When you are at a low point in your life, even if you say "Don't think too much, cheer up" to yourself hundreds of times a day, you may not be able to get through it.
For example, this month, I drank more than 60 pots of medicine twice a day, morning and evening. Dr. Gao was afraid that I would not think too well and it would affect the curative effect, so he did not think too much about it himself and just gave me the introduction to the medicine.
Li added a lot of new materials and claimed that he would do his best to cure me before his old bones were on the verge of falling apart!
However, those new ingredients are comparable to gall. You can spit out the potion of decoction after just one sip, which is really fatal!
But looking at Dr. Gao's sincere and harmless old face, I had no choice but to dispel any doubts like "Is he trying to kill me?"
Do you want to drink it? Or do you want to pour it out? That is simply a fantasy and is impossible to do!
Because every time I came with the decoction, there was the current saint Fu Donglou who was the most ruthless to me. As a result, when I saw him later, I would reflexively start to feel stomach discomfort...
I thought that the reason why no new heirs were born in the harem in the past few years was because the emperor had been busy with government affairs and did not even have enough time to spread his kindness. However, after observing this period, I feel that Fu Donglou is
The emperor was in a very relaxed mood - because the medicine was too bitter, I asked the round-faced palace maid to bring me rock candy, but it was Fu Donglou who finally brought me rock candy. At that time, he was still serious
Di said to me: "I have monopolized all the rock candies in the palace just now. If you are good, I will reward you."
As soon as I heard these words that hurt my heart, lungs, liver, and intestines, the bitterness in my mouth increased by 90%. After more or less frowning and hesitating for a moment, I put aside my remaining self-esteem.
, stretch out your hand...
I am usually the most afraid of hardship, but after tasting such a little bit of sweetness, I felt like I was addicted, and I became even more eager for sweetness!
I raised my head and glared at him. Although my tone was unfriendly, my words were truly ecstatic, "More!"
Fu Donglou seemed to tilt his lips, but still maintained his imperial posture, "I, I hope you can resist the temptation..."
I don’t know whether it refers to the candy or to him, but after hearing this, my eyebrows furrowed even deeper.
…
From that day on, Fu Donglou developed this appetizing quirk, which is called the idea that everything must be rewarded after hardship. I think he was obviously looking for fun for himself.
Today, Fu Donglou arrived again in a grand manner. After watching me drink the medicine, he sat beside my bed and said, "If you had been so obedient earlier, I would have saved a lot of worry. Here,
Reward you."
While speaking, he opened his palm to me. Not surprisingly, there was another rock candy placed on the white palm, no more, no less, just one.
I felt like a dog being rewarded by its owner. I felt very helpless, frustrated, and extremely broken.
I lowered my eyes and thought for a long time, and finally raised my eyes to look at him again, "I have recovered well. When can I leave the palace?"
"When I feel that your heart disease has been cured, I will let you leave the palace." His voice began to cool down.
I bit my lip, feeling like I was wading through muddy pond water. I saw the smelly fish and rotten shrimps rolling up on the bottom of the pond wrapped in mud, but there was nothing I could do to calm it down. Because my heart ailment was him...
Being a fake is already very miserable. If I am used as a chess piece again, I am really afraid of the future.
I didn't eat the rock candy, and Fu Donglou didn't say anything more to me, so we parted on bad terms. It didn't seem right to say that. After all, we had never had fun. I had never shown a sincere smile to him before. Now,
Not even a fake smile was given.
It was easy for me to eat well, drink medicine, chew and swallow, but digestion was too difficult.
During these days of illness, Fu Donglou ordered that no one should come to disturb my purity. This time I mentioned that I wanted to leave the palace. Perhaps he thought that I was bored in the palace, so he withdrew the order.
I thought the first person to come to see me would be the Queen Mother or the Prince, but I didn’t expect that I would be surrounded by a group of concubines from the harem first - "My dear, you make everyone feel so sad. Why are you suddenly ill?"
Where is it?"
"Yeah, you're not always very strong, so how could a cold wind knock you down? Even though you have been recovering for a few days, your little face is still pale now!"
"The Emperor specially asked Eunuch Wu to send a message, saying that you have just recovered from a serious illness but are still worried. He asked the ladies from all the palaces to come and talk to you and help you untie your knot..."
"Xingan's eyebrows are indeed very sad. Is there really a knot in his heart that is difficult to resolve?"
"You must have missed me. Missing is like this. Everything makes people feel sad. It must be that even the general has gone on an expedition, and his heart has become sick with longing. It is written like this in the playbook. It says, 'Lovesickness is the most painful thing.'
Dao', look at our heart, it's been cut away a lot!"
"Hey... you are really an infatuated girl. But don't worry, we will report to the emperor when we get back today, saying that you are frowning because you miss General Lian. When the Emperor understands, maybe we can get General Lian to come back earlier and be with you.
See you."
…
As expected, she was a married woman, so her thinking was really broad. Before I even said a word, they had already diagnosed me as suffering from lovesickness. This made Dr. Gao Tai, who had worked so hard to research new prescriptions for me, feel so embarrassed.
I pinched my forehead a little tiredly and said, "I can't thank you enough for caring so much, ahem!"
This cough was because I had not spoken for a long time and accidentally choked on my own saliva... But when they heard it, they slapped me on the back again and handed me water to stuff my handkerchief with. Finally, before leaving, they said to me with sympathy and understanding.
: "Don't worry anymore. Lovers will eventually get married, and even the general will return safely and victoriously. All you have to do now is take good care of yourself and wait until you get married."
The moon just hung on the branches, and all the concubines destroyed my head like locusts. The locusts dispersed, and I looked at the night scene outside the window and sighed deeply.
"I didn't expect you to be a very affectionate person." Fu Donglou's voice sounded abrupt and cold in the quiet hall.
It was as if a pile of broken ice had splashed on my heart. It was difficult for me to understand whether this was praise or humiliation.
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