"I used to love someone very much..." Liusu lowered her head and her voice was so light that it seemed ethereal. This past event was Liusu's sweet and sad memory. She had always forgotten it in the deepest corner of her heart. She subconsciously forgot and abandoned it.
I want to put this past behind me.
She loved, hated, and finally chose to destroy everything. She never knew she had such a ruthless side in her character.
If possible, Liusu would like to never have to think about that past event for the rest of her life, and just disappear into the traces of time as time goes by. It would not be a bad thing. For her, the shackles in her heart would not be so heavy. So when she was reborn
, she will choose to forget.
But God allowed her to recover and let her face it, but she had no way to escape. Liusu once thought that if she was reborn with all her memories, then maybe Fang Liusu would be dead or crazy, and would no longer have the tenacity she has today.
That memory is many times more despairing and sad than happy. As long as you are an individual, you probably don't want to remember it. It is only natural for people to forget.
Fortunately, she met Nan Jin in this life, and he gave her enough love to tolerate everything, resentment, sadness, despair... These negative emotions were tolerated by his persistent love. If her rebirth was an accident, then her soul
Being able to be reborn, Nan Jin deserves the most credit.
The first time she met Feng Nanjin, it was like a beautiful peach blossom rain, her white clothes were as beautiful as snow, and her son was like jade, and he just quietly came into her heart.
We met again on the Marriage Bridge, where a thousand-mile marriage was tied by a thin thread. At that time, when she was standing on the Marriage Bridge, her heartbeat stalled when she saw him on the opposite side, and she began to realize that heartbeats were such a wonderful thing.
Love came so suddenly when there was no sound, and almost missed it when she was ignorant.
The third time we met, we got to know each other, we fell in love, we went through disasters, we almost lost our lives several times, we waited without regrets, we were determined to go to sea, we were determined to protect each other, all because we had love in our hearts.
She didn't know when she really fell in love with Feng Nanjin. When she realized that loving him had become an innate instinct in her life.
She once thought that she loved Nan Jin enough, as much as he gave her, but when she looked back, she realized that she was still far behind.
It was Nan Jin's love that soothed the wounds in her heart, slowly healed her wounds, and gave her enough courage to face that desperate past.
She had long wanted to confess her past to Nan Jin. Even if she didn't want to face it and didn't want to mention this past to others, she still had to make it clear to Nan Jin.
Because of this past incident, she had unintentionally hurt Nan Jin. Although it had been a long time, she still had a grudge in her heart. Nan Jin gave her time to sort it out and waited for her to open her heart with a tolerant heart. What she waited for was...
It was her hurt and forgetfulness that made Liusu's heart feel like a knife. She can never hurt her again, absolutely not...
When you love someone, you only want to think about his happiness and happiness. When you see him frowning, you feel sad. When you see him disappointed, you feel sad. When you see him alienated, you feel fear. Liusu has never seen these negative emotions in Nanjin's eyes.
He has always had the greatest tolerance and patience for her, and even if he did, he would not let her see her.
He must have hoped very much that she would open her heart and tell him everything in person, right? However, how many times had he been disappointed when he saw her escaping and seeing her sad?
Liusu didn't dare to think, what would she do if he gave up even once and stopped holding her hand? By then, she would still be the complete Fang Liusu, would she still laugh?
If love had limits, she really wanted to ask Nan Jin where his limits were?
"Is it Xiao Jue?" Nan Jin asked calmly, her heart tightened inexplicably and a little sour. Liusu said she loved someone very much in front of her, but this person was not him. This feeling was better than biting Qing Qing.
Astringent fruits are even more sour.
There are not many men in Liusu's life, so it is not difficult to guess that she has Xiao Jue in her heart. This is something he has known for a long, long time. And during the days when he took her to Beijing, he was even more sure that the woman he loved had in his heart.
It's not just him.
This used to make him very...angry!
Still can't forget it?
Liusu raised her eyes and shook her head gently. Her eyes were still a little red from crying just now, but there was a little smile. Seeing Nan Jin's surprised expression, her smile became even more obvious.
Has she ever loved anyone else?
"Who is it?" Nan Jin asked reflexively. He had always thought it was Xiao Jue... Wasn't that in vain...
"Nan Jin, do you believe in the theory of soul possession?" Liusu asked, watching his reaction carefully. In ancient times with closed minds, such incredible words would be considered insane, right?
Nan Jin was quiet for a moment, then frowned and asked, "You mean you are not the original Fang Liusu?"
Liusu secretly praised Nan Jin. He was indeed Nan Jin. He had a heart like a spirit fox and could tell everything. He believed everything he meant. Why wasn't there a trace of doubt? Nan Jin didn't believe there were ghosts in the world, so how could he easily believe her?
if?
"Don't you have any doubts?"
"Yes!" Nan Jin answered simply, with a very serious expression, and could even be said to be sitting upright, "I think you are the same person I know, right?"
Liusu smiled and wanted to reach out and rub his face. It was so cute to be so tense and serious. However, she did not dare to be too arrogant and nodded along with his wishes, "Of course, I am Fang Liusu's twelve years old."
When he was possessed by her, that is to say, the original Fang Liusu is dead, and the one who survives is the current me."
"Then, nothing matters anymore!" It seems that there is no need to ask who Liusu was and who she loved. Now she is Fang Liusu, and now she loves him, Feng Nanjin, and he also has
What's not satisfying?
This past incident is definitely not something to be happy about for Liusu. He has a thorough temper and understands everything at the first glance. Liusu's expression looks painful. In this case, why should he reveal the scars in her heart here?
, she was willing to tell him that having this intention was enough.
"No, I want to say it." Liusu said firmly, "This is the explanation I owe you, and it is also my farewell to the past. From now on, Fang Liusu will belong to Feng Nanjin's Fang Liusu until death."
The woman's firm words, soft face, and affectionate eyes were all like a tender net, surrounding him and making him moved. For her words, he would be willing to give everything in the world.
Liusu slowly told Nan Jin everything about Fang Yuanyuan and Xiao Jue's past lives, hiding nothing, her love, her hatred, her regrets, her stupidity, her ruthlessness, and everything else.
She has no regrets and tells Nan Jin everything.
After saying that, she smiled slightly. She once thought that when she told others about this past incident, it would be as painful as tearing out her heart. But now she only feels relaxed. No matter how sad the past is, it will slowly fade away with the passage of time.
, whether it’s love or hate, it’s all gone with the wind.
Because she has a more important love and someone she wants to cherish more than the love and hate deep in her heart. When she was Fang Yuanyuan, she once thought that she would never have anything like love again in her life.
Xiao Jue loves someone like that, but now she realizes that this kind of thinking is wrong. A life is so long, and until the end, no one knows whether she will meet someone who will make her love even more deeply, regardless of
Love everything.
There are still such people in the world, and she was lucky enough to meet them.
"It's over!" Nan Jin held her in his arms distressedly, his voice full of endless pity. He let go of all his concealment and avoidance of her in an instant. Such a small body has endured such strong love and hate. Listen to
It made him feel heartbroken. No one would tell anyone about such a tragic past. Nan Jin kissed her hair with pity and said firmly: "Su Su, I will use my best efforts in my life to love you."
, I will cherish you and never let you suffer such sadness again. I will cherish you and never regret it for the rest of my life."
Liusu smiled and nodded, "The greatest luck I have in this world is meeting you!"
Nan Jin smiled, this silly girl, how could he not be the same?
Liusu was quiet for a moment and asked Nanjin hesitantly, "Don't you ask about me and the current Xiao Jue?"
"What do you want to say?"
Liusu nodded. She wanted to confess everything and didn't want to hide anything. "They have exactly the same face and the same name. At first, empathy should have a greater effect. In the end, I think there is...
...I can’t explain clearly, it’s more than like, less than love, in such a hazy stage, if I hadn’t faked my death and left, and continued to stay in the palace as his princess, I think I would definitely fall in love with him, even if I didn’t
The influence of past lives can also be affected, but it is a pity that God did not give us this opportunity. I don’t want to live in such a restricted life. I received a monogamous education, and my subconscious cannot accept that a man has three wives and four concubines, so I took advantage of the situation and left. To be honest,
I feel very guilty for him. If it weren't for me, he might have been happy long ago, with a wife, concubines, and children of his own, and he wouldn't have wasted so many years. This is irreparable damage to me."
Nan Jin pulled her shoulder, the noble man's eyes were cold but firm, "There is no right or wrong in love, and there is no guilt. Whoever loves whom, who is willing to wait for whom, it is all one's own freedom and self-choice."
, where can we say guilt? It’s not that whoever pays more will get more. If love is equal from the beginning, how can there be so many crazy men and resentful women in the world?"
Liusu looked at him intently, as if he was bewitching him, and nodded obediently. Nanjin raised his eyebrows in confusion and asked: "Susu, where did you grow up? What is that place? Do you still want to go back?"
"
"I can't go back!" Liusu said sadly: "Whether I want to or not, I can't go back. My family, except for my third brother, are all gone. I know he will live a good life. After Xiao Jue and I died,
, It is not difficult for the third brother to take over Xiao Jue's business again. He has always been a smart and decisive man, and he will definitely live like a fish in water. I have nothing to worry about. That place has carried too many tears for me, and I never want to go back.
What's more... this place is already my root, with my lover, my woman, and my family. My wings carry so much love that I can no longer fly. I want to stay by your side forever."
Nan Jin stroked her long hair distressedly, feeling sorry for her past experiences. He thought that the life of Liusu he knew was already rough enough, but he didn't expect that the life of Liusu he didn't know would be even more difficult.
Fortunately, she did not feel depressed and he met her.
Nan Jin smiled, as if relieved, "Fortunately, I don't have the troubles you mentioned."
"What do you mean?" Liusu was confused. The topic changed so quickly that she didn't react.
"One husband, one wife, three wives and four concubines. You will be the only one in my life, and there will be no one else, so there is no need to worry about you abandoning me!" Nan Jin said in a relaxed and happy way. If she had to sacrifice Su Su for another woman,
If he lost it, he would be struck by lightning!
After hearing this, Liusu felt mixed feelings. Nanjin's words brought back the biggest regret in her heart, "Nanjin, I may not be able to..."
Liusu bit her lip and finally said, "I don't think I can have any more children, that..."
"So?" Before he could finish speaking, Nan Jin's voice suddenly became darker, as cold as winter, and his stern eyes narrowed, giving him a terrifying feeling that a storm was about to come.
Anyone would be frightened to be looked at by such a pair of sharp eyes. Liusu shook his head knowingly, "It doesn't matter!"
She paused and asked again: "Do you regret it?"
Nan Jin had a sullen face and asked instead, "Have you ever thought of letting me marry someone else?"
Liusu's heart was suffocated when she saw Nan Jin's face was so gloomy that it could drip with water. His cold eyes had no trace of warmth and were frighteningly cold. His eyes revealed anger without concealment, and it was a kind of calm anger.
Quiet, yet amazing.
Liusu shook her head hurriedly. She didn't dare to hit the gun at this moment. She knew that regardless of whether she could get pregnant and give birth to a child, Nan Jin would never marry again in this life. She thought about it, if Mrs. Feng wanted to keep a wife for the Feng family, she should
What should I do? Let Nan Jin marry someone else, not to mention that she is not willing, even Nan Jin is not willing.
It's just...it's so unfair and sad that they can't have their own children.
The doctor said that her chances of getting pregnant were extremely slim. This was usually a comforting statement. There was a high probability that her body would not be able to bear children again.
Nan Jin kept silent, which made her even more sure of this matter.
Nan Jin's expression softened a little, and he said calmly: "Su Su, remember, no matter whether I have children or not, you are my only woman. Why bother marrying a wife for the sake of children?"
Liusu nodded, a look of relief flashed through his lowered eyes, and he let nature take its course!
"If you have something to say, why don't you scare me with a straight face?" Liusu looked at him with a look of aggrieved wife being abused, and that look was as lovable as it was.
Nan Jin twitched the corners of his lips to decide whether to smile or not, "Do you think this is a trivial matter?"
Liusu was at a loss for words. She didn't have that idea. She smiled sweetly like a baby and said, "When it's time here, we'll go home. I miss my mother, and Aunt Zi Ling and the others. I haven't seen each other for a long time. I miss them so much."
Go home immediately."
Fengjiabao is her warmest harbor. She loves every plant and tree in Fengjia, and all her emotions are invested there!
