They can live happily and enjoy the future happily, but I am destined to be alone all my life.
Because I am...a carrier of the AIDS virus.
From the moment I was born, God has destined my fate. I often ask myself, should I continue to live? Or should I just find a place to end my life?
Looking at my mother who is lying in bed, I don't know how to feel about her. Why does she not love herself so much? She is the one who makes me look down upon by the world.
However, when I learned the truth, I realized how difficult it was for my mother...
A few years ago, my mother fell in love with a man. After the man cheated her, he abandoned her. My mother wanted to die, but she got pregnant with me. In order to raise me, she had to work as a prostitute.
D, daughter, can only support me by selling herself.
Ha... When I learned all this, my hostility towards my mother subsided. On the contrary, I hated the man who deceived my mother's feelings.
I hate him!
But I also know that it’s useless even if I hate him, I won’t know who he is and I won’t find him!
However, for my mother, I want to live and live well.
I remember that when I was a child in kindergarten, the children would sit and play games together, and I would look at the children playing together. I wanted to blend in with them, but they would not play with me because... I carry germs that everyone is afraid of.
"Eto'o." A Chinese girl walked up to me, with a gentle smile on her young face: "Do you want to play together?"
Want to play together?
I was really eager to play games with them, but looking at the incredible looks from the girls around me, I knew that if I played with her, everyone might alienate her, right?
He shook his head and turned around coolly: "No, you can play by yourself."
In the next few days, the girl kept coming to play with me, and I would reject her invitation every time. After that, she never came to see me again...
Instead, I felt lonely.
"Eto'o, let's play games together, okay?"
A month later, she found me again. The kindergarten was very quiet at that time, it was just her and me, and I could no longer pretend to be cool, so I agreed to her invitation: "Okay."
She smiled, and the smile on her young face was so sweet. Her sincere smile, I will never forget it in my life...
In the quiet kindergarten, she and I played a game that everyone often plays. The name of the game is "Yi Guang". One person stands on the spot and counts from one to ten, and then the other one hides.
Within ten seconds, if one party is caught by the other party, then the person who was caught must kiss the person who caught him.
It's this kind of punishment game that makes them not play with me.
In fact, you won't be infected with germs through kissing, but they are still afraid.
"One...two...three...ten." I was the one who caught the person. When I counted to ten, I turned around and saw her standing behind me: "I caught you."
It was my first time to play this kind of game, and I was so excited that I didn’t even worry about why she didn’t even hide and just let me catch her.
"Eto'o, I lost." Her sweet smile turned into a sad smile.
At that time, I naively thought that she was probably afraid of kissing me, so she showed such an expression: "Okay, I won't punish you."
She said nothing and stood quietly aside.
"I already said, I won't punish you anymore, you don't have to be afraid."
"Eto'o." She stopped me, smiled sadly, and held my hand: "I'm leaving."
When I heard this, I felt reluctant and disappointed for some reason. But unfortunately, I didn't keep her, nor did I ask her when she would come to play with me again. I nodded coolly: "Oh."
No nostalgia whatsoever.
"Eto'o, remember to be happy in the future. Maybe everyone will dislike you, but there will still be people in this world who don't mind your physical condition." She finished speaking lightly, and her soft lips quickly fell on mine.
On the lips, he turned around and disappeared before my eyes...
I was stunned, as if I had been tapped on an acupuncture point. I raised my hand and touched my lips gently. It was the first time! The first time someone dared to kiss me, telling me that there are people in the world who do not dislike me.
That day, I was so happy, unprecedentedly happy, and suddenly I was full of fantasies about kindergarten. I ran to the kindergarten very early the next morning, but unfortunately...she didn't come!
one day……
Ten days…
a month...
That sweet girl seemed to have disappeared and never appeared before my eyes.
"Teacher, is there someone missing from our class?"
This was the first time I talked to the kindergarten teacher. She smiled slightly and nodded: "You mean Ling Yiyun, right? She has returned to China, so she will not come to our kindergarten again."
Her name turned out to be Ling Yiyun, and she just left and disappeared from my eyes.
However, the kiss she gave me before she left gave me a little hope for the world...
Eto'o was brought to Japan by Yun Junche and Ai Mengmeng. He was always naughty and always quarreled with his classmates.
It was routine to invite parents once every three days and punish him every ten days. He didn't care at all, because the Japanese school where he lived had no love, no one who could tolerate and accept him.
It wasn't until Yun Junche came to this school as a teacher that he restrained himself a little and started to study seriously.
Despite this, he was still in constant trouble. Although Yun Junche, his older brother, treated him harshly, he also loved him very much and would protect his shortcomings whenever he could. No matter how much trouble he got into, Yun Junche was still responsible for it.
Until that day comes...
"Dear classmates, a new student has transferred to our class. Her name is Ling Yiyun."
Eto'o smiled... he smiled from the bottom of his heart. The innocent dream of childhood can continue at this moment...
Looking at the girl standing in front of him, he could never forget her watery eyes!
"Hello everyone, I am a transfer student. I hope you will take good care of me."
Ling Yiyun's sweet smile reflected in Eto'o's eyes. He stood up as if he was distracted and walked slowly towards Ling Yiyun.
This move stunned the entire class and Yun Junche, but the subsequent actions made everyone even more stunned...
"Hello, my name is Eto'o. I hope you can play with me in the future."
Having said that, Eto'o showed a charming smile, and Ling Yiyun's twinkling eyes also curved into a crescent shape...