Tong Xiaoye was so angry that she just slapped Xuan Jinmo in the face, but when her palm was about to hit Xuan Jinmo's face, she controlled her movements and anger.
"Xuan Jinmo, you are going too far!" Tong Xiaoye said angrily through gritted teeth.
Xuan Jinmo looked at Tong Xiaoye's angry expression and sighed, "I'm not running away from the marriage. There's still some time before we get married."
Tong Xiaoye really wanted to go up and clean up Xuan Jinmo. After a moment of hesitation, she remembered what the little boss said.
Out of anger, Tong Xiaoye walked to the window and opened all the curtains with a snap.
Xuan Jinmo subconsciously blocked the bright light with his hand, walked slowly back to the balcony, and sat down on the chair on the balcony again. Some wine from the wine glass in his hand splashed on his hand.
The balcony has good light, much brighter and warmer than the room.
"Why are you avoiding me?" Tong Xiaoye stared at Xuan Jinmo, suppressed the grievance in her heart, and asked seriously, "I said that we are free after marriage, but at least you should show up when you should show up, you
How should I explain to my parents that I suddenly disappeared without showing up?"
Xuan Jinmo breathed a sigh of relief and said slowly: "Sit down and have a glass of wine with me."
Tong Xiaoye sat down on the chair next to him. He could see his bedroom from here. He had always been at home. Although the lights were not turned on, he was always there, using this silent method to avoid being with him.
She suddenly felt a little boring. When she wanted to get married, she was in such a situation, pitifully begging the other party to be with her. Was it for love?
"Do you love me?" Xuan Jinmo suddenly asked quietly.
Tong Xiaoye was stunned and couldn't answer for a moment.
"She loves me." Xuan Jinmo gently shook the wine glass in his hand and watched the red wine in the glass sway gently. "She never hides her love for me, even at the expense of herself. She would rather forget than hate me.
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Tong Xiaoye bit her lip, "Do you still think about her?"
"Don't think about it, she has always been in my heart." Xuan Jinmo smiled bitterly, "Even if it is, even if it is another her, it cannot replace her. Even if, maybe, -" Xuan Jinmo turned his head and looked at Tong Xiaoye, "
Maybe you and her are the same person, or-"
"I am not a substitute for others." Tong Xiaoye almost shed tears. What does this mean? Doesn't she, Tong Xiaoye, dislike marriage the most? Wouldn't she rather be single than get married? Why should she be silent for Xuan Jin now?
I was sad to marry her willingly.
Xuan Jinmo looked at the grievance in Tong Xiaoye's eyes, and her heart softened. The eyes were very much like her previous life, showing stubbornness and confusion in the pure sadness, just like her shock and dissatisfaction when she faced the sharp sword on the bed when she was newlywed.
untie.
He raised his head and drank the wine in the glass, and said a little tiredly: "I will marry you, Xiaoye, I will not break the promise, I will marry you."
Tong Xiaoye burst into tears and was a little at a loss. What is this, what is it?! Why is he like this?! Why is he so reluctant?
"You don't have to be in such a embarrassment!" Tong Xiaoye stood up abruptly, "If it's in such embarrassment, I can cancel the engagement and explain to my parents that I suddenly don't want to get married!"
Xuan Jin was stunned for a moment, then blurted out: "That's not what I meant, I didn't mean to make things difficult -"
"Then what do you mean?" Tong Xiaoye stared at Xuan Jinmo, with hurt helplessness in her tone, "Tell me again and again that you can't let go of her in your heart. You try hard, but you can't like me. Like me."
Did I betray her and disappear before we got married? She was so reluctant to even accept what I said was that we just had a marriage. It’s not that I, Tong Xiaoye, can’t get married, you don’t have to be so miserable and embarrassed!
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Xuan Jinmo didn't know how to express the contradiction in his heart. It was not difficult to fall in love with Xiaoye again. He had always loved her. However, falling in love with Xiaoye who had no memory of him made him feel that he had always been facing...
A Xiaoye who is not Xiaoye, and a girl who looks very much like Xiaoye, exactly the same, except for the difference in memory.
However, falling in love with such a Xiaoye made him feel betrayed by Xiaoye in his heart, which made him conflicted and painful. Seeing the vivid Xiaoye in front of him reminded him of the lifeless Xiaoye in the ice coffin.
That face that was as vivid as life but would never smile at him again made him feel so painful and uncomfortable in his heart.
He is obviously the same person, and has a previous life and an afterlife, so why does he struggle so much in love? Every time we face each other, the scars in his heart will crack open and bleed!
"Xiaoye—" Xuan Jinmo lowered his head, and the wine glass in his hand broke into several pieces with a bang, and blood dripped down his fingertips and fell to the ground.
Tong Xiaoye wanted to turn around and leave, but found that her feet could not move at all. She stood helplessly, not knowing how to say the following words.
"Xiaoye, I'm sorry." Xuan Jinmo murmured, "I'm sorry!"
Tong Xiaoye bit her lip and her body shivered slightly, as if she was afraid of the cold.
"The wedding will be held." Xuan Jinmo looked up at Tong Xiaoye, seeing the helplessness, confusion, and deep grievance on her face, and his heart trembled, "I'm sorry for the hurt my disappearance has caused you."
Tong Xiaoye remained silent.
"I hope you are happy, really, I really hope you are happy and that you can live a healthy and happy life. This is my biggest wish when I come here." Xuan Jinmo didn't know how to express it. He really wanted this life.
Tong Xiaoye is happy, but, but,——
"Except for love, can you give me everything?" Tong Xiaoye stared at Xuan Jinmo and smiled bitterly, "Why do I feel that marrying me is also a betrayal of the love in your heart?"
Xuan Jin was stunned for a moment. Tong Xiaoye's words were the confusion in his heart. He didn't dare to face this idea. When he first came here, he knew that Tong Xiaoye was his Xiaoye, and his idea was that he would marry her and take her away.
She, but,——
"I said it right, didn't I?" Tong Xiaoye said coldly, "Xuan Jinmo, you are really too much! Why did you need to attract my attention in the first place and make me think of marrying you. Now you are doing it for the sake of your heart.
She made me face embarrassment and made it impossible for me to end it. I have a grudge against you, right?"
Tong Xiaoye didn't know what he was talking about at all, he only knew that he seemed to be talking.
Xuan Jinmo smiled bitterly, what's wrong with him, making the same person's next life painful for his previous life, because he couldn't let himself in the next life fall in love with the same person!
Just because he couldn't face a living Xiaoye and a dead Xiaoye existing in his life at the same time.