Maybe loving someone means letting go of her hand when she is happy and holding her hand when she is in pain.
After a deep sleep, Zinge woke up again and found that she was sleeping in her bedroom. She rubbed her sleepy eyes, arranged her somewhat messy hair, and remembered that she was sitting alone on the bench last night.
, then William came, they talked a lot, and then she fell asleep, and she had no idea what happened after she fell asleep.
She didn’t know how she came back, or what happened last night, but she looked down and saw that her clothes were intact, but her coat was neatly placed on the bedside. Nothing should have happened. Besides, William was not taking advantage of anyone.
dangerous person.
She walked into the bathroom, took a shower, changed into clean clothes, and sat in front of the dressing table to dry her hair. However, her mind unconsciously recalled the scene where she helped Du Liaochen dry her hair. She frowned slightly and looked at the mirror intently.
I am in the middle of it. Why do I keep thinking of a lot of things related to Du Caochen in my mind recently for no reason, as if I am surrounding Du Caochen every day.
She shook her head to get rid of this strange feeling, and turned the hair dryer to maximum power as if to escape. Amidst the buzzing sound, she forced herself not to think about it, and finally rushed out of the room and went to the garden, taking advantage of the morning light.
Blowing up the nectar, it slowly started to spread in the garden.
The air in the morning was so fresh. Occasionally, there would be a small breeze blowing in my face. The soft and wet lawn was stepping on the ground, which was very comfortable. Without realizing it, Qingge walked to the place where Su Li took her last time.
.
As soon as he got closer, he saw a familiar figure. In the drunken morning light, Su Li elegantly held a cup of coffee with his back to Qingge. He only wore a clean white shirt, ironed without a trace of wrinkles.
He is a serious and meticulous person. His figure is slightly thinner than Du Yuochen's, but he is not the kind of frail scholar. The healthy muscles of his back are displayed in front of Qingge through his white shirt.
Qingge secretly stuck out her tongue and her face felt a little hot unconsciously. Why was she such a nymphomaniac? She cursed herself secretly.
Xu Qingge's arrival alarmed Su Li. He turned around slightly, his chiseled profile half-hidden in the halo. He looked at Qingge standing behind him and smiled naturally, a heart-stirring smile. His lips
Slightly open, the beautiful eyes are slightly raised, pulling the soft lines of the face.
"So early? Come and sit." He opened his mouth and invited Qingge, who was standing behind him, to sit with him.
Qingge moved and sat on the wooden chair opposite him: "Good morning!" She said hello.
"How's it going? Is your body recovering well recently?" Su Li took a sip of coffee and said calmly. They were sitting face to face like this, and he was a little nervous and at a loss. He didn't know what to say.
If you are wrong, you will not cause trouble and burden to her.
Since it is destined to be fruitless, why should he persevere? He can just watch her happiness from a distance!
The doctor once suggested that Qinge undergo a small plastic surgery for the scar on her back. The scar was ugly and lingering on her back. Although some new flesh had grown, it could not be healed in a day or two.
Su Li also talked about this matter with Du Jiaochen. Du Jiaochen just said that if Qingge didn't want to, let her go, so he didn't insist anymore.
"It's almost fine, but the wound on the waist is quite deep. The doctor said it may leave scars." She always said this calmly, as if she was not talking about her own body, but someone else's that was injured.
Maybe she just doesn't care about her appearance as much as other women; maybe the wounds on her body can be healed, but it's hard to heal in her heart. He still remembers that when she was first rescued by Chen, she had to calm down every night
Even if I take the drug, I will be woken up by nightmares in the middle of the night and keep gibbering.
"What else do you want to do here, eat, play, as long as it doesn't go too far, I can satisfy you." Su Li said half-jokingly. As long as she has any other wishes, she will say it and he will do his best to satisfy her.
, this can also be regarded as his last bit of fulfillment for her, because the person who can fulfill her in the future is destined not to be him.
"There's nothing I want to eat or do. It's great to be here. I haven't been abroad before. It turns out that foreign countries are like this. It's great!"
"Since you like her so much, have you ever thought about staying?" Even though he knew this was impossible, Su Li couldn't help but ask.
Qingge took the lavender he had just picked on the road, put it on the tip of his nose and sniffed it gently, with an expression of enjoyment, but did not smile.
"You'd better not stay. If Chen finds out, he'll have to lift the roof of my house." Su Li joked, easing the dull atmosphere just now.
"What an exaggeration. You are so rich, you can just lift it and build it again." Qingge also gradually relaxed, joking with Su Li in a relaxed atmosphere.
Why does everyone say that Du Liaochen cares about her, but she can't feel it herself.
"Hehe, hehe." Su Li's hearty laughter sounded particularly pleasant in the early morning light.
"I fell asleep last night, has Chen come back?" Zinge asked. She was actually worried that if he came back yesterday and saw her sleeping on William's shoulder, he would definitely get angry again, and he might be unlucky then.
Not only is she the only one, William will also be harmed by her.
Just like the last time they just played the piano together, and he saw him treating her like that, even now I still get scared when I think of his cruelty that day. If I saw them leaning together last night, they might have done something.
.That man's possessiveness is too strong. Unless he discards his things himself, he will never allow others to get their hands on them.
"He called back and said that the company had something to do and he wouldn't be coming back." Chen heard that he was talking about a big project in the past few days and was so busy that he couldn't see the end of it. Yesterday, even though he had promised to come back, the company
There was an impromptu meeting, and it was already early in the morning after the meeting, so I rested in the company. Finally, I didn't forget to remind myself that Qingge would drink tonic soup for dinner.
I was also surprised that this busy man, who usually didn't pay attention to anything, actually called him to remind him and asked him to watch a woman drinking soup. He had never been like this.
never seen it.
Qingge felt a little relieved and seemed relieved. Fortunately, her worries were unnecessary: "That's good, that's good." She secretly rejoiced.
"Did something happen between you and Chen?" Su Li asked cautiously, for fear of touching her wounds. He also generally knew what happened between them. If he forced her to stay with him, she would
Feel happy?
What a domineering and crazy person Chen is, from the initial encounter, to possession, to injury, and finally to love and protection in the end. Therefore, it is inevitable that the soul is ups and downs, restless, and struggling.
He doesn't know how to love, and she doesn't know how to accept love.
The hurt between them is inevitable, his injury, her injury, no one can tell who hurt whom, and who became whose obsession.
"How could it be? I haven't seen him recently." Qingge was a little annoyed. Indeed, it had been almost a week since the last masquerade. She hadn't seen Du Yuchen. Sunday was coming soon. She didn't know that she was originally scheduled to return to S. Is there any change in the city's plan? She really wants to go back and miss her mother.
Also, Shen Yake, he and Ling Mei should be getting married. During this time in Provence, she deliberately did not watch TV or read newspapers, just because she was afraid that one day she would accidentally see them wearing wedding dresses and leaning together happily. .She thought her heart would hurt at that time!
Now that she is about to return to City S, she will eventually have to face what she doesn't want to face, and she has to learn to accept what she doesn't have the courage to accept. She is just a little nostalgic, a little reluctant to let go, and longs for their simple but sweet and stable one year.
Is it a habit? Is it reluctance? Is it gratitude? But this is not love, right? Qingge asked himself secretly.
"How much do you know about Chen?" Su Li continued to ask.
Qingge just shook his head: "To be honest, I don't know him very well." The time she spent with him was neither long nor short, and they were entangled intermittently until now. She really couldn't understand him, and he was sometimes gentle. You have to pamper her to heaven, and sometimes you send her to hell in a violent way.
Su Li suddenly became serious. He looked directly into her dark eyes and said, "Chen is a very insecure person. Don't look at how easily he can control other people's lives and deaths. In fact, he is lonelier than anyone else. Duo. Ever since I was young, I have dared not trust anyone except the three of us. Sitting in his position, do you know what the price will be if you trust others? If you die, you will not only die, but also your relatives and brothers around you. .”
"Chen's father was assassinated when he was a child just because he believed others' words. At that time, he lived in fear of being hunted down every day. He didn't know when he died in his sleep because of his carelessness. I’ll never wake up again.”
"But one morning, I saw you sleeping peacefully on Chen's bed, seeing him breathing evenly while lying next to you, and seeing him smiling softly at you after waking up, even though you were still immersed in But I saw it in my dream, saw a different side of Chen, and I knew that someone who could untie the knot in his heart had appeared."
Su Li ignored the stunned Qingge and said to himself: "He may have hurt you, or he may have used despicable means to force you to stay with him, but what I see is that he hurts you every time. In the end, he suffered more than anyone else and regretted it. Once he encounters something related to you, he will no longer be the calm Du Qiaochen."
"What are you talking about? I don't want to hear it, and I don't want to hear it anymore." Qingge stood up a little excitedly, as if someone had peeked into the thing she didn't want to face the most in her heart. So she began to escape and started to act like an ostrich, thinking By burying your head in the sand, you don't have to look, listen, or face.
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