She never understood that she loved that man so much that she was even willing to deliberately change herself to get his love, but he didn't want her. Everything she did was to make herself more worthy of him, but he just said a simple
The pressure completely shattered her efforts and made them worthless.
She quit her job, hid in her apartment alone, drank and smoked, and lived a passive and extravagant life.
She was short of money at first, but after she became beautiful, she found that those arrogant men would bring money to her just for her to smile. She was vain and happy, but she saw it from the eyes of those people.
There was no trace of love in her. She understood that these men only loved her skin.
Therefore, Fan Xixi learned well.
She learned how to use her talents around men, tickling those men's hearts, but she refused to give them anything, and still made them willing to pay for her. She didn't think there was anything wrong with it, nor did she think there was anything appropriate.
Think all men are like this.
But, one time, she got too big and got involved with a man she shouldn't touch.
He sent people to surround her, but Le Yushan happened to be passing by and pulled her into an alley, thus escaping the pursuit of those people.
"You look so beautiful! You're like a star on TV." Le Yushan said in admiration after seeing the person leave.
Fan Xixi's eyes were cold: "Beautiful? I can pass by. I am willing to go back to the time when I was not beautiful." This is true. She feels that she has a lot now, but her heart is empty.
Le Yushan didn't know what had happened to Fan Xixi: "The past was good and bad, but unfortunately no one can go back. Why do you throw away something you finally got? Everything has two sides. You once
What you saw might be the good side, but now you place too much emphasis on the bad side. Well, be more careful next time. A man like that is not easy to mess with!"
She listened thoughtfully. The past was good and bad, but unfortunately no one can go back...
"Who are you? What do you care about me?"
"I work in the kitchen of that bar, and I see you there almost every day... Good girls shouldn't go to that kind of place. You should go there less often!"
The rare caring tone made her smile lightly.
"What about you? Just go and work there, okay?"
Le Yushan was startled for a moment, then told the truth: "I am short of money. I need money..."
Seeing her embarrassment, Fan Xixi took the little girl back to her apartment. 33 Complained about her drinking, complained about her smoking, complained about her surrendering for a man who didn't love him, she was like a mother
The same nonsense. She found Le Yushan annoying, but she took it all in.
She began to get rid of those bad habits, corrected her evil habits, and found a job as a graphic model.
Then, after she learned about the situation at Le Yushan's family, she rented the apartment to Ye Zi and Manon. The money she received would be secretly sent to 33's hometown.
There was too much water in the pool, and it overflowed from the pool, soaking a large area of her clothes. Fan Xixi came back to her senses. When she took a closer look, she realized that a lot of water had flowed out, and the kitchen floor tiles were covered with water.
stains.
Ye Xuanmin was half drunk. Hearing the sound of water, he subconsciously walked into the kitchen.
But before he entered the kitchen, he saw large areas of water stains on the road. Fan Xixi stood by the pool like a child, with two tears on her face and the corners of her mouth raised slightly.
"Fan Xixi..." Ye Xuanmin frowned and asked.
"Ye Xuanmin, you love Yushan very much, right?" Fan Xixi quietly turned off the faucet.
Ye Xuanmin turned his face sideways, eyes averting his gaze.
"If you don't say anything, I'll take it as you admit it." Fan Xixi smiled lightly: "Actually, I suddenly realized that I was wrong to find you today. I want to advise you not to be sad or sad. I used to be better than you.
It’s a hundred times more depraved. You’re drinking, but I’m still smoking and playing with men..."
If she hadn't stood here recalling it, she thought she would have almost forgotten that heart-wrenching feeling.
Having love in your heart but not being able to be together is a kind of torture, the most painful torture. Laughing, forgetting, these words are so simple, but letting those who torture do it is harder than death. The pain in your heart is like
It was like millions of ants gnawing at me, and the pain was dense.
Ye Xuanmin listened to Fan Xixi's words, but froze on the spot.
His eyes fell on Fan Xixi. She had a resolute temperament that was rare among women. She had a bold personality and spoke directly. Although she was bright and charming, she was more like a chivalrous woman. He didn't dare to think,
You will hear such words from her mouth.
"You don't believe it?" Fan Xixi blinked her right eye and smiled.
If it weren't for the wet tears on her face, Ye Xuanmin would have thought that what she said was just a joke.
The smile on Fan Xixi's lips deepened: "I said, I used to have an average appearance and figure. Do you believe it?"
Ye Xuanmin was leaning against the door frame, his eyes fixed on Fan Xixi becoming more meaningful.
Fan Xixi shook her head and said half-jokingly: "Okay, just think I'm joking! You go and wash your clothes, and I'll cook a meal for you later. You want to drink, but I didn't order it."
How about some appetizers? If you don’t mind me being annoying, I see a few bottles of good wine in your wine cabinet. You won’t be stingy and mind if I drink it, right?”
Ye Xuanmin watched Fan Xixi make a 360-degree turn, and something strange flashed in his eyes.
He doesn't know why, but he thinks Fan Xixi is a person with a lot of stories...
You can smile so brightly, but the loneliness behind the smile is hidden very deep. If you don't look carefully, you can't see it at all.
"I don't mind. I have someone to drink with me. To be honest, I'm very happy..." Ye Xuanmin raised a smile on his lips, turned around and left the kitchen, walked to the bathroom, and went to wash clothes.
Fan Xixi looked at the water stains on the ground, picked up a rag, squatted on the ground, and wiped the water stains clean.
Time is the most beautiful poison in the world. It does not heal the wounds in people's hearts, but numbs the pain in people's hearts. After a long time, I thought I would forget it, that it would no longer hurt. When I woke up one day, I discovered this
The pain has not disappeared, it is just hidden in a corner of my heart. When the scar is uncovered, it will still hurt...
Deep affection can only return melancholy...
After wiping away the water stains on the floor, Fan Xixi stood up straight and washed all the pots, dishes, and chopsticks in the sink. She once thought that she would never touch these greasy things in her life, and would never do housework again.
.However, it was done.
Moreover, after being unfamiliar for a few minutes, I quickly became proficient.
After rummaging through the refrigerator for some available ingredients, Fan Xixi started cooking.