Part Four Chapter Thirty-Eight Goodbye Maybe Still Friends
Am I wrong?
Am I really wrong?
Is it wrong to be devoted to Han Luoyin?
Yes! He is no longer here, but...
I can't forget the vow I made to him and will never betray him for the rest of my life!!
Maybe……
It’s because I’m really too stubborn, I can’t get around the twists and turns, and I can’t figure things out. Yun Junche is obviously by my side and treats me so well, but why can’t I get over it and accept him?!
Pretending to erect a chastity arch to show my steadfastness? Or do I really not love him?
I can't tell the difference, I can't figure it out. Since Han Luoyin is no longer with me, I feel that my heart has been hollowed out and I don't know what it is...
"Dong-----dong-----dong" "Mengmeng..."
Seeing Yun Junche enter, I quickly wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes and stood up from the corner of the bed in a hurry: "I'm fine, let's go out to eat..."
When I passed by him, he grabbed my arm: "Hey! Mengmeng, you don't have to force yourself and think too much, you know? As long as you are happy!!!"
“Just be happy??”
"Yes, just be happy!"
He quickly turned around and looked at Yun Junche's impatient expression with confusion. I didn't understand what mood he was in when he said this???
"How can I be happy? My happiness is all based on the pain of others. How can you make me happy?" The tears couldn't stop falling. Ming was right, I was really too selfish.
Although I don’t know what excessive things I did in my previous life, I have indeed done too many wrong things in this life...
"It doesn't matter, Mengmeng, it doesn't matter..." Yun Junche forced out a smile, caressed my cheek with his trembling hands, and begged: "You don't have to consider others, as long as you are happy, no matter what... we don't care.
It doesn’t matter…”
He slowly closed his eyes and swallowed the sour tears.
One drop...
Two drops...
Ah……
My pain at the moment must be less than one-third of Yun Junche's, right?
Why did I meet such a good man?!
Why have I never looked at such a good man?
if……
From the very beginning, I loved him. What will happen now?
Haha, it's a pity that it's too late, time can't be turned back, just like Han Luoyin can't come back from the dead.
What I love is Gin, not Toru. This is a fact that cannot be changed in my life!
so……
"Che..." I opened my hands and took his big hand that caressed my cheek. It was so gentle and warm...
Unfortunately……
"Just help me, okay? Leave...my side and go find your happiness! We...can't do it in our lifetime..."
"Dream...dream..."
For a moment, time seemed to stand still, all the memories of the past were gradually blurring, the color photos were gradually fading, and the distance between Yun Junche and I became farther and farther, until...
Completely divided...
He didn't speak, didn't reject my request, and didn't push me hard. Instead, he held me tightly, all night long, until dawn, and I could no longer find him...
Perhaps, from this moment on, he Yun Junche will officially fade from my memory...
I can't tell right from wrong. I just know that I can't open my heart now. If I keep binding him, it may be a pain for me and him.
Choose his freedom, maybe next time we meet, we will still be friends...