That late spring night, Hu Xiaowei, who had already fallen asleep, was surprised to find that her white silk pajamas were stained with a pool of bright red, and the unspeakable dull pain deep in her lower abdomen made her even more inexplicable.
She rushed into the bathroom desperately, sat on the toilet, and cried uncontrollably, wondering what to do. She felt that she must have suffered from some serious terminal illness, otherwise why would she have been bleeding and in pain...
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Is she about to die? Hu Xiaowei thought of her parents who were sleeping soundly at the moment, and her brother who had been protecting her like a baby. At such a young age, she felt unspeakable pain.
She is still so young, has not yet enjoyed so many beautiful things in this world, has not yet fallen in love, gotten married, and wants to have a bunch of cute children like her mother. How could she die like this! Dad, Mom, you must be
It would be so sad!
Hu Xiaowei sat on the toilet and worked hard for a whole hour. She thought that this was just a terrible nightmare. When she woke up, she was still a clean little girl, but the bright red blood in the toilet reminded her ruthlessly that this was not a dream.
, this is not a dream.
Hu Xiaowei walked back to her room tremblingly, holding her stomach and carefully finding the beautiful letter paper that she had treasured for a long time. With misty tears, she began to write her "will" sadly.
"Mom, Dad, and brother, when you read this letter, I may have left this world. I am very sad, and I believe you are also very sad now! It's okay, I just went to live in another place, where
It should be wonderful! I have a terminal illness, but I can't figure out why. I have never done anything bad, except for stealing love letters from my classmates. Mom, do you think I will go to heaven or hell? That's it.
Well, God shouldn’t let me go to hell, right! Mom, don’t be sad, my kitten will be raised by you from now on, just think of it as me always by your side. Dad, you should talk less
Mom talks back; brother, you have to study hard and make progress every day..."
The next day, Hu Xiaowei skipped her first class in her life and went to the snack street near the community. She ate a lot of food from roadside stalls that her mother would not allow her to eat. She even thought about doing her last for this society.
A good thing, go to the welfare home to help the old ladies wash their hair and cut their nails!
When I got home in the evening, no surprise, my parents were sitting on the sofa. They rushed over anxiously when she came home. Mother Hu turned her back and forth several times, and then let her go after finding no problem.
, asked with a dark face: "You skipped school today, what happened?"
Not to mention it was okay, Hu Xiaowei looked at her parents' faces and instantly shed a string of tears, crying loudly and uncontrollably.
Father Hu felt extremely distressed when he saw his daughter's sad look. He hurriedly grabbed his daughter and asked, "Xiaowei, what's wrong? What happened?"
Hu Xiaowei threw herself into her father's arms, buried her head in his warm chest, and burst into tears: "Dad, I'm going to die."
Father Hu pulled his daughter out, leaned down to look at her level, and looked at her with a pale face: "What are you talking about? What happened?"
"I lost a lot of blood and my stomach hurts. I'm afraid I have cancer and I won't live long." Hu Xiaowei's tears fell on the front of her pajamas.
Father Hu was startled, his pale complexion suddenly turned crimson. He turned away somewhat uncomfortably and motioned for his wife to come over quickly.
"Xiaowei," the soft smile on Father Hu's lips was like the reflection of the crescent moon reflected in the cloud pool outside the window: "You are not sick, you just grew up. Every girl will have such a day. From now on, you
You are no longer a child. Girls of hundreds of years ago were already preparing to leave the government at your age. This is a happy event. Dad congratulates you on growing up."
"Really?" Hu Xiaowei turned to her mother with eyes wide open and blurred with tears: "Am I not going to die?"
"Of course not." Hu's mother laughed: "Why are we, Xiaowei, so afraid of death?"
She shook her head: "I'm not afraid of death, because apart from peeking at my classmates' love letters, I haven't done any other bad things, so I should be able to go to heaven after I die. But if I die, I won't be able to see you. I...
...I really can’t bear to leave you." Hu Xiaowei still had tears on her face, looking pitiful.
"No, we, as a family, must always live together and never be separated!" Hu's mother picked up her daughter and took her to her bedroom. In this small room, she taught Hu Xiaowei how to become a big girl.
The first thing a girl should do is how to deal with various situations of her aunt...
Hu Xiaowei's consciousness gradually became clear. The dream just now was just the scene when she had her first period. At that time, she had just turned fourteen, and she was still a simple white girl. She was so unfamiliar with that kind of pain that she was scared. But now,
A similar but more severe pain rose in her abdomen again. But, mom and dad, where are you? Do you know that your daughter is very fragile now?
The cold woke her up completely, and Hu Xiaowei found herself lying on the white snow. The towering Longmen Snow Peak was still in front of her, standing majestically. Only then did Hu Xiaowei remember that she should have fallen from the rock wall and then passed out.
Here it is.
The snow beneath her body was gradually melted by Hu Xiaowei's body temperature, forming a small puddle. Hu Xiaowei's whole body was soaked and chilled to the bone. If she stayed in the water any longer, she would freeze to death.
Hu Xiaowei tried to support her body with her right hand, but a sharp pain in her ribs made her immediately let go and fell back into the water. Did she break her bones or internal organs? She had never experienced such pain, as if she was going to
Tearing her whole body apart.
At this time, Hu Xiaowei also felt a pain in her left hand. She raised the palm of her left hand to her eyes and saw that at the first joint at the top of her little finger, the little finger bone with the nail had been folded back into a terrifying obtuse angle.
This was probably broken when my hand was scratching on the rock surface just before falling.
Hu Xiaowei was feeling sad when a wave of heat slowly rose from between her legs. I turned my head and looked under me, and saw clusters of bright red slowly spreading with the snow, like a red flower blooming in the snow-white world.
The lotus flower is charming and eye-catching.
Child! It’s her child!
Hu Xiaowei could no longer feel all the pain in her body at this moment, because the pain of thousands of arrows piercing her heart was overwhelming.
The child, the child who made everyone ecstatic, who Gu Qing risked his life to save, and who was willing to risk her life to protect him, was ultimately unable to protect her.
Hu Xiaowei burst into tears. The shrill cries echoed in the lifeless valley.
She lost the child she loved more than her life. Hu Xiaowei didn't know what kind of sin she had committed, and God wanted to give her such a punishment? If she was really unforgivable, it would be better to take her life now, because of this
The living Hu Xiaowei could no longer bear the severe pain.
The icy snow peak still stood beside me, watching the tragedy it caused in cruel silence.
"Gu Qing..." Hu Xiaowei then remembered Gu Qing who climbed the snow peaks with her. Where was Gu Qing? Hu Xiaowei looked around, but couldn't find anyone. Could it be that Gu Qing had left? Hu Xiaowei thought about this possibility desperately, helplessly
She fell into a pool of blood. She was completely despairing. No matter what kind of blow it was, it was nothing to her now!
Anyway, the children are gone!
Hu Xiaowei just lay upright like this, feeling the blood slowly flowing out from under her body. That was her child, which was disappearing bit by bit.
"Wen Fan, our child is disappearing little by little. Can you tell me what should I do to keep him?"
If you stay here overnight, you will freeze to death, and if you return the same way, you will encounter Li Yuanba's pursuers. In any case, Hu Xiaowei will inevitably die today.
Then let her die and let her be with her child, so that he won't be too lonely.
Hu Xiaowei closed her eyes and let the cold snow water flow through her body, wishing for death.
In the cold numbness, Hu Xiaowei suddenly heard a crackling sound in the distance. It was a sound that could only be made when walking. Hu Xiaowei instantly became vigilant.
Could it be that Li Yuanba's pursuers have arrived? Hu Xiaowei moved her heavy body uneasily, no, she couldn't fall into the hands of a beast like Li Yuanba.
The sound gradually approached, and Hu Xiaowei opened her eyes in fear, staring at the figure that gradually became clearer in front of her. That person gradually approached...
"Xiaowei, where are you?"
It was Gu Qing's voice, and the big stone in Hu Xiaowei's heart fell to the ground. It was Gu Qing who was back, and he did not leave her alone!
"I'm here." Hu Xiaowei slowly crawled out from the leeward position, with a long line of blood trailing from her body.
Seeing this, Gu Qing hurriedly dropped the things in his hands, ran quickly to Hu Xiaowei, picked her up and said, "Xiaowei..."
A grown man, a man who had been through life and death several times, could no longer help crying at this moment, his voice trembling, full of pity and discomfort. He knew that Hu Xiaowei's child could not be saved!
Hu Xiaowei let Gu Qing hold her in his arms. At this moment, she was really, really tired. She was so tired that she didn't want to talk or think. She no longer cared about the relationship between men and women. How could a mother who had no children still have the time to pay attention to this?
Love, love, romance.
"Xiaowei, wait a minute, I'll light a fire to keep you warm right away." Gu Qing put Hu Xiaowei next to him, lit the elephant's fur on fire, and put a few thin-looking bones on top. After a while, the flames became weak.
They burned, taking with them the long-lost warmth, and became a bright sun in the vast white snow.
Hu Xiaowei snuggled into Gu Qing's arms, her body temperature gradually rising, but the blood stains under her body also deepened little by little, which looked shocking. Gu Qing would put his hands on the fire to warm them from time to time, and then press them tightly against Hu Xiaowei's.
She reluctantly held her stomach to relieve the pain.
Hu Xiaowei stared at the fire in front of her with dull eyes, without blinking. She looked like a tight porcelain doll, beautiful but without a soul. "Gu Qing, do you think I should still live?