Night gradually fell, and Qi Ruosang and Song Ruqiao were waiting outside the ward.
Murong Lie was still kneeling at the head of the bed, his tall body full of despair.
How afraid he was that Ning Tong'er would never wake up again.
He would never see her again, never see her innocent smile again, never hear her call his name again.
If she is no longer here, the world will just lose a person named Ning Tong'er.
However, for him, it would dig his heart out alive and sink him into purgatory forever, never allowing him to have a happy day again.
"Don't die, Tong'er."
He held her soft and slender hand tightly, pressed his forehead against the back of her hand, and his voice was hoarse.
"Don't leave me, don't leave me, I won't allow you to die, I won't allow you to leave me."
"Even if you die, I will chase you to hell and bring you back."
"Don't die, do you hear me? I don't allow it."
His words were full of dominance, but there were faint tears in the corners of his eyes that were inconsistent with his dominance and strength.
"You are not allowed to die, did you hear that? Wake up, wake up, Tong'er..."
He didn't know how many times he had said these words, but he only knew that he would keep repeating them until the moment she woke up.
"I still remember the first time I met you. You were hit by my car and injured your leg while trying to save a child. At that time, I was deeply impressed by you because you gave me the same feeling as my mother when she was young.
However, I didn’t fall in love with you for this reason. The death of my mother is a regret that will never be erased from my heart. I will always miss her, but I don’t have an Oedipus complex that makes me think of you as her.”
"I like you, Ning Tong'er. This is the first time I tell you, I like you, little thing. I like you so much that even I don't know why. Do you know? From the first time I saw you
By the time you started, maybe even before the car hit your leg, I had already fallen in love with you. Something seemed to have destined me to meet you, and the first time I saw you,
I feel so familiar, as if I have known you for a long time and fallen in love with you for a long time. I am absolutely bound to you and cannot tolerate other men touching you. I only want you to belong to me."
"I don't know if there is really such a thing as destiny in the world, and I don't know if there is really such a thing as past lives. If there is really such a thing, I think, a long, long time ago, when my car hit you
Before that moment, I had already known you, fallen in love with you, and only loved you."
"I never told you that before I met you, I had another woman, because I thought you would dislike me like this. So I didn't tell you. In fact, it's not selfish, I don't want to lie to you, just because...
...I'm afraid that I, who was once anesthetized in my own life, will be looked down upon by you. Compared to the seemingly flawless Han Qingyi... This is the first time I have called this man's name, because I hate him, I hate him,
More importantly, I know that he holds such an important position in your heart, and also because, compared to the ridiculous me before, he is more qualified to say that he is suitable for you."
"It's ridiculous, isn't it? In fact, I am so unconfident in my heart. All the obstructions are actually because I am jealous of his relationship with your childhood sweetheart, and even more jealous of your unconditional trust in him. I am afraid of you, as long as I see you
When you see him, you will feel even more that he is better than me and more suitable for you than me. I am afraid that you will regret what you have said to me..."
"This is the first time I have said these words to you, and I will only say them to you this time. Because in the eyes of others, I am so strong and domineering that I will never be so unconfident. However, this is true.
.”
"I have never been unconfident in my life. I have been arrogant and self-centered all my life. I have never bothered to compare myself with others, nor do I think anyone can beat me. But this time, it is true... It's not because of anything else, just
Because of you."
Murong Lie held her soft and slightly cool fingers tightly and gently placed them on his forehead.
"Because of you, I am so unsure of myself for the first time in my life. I am... afraid of losing you, afraid that you think other men are better than me. Because I care about you, I am even more afraid of losing you. Because you are young, I am afraid of you.
You will not know what you really want, and you will be afraid that you will regret it."
"Those words you said to me, those words you said you also like me, you don't know how happy I am, but...I am worried that you say such things because you sympathize with me. I always thought that you
I don’t know what I’m talking about, maybe I just said those words in order to comfort me in that situation, or out of temporary sympathy.”
"I have been arrogant and domineering all my life, but only for you, little thing...Only for you, I worry about gains and losses, fear of losing you, and have no self-confidence...Because of this, I don't believe what you told me that you like me too, no
I believe you will come back to me. I'm afraid that after you leave, you will never come back again."
"So, I wanted to trap you and keep you." Murong Lie pressed his forehead against her hand, "I thought I could keep you, but I used the wrong method."
"I love you, but I love you in the wrong way. Jealousy, the anger of being deceived, and shame turned me into a devil. I did that to you, and I know you will never forgive me again..."
There seemed to be something wrapped around my heart.
Like a rope, it strangled the heart so hard that it hurt.
"No matter what I say now, I know it's too late. You must already hate me. I'm willing to accept all your punishments. You can punish me however you want, okay?"
Murong Lie raised his head, held her hand, and looked at her beautiful face as pale as snow with deep black eyes filled with deep heartache.
"Little thing, if you hit me, or scold me, or stab me in the chest with a knife, or use a gun... As long as you feel that you can relieve your hatred and forgive me in this way, I have no complaints. As long as you wake up... you can
?”
Words of heartache and remorse came out of his mouth, and he looked at her deeply, as if her appearance was engraved in his heart.
However, Yiren was motionless, even her breathing was so slight, and her breath was so shallow.
Murong Lie looked at her and felt that if he could wake her up now and get her smile back to him before, he would be willing to do whatever he wanted.
However, Yiren never woke up.
And, maybe I will never wake up again...
My heart is like a knife.
If he could only use four words to describe his current feelings and mood, it would be: heart-wrenching.
Repentance cannot bring her back, and begging for forgiveness will only remind him of everything he has done to her.
——On the white silk sheets, there is her bright red virgin blood.
Big flowers bloomed with blood roses of despair and pain.
Her slender body was shaking under his strong body, and she was sweating in pain.
She kept crying and crying, but he didn't let her go and kept asking for more from her.
For him, it was intense pleasure and punishment for her, but for her, it was the most painful torture.
Murong Lie closed his eyes and clenched his fingers so tightly that they turned white - he knew that his sin was unforgivable!
Love her, but hurt her.
He promised her a perfect wedding night, but ended up hurting her.
He tortured her, but in the end, it was he who felt extremely regretful.
Little thing...you must hate me so much that you don't want to see me again?
But I still want to marry you and hold a wedding with you in the church.
This kind of me must be deeply disgusting to you.
Even if there wasn't this big explosion, you would have to run away from me sooner or later, and the farther away you can, the better.
As soon as you get a chance, you will run away, far away from me, and never come back.
right?
If I hadn't forced you to flee, you wouldn't have escaped from me, nor would you have suffered this disaster and suffered this bullet wound.
Everything is my fault.
It's my fault.
My sin is unforgivable.
"I know that my sin is unforgivable," he said hoarsely, "I know that you will never forgive me again. But... little one, I don't want to let you go, and I can't let you go!"
"I can't lose you, and I can't let you die, do you hear me?"
Murong Lie looked at her pale face, his eyes gradually filled with despair and pain as fierce as fire: "If you die, no matter in heaven or hell, I will take you back, and I will never let you leave me.
Did you hear that?”
Murong Lie is still the domineering one...
This domineering personality is really engraved in my bones and there is no way to change it.
"Little thing, did you hear that? Don't die, don't die, I won't let you die!"
…
His long, slender hands still held her soft and slender catkins tightly, and pressed them against her forehead, with reluctance, heartache, and regret all surging in his heart.
His voice was choked, but his words were still so domineering.
"I thought... your confession was effective," a soft but weak voice sounded softly, as if in a dream. Murong Lie suddenly raised his head and was stunned! The voice continued softly, "But
Who knew... you would still be so domineering and unreasonable..."
The voice was weak and sweet, with a trace of unsteady breath revealed by exerting all one's strength: "I think what you said, let me punish you... I can't believe those words..."
Murong Lie was simply shocked!
He held a slender and beautiful girl tightly, opened her clear and pure eyes, her voice was weak, but there was a slight smile.
"What you said, if you let me hit you with a gun, I can hit you however I want... probably, it won't count?"
She said slowly.
Murong Lie was stunned for a moment, and suddenly tears flowed down.
He hugged her tightly.
"No, of course it counts! Of course it counts! I will let you shoot now. You can shoot wherever you like and as many times as you like. It's all up to you!"