If I had been willing to look at people with my heart rather than with my eyes, I would have figured out the outline of the story and the details by now.
Unfortunately, it was too late. I realized that my mind was full of mush at this moment. I was at a loss. I didn’t know what was right or wrong, and I couldn’t tell the difference between reality and illusion.
From this point of view, women’s brains are indeed not suitable for playing politics. I really hope someone can give me some advice...
Jiang Huai brushed aside his past playfulness and said to me with a serious expression: "My darling, the government has not been peaceful recently, and the people are also panic-stricken. At this time, there is no benefit at all for you to stay in the palace. On the contrary, it will affect the emperor."
decision."
I:"……"
Jiang Huai is rarely serious at ordinary times, but when he is serious, his words are as sharp as a sword, "A smart woman will never use her feelings to hinder Daqi Jiangshan——"
His words stopped abruptly in my displeased eyes.
I seem to understand what Jiang Huai means. The king of Daqi needs to marry the prime minister's daughter for political reasons, but he has not made a decision. It may be because of me.
My adoptive father, King Heshun, is loyal and honest. This image has long been ingrained in the hearts of the people. After so many years of getting along with him, he loves his family and treats animals well. I feel that he has no intention of becoming an emperor. However, King Hengyue, King Nanliang and others do not have soldiers.
They have thieves' hearts and courage, but they don't have the strength to match them.
So I always feel that something is not right. In this turmoil, who has the intention to rebel?
Suddenly, a pair of eyes appeared in my mind, slender eyes that contained no trace of human emotion. They stared at me as coldly as water. They were the eyes of the archer who shot me.
There is also a pair of Lianzheng, with single eyelids, who are calm at first, then gentle and affectionate, just like the uprightness of a tough guy suddenly turns into softness around his fingers.
These two pairs of eyes kept crossing each other, and they kept wandering in my mind. They were not alike, but their eye shapes were somewhat similar. They were similar, but the things in the eyes were obviously different.
Many people have said that people can disguise themselves and change their appearance, but only the eyes are difficult to change and conceal. Did I think too much about the connection between the archer assassin and the general?
I was so confused that I shook my head and said to Jiang Huai, "I don't want to worry about this anymore. I'm going back to Suiyuan Pavilion to practice embroidery. I'll leave first, and you'll come out later."
Just as he was about to leave, Jiang Huai reached out and grabbed my sleeves, then rested his sharp chin on my shoulder, just like a child pretending to be pitiful.
He spoke softly, as if he was cherishing some unique treasure, "Fu Xingan, let's go..."
Jiang Huai has lost weight. It was only now that I realized that he had really lost a lot of weight. His chin hurt me a little when he pressed it, and his whole body was crumbling, as if he was still holding on after a serious love affair.
"I'm sorry. I'm not a good person. I never have been. I'm not patriotic." I gently pushed Jiang Huai away with my hand. "...I only love him."
It means that I will try my best to hold on to the hopeless love between me and Fu Donglou until the moment I can no longer hold on.
Jiang Huai: "You have to take care..."
"The same to you."
Naturally, I didn't see the unconcealable disappointment in Jiang Huai's eyes the moment I turned around to leave.
…
What is love? Maybe people who are in love don’t know how to explain it clearly.
I only know that it is very broad, for the safety of the other person, and then suppressing the surging mentality in my heart for seven years, this is love.
It is also very specific, it is the scene where Fu Donglou went to worship his ancestors after he ascended the throne.
The boring sunshine shines on the boring crowd, and he is the only one sitting on the jade chariot looking down at all living beings with great posture. I look at him from a distance in the crowd, and his face is still beautiful and handsome, and no one can match him.
The sun was no longer boring in an instant, and it illuminated Fu Donglou's royal robe very dazzlingly. My heartbeat accelerated, and I couldn't calm down for a long time.
That year, he was twenty years old.
That year, I didn't even understand what love was. I just had a longing for Fu Donglou, who was so high above me and suddenly so far away from me.
A kind of panic of sudden loss.
Jiang Huai said that my mentality is hardened by repeated abuse, but I know that I have never regarded Fu Donglou as an uncle. I was dissatisfied before, but later I was unwilling.
I went back to Suiyuan Pavilion alone, but I was blocked by evil fate on the way.
A group of concubines and Shi Wenjin were chatting in the imperial garden. I originally wanted to take a detour, but Shi Wenjin had already seen me. It would not be my style to hide at this time.
Shi Wenjin stood up from the concubines, and the little bird walked over, "I wonder if Princess Xiyuan is free? Come and help Wenjin choose the pattern of the fabric. You also know that I want something more expensive, but Among them, there are some denominator-like gestures, but it’s hard to make a choice even though I’m spoiled for choice. Princess Xiyuan, please help me~” After saying that, he pouted his little mouth and pretended to be cute.
A woman with superb acting skills, even provocation is different from others...
I thought about this bad drama for a while, and then said to her angrily: "Mother Yi? Jin Gui? This princess can't help you. It might be more practical for you to swallow the gold."
After that, I prepared to go around her and continue walking.
"Stop!" Shi Wenjin was anxious.
I was already shoulder to shoulder with her, and then I stopped, turned my head and raised my eyebrows at her, "I am the princess, and what is your status? You call me 'stop' without etiquette. I am the princess." I can give you a slap anytime and thank you.”
Shi Wenjin laughed at the concubines, "Hey, sisters, listen, the emperor just used her as a hostage to contain King Heshun. What can she do to be arrogant? It's really strange."
My hands are itchy.
After saying that, she blinked at me again and said in a soft voice, "If I were you, I would be careful in the palace. It's best to hide in the corners. Anyway, don't wander around and cause trouble for everyone~"
I slapped him in the face, "No, what can you do to me?"
Shi Wenjin's voice was immediately full of tears, but the corner of her mouth turned evil at me, "You... actually... woo woo woo..."
The concubines all gathered around - "Fu Xingan, you have gone too far, how could you do anything?!"
"Yes! Do you have any education? How can you be a princess?"
"His father is so scheming, so naturally he can teach a child like her."
"Miss Wenjin, don't cry. The empresses of all the palaces have seen it and will report it truthfully to the emperor. The emperor will definitely make the decision for you!"
"That's right, don't bother with a barbarian like her, she's just a junior."