Han Shuo never thought that the sunset could be so beautiful, nor did he think that being in the sun would be so comfortable. He stood up involuntarily, opened his hands, closed his eyes and let the last sunshine shine on him. This action lasted for about half an hour, until the sun set and only a burning cloud remained in the sky.
Only then did he open his eyes, and looked at Cang Long beside him with some fear. Cang Long also stood up and said, "Pack yourself up, I will take you back to Beijing tomorrow."
He never expected that Teacher Cang, who had been silent for so long, would actually say to send him away: "What will happen to this network center if I leave? No, you are scaring me, you can't lose me here."
Canglong gave him a sarcastic look: "No one in this world is irreplaceable, and the same goes for you. I can find many people to do your job."
After saying that, Cang Long turned around and left, leaving Han Shuo staring blankly in the direction Cang Long left, and finally sat down on the ground.[
From a distance, Su Su looked at him like this, walked over and sat next to him: "Are you hit?"
Han Shuo glanced at him and ignored him. Cang Long's words that no one is irreplaceable were like a sword stabbing his heart. It hurt. He had worked hard for so long. He worked day and night. It really made him sad to think that what he got in exchange was such a sentence.
Su Su looked at the flaming clouds in the distance and said with a smile: "I have to say that compared to our generation, your generation has many advantages. Your thoughts are unconstrained, and you dare to act. , you dare to love and hate, without any restrictions, just like a free bird, can soar in the vast sky to its heart's content."
"What are you talking about? Do you want to teach me a lesson like Mr. Cang did?" Han Shuo turned his head and his eyes were full of hostility. "That's no need. I mistrusted him. This guy is a fool. I don't need anyone else to teach me how to live."
But in Su Su's eyes, Han Shuo was not hostile, but just stubborn. He was not convinced, so Su Su was not angry. Instead, she looked at the clouds on the horizon and said, "Isn't it beautiful?"
Han Shuo couldn't help but look over. His heart told him that it was beautiful, but he couldn't say it because he wasn't convinced. Even if it was beautiful, he wouldn't say it out loud.
"I rarely get angry for someone, but today you really made him angry." Su Su looked into the distance calmly.
"Is he angry?" Han Shuo finally couldn't help but speak.
"Of course, it can't be seen on the surface, but in fact he is angry." Su Su said, "I don't want to teach you a lesson, because in some places, you are better than me. You think you are doing the right thing, but you can't. Deny it, excellent people also have shortcomings, am I right?" Han Shuo nodded: "I know I have shortcomings, but why does he let me come and leave whenever he wants me to, without even giving a reason? Didn't give it to me."
Hearing this, Su Su suddenly laughed and looked him up and down. She thought he was funny. Han Shuo asked, "Why are you laughing? Am I so funny?"
"Please, you should look in the mirror and see what you look like now." Su Su said with a smile.
Hearing this, Han Shuo quickly took out the smartphone in his pocket and turned on the camera function. When the pale face appeared in his eyes, he subconsciously threw the phone away: "This...who is the white-bone demon in this phone?" ?”
"Yourself." Su Su helped him pick up the phone, took a photo of him, then handed it to him and said, "Take a good look at your appearance."
Han Shuo was a little frightened, but he still took the phone over. The man in the photo, who was wretched and thin, with bloodshot eyes, was not him. He looked at the photo and suddenly fell silent.
"Now do you know why Tou is angry?" Su Su said with a smile, "He feels distressed when he sees you like this. If you must give a reason, maybe he doesn't want you to die here."
"Impossible, how could someone with such a hard heart care about me?" Han Shuo said stubbornly.
"Then you are wrong. He not only cares about you, he also cares about everyone around him." Su Su said with a smile, "He is a cold person on the outside, but actually a hot person on the inside, and you are actually a person who looks like a person on the outside. Disgusting, very cold-hearted person."
"But I am also working for him. How could he treat me like this? If you have something to say, say it carefully. I will definitely change what he says." Han Shuo said, "And why am I so cold?"
Su Su smiled sarcastically: "Reform? The biggest shortcoming of your generation is that they refuse to repent. Think about it, how many people have cared about you in the base? How many people have been scolded by you? To put it bluntly, this is your indifference, you don’t know how to care, and even if others care about you in your life, you still feel irritable.”[
Han Shuo was silent. Thinking that he had been in Basra for so long, he was immersed in work without thinking, forgetting time, forgetting the people around him, and forgetting his own existence. He felt like he had entered an independent world. The same world, completely isolated from this world, that feeling was really enjoyable and made him crazy several times, but what's wrong with this?
But he suddenly thought of the sunset just now. The most beautiful moment in his life was actually just an ordinary sunset, because he hadn't felt it or cared about it for a long time.
"You don't even care about yourself, and I still want you to care about others. If you lived in our era, you would be miserable." Su shook his head.
"What exactly do you want to say?" Han Shuo was a little impatient.
Su looked disappointed: "Young man, think about it carefully, life is not a game, you only live once."
After saying that, Su also left. If he talked too much, Han Shuo would only feel irritated because he had fallen into a self-centered world.
Han Shuo did not return to the base, but just sat outside the base wondering what he was thinking. He sat there until night, with the stars twinkling in the sky. Han Shuo felt so beautiful while lying on the ground. At that moment, he suddenly thought of what Su said.
Since he was a child, his grandparents, parents, and parents almost obeyed him and never beat or scolded him. Even if he was wrong, they would not tell him that he was wrong. But now that he suddenly thought about it, he found that he was so disappointed. , it turns out that after leaving his parents, he was nothing. He was a genius, but he was only a genius in the eyes of a small number of people. In the eyes of most people who were as talented as him, he was just an ordinary person.
As he was thinking about it, he suddenly felt hungry. Normally, whenever he felt hungry, he would stretch out his hand and there would be food next to him. He would eat as soon as he took it, even forgetting who the person who brought the food was. When he was thirsty, someone would give him water. , he was never grateful, he only took it for granted. He devoted almost all his time to the things he thought were the most valuable.
Now he feels so lonely. He has no friends. In the past, he couldn't understand some of the thoughts of the people around him. He felt that what he did was right. The world should be centered on him. People around him didn't understand him. Those people didn't understand him.
They are different and envious of themselves. The so-called friends are just a group of people wearing hypocritical masks and longing for something of themselves.
When he deeply felt the loneliness and the warmth and coldness around him, he discovered that he was the only one who was different. In fact, he was not considered a different person because he was also very ordinary, and friends could drive away loneliness.
Thinking back to how he was pampered and domineering in the past, and those people who cared about him but were scolded by him so badly, he didn't even have the most basic gratitude as a human being.
He cried. He rarely cried when he grew up, but this time he was really sad. He suddenly realized that in this world, without him, the earth would still rotate, and without him, the people around him might live better.
, without him, there might be more laughter.
He was afraid. Looking at the stars, familiar faces suddenly appeared in the sky. These people had cared about him, but in the end they all disappeared around him. Except for his parents and relatives, no one wanted to
When playing with him, no one is willing to drive away his loneliness, and no one is willing to bring him warmth. All this is caused by himself.
Suddenly enlightened, he finally understood why Canglong wanted to send him back, and finally understood why Canglong was heartbroken.
Yes, it is heartache, not what Su said. Teacher Cang has been trying to make himself understand something, and has been trying to let himself feel the warmth around him, but he is as cold as ever, so he is heartbroken and feels that he can be saved.
The medicine is gone.
Suddenly enlightened, he got up and ran towards the base. At this moment, he was no longer hungry, no longer lonely, and no longer afraid. He just wanted to see Teacher Cang and say "I'm sorry" to this teacher who cared about him and felt sorry for him.
He was sweating profusely. When he passed the people around him, everyone thought he was crazy. They grabbed people and asked where the prophet was. When he learned that Han Shuo was in the military intelligence conference room, he immediately rushed in, not even the guards at the door dared to do so.
After stopping him, he opened the door and said, "Teacher Cang."
Everyone was shocked. Almost all the senior leaders of the Prophet Army in the conference room knew this grumpy but talented young man. What was incredible to them was that they could actually hear a word of apology from this guy.
Canglong was stunned for a moment, and finally asked everyone to go out. When Han Shuo and the two of them were the only ones left in the conference room, Han Shuo suddenly said: "Yes, I'm sorry."
Canglong asked: "Why do you say sorry to me?"
"Because I was wrong." Han Shuo lowered his usually high head.[
"No, you are not wrong. There is nothing wrong with doing what you like and working for your dreams. You are just insisting on yourself." Canglong said.
"No, I was wrong." Han Shuo retorted, "You all know where I was wrong. It's just that I never listened to anyone's ideas and was self-centered. But today I understand. It turns out that I hurt
There are so many people because of my stubbornness, my persistence, and my arrogance."
Canglong smiled. He looked at Han Shuo with a smile and said, "Actually, what you lack is a heart of awe, awe of everything that should exist in this world. It is true that you are full of genius, but genius is actually just a kind of
Talent, your family background has made you develop this habit of being condescending and condescending, but they didn't tell you that without your background, you are nothing. In front of a real genius, you are just an ordinary person.
In this world, each mountain is always higher than the other."
"Then should I still stick to my dream?" Han Shuo suddenly felt confused.
Canglong was silent for a while and said: "Just like this colorful world, dreams can also have colors. At the beginning, it was just monotonous black and white, but it is precisely because of its initial black and white that we need to go up.
Color makes it magnificent and wonderful. If you are just immersed in your own world, you will always stay at the beginning of black and white, monotonous and boring. I can tell you that it is not a dream, it is a cage and self.
The cage of bondage, dreams are free, feel everything with your heart, and use a heart of awe, no matter how talented you think you are, despising everything will only make you look naive."