I threw away the cigarette in my hand, opened the car door and got in! I met Dong Hao twice, and this time I saw it most clearly. He gave me the impression that he was very mature and sophisticated, maybe because of his age. I turned my head
The car window asked, "What do you want from me?" I looked through the rearview mirror at the spot on my face that was injured by Dong Hao last night, and sighed deeply.
Dong Hao didn't answer me and drove into an alley. After stopping the car, Dong Hao didn't get out of the car in a hurry. He took out a cigarette, lit it and took a deep puff, then pointed at the residents outside the window.
Lou, said to me: "Lin Yan has been living here. He rented a single room. Get off the car and I will take you in to have a look!"
I couldn't understand what Dong Hao said. Facing him, I felt very guilty. I got out of the car and looked at the buildings on both sides of the alley. Most of them were rebuilt privately. I followed Dong Hao.
After entering and going up the stairs to the second floor, Dong Hao stopped at the door at the back. I watched him reach out and take out the key from his pocket. He seemed to hesitate, and the hand holding the key slightly moved.
He was trembling, and I knew he was very heartbroken. I sighed and turned my head to the side.
Dong Hao opened the door and called me: "Come in!"
Standing at the door of Lin Yan's room, she saw that the layout of Lin Yan's room looked so familiar. There was a single bed, a Sony laptop placed on the computer desk, a pot of cactus and a small iron cage.
There were two cute little hamsters inside, and there were several portraits of cartoon characters posted on the wall next to the bed. All the layouts in Lin Yan’s house were exactly the same as those in the Baldy Lotte KTV, and my eyes were blurred.
I took out a cigarette, lit it, took a puff, and leaned against the wall. Dong Hao sat beside the bed, watching him take off his glasses and rub them, took out a tissue and wiped his nose, and sighed deeply.
, "Do you know why I asked you to come here?"
I shook my head gently, "I don't know! I know it's hard for you. I know it was my fault that you lost the woman you loved most. I'm so ashamed, I'm so..."
"Stop talking!" Dong Hao interrupted me and sighed: "Actually, you don't know! I really love Lin Yan. I have fallen in love with her since she came to this city, but,
She has never agreed to my pursuit!"
"You're not her boyfriend?" I looked at him in surprise. I had thought about this result before, but Dong Hao's attitude changed my view.
Dong Hao smiled bitterly and said, "I'm not his boyfriend, but I love her more than anyone else. Isn't that enough?"
I continued to listen to what he said, feeling very uncomfortable in my heart. I suddenly remembered the last unfinished words Lin Yan said to me, and I felt sour.
Dong Hao stood up and took out a black notebook from the drawer of Lin Yan's computer desk, "I planned to clean up Lin Yan's room in the morning, but I found this under Lin Yan's pillow. I have read it all...
.." Dong Hao cried. He handed the notebook over to me and said with a choked voice: "This should belong to you!"
"Mine?" I took the notebook in surprise, and suddenly there was an inexplicable feeling in my mind, which was very depressing, confusing, and sad.
After taking this notebook, I suddenly didn't have the courage to open it. Dong Hao sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me. His eyes were red and he seemed very tired. I opened the first page of the notebook and the date on it was 6
It was on the 10th of March. By that time, Lin Yan had already left City Z.
"Morning! I don't know how to go in the future. I have no parents and no home. I don't know how to explain to you. I am very sad that it will end like this. I saw you from the hospital that day and knew that you were fine.
, I left. I hate your mother very much, but I can understand the love a mother has for her son, so I think I am too selfish, but I love you too! Don't blame your mother, okay?
"Seeing this, I felt so uncomfortable. The past events in the hospital came to my mind. I squatted down and leaned against the wall, rubbed my glasses and continued to look.
"I left you a note. I know you won't forgive me, and I can't forgive myself. Why do such a mean girl like me fall in love with you? Do you still remember that we had breakfast together at Lotte? Li Biao
I tell you, we only talk about money and not love! Chen! Thank you for your understanding and tolerance. We are destined to be together. Sooner or later we will experience such a day. The long-term pain is not as good as the short-term pain, so let us forget each other!"
Seeing this, I burst into tears. Dong Hao threw a cigarette at me, "Have a cigarette! It's okay for a man to cry, but you can't cry in front of another man!"
I wiped my tears, lit a cigarette and took two puffs. I looked at the second page, and the date on it was August 12th, "Today I thought of a friend of mine who works at Emgrand. Fortunately, there is a message on my phone.
I got her number, and some friends’ numbers were left on that phone card. I really regretted leaving that phone card. After chatting with her for a few words, she showed off something to me. She
He said that Dihao had gone to a handsome guy who was very good at fighting, and when he found out he was the son of Boss Liu, my heart trembled when my friend said this excitedly. My phone fell to the ground and broke.
A photo of , I was worried to death. I was afraid that I could only think about the shadow of morning in my mind. Fortunately, the memory card was intact. I printed out the photo and sandwiched it in my notebook. I hope to have one every night.
I can see you when I'm alone, no matter where I am, so I can feel safe and happy. At least there was a man who didn't care about my past, and I can live alone well because of this."
Seeing this, I quickly flipped through the next few pages, and sure enough I found the photo. I was sitting on the bald man's sofa, smoking a cigarette. I looked like a gangster. I don't know how Lin Yan took the photo.
Turning to the third page, the date was August 17th, "After leaving City Z, I came to City J without any relatives. Yes, I no longer have any relatives. Why should I sigh like this? When I am alone, I am left alone.
When I am alone, my heart is in tears; loneliness is just one person's sadness, and sadness is also my pain. That man changed the way I live, and because of his love, I also want to live well and live well.
Show my own splendor!”
After flipping through a few pages, they were all Lin Yan's diary of working hard in J City. It made me sad and burst into tears. During this period of time, Lin Yan had to think about that memory almost every day. I know she
Why are you avoiding me? Because she wants me to live a good life.
There is also a card tucked into one page of the notebook, which reads: "August 21st, my birthday. I miss my dead parents. I want to have a home of my own and someone to chat with me."
, he hugged me and slept until dawn. We all have pain that we don’t want to share with others, so I can only choose to hide it, choose to bear it alone, cry alone, grieve alone, and then slowly transform alone,
Gradually forget it, turn into memories, and no longer care about it. But after all, it is just one person's feeling. Except for your heartbeat, who will understand how much joy and how much sadness is in your story? Some stories don't need to be told to others.
Listen, no one else will understand some sadness except him. In fact, everyone’s life is somewhat bitter. I just want to be less sad and more happy! I also hope that you can be happy! As I write this, my heart
It was very uncomfortable, but I also told myself, happy birthday, Lin Yan!"
I closed the notebook and hugged it tightly to my chest. I tried hard to control my emotions. Dong Hao came over and patted me on the shoulder, "Lin Yan has always loved you, but you lost her!"
This can’t be blamed on anyone, it’s just because fate is so tricky! You can open the last page and take a look!”
I looked up at Dong Hao, and he smiled at me with tears in his eyes. I opened the last page of my notebook. There were only two simple sentences on it: "No matter where you are, I only hope that you can live strong, no matter what."
Wherever I am, I will always think of those days with you. You will always be a strong and confident man in my heart! If time can make me forget everything, then I hope it will be the day when I grow old."
Dong Hao packed up Lin Yan's notebook and handed it to me, "You take this with you too! The others are some clothes and daily necessities. I'll help her pack them up! There's one more thing!" Dong Hao said and took out Lin Yan's notebook.
She handed her cell phone to me and said, "Take this, too! There are some photos of herself in it. Don't interfere with the rest. I have already notified her uncle from far away. I don't think he will arrive until tomorrow. This will be better."
!”
"Her uncle?" I asked doubtfully.
Dong Hao sighed and said: "The only family member's number saved on Lin Yan's mobile phone! I called and asked, she only has such an uncle! I feel very sad when I know that something happened to Lin Yan!"
I put Lin Yan's cell phone in my pocket and looked at Lin Yan's room carefully, feeling as if she was right next to me watching me. I bit my lips lightly and sighed deeply, "Dong Hao! It's true.
Sorry! Let me know when the matter is done!"
"Hey! Wait a minute!" Dong Hao stopped me, "The police have retrieved the surveillance video of Luoyuan Road that night. The distance is too far and there is no reliable information! You really don't remember what model the car was.
?"
I shook my head, "All I know is that it doesn't have a registration plate, it's black, I don't remember what kind of car it is!"
After I finished speaking, I looked at Dong Hao and nodded to me and waved. After leaving Lin Yan's residence, I took a taxi on the side of the road. I held Lin Yan's computer and looked through the photos on Lin Yan's phone.
I couldn't calm down for a long time. Lin Yan left. The last words she said to me were what I wanted to say, "Actually, I have always loved you!"