Zhou Fan was sitting in the pavilion in the backyard of the Prime Minister's Mansion. The sky in late autumn was clear and the wind was cool and refreshing. However, the young Prime Minister was sitting as if he was facing an enemy, as if he was thinking about the inexplicable life events.
Nearly ten days have passed since the confrontation with Xiaobai on the street that day.
Xiaoyu said that now he is like a young boy who has just started to fall in love.
Xiaoyu asked, have you ever thought that you like her?
He never thought that on the way to Chishan City, he couldn't help but kiss Xiaobai. Even now, he can still clearly smell the fragrance of her breath, feel the soft warmth on her lips, and can still clearly hear,
From the pounding sound of his heart, he knew very clearly that he had fallen in love with Xiao Bai.
He didn't know when this feeling started. By the time he realized it, he was already deep in the mud.
Maybe it was the moment when the little girl hugged his Xiaobai and looked at him innocently, or maybe it was the stubborn look on her face when she clearly couldn't bear to let her parents leave but still endured the sadness. Maybe it was the hot tears that he could not count.
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For so many years, he has been willing to be the prime minister, making suggestions for her and stabilizing the world for her. What is the purpose? If the queen of the daughter country is not Xiaobai, there will be no prime minister Zhou Fan in the court.
Before he realized that he liked Xiaobai, he had already done so much for her, but when his feelings became clearer and clearer, he became more and more resistant, resisting himself from getting closer, but he couldn't control it.
The two emotions were complicatedly intertwined in his heart, causing the usually calm man to lose his normalcy. Xiaobai was really his nemesis.
He likes to see Xiaobai laugh, and he also likes to see Xiaobai angry. The lively Xiaobai is brighter than the flowers in the garden. He always makes her angry, because if they don't use this method, besides the government affairs, there will be nothing between them.
What can be said?
Everyone knows that the Queen and the Prime Minister are at odds, but who knows why the Prime Minister is always at odds with the Queen.
If he was just a loyal prime minister, if he was not so greedy, then he would be willing to be a loyal minister who would work hard and die. However, he was greedy and had unwanted thoughts towards her.
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But there is such an unbridgeable gap between them.
Xiaobai is the queen. This status makes him long for it but at the same time hesitant. Xiaobai's attitude is always so unruly and unruly, always freezing his warm blood. He can't count how many times he has
I wanted to shout out what was in my heart, but her attitude, her eyes, and her indifference made my hands and feet cold.
Approach, repel...
Longing, alienation...
It's always this cycle, endless cycle...
The first time he saw Xiao Bai and Xu Mu Baiyan smiling at Yan Yan, he felt it was dazzling. It turned out that the little queen could also smile so happily and relaxed.
It's a pity that the man who made her laugh was not him!
He was very angry at the time, and later even he had to admit that this emotion was called jealousy!
A man of his age is already the father of several children in the daughter country. He has lived for twenty-three years and has grown so old. This is the first time he has fallen in love. When it comes to love, he has neglected to practice at all. He doesn't know anything.
, don’t know how to love others, can only love others in his own way.
He was too proud. He couldn't talk about love, let alone ask anyone, so he didn't know how to love. However, the object of his love was a girl who was more proud and awkward than him.
The two of them were always bumping into each other, and he was always running into walls. In the end, the unspeakable love was hidden deep in his heart. He clumsily didn't want to be discovered, and always used fierce words to hide those things that were not cherished by her and were not loved by her.
She cares about feelings of shame.
Just like this year after year...it seems to be getting farther and farther...
Zhou Fan knew that maybe he was going in the wrong direction and the way he loved people was wrong, but he was so proud that he couldn't let go of his self-esteem to ask people, and the person he loved wouldn't tell him, you are wrong, you are not doing this right.
So we make mistakes again and again, getting further and further away...
They were both too proud, so they ruined the relationship.
If during the process... she told him even once that he was wrong, then he would correct himself.
Unfortunately, none!
So it's getting cooler and cooler.
Zhou Fan thought that maybe he should give up, but he couldn't do it. He was not that cool and gave up when he said he wanted to give up. After all, this thought has been for too long, and it has become a habit for so long that he usually ignores it or doesn't pay attention.
Because it is as natural as air.
Can people still live without air?
Zhou Fan remembered that he accompanied Xiaobai out to watch the fireworks show during the Lantern Festival last year. She had a cold that time, and the imperial doctor said she should have a good rest, but she was interested and wanted to watch the fireworks show. After the palace banquet, he sneaked out with her, but he
I remember, looking up at the brilliant sky, when he opened his mouth to call her, the burst of fireworks had passed, and there was not even any residual warmth in the air...
Brilliance is so short-lived.
It was cold.
Sadly, they never flourished.
Maybe their ending is like this, they were destined a long time ago and can never be synchronized.
But Zhou Fan was too paranoid to say the word "give up". He promised his reason, but not his heart, and has been bumping into each other until today.
Xiaoyu said that day, love is not like this.
But she didn't tell him what it should look like, and he really didn't understand!
He really wanted to know, but was too proud to ask.
Xiaoyu held her favorite scented tea and looked at the lonely figure in the pavilion with a sigh. She liked someone to the point of losing both sides. It was not that she had never seen it before, but she had never seen someone so completely hurt like Zhou Fan.
At least others had said it out loud, and both of them knew it, but both of them, as an outsider, could see that Lang Youqingmei was interested, but the person involved knew nothing about it.
If you like someone, you shouldn't be so lonely!
Xiaoyu sat next to him with a cup of scented tea. The smell of vanilla was everywhere, and even the air was warm.
"Zhou Fan, why haven't I seen you sitting in the study recently? Why are you so absorbed in your thoughts?" Xiao Yu chuckled. In the past few days, he had been seen sitting in the garden every morning. If it was normal, he would have been immersed in official duties.
"Have a seat wherever you want!" Zhou Fan drank tea and responded lightly. The cold war between him and Xiaobai lasted longer than expected because the official business was almost taken care of by her. The girl was like that when she was angry and kept silent.
, worked hard, and all the civil and military officials were impressed, their master was really diligent.
"I have known you for eight years." Xiao Yu smiled gently, "If my guess is correct, that person is the current emperor, right?"
Zhou Fan nodded.
It is indeed her!
Then he will have to suffer. In the end, this matter is their problem, and it is not convenient for her to intervene. The taste of love is like drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or cold.
Who doesn't have bumps into each other, and is sad and despairing? It's all this way.
Especially for someone like him who fell in love for the first time, how could he understand the pain and sweetness of love if he listened to other people's guidance? He had to explore it on his own.
Zhou Fan collected his emotions and glanced at Xiao Yu, "Xiao Han is looking for you!"
"Let him go!" Xiao Yu said calmly, lowering his head to drink the scented tea. His voice had no ups and downs and was so light that no emotion could be heard.
The girl turned her head and looked at the falling sweet-scented osmanthus rain in the courtyard of the Prime Minister's Mansion. Her smile was very light, as if she was talking about something insignificant, "Don't tell him where I am, or I will go where you can't find me."
place."
Zhou Fan frowned in disapproval. They had been friends for many years. He knew Xiao Yu's temperament. Although she was gentle and gentle, she was hard-hearted and more ruthless than men. But this was not an option for her and Xiao Han, "You
I have been hiding from him for two years, and he has also been looking for you for two years. Xiaoyu, do you know how many liars came to your door and lied about the missing person notice after it was posted? That fool, no matter whether it is true or false, no matter how far away, he will do it in person every time.
Go and confirm, you are clearly right under his nose and you still hide in a place like that. Even if he makes a mistake, these two years are enough. Don't torment him and yourself."
Xiao Yu smiled and said, "What does that have to do with me? I made it clear two years ago. We have never been strangers. There is no point in getting entangled anymore. He can just do whatever he wants? Xiao Han, don't you understand?
? After a while, I will forget about it. Who can restrain him? Why should I ask for trouble? Besides, I am still his sister."
When Xiao Yu said the last word, even he smiled bitterly. Zhou Fan had nothing to say this time. Xiao Yu, whose real name is Xiao Yu, was the daughter of the third wife of Xiao Yang. She and Xiao Han were half-brothers and sisters, which made people sigh.
What's strange is that when they fell in love, they didn't even know they were related by blood, which led to a lot of right and wrong.
"Your mother has not confirmed that you are Xiao Han's daughter, maybe..."
"What does that have to do with it?" Xiao Yu said casually, "My mother is dead, and I have nothing to do with the Xiao family anymore. Zhou Fan, don't forget, if it wasn't for Xiao Han, my mother wouldn't have died so early. If I had known earlier,
It would kill my mother. I should not have agreed to accompany you to Qiu Shan in the first place. If not, I would not have met Xiao Han, and no one would have known. My mother escaped from Xiao's family, and I would not have harmed her.
Die to my mother."
"Xiao Han can't be blamed for this." Zhou Fan couldn't help but defend his friend.
Xiao Yu shook her head, "You also know that this is the excuse I made for myself. In fact, the biggest reason is not like this. If I really want to be with him, no matter if he is my brother or not, why did my mother die?
?I don’t even care, but Zhou Fan, I can’t forgive Xiao Han, not because of our blood relationship, not because of my mother’s death, but because he made me despair of love. That’s how I was. I loved him back then,
Whether he wants to break this heart or hold it, I have no regrets, but if he breaks it, then my love will expire and will be kept until I am sixteen years old. I will not give it up a second time.
Give this heart to a man who has broken it in a bad way. If he doesn't want it, I'll keep it for myself."
Xiaoyu said it calmly, as if everything had passed away.
Zhou Fan couldn't help but sigh for them. Xiao Han was his friend, and Xiao Yu was also his friend. If it hadn't been for him, Xiao Han and Xiao Yu wouldn't have known each other, wouldn't have fallen in love with each other, and Xiao Yang wouldn't have discovered Xiao Yu.
It turned out to be the daughter of the third wife who escaped. All these grudges and resentments were due to his unintentional mistakes.
He has always felt guilty about Xiao Yu. In fact, Xiao Han really loved her, so much that he could ignore that she was his biological sister. But for Xiao Yu, this love came too late!
"Xiaoyu, what do you want, I won't stop you, but Xiaohan really loves you, and you also know that his temper is like that, and he is not a good man at heart. If you want him to become a good man, you have to wait at least for a while.
Wait...give him some time, and everyone can see that he has changed a lot in the past two years."
Xiao Yu didn't say anything, just looking at the falling sweet-scented osmanthus rain, Zhou Fan sighed, "Perhaps watching you two go from falling in love to resenting each other, I am very repulsive to love, so I am so awkward, fearing that I will end up like you."
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Xiaoyu chuckled, "Don't make excuses for your awkwardness. Love has thousands of forms. She is not me, and you are not Xiaohan!"