The moment she entered the operating room, Jian Ying's mood was extremely complicated, too complicated to be described in words. It was like a heartbreaking feeling.
Lying on the operating bed, looking at the complicated ceiling, he raised the corners of his mouth slightly and smiled bitterly, "Baby, I'm sorry! Mommy can't stay. It's all Mommy's fault. If Mommy didn't go to play, she shouldn't have played.
In this game, there wouldn’t be you, let alone let you try that kind of pain.”
Close your eyes...
She seemed to be able to feel how cruelly the doctor used forceps to remove the child in her belly bit by bit. The pain really cut into her heart.
His hands squeezed the sheets tightly, and cold sweat broke out all over his body.
The nurse looked at her worriedly and said, "How about I give you a dose of anesthetic. It will really hurt. If you faint, it will be very troublesome."
Jian Ying bit her lower lip and shook her head insistently. It was a kind of punishment for herself. Because of her willfulness, the baby suffered such pain, so only by paining with it would she feel better.
I will remember this pain forever.
She really felt that she was particularly dirty, a kind of filth and despicable that could not be described in words.
After experiencing a long period of pain, when she came out of the operating room with a pale face, she saw the worry of the whole family. She tried her best to raise the corners of her mouth and smiled slightly, "I'm fine, don't worry. Go back and rest."
Shang Xinyan continued, "Yes, I will take care of my sister-in-law. You go back and rest."
Everyone knew that staying here would only make her mentally more stressed. They nodded calmly and turned around to leave. When they arrived at the ward, Shang Xinyan caressed her wound distressedly, with a bitter smile on her lips, "Sister-in-law, you are really a
Persistent woman, all your actions shock me."
When she found out that Jian Ying had not accepted the troublesome abortion, she felt like she was going to faint. What a strong woman she was. How many legends could she create?
No one knows...
The smile on Jian Ying's lips deepened, "Xinyan, everyone has to pay for the wrong things they have done, and I am no exception, so it's okay. This is the retribution I deserve."
"Sister-in-law! This has nothing to do with you at all. You have the right to make your own choices, why do you torture yourself so pervertedly? Why!?" Shang Xinyan grabbed her voice out of control and asked loudly.
Jian Ying's long and fine eyelashes slowly drooped, and the sadness and pain in her eyes disappeared. She finally said word by word: "I am a wife, but I am having sex with another man. I am a mother, but I am sleeping with another man."
And cruelly strangled a life. I supported a family, but I didn't set an example. Instead, I took the lead in doing things that insulted the family's reputation. If it were in ancient times, I should have been cut into pieces long ago."
Shang Xinyan closed her eyes deeply, tears rolling down silently. She really couldn't pronounce the words anymore, and there was no way to persuade her to continue. Her persistence could only stop her.
With trembling hands, he pressed the quilt for her, "Well, I understand, I understand too. Rest for a while. Your body is very weak now. If something happens to you, I will really feel sorry for this family and your children."
.Understand?"
"Um."
Jian Ying obediently closed her eyes, as if she was asleep, but also as if she was not asleep. Although her eyes were closed, her brain was awake. Even after a long time, she only entered a state of light sleep.
……Dividing line……
Snapped!
The exquisite bone china water cup in Shang Tianlie's hand fell to the ground, and the coffee inside spilled all over the carpet. Shang Xinyan pouted her red lips, "Brother, you really want to play, can you take good measures? My sister-in-law is really surrounded by enemies on all sides now. I’m going crazy from being tortured.”
Shang Tianlie looked at Shang Xinyan apologetically, "Is she okay?"
"That's not good! During the abortion, she asked the doctor not to give anesthesia, saying that everyone should be responsible for the mistakes they committed. She was punishing herself and wanted to torture herself to death." Shang Xinyan was really upset. She was angry and depressed. She couldn't figure out which evil spirit spread this incident outside and made Jian Ying so miserable now.
After hearing this, Shang Tianlie's face darkened, and he clenched his hands tightly into fists, his anger almost tearing him apart.
Shang Xinyan looked at Shang Tianlie who was silent and coughed lightly, "Brother, don't go to her recently. She asked me to tell you that you should stop here. You have no chance in this life, so you can continue in the next life."
After hearing this, Shang Tianlie suddenly raised his head and looked at Shang Xinyan, holding her shoulders excitedly, "She is really so heartless and really wants to break up with me. Why is she so persistent and must she torture herself like this?" "
Shang Xinyan pinched her until it hurt. She twisted her slender eyebrows and said, "Brother, you pinched me so much that it hurts. You said that sister-in-law is persistent, but in fact you are just as persistent. You are right to let go at this time. If you don't If we continue to be entangled like this, it will only make my sister-in-law fall into deeper pain!"
yes!
Why is he so selfish?
he loves her.
You just want her to be well, don't you?
Now because he has caused her to suffer unprecedented harm in disguised form. What right does he have to let her stay or even continue to pester her? He should only do something that he should be able to do for her.
Shang Tianlie slowly let go of his hand, sat down slumped, and said in a deep voice: "Okay, you are right, if I keep pestering her like this, it will only make her more painful. Well, I understand. What I should do ,I will continue to do..."
Shang Xinyan looked at it and felt very uncomfortable. Two people who clearly loved each other couldn't be together because of worldly prejudices and were suffering from pain. They even had to abort their child.
It's like cutting out your own heart.
With slightly trembling fingers, he took out a letter from his pocket and handed it to Shang Tianlie, "This is from my sister-in-law. It's getting late and I should go back. Brother, take care."
Shang Tian snorted and took the letter, but for a long time he didn't have the courage to open it to see what she had written. He left it on the coffee table for a long time, picked it up again, and put it down again...
After struggling for a while, I opened the letter tremblingly, and her beautiful handwriting appeared in front of my eyes. Every word was filled with her sincerity and all her bitter tears.
The weather is fierce.
Maybe this is the first time I've called you like this. I've always wanted to call you like this, but I didn't have the courage. I've been escaping, never dared to face it, and finally fell in regardless of the consequences.
honestly.
Thank you very much for everything you have done for me.
Thanks……
However, at this moment, I ask you to forget me. Forget the widow named Jian Ying, because she has too many burdens and responsibilities, so she cannot fully pursue a game of love with you.
hehe……
Life is like that.
You came neither early nor late, but just when I was most frustrated, you broke into my life, causing waves, entanglements, twists and turns, plundering, and forced sex. In the end, our bad relationship was endless.
The endless consequences are irreversible disaster.
I am not a woman who is afraid of being laughed at, but I am not qualified to bring shame to the Ling family, nor am I qualified to act wantonly in terms of family tolerance.
so……
Please understand.
Feel sorry.
I can't accompany you through what you call half of your life.
But I believe that you won't only have half of it, you will have a whole life. Even if we trade our love, I am willing to do so.
The weather is fierce.
After all, we are not destined to be together, so don’t force me to be so selfish and self-reliant, just thinking about Ling Chen, because I really can’t say I love you in front of his soul!
Not to mention leaving behind the entire family and everything he had during his lifetime. Because he died for me, I have fallen in love with you even more shamelessly, and even betrayed him physically!
this moment.
Allow me, a dirty and shameless woman, to let go, okay?
See here...
Shang Tianlie's body shook uncontrollably, and he was in so much pain, a kind of grief that could not be described in words. He covered his face with his hands, tears mottled the writing, and enchanting flowers bloomed. It was like blooming in
There is a strong temptation between her beautiful collarbones.
He spread out the crumpled piece of paper and read it intermittently.
The weather is fierce.
There will be a woman in this world who is suitable for you. Forget about people like me and let go. It's not worth it. Your wonderful achievements should not be wasted on a woman like me.
Say goodbye to this...
goodbye.
However...
Allow me to say one more thing: Get the surgery, maybe a miracle will happen. Really.
…
The words behind it were blurred. Shang Tianlie leaned back and looked at the complicated and beautiful ceiling, with a strong bitterness at the corner of his mouth, and the paper in his hand fell.
The wind blows.
The piece of paper was spinning on the ground several times, as if it was making a final struggle on its deathbed.
The door opened. The paper was stuck on Lin Shuhui's feet. She was stunned for a moment, looking at Shang Tianlie in the living room, and then at the paper on the ground, as if she understood what had happened.
Bend down, slowly picked up the paper on the ground, read it word for word, and closed her eyes heavily. She was already a tragedy, but in the end she created another tragedy in disguise. How cruel is she?
Shang Tianlie heard the footsteps and knew that Lin Shuhui was back. He turned his head and went upstairs. He said calmly: "I still have something to do, so you don't need to call me for dinner."
Lin Shuhui wanted to say something, but she only saw his slightly curved back, full of sorrow and vicissitudes, and everything was choked in her throat.
Sitting on the sofa with difficulty, I simply pieced together the letters, and finally pressed my temples and said: Son, Mom is really sorry for you...
Maybe it would be better to communicate secretly like that. Isn't it? As long as the son is happy and happy.
After thinking about this, her cell phone rang suddenly. She looked at the call, her face was slightly cold, she got up and said to the servant: "I won't be eating at home tonight, so there is no need to cook dinner."
"Okay. Madam."
Lin Shuhui walked out of the villa and then pressed the answer button, "Now you are satisfied, your goal has been achieved!?"