After quietly recuperating for less than half a month, Li Luowei's gunshot wound has basically healed. However, in order to prevent sudden infection, he still needs to stay in the hospital for observation for a few days.
During the days she was hospitalized, Bei Mingye never came to visit her once. Li Luowei already hated this ruthless and cold-blooded man. She would be happier if he didn't come!
But Li Luowei may never know that the ruthless and cold-blooded man in her eyes would wait at the door of the ward until midnight every night.
In order to avoid irritating Li Luowei and delaying her recovery time, he would always peek through the cracks in the window like a thief, and would not leave until he was sure that she had fallen asleep peacefully. The man's tenderness and worry,
Li Luowei won't know, and of course Bei Mingye won't let her know either.
He would rather let her hate him than let her find out that he still loves her...
Most of the time, Li Luowei's ward is quite deserted.
Except for a few nurses who took turns taking care of her, and occasionally Lin Mo and Xu Xianrou came to see her, almost no one could hear anyone talking. In such lonely and quiet days, Li Luowei learned to read and write.
She read many books, novels, poems, songs, and essays, and finally fell hopelessly in love with Buddhist scriptures.
From the "Great Compassion Mantra" to the "Diamond Sutra" to "The Biography of Bodhi Kassapa" and finally "Nirvana", she was deeply immersed in it, feeling the great wisdom of Buddhism, realizing the unity of the vast world beyond the small self, and her state of mind.
It’s also quite open.
She became less sad and happy, her emotions were not as high and low as before, and the hatred for Bei Mingye in her heart was no longer so strong. Instead, she regarded him as a stranger and no longer had any feelings for him!
When she was hospitalized, Li Luowei begged the nurse to buy her a diary.
The kraft paper cover looked old and full of charm, and only she knew the four-digit password.
Open the diary and write down her daily thoughts and feelings. This is her own little world, where she can freely express her joys, anger, sorrows, love, hate, and hatred!
Today, the ward was as deserted as usual. Even the nurse went out due to shift change time. Only Li Luowei was left in the ward of Nuo University.
Of course, women are also happy to be quiet.
She lay face down, took out the diary from under the pillow, entered the password to open it, then bit the pen tip with her teeth, and wrote down her feelings one stroke at a time, with an expression so focused that she was almost isolated from the world.
"March 19, sunny.
The gunshot wound on my back should have started to scab. It was very itchy and I always wanted to reach out to scratch it. The nurse refused, saying that it was for fear of infection and leaving an even more ugly scar. I thought that even if I didn't do anything, the scar on my back would be scarred.
Destined to follow me for the rest of my life! When I was reading Buddhist scriptures today, there was a saying that "letting go means perfection." I think I have let go of that person! When I no longer have hatred in my heart, having fulfilled him,
It also fulfilled myself..."
Li Luowei's thoughts were wandering in the vast realm of Buddhist numerology, and she had no idea when the door to the ward opened or when the man standing in front of her appeared!
In front of the hospital bed, a handsome man held a bouquet of delicate roses in his hand and stood silently, as if he were a transparent person without saying a word. He just looked at Li Luowei's focused look and couldn't bear to disturb her.
Finally, Li Luowei finished writing her feelings for the day. The moment she closed the diary, she caught sight of the tall, cold figure in front of the hospital bed and was startled.
"ah!!"
The man standing solemnly in front of her was the man Li Luowei thought she would never see again.
"Mo Yihan!!"
Li Luowei shouted unexpectedly. She stroked her chest and said in disbelief: "How did you know I'm here?"
Didn't she make an agreement with him that they would never see each other again? Why was he still so stubborn? Why wouldn't he let her go and give him a way out?
"As long as I want to know, there is nothing I can't know."
Mo Yihan's tone was calm, but he was as arrogant and domineering as Bei Mingye.
The way he looked at Li Luowei was affectionate and focused, but also possessive, as if he was continuously applying high-intensity voltage, making Li Luowei extremely uncomfortable.
"This is for you. I hope you will recover soon!"
Mo Yihan handed the bouquet of roses in his arms to Li Luowei. The roses were delicate and charming, exuding an intoxicating fragrance. Unfortunately, they were incompatible with Li Luowei.
"Thank...thank you!"
Li Luowei nodded uncomfortably towards Mo Yihan.
After all, people have good intentions, and she can never reject them thousands of miles away and make them unable to come to Taiwan!
"I'll plug it in for you!"
Mo Yihan was extremely relaxed and at ease, as if he was the owner here. He threw away the lilies placed on the bedside, filled the crystal vase with water, and slowly inserted the roses one by one.
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He sat beside Li Luowei's bed, like a professional Japanese flower arranger, placing each flower with great care.
"I'm worried about you these days!"
Mo Yihan held a blooming rose in front of Ying Ting's nose and smelled it, then said in a very casual tone.
Li Luowei looked up at him, his handsome face looked more mature and tired.
She didn't know if the tiredness on his brows was because of her?
She thought she didn't have that much influence!
"Don't be like this. I made it very clear that day. It's impossible for you and I to do this!"
Although her body was very weak, her tone was so firm that there was no room for negotiation.
Cut the knot with a sharp knife and cut off his love for her. It will be good for both parties!
"I know, but what does it matter? I don't care at all!"
Mo Yihan smiled to himself and looked at the roses in his hands intently, as if he didn't take Li Luowei's ruthless rejection to heart.
"and you......"
"Don't be so nervous! I just miss you and want to come and see how you are...I know we can't be together, but this doesn't stop me from missing you or liking you?"
His words are more self-deceiving than his smile.
Li Luowei didn't even know what to say.
"Don't worry, I'll leave as soon as I finish arranging the flowers. I won't cause you any trouble."
"That's not what I meant. Don't get me wrong. I just hope you won't waste your time on me. It's not worth it!"
Li Luowei explained to Mo Yihan with some excitement that what she disliked most in her life was being misunderstood by others, let alone Mo Yihan?
But her explanation was so unconvincing, which made Mo Yihan even more determined.
"How can it be a waste of time to do something you like?"
After Mo Yihan finished speaking, he stopped talking and focused on the arrangement of flowers. The author was wandering around the book review area and went to watch!