I don’t know why, although this time and space are not right, Li Liushang suddenly has the desire to talk.
Maybe it was because he had been suppressing it for a long time, and he was insensitive at first, and could no longer feel the pain. He also felt that there was no need to complain. In addition, Ling Xiaoxiao had always been a child, and it was even more impossible for him to complain in front of her.
However, at this moment, he was lying in Ling Xiaoxiao's soft arms, and in his gentle breath, Li Liushang felt that something was resurrected in his heart.
"When I was young, I was very afraid that my mother would leave us." Li Liushang's voice was a bit mutated and hollow.
For a while, Ling Xiaoxiao didn't react at all. He was confiding in her.
"I stayed at home and never left. I thought that as long as I took good care of my mother, she would never leave." Li Liushang's voice was full of bitterness, and the memories of his childhood that he had deliberately forgotten came to his heart again.
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Ling Xiaoxiao's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she raised her fingers, imitating Li Liushang's gesture, and gently placed them on his head, once, and again, with great patience, as if she wanted to convey her tenderness to him from her fingertips.
"My mother is a real lady. She studies art and likes glass. She loves crystal clear and pure things. She and my father are married from aristocratic families. I think she probably doesn't love my father very much. So even if she gave birth to me,
She still has that cold feeling. She is naturally elegant, gentle, very gentle. Her voice is soft, her smile is faint, her fingers are soft, and her embrace is warm. But she just stands there.
By your side, holding you, you can clearly know that you can't enter her world, and she can't enter your world. Everyone is separated from her by a long distance." Li Liushang's voice
A trace of sadness slowly seeped into it, as if the whole person had been immersed in that unhappy child in childhood.
"My father is a child of an aristocratic family with a very gentle temper, but this kind of life is probably too depressing for him. He has tried various methods to get close to his mother, but in the end he has never succeeded. The two of them live farther and farther apart.
Probably he has despaired of this kind of life and this kind of love. One day, he will have a normal affair."
Ling Xiaoxiao held her breath, not daring to make any sound, not sympathetic or concerned. She was a little at a loss and didn't know how to treat Liliu Shang like this.
"I don't know exactly when it started, but I have always wanted to firmly protect the family that is no longer complete. My father has always hidden this matter very well. He was very afraid that his mother would know. As a result, one day, he
I drank too much and was helped back by the woman. I stood at the door and refused to let the woman in. I knew that as long as I tried hard, she wouldn't be able to get in." Li Liushang gritted his teeth, seeming to be fighting against his imaginary self.
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"As a result, my father knelt down, hugged me and cried... He was very sad. He is a kind man. He wanted a normal and gentle wife who did not need to be so excellent and elegant, but could make this family happy.
He was a bit popular. He begged me, so he knelt there, begged me, and told me that if he stayed with his mother, he would die." Li Liushang closed his eyes very tightly, and tried to hold himself together from the beginning to the end.
He spoke and kept his voice calm. However, he couldn't help but shut up and gasped heavily.
"I don't quite understand how to deal with these complicated relationships between adults, but I know that my father's words have their own truth. At that time, I quietly let go. I felt that I shouldn't stop him, and I shouldn't.
Do something that may be the right thing." Liliu was silent.
For a long time, Ling Xiaoxiao thought he would continue talking, but he remained silent.
After a long time, Ling Xiaoxiao gently stretched out his hand to touch Liu Shang's face and lips.
Liliu Zhang opened his mouth and sucked Ling Xiao's finger into his mouth. With an indescribable lingering feeling, he sucked slowly and bit lightly from time to time...
It seems that he doesn't want to continue talking. He only uses this method he likes to distract those...
Ling Xiaoxiao was always weak in front of Li Liushang, and she didn't know how to comfort him. She bent down, lowered her head, and gently pressed her lips against Li Liushang's lips.
Fingers slowly slid out, lips pressed against lips, tongues entwined, big hands eagerly caressed Ling Xiao's back, and soon took the initiative.
The two of them hugged each other sideways. Ling smiled and moved her lips away a little. There was something very, very gentle in her eyes. She said: "Everyone is helpless when they are faced with things that they have no way to solve when they were young. However, you have already
He has grown up and has become the most wonderful man in the world. I feel that I regret having a father like you. She is truly the happiest child in the world."
He stayed silent for a long time.
The kiss did not become fiery, but slowly became gentle. Li Liushang's hand caressed Ling Xiaoxiao's belly, where there was another cute little life.
Li Liushang said: "I always feel that if I had persisted a little longer, if...then, maybe my mother would not have left us, and my father, maybe would not have died. Everything is like the butterfly effect.
As I said, everything has changed."
Ling Xiaoxiao's resolute attitude when he left had more than once overlapped with the way his mother left in the nightmare, making him extremely uncomfortable.
I really want to hold the one I love tightly in my arms and let the helpless nightmares of my childhood go away.
"In that case, you won't know me." Ling Xiaoxiao said in a small voice, "And you won't regret it either."
I was speechless.
Yes, those things that he regretted as soon as he thought about them are now slowly becoming far away. He should cherish what he has in his hands and think about the irreparable past.
However, in my heart, the knot of losing my loved one is stuck there, ready to explode at any time.
He hugged her and said nothing.
Ling Xiaoxiao suddenly chuckled: "Look, I inexplicably abused you so much, and I haven't regretted it yet, but you still dare to regret it. Don't you think that nothing in your previous life can change at all?" Because as long as I don't regret it,
If it changes even a little bit, you won't be able to meet me.
I am someone else's, and you will also own someone else.
I don't know if that would be the same happiness.
Ling smiled and thought lightly.
Maybe.
She would not feel any regrets for not tasting the happiness she has now. An ordinary and gentle man has been her entire dream as a girl.
Li Liushang raised her face fiercely and said, "You can't think about other possibilities."
Even in his imagination, he didn't want Ling Xiaoxiao to have any other possibility of happiness.
Her happiness should only be related to him.
Ling smiled and said yes, his eyes were crooked and extremely obedient.
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Beauties, Happy Dragon Boat Festival!!! A group of relatives and a group of relatives embrace each other and suppress the group.