Xia Haitong's eyes showed a complicated look. She closed her eyes and recalled everything at that time, remembering the first words Ye Chengzhi said to her.
Do you know that I have waited so hard for you?
At this time, Ye Xueying asked her if the clothes she was wearing were bought by Ye Chengzhi. Xia Haitong nodded. Ye Xueying asked her if she knew why he bought these clothes for her.
Xia Haitong looked at Ye Xueying and said that it was because Chengzhi took her dress as a reference. But Ye Xueying shook her head and said that she had just ordered this outfit recently, and the first person to wear this outfit was not her, but
Gu Xiaotong.
Xia Haitong looked down at Gu Xiaotong in the photo. She looked at the shiny black hair. She seemed to know why Ye Chengzhi liked her hair. Even Ye Chengxuan thought her hair was more normal.
Scenes from the past flashed through Xia Haitong's mind. Things that she found incomprehensible before seemed to be understood now.
She seemed to understand why such an ordinary self made Ye Chengxuan so persistent, why he would do everything possible to make herself his tool, and why he was so confident that he could complete his mission.
She seemed to understand why Ye Chengzhi accepted her by his side, why he gave her the status of his girlfriend, and why he said those inexplicable words to her that night.
In the past, she only regarded all of this as a coincidence, because Ye Chengzhi was too nice and Ye Chengxuan was too evil. But now, she finally discovered that there are not so many accidents in this world, and perhaps the biggest accident is that she has long hair.
A face exactly like his first love.
But, so what? Maybe in the beginning he was only interested in her because of her appearance, but this is human nature. As long as he doesn't see herself this way in the future, it will be fine.
Xia Haitong kept telling herself in her heart that Ye Chengzhi would never regard herself as Gu Xiaotong's substitute. Even if Ye Xueying told her, think about why the second brother called you Xiaotong and why he would buy you the clothes Gu Xiaotong wore during his lifetime.
, why he brought her to live in the two's former love nest... No matter how Ye Xueying stated these facts and how she instilled these thoughts into her, she never thought that everything Ye Chengzhi had given her all this time was just because of her relationship with her.
Gu Xiaotong looks very similar.
She denied it all, denying it from the bottom of her heart.
But Ye Xueying did not give up. She told Xia Haitong that she told this fact because she did not want to see her continue to be deceived by Ye Chengzhi. She said that maybe this fact would be difficult for her to accept, but a person must face the facts. If Xia Haitong
If you don't believe her, you can ask Ye Chengzhi.
But the next moment, Ye Xueying said to her again, but Ye Chengzhi would probably not admit all this, or he would say that he did not regard her as a substitute, because in his eyes, he might have regarded you as Gu Xiaotong, so naturally
There is no such thing as a substitute.
Xia Haitong covered her ears and kept shaking her head. She didn't want to pay attention to Ye Xueying's words, but Ye Xueying's words were like an alarm bell, always reminding her that this is the truth, this is the truth!
Ye Xueying turned around and told Xia Haitong to think carefully about what she said. Ye Xueying also told her that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, and she should end the relationship quickly while the relationship is not yet deep.
The snow was falling heavier and heavier, and the overwhelming snow seemed to cover up Xia Haitong's body. She looked at Ye Xueying's back, thinking about what she said to herself.
She had been standing there and letting the wind and snow destroy her. She didn't dare to go back. She didn't want to face Ye Chengzhi.
She really wanted Ye Xueying to appear in front of her again and tell her that everything she did just now was just a joke for her.
But it's still a long time before April Fool's Day, so she can't possibly make such a joke, right?
Xia Haitong raised her head and looked at the increasingly dark sky. She really wanted to ask God, how long would he torture her before he would stop?
Xia Haitong took a breath. The warm white smoke gave her temporary warmth, but soon she felt even colder than before.
She thought, in fact, the matter was not that serious. Didn't she hurt Chengzhi many times? Didn't he forgive herself again and again? She couldn't be so stingy that she would sentence him to death for making one mistake. And he would because of Gu Xiaotong's
The reason is that you are interested in yourself. This is human nature. If you see a stranger who looks similar to someone you know, you will look at him more often, let alone your ex-girlfriend.
He called himself Xiaotong, possibly because of Miss Gu at first, but it is also possible that he thought it was more affectionate to call him this way, and the name Xiaotong made him feel young!
She smiled slightly, and then thought about it, even if all this is because of Miss Gu, what if it was all because of Miss Gu? On the other hand, doesn't this show that Chengzhi is extremely single-minded in his love? There is a person who is so single-minded.
An excellent man loves you deeply, so you should be happy, so why bother here?
She opened her eyes wide and rubbed her slightly red eyes. She also thought about the best tone to use when asking Chengzhi about this matter later. And he had hidden it from her for so long, should she give it to him?
Punishment?
Thinking of this, the curve of the corners of her mouth deepened, but she looked a little stiff.
Although I know that he didn't say it because he was afraid that he would have random thoughts and that he would be jealous, but even if he knew this, he must be punished severely, he must be punished severely!
Should he be punished by singing to himself, or should he be punished by giving him a massage?
No, this is not serious enough. I should be punished with a month of cooking or a month of housework.
But she knew that Ye Chengzhi would not regard these as punishment. He had always been willing to share these things for her, but she had never wanted him to do these things.
For some reason, something like tears suddenly appeared in Xia Haitong's eyes, but every time she wiped them away before they shed, and kept thinking about how to punish Ye Chengzhi.
After thinking for a long time, she realized that no matter what she asked Ye Chengzhi to do, he would not think of it as punishment, because he would do it for her willingly.
All along, as long as it was her wish, he would work hard to achieve it. All along, he would give her the most meticulous care. She has always been used to his kindness and his bad temper.
Xia Haitong couldn't think of any way to punish Ye Chengzhi, but she neither wanted to go home nor stop her brain from functioning. She just stood in the wind and snow, thinking non-stop.
But she only thinks about very trivial things, such as what to make for dinner today, what to buy tomorrow, etc.
Time passed little by little. At this time, the day had turned into night, and there were more and more tears in her eyes. However, she could no longer wipe away the tears in her eyes with her hands because her hands were already frozen.
My purple hands were frozen and I couldn't even lift them.
I don’t know how long it took, but she seemed to have had enough of herself like this. She shouted with all her strength: "That's enough! Xia Haitong, please stop crying! When did you become so weak and cry at every turn!!"
"
Xia Haitong bit her lips tightly. She hated herself more and more now. She hated her weakness and incompetence. She couldn't solve any problem except crying.
She hates that she can only watch her loved ones being hurt time and time again. She hates why she is not stronger. She even hates why she has this face, why she wants to be called Xia Haitong, why she came to this world.
!
Why are you so weak, why are you so useless, why can't you do things that others can easily do? Why on earth is this!
Is it because you are so useless that God destroys you like this? Is it because you don’t look like God, so you are in so many troubles?
Xia Haitong staggered and almost fell to the ground. Only then did she regain her composure and shook her head violently. How could she be thinking about these things?
She never believed in the word fate, she only believed in the principle that man can conquer nature.
Isn't this how I went through so many ups and downs in the past? And it's nothing now. Why do I start to think wildly and scare myself?
Pessimism is not her style, she is very optimistic and has always been optimistic!
Xia Haitong kept comforting himself in his heart and smiled again on his face.
But why are the tears still reluctant to leave her, lying in her eyes and trying their best to squeeze them out?
At this moment, a familiar voice interrupted Xia Haitong's thoughts. She quickly lowered her head and tried her best to lift her hand, but her hand was as if it was filled with lead and could not move at all!
"Xiaotong, what are you doing here!" Ye Chengzhi hurriedly took off his coat and put it on her, "You didn't say a word when you went out today, and you didn't answer the phone all day long. Do you know that I'm worried about you?"
Xia Haitong remained silent, and Ye Chengzhi added: "I don't mean to blame you, but I'm really worried about you. It's late winter and it's snowing again today. Even at noon, the indoor temperature is very low, let alone outside.
I said, what if you catch a cold? And you haven’t come back even after it gets dark. It’s very dangerous at night in the countryside. You..."
Before Ye Chengzhi could finish speaking, Xia Haitong interrupted: "The people in my hometown are very simple, so they are very safe even at night."
Xia Haitong's voice seemed a little cold, and Ye Chengzhi quickly explained: "Xiaotong, that's not what I meant, it's just..."
Xia Haitong interrupted Ye Chengzhi before he finished speaking: "I know you didn't mean that, and I didn't say anything to you. You don't have to be so nervous."
Ye Chengzhi looked at Xia Haitong's back in confusion. Suddenly he seemed to think of something and immediately turned her body around. He looked at her and asked urgently: "Why are you crying? What happened?!"
Xia Haitong turned away and said calmly: "I didn't cry, it was just sand in my eyes."
Ye Chengzhi frowned: "Xiaotong, why are you acting weird today? Why are you staying here alone? Why are you crying? Could it be..." Ye Chengzhi shook his head, "Anyway, tell me what happened.
Already?"
Xia Haitong turned her head and looked into his eyes, and asked seriously: "Do you really want to know?"
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