinking at night and wanted to drink some, hoping that it would help her sleep.
Gently, Xia Shuzhu opened the door, only to find that the light in the living room was bright. Her heart tightened slightly, but the door had already been opened. If she closed it again, it would inevitably leave traces, so she simply walked out.
Lin Ze was drinking, very drunk. But he barely made any sound. This was why Xia Shuzhu dared to come out. She thought Lin Ze had gone to bed, but she never thought that it was so late and he was still sitting on the sofa drinking.
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The coffee table was filled with empty wine bottles, and Lin Ze rested one leg on the coffee table.
This made Xia Shuzhu feel a little weird in her heart. She walked over lazily and asked curiously: "It's so late, why don't you rest?"
Lin Ze's expression was a little stiff, and the cigarette between his fingers had burned to the end. However, he completely forgot to squish it out. When Xia Shuzhu asked, he raised his head slightly, glanced at Xia Shuzhu with his bloodshot eyes, and said casually:
"Can't sleep."
Xia Shuzhu's heart trembled, she saw it. From Lin Ze's eyes, she saw a touch of sadness, not strong, even fleeting, but Xia Shuzhu still keenly captured it.
This is not the look that a heartless man would show, nor is it the look that a man like Lin Ze, who looks bohemian and happy-go-lucky, should show. When Xia Shuzhu touched this touch of sadness, he immediately noticed that Lin Ze
There were many stories in Ze's heart. So, she turned to the refrigerator, opened it and saw that there were only three bottles of beer left in the originally full refrigerator.
Holding the wine in his arms, Xia Shuzhu sat across from Lin Ze, opened the can and took a sip. Seeing that Lin Ze was still lying on the sofa like a dead person, he asked slowly: "Are you thinking about something?"
Lin Ze poured a large sip of whiskey into his mouth, suddenly grinned and said, "Do I look like a troubled person?"
"It's not like that." Xia Shuzhu shook his head and said, "But as long as you are a human being, you will have worries. Unless you admit that you are not a human being."
A strong bitterness appeared at the corner of Lin Ze's mouth. He took a puff of cigarette and said calmly: "It's getting late. Go to bed early. You are not a woman who should stay up late."
"Is there any woman who is born to stay up late?" Xia Shuzhu was a little dissatisfied when he saw him saying such a thing.
"It's not that anyone should stay up late." Lin Ze shook his head lightly. His attitude was completely different from Xia Shuzhu's before entering the bedroom. He took another sip of wine and said in a cold voice as if he didn't want to talk. "Go and rest."
You have to get up early to go to work."
"What about you, don't you have to go to class? Why don't you go to bed earlier?" Xia Shuzhu became even more angry. Originally, she was still struggling in the room alone for a long time. But she never expected that this guy was actually hiding here drinking, so forget it.
. He actually looked impatient. Are you so annoying? Don’t forget that something happened to you today. I will always be with you!
"Don't you know, Teacher Xia? I am a bad student, and sleeping at night is not my style." Lin Ze smiled wildly and said. "I was planning to finish the wine here and find a nightclub to have a drink.
Pick up girls. If Teacher Xia is not in the mood to sleep, why not go together?"
"You——" Xia Shuzhu was furious and said angrily. "Can't you learn well?"
"What should I do if I learn well?" Lin Ze said lazily. "Who can show me how to learn well? How I want to live my life is my business and has nothing to do with anyone else."
He spoke decisively and without any room for concession. Xia Shuzhu was stunned.
She was so aggrieved that she wanted to cry. What was this? He was obviously a very considerate and gentle man. Even if he was ruthless, he only treated his enemies. But why did he become so inhumane in the blink of an eye?
The fingers holding the wine can turned white from excessive exertion. Xia Shuzhu sat blankly on the sofa without saying a word. He just stared at Lin Ze with his slightly red eyes. After a long time, he saw that he was still drinking nonchalantly.
He smoked, threw the can on the coffee table, stood up abruptly, and scolded sadly and angrily: "It's up to you! You can die if you want, who am I? How am I qualified to care about you!"
After saying that, he turned around and went back to his room, closing the door firmly.
But the moment he entered the room, Xia Shuzhu's tears couldn't help but roll down——
Lin Ze stayed on the sofa for a while, then picked up his cell phone and dialed Uncle Fu's number, and said calmly: "Uncle Fu, please rest. I'll be back in a moment."
"Want to pick you up?" Fu Bo's calm voice came from the phone.
"Need not."
After hanging up the phone, Lin Ze stuffed all the wine cans on the coffee table into the trash can and cleaned up the living room that he had messed up. Then he picked up his shirt and turned around to go out.
Click.
Although the sound of the door being pulled was very small, Lin Ze was gentle enough, and in the end, it could not escape Xia Shuzhu's ears. When she heard the sound of the door being pulled, the grievances in her heart expanded to countless numbers in an instant.
times.
he's gone?
He just left without saying a word?
Tears rolled down her cheeks, and Xia Shuzhu bit her lips hard to prevent herself from making a sound. But her soft heart sank again and again, as if she had fallen into an endless misery, unable to escape or extricate herself.
She just didn't understand why Lin Ze did this. She just didn't understand why he did this when he was clearly talking and laughing with her, and even had a subtle affection.
Are you being stupid? You locked yourself in a room and were entangled with each other, but they didn't take it to heart at all and gave you a cold look in the blink of an eye——
That night, Xia Shuzhu was destined to have no sleep.
However, how could she know that this night was also sleepless for Lin Ze?
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The shirt was draped over his shoulders, and he was walking in a deep step, with his hands lazily in his pockets, and the fireworks at his mouth flickered on and off, spewing out swirling smoke.
The orange streetlight dragged his swaying body into a long shadow, lonely and unfocused.
When we came out of the suite, it was already two o'clock in the morning. Taxis were not extinct, but they were no longer as endless as they were at seven or eight o'clock at night. Furthermore, Lin Ze wanted to be alone, so even his brother wanted to come to him.
As we drove over, he just lowered his head and smoked a cigarette indifferently.
Lin Ze understood Xia Shuzhu's hazy attitude. He had experienced it once, or in other words - although that time was not a formal experience, there had been a woman in his life who gave him that kind of heart palpitations.
Ever since Xia Shuzhu forced him to get into the police car and enter the police station, Lin Ze felt a little repulsive deep down in his heart. It wasn't that he didn't want to be cared for, or that he didn't want to accept the care of the beautiful class teacher. It was just that he didn't know how to deal with it if he went further.
Maybe it’s a bit ridiculous to say that, he is a prodigal in love, and he is also a veteran of pleasure. What woman has he not seen? What woman has he not had sex with? From pure to coquettish, he has tasted all women in nightclubs and women looking for pleasure.
All over.
But that was venting, a way to relieve loneliness and emptiness, and it had nothing to do with feelings or identity. It could even be said that the debauchery during that period was caused by the woman who once made Lin Ze's heart palpitate——
I don't know if it was from that time that Lin Ze was a little afraid of being cared for by women, and when he was cared for by women, he would feel guilty in his heart.
The relationship with Han Xiaoyi is that he cares about her, the relationship with Dong Xiaowan is that she wants to know him, and the relationship with Xia Shuzhu——
Lin Ze shook his head, with a hint of bitterness at the corner of his mouth. Maybe Xia Shuzhu was taking care of himself with a caring attitude at first, but as the incident developed, he was able to capture some changes in Xia Shuzhu. In fact, he could even learn from Xia Shuzhu
In those actions and words, we can detect her contradictions and hesitations.
In this case, why not be more straightforward, more cruel, and simply break it off?
This pain is only short-lived, superficial, not so unforgettable——
Snap.
Lin Ze lit a new cigarette and flicked the ashes skillfully.
He was cold, cruel, and even a little capricious, but it was not that Lin Ze thought that following Xia Shuzhu would eventually make her emotionally hurt and helpless. Lin Ze was a big boss and not so hypocritical. In his opinion, these worries and contradictions,
A trait that only young literary and artistic young people have. What he worries about is real injury, not emotional injury, but physical injury - emotional injury does not count as injury, death is the real injury!
Lin Ze was injured once three years ago, and he had a fear, which was his only psychological defect. Although he has greatly improved in terms of ability and psychological quality compared to what he was three years ago.
But once he was bitten by a snake, his ten years of fear of well ropes still made Lin Ze somewhat resistant to Xia Shuzhu's vague affection -
Lin Ze will never forget the scene three years ago when he got the bad news from the old director, and that something happened to her because of him. At that time, Lin Ze felt that the sky was falling apart, and the sun and the moon were dim. Even the sun and the moon were dim.
She could not see her for the last time. The old director said that the place where the incident occurred was burned by a fire. Not even a single bone could be found.
To this day, Lin Ze has never been to the tombstone without an urn in the special cemetery area of the National Security Bureau. He doesn’t know whether he is escaping or whether he firmly believes that she is still alive, but in a corner of the world.
Watching myself silently——
Although rationality told Lin Ze that she had left for three years, Lin Ze didn't want to believe it emotionally. Even though he knew that such a miracle would hardly happen to him, and even saw her escape from the fire with his own eyes.
Personal accessories, but he just couldn't accept this fact.
Lin Ze, who was resolute in everything, was completely entangled and contradictory in this matter.
"Am I too timid?" Lin Ze suddenly murmured to himself, took a puff of cigarette, and muttered slightly mockingly. "Even a young and beautiful girl is just in a conflicted state of mind—but I am straightforward.
Clear it all once and for all.”
Shaking her head in distress, she comforted herself: "Maybe after such a separation, she will forget about it. Anyway, we have only been in close contact for two days, and my charm should not be as great as this. Besides - the task has been completed,
It’s time for me to leave this city. Things that take time and energy like falling in love may not be suitable for me.”
