Intoxicated, Yan Rui vaguely smelled the familiar sweet smell of Xiao Xixi. In the hazy state, he sighed bitterly: "Xixi... you are so cruel."
"What?" Xiao Xixi didn't hear Yan Rui's words clearly because she was still panting when she put him on the sofa too heavily. Looking carefully at Yan Rui's drunken face, she found that he just opened his eyes and glanced lightly, then fell into a trance.
He closed his eyes.
In order to sober him up, Xiao Xixi hurriedly walked to the restaurant, opened the refrigerator and looked for honey eagerly. She couldn't remember where she had read it, saying that honey was very useful for sobering up hangovers. She was slightly panicked. In her memory, Yan Rui had always been a person with good self-control.
He has the capacity to drink, but he never becomes uncontrollably drunk for any reason.
This time, she suddenly realized that something had happened to him. When he went out in the morning, he was fine, but when he came back in the evening, he was drunk as never before.
Before she could find the honey water, she heard the clear sound of the glass in the living room hitting the glass. She looked around reflexively and found that Yan Rui had already forced himself to sit up and grabbed the cup on the coffee table, but he couldn't hold it because he was drunk.
He accidentally dropped it on the table. At this moment, he was still struggling to grab the cup lying on the water on the table.
Xiao Xixi quickly closed the refrigerator door and went over to support Yan Rui's slightly tilted body. If he maintained this position, he would definitely fall to the ground.
Yan Rui's consciousness was already in chaos. Tonight, he felt as if his heart was suddenly broken. He couldn't bear to blame her, but he just no longer controlled himself and pushed the glass to change the wine handed to him.
Get drunk once, and let yourself get drunk once in a while. Get drunk once for yourself.
Xiao Xixi hugged Yan Rui's side slightly, trying to pull him back, but Yan Rui suddenly turned around unconsciously and leaned against her. Because his body was still heavy, Xiao Xixi sank into the sofa and pushed.
He couldn't push her away, so he could only endure the smell of alcohol spreading over his body.
"Brother Rui, brother Rui..." She tried to wake him up, but was interrupted by Yan Rui's sudden words. Because of the alcohol, his voice seemed even deeper and hoarse in the quiet night.
Yan Rui subconsciously felt that Xiao Xixi was beside him, but he had a feeling that he could not touch or touch him. He felt that his heart was cold all night. When Xiao Xixi touched his body, he instinctively
He leaned closer to the soft warmth.
Intermittently, Yan Rui whispered softly: "Xixi, why, why did you...for so many years, you didn't listen to me or talk to me. Today, you just...pushed me away.
Get out." To her, in my heart, there was more than just the word "love". It was a deep and unparalleled feeling.
Tonight he was full of expectations, but he got such a shocking result, which really shocked him and caught him off guard. All the expectations and hopes he had in his heart disappeared without a trace in an instant.
His mind was very confused and slow, and his body was also a little sluggish from the impact of alcohol. He could only breathe a little, and he tried hard to open his deep and dark eyes but couldn't see clearly in front of him. He could only say vaguely: "...
For more than twenty years, I thought that my heart was made for you. Do you know that your joy, anger, and sorrow have become an inherent part of my life. If I wanted to find another woman, I would have found one long ago.
——Why wait until today?"
She didn't understand him, but he couldn't explain it, couldn't explain it, and had nowhere to say it. Where should we start talking about these things in order to be able to explain them all in one sentence? Yan Rui wanted to find a place where he could answer the question and asked carefully.
Ask, when will this pain be eliminated? I can see it, but dare not touch it. I can hear it, but cannot talk about it. Only I know this feeling.
Xiao Xixi listened silently to Yan Rui's heartfelt words, and the most entangled sourness and pain gradually filled her heart.
Yan Rui's words were still murmuring and whispered: "Many years ago, I... told myself, when you said you didn't love me. I told myself... don't make the same mistake. I
, I don’t dare to say anything anymore. You don’t need my promise. I have thousands of reasons to warn myself, but I can only follow your feelings. I work hard to transform jealousy into envy, time and time again, how can I bear to let you
Tortured.”
"In the end, I can only torture myself. Your brother Rui... I will bear all the pain..." The unfinished words gradually disappeared into the silence of the living room as Yan Rui fell asleep.
I don't know when, a wet tear hung from the corner of his eye.
Three years.
If Situ Leiyan has endured it for three years, then Yan Rui can no longer calculate how many years he has endured it. He doesn’t know when his hopeless love for Xiao Xixi has become a part of his life.
.
Countless, silent pain.
The pain of so many years suddenly came out with just a little alcohol. After Yan Rui expressed it in a low voice, he fell into his dream again.
Xiao Xixi was silent for a long time. Yan Rui's body rose and fell gently with his gentle breathing, and he no longer remembered what he had just said. And he, unknowingly, had been so cruel to him over the years, and made him bear the burden.
So many...
She didn't know what to say.
The ring that Yan Rui held tightly in his palm fell out at some point and rolled to the ground, sobbing silently and emitting a silent light. In the blink of an eye, it was swallowed up in the lonely darkness.
Early the next morning, Xiao Xixi didn't know when Yan Rui went out.
Recalling what he said the night before, she had mixed feelings that she couldn't express. She didn't love him, was afraid of his pain but couldn't love him. She felt a little bit resentful about herself.
But the two babies were clamoring for toys early in the morning. One was fussing and the other was sobbing, leaving her really helpless. She originally wanted to stay for a day to sort out her thoughts. But now she had no choice but to take the two babies to the children's area of the mall. Sure enough,
, the two of them became happy and happy when they arrived in the colorful world.
Being a mother, I really can't afford to be hurt. Xiao Xixi really sighed.
However, his thoughts couldn't help but return to what Yan Rui said last night while he was intoxicated. Even his own biological mother was like this. In the past three years, Yan Rui, the so-called "father" who has no blood relationship, has been silently doing everything for them.
How many have been sacrificed?...These, perhaps, are countless.
There was a dull pain in my heart.
Suddenly hearing some noise behind her, Xiao Xixi glanced over conditionedly, only to see a few people in suits and leather shoes following a gesticulating beautiful woman, nodding in agreement. She looked like a supervisor or something.
When it comes to lecturing employees, they are generally quite bossy.
Xiao Xixi was afraid that the other party would be embarrassed, so she withdrew her gaze, but the voice drifted closer and closer unknowingly. She naturally protected the two children and couldn't help but raise her eyes to look at the woman. But she didn't expect that the other party was also directly facing her.
After looking at him, he looked at himself a little stiffly and said slowly: "Xiao...Xiao Xixi?!"
Xiao Xixi looked confused. She didn't expect that this strange face was calling her name, but she didn't recognize her at all. However, thinking that she couldn't lose her etiquette, she hurriedly said with a smile: "Hello." She didn't know where she was.
Where have I seen her before? Is there any connection with her? My mind is running rapidly, but I still have no impression.
"I...you..." Gu Ruolan was so shocked that she was speechless. Situ Leiyan said that she appeared, but he didn't expect to meet her so easily! She was stunned.
But looking at Xiao Xixi's confused expression, she tried to calm down, with a smile on her face: "Miss Xiao, long time no see!" It has been three years, but she can't see any trace of time. On the contrary, it looks better than that time.
It added a bit of charm, and at this moment, next to her, there was a boy standing looking at the shelves, and a boy squatting playing with toys. They were... the children she wanted to get rid of back then!
Xiao Xixi was a little embarrassed: "I'm sorry, I don't know...have we met somewhere?" It seems that today is the first time we meet, and the shock and familiarity when the other party sees her is obviously not an ordinary acquaintance relationship.