Yun Buhui felt depressed and said coldly, "If you are afraid that I will offend people and make the scene ugly, I won't have to go to worship my ancestors later. You told my father that I am unwell and need to rest, and I won't go to dinner, so as not to offend people."
Happy."
"The more you talk, the more nonsense you get." Cheng Mubai said, leading her to the side and sitting down. Yun Buhui struggled awkwardly for a few times, and Cheng Mubai rushed into her. The New Year's Eve wind blew in coldly, and her cheeks were as white as lotus roots.
, her beautiful eyes shone with a cold and stubborn light. Cheng Mubai felt distressed and pitiful at the same time. He gently wrapped his hand around her and rubbed it gently. Her hands began to become cold in autumn, and even more frighteningly cold in winter.
Yun Buhui lowered her eyes and looked at his hands. The big hands covered the soft little hands. His palms were very warm, as if a ball of fire covered a ball of ice, seeming to soften the ice and snow in her heart.
Cheng Mubai sighed, helpless as the cold wind penetrated her ears. Yun Buhui was extremely ashamed. What was wrong with her? She vented her bad mood on him. When she was unhappy, she made others unhappy. Is she crazy?
"No regrets, I know you are in a bad mood, and I don't mean any harm. Don't misunderstand me, okay? If you are really unhappy and don't want to go out, I won't force you. I will tell my father later that you are not feeling well.
I will come back to accompany you after the ancestor worship, okay?"
His voice was gentle and pitiful, for fear of hurting her. Yun Buhui felt even more ashamed. The gentler he was, the more willful and arrogant he was. Yun Buhui blushed and wanted to apologize, but Cheng Mubai put his index finger across his face.
between her lips.
The wind and snow filled the sky outside, and the fragrance of plum blossoms came in through the window. Her world was filled with the cold fragrance of the air and his gentleness and tolerance, like a hot spring wrapping her cold body and covering her heart with a thick layer of ice.
Melting, Yun Buhui's nose felt sour and his eyes were red.
"Xiao Bai..." She bit her lip, her grievances getting thicker. Cheng Mubai patted her back gently. He knew her sadness, although she didn't mention it. From the time he met her to this day, he had never seen her so fragile.
In his eyes, Yun Buhui is proud, smart, calm, wise, and strong... and has never been associated with weakness. Only today did he know that his wife has deep sorrow in her heart, which he never knew
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She is like a plum blossom on a branch, blooming in the wind and snow, but never withering.
It was before, it is now, and it will be in the future.
He will slowly heal her wounds, let her trust him wholeheartedly, and completely surrender her body and mind to him.
Not everyone is qualified to get this exquisite heart with seven orifices, nor is it so easy to win.
"Don't be sad, okay?" He asked with a smile, gently stroking her face, "Your smile is beautiful, more beautiful than the plum blossoms blooming on the branches outside, so don't be so sullen."
Yun Buhui laughed, stretched out his arms to hug him, and rubbed his neck with his face, as if seeking the familiar warmth. A shallow coldness spread across his neck, and was covered by her breath. It felt very strange and throbbing.
Tears fell from her eyes drop by drop and fell on his mink cloak. Yun Buhui thought to himself, would her fear of New Year's Eve be reduced because of his company? He didn't know that she was used to rejection.
New Year's Eve, ignoring New Year's Eve, hating New Year's Eve... This day is her nightmare. Once her sadness is brought up, nightmares will haunt her every night. She is very afraid of this feeling.
No one to tell, no one to share, only one person to suffer, feel pain and miss.
Cheng Mubai asked, "Would you like to tell me what is going on?"
Yun Buhui's body was stiff, as if water was freezing. Cheng Mubai felt heartbroken and secretly annoyed that he was talking too much. He subconsciously changed his words, "It's because of my husband that I'm talking too much. I'll just leave it alone. Don't be afraid. I'm with you."
Cheng Mubai said firmly, "From now on, I will spend every New Year's Eve with you."
Yun Buhui nodded in his arms and hugged him tighter, not daring to let go, as if he would disappear as soon as she let go. Cheng Mubai hugged her, breathing lightly, and the indoor heater was filled with white smoke, as warm as spring.
The fragrance of cold plum blossoms and the warm fragrance in the room intertwined a sense of warmth, and she suddenly felt a sense of stability in this world and the tranquility of the years. The demon born on New Year's Eve slowly disappeared in her heart, and the irritability in Yun Buhui's heart gradually calmed down.
"New Year's Eve is the anniversary of my mother's death." Yun Buhui said with tears in his eyes. Cheng Mubai was shocked. Yun Buhui seemed to be trapped in memories, suffering endlessly. She smiled bitterly, "On New Year's Eve, my mother was dressed very beautifully.
, wearing the most beautiful wedding dress, I will always remember that she was so beautiful, just like the most beautiful peonies in Fengcheng. I asked her, mother, why she was dressed so beautifully, like a bride. Mother said, today is the New Year.
Ah, you have to dress beautifully during the Chinese New Year. She knelt down and said, "No regrets, you are so beautiful, as beautiful as my mother, but beauty is a bad thing. Mom hopes that you will be uglier and ugly, and maybe you can be happy." She said, "No regrets."
, you must not be like your mother, you must be happy. As long as you are happy, your father and mother will be happy. She said, "If you don't regret it, you must listen to your third aunt, grow up well, and marry into the prince's palace in the future."
I won't treat my daughter badly. She said, "No regrets, I'm sorry. Mom is too tired to watch you grow up. Mom is going to find your father. I was too young at the time and didn't understand why Mom said these things to me.
She kept smiling without crying. I thought my mother was very happy because she smiled so beautifully. Only unhappy people would cry. She asked me to go to the riverside to pick some plum blossoms for her. She said she wanted to see them. I just
I went out to pick plum blossoms, and when I came back, my mother was already dead..."
When Yun Buhui talked about these things, her head hurt. These dusty memories had been buried in her heart for too long. She never mentioned them. It was too painful for her, so she couldn't even think about them. Now if she repeats these things,
The past seemed to tear her apart, Yun Buhui trembled all over, Cheng Mubai hugged her tightly, regret asked her these things, what a blow it must have been for the young Buhui to witness his mother die in front of him.
"No regrets, don't talk about it, it's all over."
Yun Buhui shook his head, tears streaming down his face, "I can't get over it, I'll never get over it, I'll never get over this matter in my heart, do you think my mother committed suicide just because she missed my father? No, no, that's not the case, it's not
In this way. I am the only bloodline of the Yun family, my father is a warrior, and my mother knows that every time she goes to war, it is a torture. She is mentally prepared to accept that her father will never come back. She is because..."
She suddenly stopped speaking, and the courageous hatred and resentment in her eyes slowly hid, and she was pressed down hard by something. Pressed down, she slowly returned to calm... She laughed and held her fingers tightly.
His clothes, "I'm so tired, it's not New Year's Eve yet, I'm so tired..."
"I know, I know..." Cheng Mubai hugged her and patted her back gently. He couldn't do anything. She was right. There was no way to empathize with her. He couldn't feel the sadness and pain in her heart at the same time.
Despair. He just felt sorry for her, he felt sorry for her, but he couldn't feel her pain. She knew that Yun Buhui hadn't finished her words, and she was still hiding some things from him.
But it's not important, it's really not important. She is already willing to talk about old things with him, and is willing to share the saddest things in her life with him. He already feels very happy and satisfied, and there is nothing more he wants to know.
He even regretted asking this matter. Asking this matter seemed to cut the scar on her heart with blood again. It was very cruel. Cheng Mubai wiped away her tears and raised the corners of his lips slightly. This silly girl...
"Stop crying. If you're tired, let's rest for a while." Cheng Mubai said, carrying her to the inner room and putting her on the bed. Yun Buhui didn't want to sleep and only wanted to hold him. Cheng Mubai took off his shoes and socks.
Hold her and give her the deepest hug.
He knew why she was so worried these days. It turned out to be because of her mother's death.
She was already upset and didn't want to celebrate New Year's Eve, but everyone in the house told her that she was celebrating New Year's Eve and she had to buy New Year's goods and deal with every New Year's Eve matter. How could she not be upset?
As for the sacrifice, New Year's Eve was the anniversary of her mother's death. She was married and could not even offer her mother a bouquet of incense. She was short of gold, silver, paper and incense candles today. Someone said that it aroused her discomfort, and the pent-up anger burst out.
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Fortunately, she took her anger out on herself.
Since they got married, she has always smiled and never blushed with him. No matter how loving the couple is, they will quarrel, but Ke Yun Bu regrets never. No matter what happens, she can face it with a smile. He once thought
Yun Buhui is a person with no temper. She can calmly calculate everyone and always maintain such a confident smile.
He hopes that she will show some of her little temper, and he also hopes that she can have some shortcomings and temper that he can tolerate, so that he can feel that she is real. People are the most unruly and unscrupulous in front of the people closest to them. He wants to
Cry when you cry, laugh when you want, he wants to see Yun Buhui like this.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have vented my anger on you." Yun Buhui never concealed her mistakes. She knew what she did was wrong and lost her temper with Cheng Mubai for no reason, but Cheng Mubai didn't care at all.
"Silly girl, don't say sorry. I am your husband. If you are angry, if you don't take it out on me, who will you take it on? I am your dearest person, and you can show any side of yourself in front of me.
Do you know?" Cheng Mubai said, Yun Buhui pursed his lips, the person she is closest to? She has never had this concept. The people she is closest to in her heart are her third aunt, Lou Kaiyang, Yaoguang, Bingyue and others.
When Cheng Mubai talked about it, Yun Buhui suddenly realized that he was indeed the person she was closest to. Husband, husband, a husband is only a husband within one foot. He was not the person she was closest to, so who was the person she was closest to?
She smiled bitterly. Maybe she had realized it in her heart but never admitted it. Otherwise, how could she explain her loss of control today? She would never let her anger explode in front of strangers unless she was delirious.
Cheng Mubai, Xiaobai... my dearest person.
Well, the closest to him should be the closest to him. From now on, she will also be the person he is closest to.
"I feel much more comfortable." Yun Buhui said, "I won't embarrass you for a while."
"Just feel comfortable. If you feel unhappy in the future, tell me. Don't be alone."
"Am I happy just by telling you?"
"I won't hit back, I won't retaliate when I scold, you can vent whatever you want until you feel comfortable, how about that?" Cheng Mubai said with a smile, coaxing her gently, his little wife also needed someone to coax her.
"You have such a broken body and you can't fight back. I'm afraid my mother will skin me."
Cheng Mubai also smiled, playing with her fingers, and said, "No regrets, I'm very happy today. It's been a long time since we got married, and today is the happiest day."
Yun Bugui didn't understand, why was he happy? She scolded him to make him happy?
Cheng Mubai smiled and said, "I feel like you are one step closer to me. I know you like me and I can feel it, but I always feel like I can't get into your heart, not at all, as if there is something blocking me.
I can’t see your sincerity…”
"Xiao Bai..." Yun Buhui hurriedly wanted to explain. Cheng Mubai touched her lips to prevent her from explaining in a hurry. He said, "It's true. This feeling is actually terrible. I know you like me. I
But I can't feel your heart. It seems that liking is just a very superficial thing. You can see it but can't touch it. But today, I really feel it. You are willing to get angry in front of me and lose control in front of me.
, it makes me feel like I have touched your heart, do you understand this feeling?"
Yun Buhui didn't understand. She wanted to ask, "Why are you not like this in front of me? You are always so gentle and gentle. Can she say that she can't feel it?" But she didn't refute, because she could feel it.
His heart is always protective and doting, which cannot be faked.
She didn't understand why she felt like this to Cheng Mubai.
But forget it if you don't understand. Now that Cheng Mubai said that he felt it, it didn't seem to matter whether she understood or not. Maybe she was too defensive and gave him this feeling.
In the future, she will be better to him, no matter how nice it is...
Cheng Mubai hugged her with a smile, but neither of them could sleep, so he coaxed her to talk, told her what was in her heart, and coaxed her to chat. After a while, Jing Nan came back. Yun Buhui asked Lingxi to deliver the things to the ancestral hall.
After asking about the shortcomings, Lingxi came back and said it was enough, and Yun Buhui felt relieved.
The Lou family will also worship their ancestors today, and my mother will be satisfied if someone offers incense.
When the bowl was half full, Cheng Mubai and Yun Buhui went to the princess's room. Yuzhi and Yuwu had already arrived, and they went to the ancestral hall with them. People from Xiyuan, Nanyuan and Beiyuan arrived and stood outside the ancestral hall.
The prince led the crowd to worship. In front of the prince, behind him were Cheng Youtian, Cheng Mubai and Cheng Mudong. In the third row were the princess and several concubines, followed by Yun Buhui, Lou Yanran, Yu Zhi and others. This order stood in a very orderly manner.
law.
The ancestors of the palace are the royal family, and they are all direct relatives, including the late emperor and Concubine Hui, and then there are the ancestors of the royal family. When performing sacrifices, everyone is very respectful and polite, and is deeply afraid of desecrating the royal family.
Compared with ordinary sacrifices, they are even more cautious.
When kneeling down, the female family members are not qualified to kneel down. Only the princess, Cheng Youtian, Cheng Mubai and Cheng Mudong are eligible to kneel down. The female family members will follow them to burn incense. Cheng Youtian, Cheng Mubai and Cheng Mudong burn gold and silver paper together, and the female family members cannot touch them.
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The ceremony was held according to the palace ceremony and was very solemn.
Yun Buhui didn't quite understand this method, but he could follow the local customs. Each family's rituals were different. Girls here in Fengcheng could kneel down to worship their ancestors or burn paper for their ancestors. Royal customs might be different from ordinary people's.
For half an hour, no one spoke. Yuzhi was lively and did not dare to speak in the ancestral hall. The palace had rules and girls were not allowed to speak during sacrifices. Yun Buhui thought to himself, there are so many rules and they are complicated.
After the sacrifice, there is lemon water at the door to purify hands, and everyone purifies their hands in turn, and this is the end.
The prince took everyone to the hall to have a meal.
Cheng Mubai saw that Yun Buhui was calm and smiling along the way, and his worried heart was finally relieved. The princess had just asked Yun Buhui if he was in a bad mood recently. Cheng Mubai learned from Lingxi that Yun Buhui had almost offended him.
Mother, hurriedly explained to her. The princess knew that it was the anniversary of Lou Xiuyu's death, and she also understood Yun Buhui. In the afternoon, Yun Buhui was in a bad mood and almost contradicted her. She saw it, but she didn't blame Yun Buhui.
People always have emotions. When she has a temper, Yun Buhui tolerates it. When the younger generation has a temper, adults should be more tolerant.
Cheng Mubai was very happy to see everyone, he was the happiest.
During the meal, it was always lively. Cheng Youtian and Cheng Mudong drank the best, and they were happy today. They even offered several glasses of wine to the prince. Cheng Mubai couldn't drink, so he had tea with them instead. The whole family was in harmony, and Yun Buhui was in a good mood.
With a bit of lightness, it was a mistake for her to blindly hide in her own world in the past. In fact, if she walked out more, she could be infected with the atmosphere of the New Year and the joy of her family, and her grief would be relieved a lot.
At the very least, she can tell her mother that she lives a very happy life.
Yuzhi, Yurong, Yumei, and Yuwu are going to perform. The prince has given permission, and the princess and several concubines are also looking forward to it with great interest. The sisters have already rehearsed a dance together and plan to dance for the family on New Year's Eve.
Yuzhi and Yumei have the most melodious singing voices, Yuwu and Yurong dance outstandingly, Yuzhi and Yumei sing and dance together, Yuwu and Yurong lead the dance, the combination of singing and dancing makes them one of the most beautiful women, and their beauty is even more beautiful.
Everyone looked at it and clapped their hands to encourage him.
After a few sisters made a fuss, the banquet was about the same, so I went back to the garden to stay up late.
It is a custom to stay up late on New Year's Eve.
Yun Buhui has always stayed up late on New Year's Eve. In previous years, she would stay up late alone. This year, there was an extra person accompanying her, and her mood was different.
On New Year's Eve, it was snowing lightly, and the wind was not strong, making it even colder. Three heaters were set up in Haoyue House. Yun Buhui was afraid of the cold, so he wore a thick cloak on the heater and stayed up with Cheng Mubai.
Cheng Mubai said, "You go to sleep for a while. I'll call you when I wait."
Yun Buhui shook his head. Of course, he had to stay up all night, and sleeping would be insincere. But she was really sleepy, so she wanted to go for a walk. The plum blossoms in the yard were blooming beautifully. She wanted to go out to play in the snow and pick plums. Cheng Mubai didn't
Allowed. She was cold, so she wrapped herself in a cloak in the autumn, and her hands and feet were cold. This winter was even more unbearable. How could he allow her to suffer from the cold? The windows were closed tightly, so he was afraid of freezing her.
"Let's go out and play together for a while, just a stick of incense."
"No."
"The plum blossoms are blooming very beautifully." Yun Buhui said regretfully, "The plum blossoms on New Year's Eve..."
Cheng Mubai's heart moved, he kissed her forehead, smiled and said, "Wait a minute, I'm going out for a while, don't come out, you know?"
Before Yun Buhui could say anything, Cheng Mubai had already gone out. She couldn't help but think that she was just restricting others, and she didn't want to think about her own body, which was weaker than hers and not suitable for walking around.
Speaking of which, he hasn't coughed much recently?
Bingyue came in with a pot of tea, "Miss, you still have to stay up late, drink tea to warm your stomach, don't freeze."
"I know, I'm not that delicate."
Bingyue smiled and retreated. After a moment, Cheng Mubai opened the curtain and came in, holding a vase in his hand with a few plum blossoms in it. She was drinking tea and couldn't help being stunned. She saw Cheng Mubai wearing a white cloak and a face like a crown jade.
, with smiling eyebrows and pure and deep eyes, she seemed to be drunk in the abyss of his gaze. The red plums made his eyebrows even more beautiful, and the color seemed to bloom in his eyes, and she was already intoxicated.
She stared blankly as he walked over and placed the vase on the low table. The candlelight cast a warm outline on his face, and she was stunned for a moment.
"What are you looking at?" Cheng Mubai smiled.
"You're so good-looking." Yun Buhui couldn't even use beautiful words to describe him, so he said good-looking. This is the most basic sense of human beings. Cheng Mubai has been praised since he was a child, so he has long been accustomed to such compliments, but
Inevitably, her ears turned red, and she even more magically replied, "The lady is pretty, too."
Yun Buhui lowered his head shyly. Cheng Mubai suddenly felt that what he said was too insincere and too idiotic, but he just had to use it if he didn't regret it.
She stood up and brushed the fallen snow off his shoulders, "Why did you go out to cut plums?"
"Do you like it?" he asked, pointing to the winter plums on the table. Yun Buhui followed his gaze and saw that those winter plums were blooming very well. They were red with a hint of white and bloomed brilliantly. She couldn't help but nod.
Cheng Mubai pulled her to sit down, "Don't you like plum blossoms? It's too cold today, just sit here and enjoy the plum blossoms. Let's enjoy the plum blossoms together and watch the New Year together."
She wanted to say, these plum blossoms bloomed well and brilliantly outside. But then she thought about it, how could these plum blossoms be inferior to the plum blossoms outside? It was Ling Han who bloomed alone, and they were just as beautiful.
The most important thing is the person's intention.
Yun Buhui had an affectionate smile on his face and stretched out his hand, "Give me a red envelope for the new year."
"How old are you, and you still want red envelopes for the New Year?"
"Of course I do. You are so stingy. Someone gave me a big red envelope on New Year's Eve last year. They were strangers, but you, my husband, were reluctant to give it to me."