Destiny never allows us to speculate. Only by walking through it can we look back at the magnificent past...
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For any girl, going to the maternity center for a pregnancy test for the first time in her life is an extremely scary thing. It feels like she is being led to hell. Step by step, she is dragged, pulled, and covered all over her body.
They were all trembling with fear...
There was almost no need to check, Ling Xiaoxiao knew that she had it.
Now that I think about it, her menstrual period has been delayed for a long time. And recently, she has been unusually sleepy and nauseous. Although she has no experience, she is not completely ignorant of this kind of thing.
In an instant, her pupils seemed to no longer receive light, and her eyes were filled with darkness. Her soul seemed to have been pulled out of her body, and she was coldly observing herself in despair from a high place.
Panic, like an invisible net, tightly covering her, even her breathing was affected, Qianqian slowly, her face was as white as paper, if Liu Shaobai didn't hold her, she would definitely fall to the ground!
"Illegitimate child...illegitimate child...shameless...shameless...pregnant out of wedlock..." It seemed like countless people were scolding her. The voice was strange and familiar at the same time. Everything became so unreal.
These terrible thoughts gathered together and turned into a sharp sword that hurt people, piercing hard...
Penetrating deep into the skin, splitting flesh and blood...
On the one hand, she could feel the existence of reality... She still followed Liu Shaobai step by step towards that terrible place. But the sense of existence was quite thin, and time seemed to have stopped, and everything in front of her was freezing.
middle……
Her chest was so tight that she couldn't get enough air. The pain was like a wall of water covering the sky, and the impact made her dizzy...
On the other hand, I feel that all this is just an illusion that I am deceiving myself. The world is spinning, spinning crazily. My body has been abandoned by my soul, and I am just a living creature that can still react conditionedly.
Ling smiled and blinked, fragile...soulless, and was dragged to the obstetrics and gynecology department by Liu Shaobai.
Then came the cold, execution-like interrogation.
"How long has it been since your period?"
"When was the last time you had sex?"
"Have you ever been pregnant?"
"..."
Ling Xiaoxiao didn't know how to answer. He just looked at the other person in humiliation and wet his eyes. For pregnant and seemingly underage girls, there is no scarier monster than a cold and heartless obstetrician and gynecologist. They themselves clearly understand that
She is also a woman, but she can treat these vulnerable groups who have failed for different reasons in an almost humiliating way, showing her superiority.
The doctor prescribed a B-ultrasound for her!
He was pushed into another room as if he had lost his soul. Liu Shaobai stayed outside the door. There was only a middle-aged male doctor. His clothes were lifted up, and even his trousers were forced to open. His smooth white belly was soft and soft.
The luster... The doctor applied sticky lubricant on it, and then slowly moved the cold probe on the abdomen, moving...
Then, he ruthlessly pronounced: "Pregnant, seven weeks!"
Ling smiled and said nothing, packed up her clothes and walked out slowly...
Liu Shaobai leaned against the door and smoked... After looking at her, Ling Xiaoxiao did not have the courage to look at him, squatting on the ground, crying silently and painfully...
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After crying, life still has to be lived, and the things that should be faced are the same.
Liu Shaobai looked at the weak girl in front of him, and he fell into a kind of contradiction. If, if he could lend a helping hand to her as soon as possible, her life would not be so miserable.
However, he kept hesitating, and then missed the best opportunity!
He lowered his head and looked at her blankly, could such a small person really be pregnant with another little life? With this slender body, he is still a child! "If you want to keep this child..." He
Try to break this situation and find a rational solution.
Wiping away the tears, Ling stood up with a smile. This child, like herself, would be marked as an illegitimate child. Such a life would be really painful. It would be better not to be born at all.
She shook her head: "No, no, don't keep him!"
It was too late, and the decision was too sudden. Liu Shaobai hoped that she could go home and think about it overnight. The surgery was scheduled for tomorrow morning.
Then,
Liu Shaobai drove the car, and the two of them drove silently.
Ling Xiaoxiao had no place to go and could only go to Uncle Lin's temporary shelter.
The car stopped at the entrance of the alley. The two of them looked ahead quietly.
"What are you going to do?" Liu Shaobai turned his head and looked at this quiet girl. This was the first time he watched her bear such a huge and sudden blow. Therefore, the feeling in his heart was deeper than anyone else's.
It turns out that a young girl can be so self-controlled. What a painful experience it takes to be so restrained. People can’t help but want to reach out and help. They can’t stay out of it!
"I don't know!" Ling Xiaoxiao said lightly, and after a while, he added: "Is there any other way?" What ability does she have to raise a child alone to grow up? The reluctance at this time, in the future,
How painful it would be to hurt this child! Aren't she an example? When she heard Cui Weiping's words in the hospital, she really wished she had never been born! Being an illegitimate child is not an easy thing.
How can we let outsiders know how difficult and painful it has been all the way to adulthood? How can we bear to let innocent children go this way again!
She has no choice! She has no choice!
Liu Shaobai thought for a while and then said: "Do you want me to talk to him?" Although he was unwilling to do so, it was the best way. Li Liushang was not an irresponsible man, no matter what he thought of the woman
No matter what the child thinks, he will definitely not abandon his own flesh and blood. If there is a man to bear this pain, wouldn't it be better to smile at Ling?
Ling Xiao smiled and was surprised. She glanced at him as a conditioned response, shook her head vigorously... and said nothing. No, she had spent so much effort to get rid of the past, and she didn't want to get involved anymore.
The water in the Li family was very deep and muddy, and she didn't think she had such good water skills. Even though she was a maid and mistress, she was treated like this by Han Xiaochu. If she went back pregnant with her child, the life she would have to wait for her would never be the same.
It will be calm!
What's more, she is cautiously skeptical that Li Liushang can bring happiness to her and her children!
Liu Shaobai said: "I have a sister who is infertile! The family conditions are very good. I have always wanted to hold a child. If you are willing..."
Ling smiled and shook her head, she didn't want to. The future is so long and how many accidents will happen, who can say clearly. Besides, she whispered: "Life is so painful, what are you going to do?"
I was startled by the words I spoke. It turned out that what I said about bravely abandoning the past and looking towards the future was just lying to myself.
It turns out that without even realizing it, my heart has become gray!
I'm so tired! I'm so tired! I don't want to say anything, and I don't even want to make an extra expression.
Just listen to what others say. You must always make your own decisions about your own affairs! Ling Xiaoxiao doesn’t want to talk any more. Yangyang bids farewell to Liu Shaobai. He gets out of the car dejectedly. His back looks fragile and he may fall down at any time.
Feel.
What a pity that such a thin body and such a helpless situation still have such a proud temper!
Liu Shaobai gave a bitter laugh.
His conditions are so excellent that he has never lacked beautiful women. However, he is innocent and self-sufficient. He spends his years waiting for the most cherished woman in his life. When it comes to sexual relations, he is very mystical and almost
There is no past! His ideal girl is a virgin who is cleaner than clean. She is dressed in white and has long flowing hair. She sits barefoot by the water, lowering her eyes and waiting for his arrival.
He has always had contradictory and strange feelings towards this girl. Unfortunately, when he met her, it was already a step too late...
Then I kept restraining and hesitating... and the result was... a foreseeable miss!
The back figure disappeared into the dark alley around the corner. Ling Xiaoxiao walked all the way without looking back once.
Liu Shaobai felt a touch of reluctance in his heart.
In addition to contradictions, there are still contradictions!
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Wuhan University is sitting there, I think I came relatively early today.
Ling walked over with a smile, but didn't seem to see him.
Mother Lin glanced at her: "What's wrong, Xiaoxiao? You don't look good. Didn't you say you went on an outing with the teacher? Why are you so tired?"
Ling smiled and said softly. He stood there.
"Have you eaten yet?"
"Oh!" Ling Xiaoxiao had no appetite at all and was unable to explain.
"If you've eaten, go to the back and take a rest. Oh, by the way, your friend is waiting for you here." As soon as she saw Wuhan University, Mother Lin changed her mind.
Ling smiled and glanced at Wu Da. There was only deep pain in her eyes. No, she didn't want to talk to Wu Da now. Not at all.
She nodded slightly to Wu Da: "Sorry, Brother Wu, I feel a little uncomfortable today. I want to go in and rest for a while."
Wu Da nodded silently. Ling smiled and said to Lin's mother: "I'll go to sleep for a while, and then when I get up..."
"No, don't think you're here to help. We won't treat you as our biological parents. You are a few years younger than Xiao Linzi. It's so pitiful that you work so hard every day. You will do it by yourself every week from now on."
Just choose a night to rest."
Ling Xiaoxiao didn't know what to say. She might not be able to help for many days. She didn't know how long she would have to rest after the abortion operation. But she knew that she was not qualified to eat and live in other people's homes and take other people's things, and she had to wait for such a long time.
No matter how good Mother Lin is, she is not her biological mother and has no obligation to raise her!
Ling Xiaoxiao nodded almost sadly. He walked back to his room and didn't even look at Wuhan University again.
Wu Da's eyes stayed behind her for a long time. He didn't need intuition to know clearly that this girl was in big trouble!
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